"Octavia!" I hear someone shout as I finally try to get some sleep. I frown in confusion as the familiar voice continues to call her name. I sigh and push my hands on the floor, standing up. I walk outside and see Bellamy hastily checking every inch of the camp.
"You're up?" Bellamy asks me and I nod.
"Yeah. I'm just kind of worried about The Ark is all." I tell him and he turns to me.
"Raven's flares will work." Bellamy tells me reassuringly and I shrugged. I open my mouth but he interrupts me. "Have you seen Octavia?"
"No." I say in confusion. "She might be in that butterfly field she told me about."
"I've checked the whole came, she's not here." Bellamy says worriedly as Clarke walks towards us both.
"Hey what's wrong?" She asks as we turn towards her.
"Octavia is missing. She's not anywhere in the camp." I inform her and I give her a look, she nods.
"Ok. We'll help you find her." I speak for both of us and Clarke gives me a confused look.
"Let's check again. You go to the dropship. We'll check the rest of the tents." Clarke says as we begin to walk.
"Thank you." Bellamy thanks us both and I nod with a small smile at him.
"Don't thank me. I'm not doing this for you. I'm doing it for Octavia." Clarke tells him and I give her a look as she pulls me away.
"Clarke, don't be so rude. He made a mistake!" I defend him angrily and she turns towards me.
"Yeah a mistake that might cost hundreds of people their lives, Bree!" She spats at me.
"He is not the one who is doing the killing, all he did was ruin our chances of contacting The Ark. If you're gonna be mad at him, be mad at him for that." I tell her and she just looks at me and sighs.
"Can we talk about what happened, Bree?" Clarke asks me changing the topic.
"What's there to talk about? I'm a killer, just like you said. You probably will be one too. We need to survive down here, and what we do to live and who we are, are two different things." I tell her, and she nods at me.
"I just want to say I'm sorry." She apologizes and I sigh.
"It's okay." I say closing my eyes. "I don't blame you for freaking out."
"Thank you." She says and pulls me into a hug. I tense a little, not hugging back. She doesn't let go and I hesitantly wrap my arms back around her softly.
"Okay, let's get back to looking for Octavia." I tell her sternly as I pull back from the hug.
"Hey, everybody, gather around and grab a weapon." I hear Bellamy shout and the two of us turn towards him. We walk over and see people picking up weapons. "My sister's been out there alone for 12 hours."
"Arm up. We are not walking through these doors again without her." I tell them all sternly. Bellamy notices me and gives me a nod of appreciation.
"Hey, Jasper, you don't have to do this." I hear someone say and I look to see Clarke talking to Jasper. "You haven't left camp since we brought you back."
"Clarke, I need to do this." Jasper tells her and I nod in understanding.
"We need all the people we can get." Bellamy says and Clarke just sighs a bit. "We need a tracker."
"Finn." Bellamy calls to Finn who's in a tent with Raven.
"Get out here." A few moments later Finn walks out with shorter hair.
"Nice hair." I say with a smile as I walk up to him. I ruffle his hair a bit and he shoved me playfully. Clarke just stares at him before walking away.
"Go!" I whisper yell at him harshly and he nods before walking over to her. I see them talk and I walk to Bellamy who looks worried.
"Hey, it's gonna be okay." I tell him softly, gently placing my hand on his arm.
"Bree, she's the only family I have left." He says in a broken voice and I nod at him.
"I know. And we're gonna find her. I promise." I reassure him and he nods. He stares at me for a movement before cupping my cheeks and presses a longing kiss on my lips. I'm stunned for a moment before I kiss him back with just as much passion. We pull apart and I look at him in confusion.
"What was that for?"
"Think about it as a confidence booster." Bellamy says with a raspy voice. I smile at him and nod.
"It's gonna be okay." I tell him sternly.
"Guys, guys. Come here! Did you see that? Look up there." Someone exclaims and I look up at the sky. The flares didn't work. My hand covers my mouth in shock as I stumble back a bit.
"It's so beautiful." A girl says and my head snaps towards her. I scoff at her stupidness.
"How the hell is that beautiful? The damn flares didn't work." I exclaim shakily.
"A meteor shower tells you that?" Bellamy asks me and I look up at him.
"It's not a meteor shower, it's a funeral. They're dumping hundreds of body from The Ark." I inform him angrily.
"This is what it looks like from the other side. They didn't get our message." Clarke says sadly and I pull my lips in.
"This is all because of you!" Raven shouts as she lunges for Bellamy. I grab her waist, as does Clarke, holding her back.
"I helped you find the radio." Bellamy defends himself.
"Yeah, after you jacked it from my pod and trashed it!" Raven reminds him as we let her go, making sure she won't attack him.
"Yeah, he knows. Now has to live with it." Clarke says, glaring at Bellamy. I open my mouth to argue but I get interrupted.
"All I know is that my sister is out there and I'm gonna find her. You coming or what?" Bellamy asks and I nod, walking towards him.
"Yeah." Clarke says, still clearly angry.
"What are we waiting for? Move out!" Bellamy says and everyone begins to walk to the forest but I stop him, adding that Raven and Clarke weren't moving.
"We have to talk to them. The oxygen level will just keep dropping. And if we don't tell them that they can survive down here, they'll kill more people." Clarke says and I nod sadly at her.
"Guys we have to go before we get left behind." I tell the two of them.
"Can you stay and fix the radio?" Clarke asks Raven, ignoring me.
"The transmitter's smashed. Unless there's a parts depot down here, we're not talking to The Ark." Raven argues and realization comes across my mind.
"Art supply store." I tell Clarke and she turns her head, staring at me in confusion.
"Oh please, he tells me everything." I say smiling a bit. Finn just chuckles a bit at me shaking his head.
"The reason I tell you these things aren't so you can tell other people." Finn says with a smile tugging at his lips. Clarke turns back to Raven.
"I know a place you might be able to get a transmitter." She informs her.
"Great. It looks like you're coming with me instead." Raven says nodding a bit at her.
"Finn? We're not gonna find her without you." Bellamy admits to Finn who just nods.
"Be careful." Raven tells her boyfriend as he begins to walk away. She grabs his hand and pulls him back towards her. I know they're about to kiss so I take Bellamy's hand and walk away.
"You think we'll find her?" Bellamy asks me and I squeeze his hand comfortingly.
"I know we will." I say confidently.
We were walking through the woods, desperate to find anything. I haven't let go of Bellamy's hand yet. I had my bow and arrows on my back, ready for use. Someone called out to Bellamy and I nodded at him telling him to go. I stayed where I was in silence for a few moments before I see a girl walk over to me.
"Uh hi." I greet her, slightly confused on why a stranger was saying hi to me.
"I'm Roma." She introduces me and I nod.
"Bree." I say simply as I cross my arms over my chest.
"I know, I've heard a lot about you and Bellamy." She says smirking a bit as she shifts her weight, turning to Bellamy.
"From who?" I ask her indecorously and she shrugs.
"Doesn't matter. You are so lucky." Roma says shaking her head.
"I guess yeah." I say uncomfortably.
"I heard that he even stopped your panic attack by kissing you!" She exclaims and my eyes widen turning towards her. "That is so romantic."
"Romantic?" I scoff at her. "Do you even know what a panic attack is like?"
"Does it matter? He kissed you, Bree." Roma says and I gape at her.
"We've missed plenty of other times, what he did to stop my panic attack wasn't even a kiss really." I say pointing out the technicalities. "Wait who even told you? You weren't there."
"That Charlotte girl had quite a big mouth on her, she seemed so quiet but she could be a little chatter box." Roma says and I feel a slight pang at my heart.
"It's none of your business." I say angrily.
"Oh please, it's romantic. He saved you." Roma said with a smirk and I grew furious with her.
"Let me paint a picture for you. A panic attack is not romantic. Don't act like it is. Panic attacks feel like your lungs are collapsing and aren't there anymore. They don't work. You can't get oxygen to your lungs and you can't breathe. It feels like an elephant is sitting on your chest, crushing your lungs. You try to stop it but you're so worried that you can't stop to catch your breath. Thoughts occupy your mind, not letting you even think about breathing. Once you can't breathe anymore you get light headed. And I don't mean just dizzy, I mean sweating and almost passing out." I tell her angrily and she opens her mouth to speak but I raise my hand interrupting her.
"I am not finished yet. There aren't many ways to stop a panic attack. Sometimes I try counting but the most effective way for me seems to be holding my breath. Now if Bellamy stuffed his hand in my face I probably would've thought that he was trying to hurt me, and I would've panicked more. He kissed me so that my mind would get off all the fears in my mind and I would then think about the kiss. He helped me. He didn't kiss me romantically. He kissed me strategically. Don't romanticize a panic attack. Ever." I growl at her angrily before walking away. I walked back to Bellamy. We were near a hill and I saw someone leaning over it.
"Uhh! Uhh! Look! Over here!" A guy shouted and Bellamy's head snapped over at him, he walked us over.
"What is it?" Bellamy asked him with some hope in his voice.
"Right there." The guy pointed down the hill. I squinted my eyes, not seeing anything. "You see it? Is that Octavia's?"
"Rope." Bellamy demands and I frown in confusion, turning to him.
"What are you doing?" I ask him, Finn coming next to me.
"We need the rope to get back up." Bellamy explains and I nod a little. Finn gets out the rope and hands him one end of it. I hand a flashlight to him, he nods at me in thanks before he walks down the hill. He looks at the ground and picks something up, it's a piece of her clothing.
"It's hers." Bellamy confirms. "I'm going all the way down."
"Wait!" I called out to him. I grabbed the rope and began to walk down.
"Bree! What are you doing?" Finn asks me, lightly taking my arm into his hand.
"Octavia is like a sister to me." I say simply before walking down the rope. Once I'm down, something catches my eye. I bend down as the rest of the group follows down the rope. I look at the tracks, it's a shoe.
"Someone else was here." I tell them and Finn bends down next to me, his eyes following the tracks.
"The prints are deeper going that way. He was carrying her." Finn observes and Jasper's eyes light up.
"If they took her, she's alive. Like when they took me." Jasper says connecting the situations and I sigh, running a hand through my hair. I want to tell him that the situations are different, but I bite my tongue not wanting to destroy his hope.
We follow the tracks for a few miles. Bellamy made sure to keep my by either his or Finn's side the entire time we were there. Finn kept a strong hold on the tracks. We were lead to what seemed like an entrance to a Grounder camp. It had skulls everywhere.
"I don't speak Grounder But I'm pretty sure this means keep out." Finn say sarcastically and I give him a look. A lot of the delinquents begin to move out saying it was crazy to go in, that it was unsafe.
"Go back if you want. My sister, my responsibility." Bellamy says confidently as he walks through the entrance.
"I'd walk into hell to find her." Jasper says and I smile a bit at him before Finn speaks up.
"I think we just did." Finn says and I look down at my shoes stepping through the entrance.
We walked for another hour or so, following the tracks. Bellamy wouldn't let any of the other delinquents talk to me. Whenever they would come near me, he would just take my hand in his, pulling my closer to him. It was light out by this point, we could now see the colors of the green trees and flowers.
"I got nothing." I hear Finn say, pulling me out of my thoughts. I try to find something that could be a trail but there's nothing. "We lost the trail."
"Keep looking." Bellamy orders him sternly.
"Wandering around aimlessly isn't the way to find your sister." Finn says pointedly and before Bellamy can argue I interrupt him.
"Bell we could always go back a bit and-" I begin to say but this time he interrupts me.
"I'm not going back." Bellamy decides sternly.
"Hey, where's John?" I hear a girl say, I turn around and see Roma frantically looking around.
"I thought he was with you." I say in confusion, pointing to Roma.
"Spread out. He couldn't have gotten that far." Bellamy indirects everyone and just as we go to look I hear a thud behind me. I turn around and see John, lying dead. I gasp and my hand shoots to my mouth in shock.
"They use the trees." Bellamy confirms and I look up trying to spot a Grounder. I grab my bow, drawing an arrow on it. I hold it up pointing to a tree.
"We shouldn't have crossed the boundary." I hear someone say but I ignore them.
"It's the only way to find Octavia!" I remind everyone, not taking my eyes off the trees.
"Now can we go back?" Roma asks and I snap my head towards her, I let me bow hang at my side.
"Look if you want to go back then leave, but we are not leaving until Octavia is with us! So either leave or stop bitching!" I shout at her and she opens her mouth to say something but something catches my eye. A grounder.
"There." I say quietly, drawing my bow tightly once again.
"Another one." A guy points out, there were grounders surrounding us.
"We should run." Finn says and I look at him.
"We can take them!" I argue and Finn walks over to me and puts my arrow down.
"Bree, we have to run." He tells me sternly and I stare at him for a few moments before sighing. I nod and begin running. I hear footsteps behind me and I know people are following me.
I see one of the grounders running right at us. I stop in my tracks and hold my bow high in the air. I draw my arrow back aiming for the grounders chest. I let it rip through the air. I didn't want to kill him, so I made sure to aim correctly. The arrow goes deep into the grounders shoulder. He falls to the ground and groans.
"Bullseye." I say triumphantly, I smirk a bit before running off again. In every direction we go they continue to cut us off.
"What are we gonna do? They keep heading us off." Someone says behind me as we continue to run through the forest.
"Just keep running." Another person says.
"I can't run much longer!" I hear Jasper say and I slow down a bit, turning around.
"I'm not stopping for him!" A delinquent names Diggs exclaims as he keeps running.
"I'm sick of running anyway." Bellamy says and we all stop.
"Hey, what are you doing?" Finn asks Bellamy in confusion.
"They know where she is." Bellamy reminds him pointedly and I see Roma freaking out again. I roll my eyes at her.
"Diggs, where are you?" Roma shouts in the woods and my eyes widen.
"If all the grounders didn't know we were here, we can sure as hell thank you for that!" I shout at her and she ignores me.
"Roma!" Someone in the distance shouted. Roma immediately began running to Diggs.
"Wait! Roma." Bellamy says clearly in annoyance as we begin to run after her.
"There could be more." Finn shouts to her as we jump over branches on the ground.
"Wait a minute! They're drawing us here. It's the only way we can run, they're running us into a trap." I conclude and we all stop for a moment, realization coming across everyone. We turned in every direction, realizing the grounders were no where to be seen.
"Where'd they go?" Finn asks in confusion.
"After Roma." Bellamy says clenching his jaw before running after where Roma ran. We continued running through the woods trying to find her. We search until we see a person behind a tree.
"There she is." A girl in the group, Monroe, said standing right next to me.
"Roma!" She whisper-shouts to the girl. We get no response and I frown in confusion. She should be able to hear us. I walk forward and turn towards the tree. I gasp out in horror when I see a spear through her chest. I stumble back a bit from the dead corpse. Bellamy quickly rushed over to me and sees Roma's body.
"God is this like a game to them?" I ask him shaking my head.
"She only came because of me." Bellamy said absent-mindlessly, slowly raising a shaking hand up to her eyes and closing them.
"They can kill us whenever they want." Finn said from next to Jasper.
"Then they should get it over with! Come on! We know you're out there!" Jasper screams and Finn and I rush towards him.
"Jasper! I know you're terrified but shut up!" I exclaim quietly to him.
"Bellamy!" I hear someone shout and I turn around and see the grounders running towards us.
"Damnit!" I grunt and raise my bow up aiming it at the grounders ready to fight. The others make a circle back to back with me. A horn suddenly bellows and I turn my attention to the sound. I see the grounders retreating.
"What? Where the hell are they going?" I ask him letting out a shaky breath. The horn bellows again.
"That horn." Bellamy says knowingly and I share a look with him, knowing what he was thinking.
"What does it mean?"
"Acid fog." He informs everyone, the horn bellowing once more.
"We have to run." Monroe says panicking but I shook my head as Finn pulled his backpack in front of his body.
"There's no time." Finn says clearly worried. He pulls out a tarp out of his bag and he lays it on the ground.
We lay it out quickly and make sure there's nothing sticking out of the ground that could puncture it. Bellamy helped me lay down on it before getting next to me on my right. Finn was on the left side of me with Jasper and Monroe next to him. We tightly clutched the tarp so none of the fog could get in. We laid there for a few moments, my breathing was getting shallow and I closed my eyes trying not to panic. I can't have a panic attack, not now. Bellamy heard my breath becoming uneven and he grabs my hand in his. He soothingly rubs his finger across my hand and leans towards my ear.
"It's okay, you're okay." Bellamy whispers very quietly so only I could hear. I nod and I lean my head so that its resting on his shoulder. His presence brings my comfort and it calmed me down.
"How long are we supposed to wait? Will this even work?" Monroe says doubtfully.
"We'll find out." Finn says shifting a bit.
"No, we won't." Bellamy says and before I can stop him he lifts the tarp, there was nothing there. "There's no fog."
"Maybe it was a false alarm." Finn suggests as we stand up. I turn around and see a grounder running.
"Are they coming back?" I ask with raised eyebrows.
"I think he's alone." Bellamy observes as he watches the man.
"Now can we run"? Monroe asks desperately.
"He doesn't see us. I'm going after him." Bellamy says taking a step forward but Finn grabs his arm.
"And what? Kill him?" Finn asks him hastily.
"No. Catch him." Bellamy explains simply, taking his arm out of Finn's hold. "Make him tell me where Octavia is, then kill him."
"How do we know he's not leading us to another trap?" Jasper says as Bellamy walks forward and I catch up to him, walking by his side.
"We don't." Finn says to the scared boy. We quietly follow the grounder. I have my bow in my hand with an arrow drawn in case anything is to happen. We see the grounder lift something from the ground. I frown in confusion when I see him jump into the ground.
"We need to follow him." I tell them as we quickly get to the hole. Bellamy jumps down first with everyone following. I swallow a bit looking at the drop.
"It's okay princess, I'll catch you." Bellamy says and I almost smile at hearing the nickname again. I squat down and hesitantly jump through the hole. He catches my waist and gently brings me to the ground.
"Thanks." I say quietly and he nods a bit before I turn around to the rest of the group. I see how close the walls are together and I let out a shaky breath.
"Is it a bad time to mention I'm claustrophobic?" I ask rhetorically and the others chuckle while Bellamy just takes my hand in his comfortingly. We hear a grunt and a thud.
"Let's go!" Finn says before we all run down the cave. We hear clattering of some chains and follow the sound. Bellamy turns a corner and looks into one of the side caves.
"Bellamy?" I hear Octavia say and I feel relief rush over me.
"Octavia." Bellamy breathes out as he rushes towards his sister. He squats down next to her as the rest of us enter the cave. I see Octavia with chains on her wrists and the grounder we followed unconscious next to her.
"Get the key." She tells him and he bends down as grabs he key. He puffs on the lock slightly before putting the key in the slot.
"Monroe, watch the entrance." Bellamy orders Monroe and she quickly obeys going to the entrance. Bellamy gets the chains off Octavia's wrists and she quickly throws her arms around him.
"It's okay." Bellamy says hugging her tightly to his body as they stand up. "You're okay."
"How did you find me?" Octavia asks as they pull from the hug.
"Followed him." Jasper explains as Octavia rushes to his arms. They hug for a few moments as well. Something caught my eye on the grounder, a horn. I noticed Finn say it too because he kneeled down, as did I. I gently touched the horn, there were markings all over it.
"We should go. Now, before he wakes up." Octavia suggest breathlessly.
"He's not gonna wake up." Bellamy says grabbing a spear.
"Bellamy, stop. He didn't hurt me. Let's just go." Octavia begs her brother, tugging on his arm.
"They started this." Bellamy argues as he raises his weapon. "Finn, Bree. Move."
"Foghorn." I murmur and all of a sudden the grounder springs to life. He jumps up with a knife and I feel Finn shove me out of the way. I land with a grunt as I turn back to Finn. The grounder stabbed him. I gasp in shock as I run over to Finn. He was stabbed in the chest and I feel tears build up in my eyes.
"Oh my god, oh my god." I say shakily as I frantically move my hands, not knowing what to do. Octavia gets next to me and I look at her, she has no idea what to do either.
I see the grounder kick Bellamy's legs from out under him. He gets up and charges at the grounder, spear in hand. He pushes the long side of the spear at the ground, pushing him back. The grounder is able to get Bellamy on the floor with the spear directly at his neck. Bellamy has a tight grip on the spear, trying to push it away.
"Stop! That's my brother!" Octavia cries out from the grounder.
"No!" I exclaim as I stand up. I get my bow and draw an arrow. I immediately let it rip through the air. It hits him right in the leg which sends him to the ground. He grunts in pain and begins to get up. I hear a strong thud and the grounder falls back down but this time unconscious. I look up and see Jasper holding a stick in his hand. Bellamy breathes heavily in relief and gives Jasper a look of gratitude. I give my attention back to Finn who looks very pale.
"We need to take this out!" Jasper says gripping the knife.
"No! Don't do that, the knife is acting as a clot for the wound. We don't even know which angle it was sent in. Take it out and he either bleeds to death by the time we get back to camp, or we do more damage in his body." I say with tears streaming down my cheeks.
"We need to get him out of here carefully!" I order them and Jasper and Bellamy immediately go into action, carefully picking him up.
"Clarke!" Jasper shouts as we get back to the camp, he was helping Octavia walk as Bellamy and I held Finn. I was still crying but did my best to stay calm. "Where's Clarke? Get Clarke now."
"Hey. I'm here. What's up?" Clarke asks running over to them. Bellamy and I enter the camp with Finn limp in our arms.
"Finn. Finn? Oh, my God. Oh, oh, my God." Clarke says in shock as she runs over to us. She presses to fingers to his neck, checking his pulse.
"He's alive." Clarke tells everyone and I hastily wipe the tears off my cheek.
"Bree wouldn't let me take the knife out." Jasper informs her, seeming unhappy with my demand. I give him a look and he just shrugs innocently.
"No, that was a good call." Clarke says and she nods at me, I just pulls my lips in.
"Please save him." I say quietly to her, shaking my head in despair.
"I promise I'll do everything I can, okay?" She says to me and I nod frantically.
"Get him in the dropship now!" Clarke orders some of the delinquents. They carry him by his legs and arms to the drop shift.
"Clarke, can you save him?" Raven asks with an uneven voice as she runs next to us.
"No. Not me. I need my mother, I need to talk to her." Clarke explains not looking at us and my hand covers my mouth turning away slightly.
"There's still no radio." Raven reminds her with her hands moving hastily around her head.
"Raven, fix it! Go!" Clarke tells her sternly and Raven nods before running to the drop shift to make a radio. Clarke makes Octavia is alright before running into the drop shift, with me hot on her tail.
"Are you okay?" She asks me as we get inside.
"Physically or emotionally?" I ask her with no emotion in my voice.
"Both." She says in concern.
"Physically I'm fine, but I've never been so scared in my entire life. Clarke please, I'm begging you. He's my family, he saved me. I can't lose him. I'll break, please save him." I say brokenly and she just nods before running to his side. I hate feeling this way but Finn saved my life. I owe him everything.
I walk outside for a few moments to clear my mind and I see Octavia angrily walk away from Bellamy. I see him turn his head, he sees me and runs over to me. I give him a confused look before he wraps his arms around me. I don't question it as I bring my arms around his waist.
"Are you okay?" He asks me and I rest my head on his chest.
"Honestly? No, not at all. Damnit Bellamy, the knife was meant for me! He shoved me out of the way." I say feeling guilt all over me.
"Bree, this isn't your fault. You couldn't have known he was gonna do that." Bellamy says and I open my mouth to argue but he interrupts me.
"Don't blame yourself Bree, it'll tear you apart." He says simply and I nod a little, only half listening.
"Now get inside, there's a storm coming." Bellamy says as he gently leads my inside.
I go in the drop shift and see him leave, I almost go after him but I decide Finn needs me more. I grab a chair and sit down next to Finn. I clutch his hand gently in between both of mine and hold it up to my mouth.
"Dear God, please let him be okay." I say desperately as I let out a strangled sob.
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