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"One black coffee for me and one vanilla latte for the weirdo." Kevin said setting the latte in front of Brooke. Brooke glared at Kevin. Kevin sat down at the table across from her. "You got me up at the crack of dawn and now I'm here. What do you want?" Kevin said.
"I did not get you up at the crack of dawn. It's only eight." She said.
"Exactly the crack of dawn." Kevin repeated himself. Brooked rolled her eyes.
"Anyway I have the information for the extra credit." Kevin widened his eyes encouraging her to go on. "I spoke with the professor and he agreed to the extra credit. All we have to do is log the amount of hours we meet on a sheet of paper and turn it into him at the end of the semester. He then will evaluate our grades and judge if we actually did study together and what not. After that he will distribute the extra credit to laces in our grades that will benefit us the most." She said smiling showing her of pearly whit teeth and high cheekbones. Brooke continued to ramble on but Kevin's mind began to drift off in the distance.
I should have woke him up when I left this morning. He hasn't been sleeping lately so it would have been right for me to leave him asleep… Right…? What am I going to do? Is he okay? He says he is but I know he isn't. Kevin looked out the window and watched the birds fly in the sky. He doesn't teach today so it's good that he's asleep. It's still really early…
I don't know what to do…
"Kevin!" Brooke yelled. Kevin snapped his head back to Brooked.
"Yes?" He asked.
"Are you listening to me?" She asked.
"Of course I am."
"Then what was the last thing I said?" She asked.
"Something about extra credit. I'm listening… continue." He said waving his hand in the air. She shot daggers at him.
"Well there are many places on campus for us to…" I should call him. No I'll leave him asleep. I won't be able to see him until later because I have practice. Should I tell someone…? Kevin watched Brooke waver her hand back and forth in front of his face. "Kevin what is wrong with you?" She asked.
"Nothing." Kevin said focusing on her.
"You're lying to me. Come on I know you to well for you to be able to lie to me like that." She said placing her hand on top of his hand on the table.
"I just got a lot on my mind is all." He said.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Is it okay for me to discuss Eddward with anyone else? Kevin shook his head.
"No." He said pulling his hand away. "When do we need to meet for this thing?"
"Anytime I can text you times and places if you want me to." She offered.
"Yah do that." Kevin looked at his witch watch. "I got to go. I'll see you later okay." He said standing. Brooke stood also. She threw her books in her purse and placed it on her arm. She reached out and stroked Kevin's arm.
"Whatever's bothering you it will all be okay, okay?" She said. "I'm always here for you so don't hesitate to talk to me." She said. Kevin shook his head and gave her hug. She kissed Kevin on the cheek. "Don't worry so much big guy." Kevin smiled and walked away. Brooke watched Kevin walk out of the coffee shop.
Only if…
Eddward rolled over in the bed stretching his arm out looking for Kevin. Eddward rubbed his arm up and down the sheets coming up empty. Eddward poked his head out from under the covers and saw that Kevin's spot was empty. Kevin? Eddward looked at the clock on the nightstand. 10. Eddward rolled back over under the covers. I don't want to get up. Eddward lay under the covers listening to his breath and the hollow of the soft wind outside. He closed his eyes.
You lied to me.
Eddward opened his eyes and sat up in the bed holding his head in his hands. Every time I close my eyes I see you. Why? Please just leave me alone. Eddward steeped out of the bed and walked towards the kitchen.
"Kevin?" He called out. No answer. "Kevin?" he called out again. The only responses he received were the sounds of his footsteps on the floor and the creaking of the walls from the wind. Eddward poked his head into the kitchen and it was empty. He walked into the living room, empty, his office empty, bathroom, empty. Eddward stood in the middle of his room confused. Where is Kevin?
Eddward shook his head and prepared himself for the day. Quickly he put on some clothes, brushed his teeth and his hair, and made himself a cup of coffee.
Where did he go?
Did I chase him away…? Don't be stupid Eddward.
Eddward stood in the living room looking out of the window on the forest that surrounds the apartments. The storm from last night still lingered. It wasn't raining, only drizzling here and there, and the sky was still dull and cloudy. He would have left me a note. Did he? Eddward sat his coffee down and jogged to the bedroom. He ruffled through the comforter and looked under the bed. No note. Where is her? He doesn't have class until later, and then his schedule is chaotic from then. Where did he go?
Eddward stood up and walked back into the living room picking up his coffee. He sat on the couch and turned the T.V. on. Why do I even bother? Eddward grabbed the throw off of the back of the couch and wrapped himself up in the blanket. Eddward sat on the couch and mindlessly watch T.V.
I'm such a disappointment. I'm broken, exhausted, tired, and hopeless. Things will never change. I went to school, got an education, and have a wonderful job, but these thoughts. These thoughts won't go way.
Eddward closed his eyes and quickly opened them again.
Every time I close my eyes.
He rubbed his temples with his eyes. Should I call someone? Should I go back to the doctor? No it's to early. I'll be locked up in the loony bin and I can't afford that. What do I do? What do you do when you have a problem like this? Eddward looked at his laptop on the table and grabbed it. He quickly opened his Internet browser.
Traumatic event; night terrors; depressed.
Eddward typed in the Internet. Countless websites opened up explaining many mental disorders. Eddward quickly closed the computer screen and sat his laptop back on the table. I am not crazy…
"Knock Knock! I'm coming in! You better be dressed because I sure don't want to see that." A voice called out. Eddward turned his head towards the entryway to his apartment. Footsteps sounded across the entryway. Eddward's heart sped up. "Hello handsome." Emily stood in the hallway swinging a key around her finger. She smiled brightly at Eddward.
"How did you…?" Eddward trailed off.
"Get in? Easily I walked through the front door." Eddward's eyes widened. "No I have a key. After I cleaned you place I forgot I had the key so I came to return it and see my sexy genius." She said walking over to the couch and hovering over him. Emily eyed Eddward's certain condition and practically gaged. "Oh no honey we are not doing that." She said. Emily snatched the blanket off of Eddward and sat him up. She finger combed his hair and turned the T.V. off. "Get up." She commanded. Eddward looked up at her as if she lost her mind.
"Why?" He asked slumping back down on the couch.
"Because I said so and if you don't I'll put this shoe up your ass." She said. Emily reached out and grabbed Eddward by his hand and hauled him up. She wrapped her hands around his waist and gave him a tight hug. Eddward slowly hugged her back and buried his face in her neck. Emily leaned back and looked at him. "Eddward what's going on?" She asked. Eddward shook his head.
"I can't…" He trailed off.
"Talk to me Hun." She said.
"It's hard." He whispered. Emily looked Eddward in the eyes and saw the pain in his eyes. He was on the edge of crying. "Emily… I can't…" He said. Emily waved her hands in front of Eddward. She poked him the chest demanding his attention.
"I am not going to let you sit in this house like a depressed old grandpa. We're leaving." She said. Eddward shook his head no, but Emily grabbed him by the face. "I said we're leaving." Emily turned around and walked towards the door. "I better here you following me." She called over her shoulder. Eddward shook his head and grabbed his jacket and shoes and followed Emily out the door.
"Where are we going?" He asked.
"Anywhere but here." She said. "I drove here so we can go anyway you want." She said smiling at Eddward. The climbed down the stairs and got into Emily's car. "Where too?" She asked.
"Surprise me." Eddward said laying his head against the window. "Please drive with courtesy." He called out. Emily smiled devilishly as she sped away.
"A Spa?" Eddward asked unbelievably. Emily clapped her hands, diamonds sparkling in her eyes.
"Yes a spa. You need to clear your head." She clapped Eddward on the shoulders and pushed him through the doors. Emily and Eddward approached the first desk. "Hi, I have a reservation for two." She planned this! Eddward stared at her bugged eyed. The woman behind the counter confirmed the reservation and ushered them to follow her. She led them to a changing room.
"Men on the left. Women on the right." She said. "After you change your technician will be here waiting for you." She turned and walked away. Eddward turned to see Emily already disappearing into the female section of the changing room. Eddward walked into the male section and found a robe and slippers waiting for him. He picked up the slippers. Bunny ears… He chuckled to himself. Eddward quickly undressed and put the robe and slippers on. He grabbed his clothes and exited the changing to be greeted by Emily. Emily took his clothes and gave them to a woman.
"Can you put these with my clothes?" The woman nodded and took the clothes.
"Miss Emily?" A man said. Emily and Eddward turned and came face to face with a tall man. Eddward had to lean his neck back took him in the face. The man smiled and out stretched his hand towards Emily and Eddward. They both took turns shaking it. "Hi, I'm Jack and I'll be your technician."
"Yes you will be." Emily said. Eddward smiled.
"Please follow me." Eddward and Emily followed Jack towards a room. He opened the door for them and they walked in. "This is a sauna room. You'll be able to relax in here. I read what you requested. 'A day for relaxing.'" He quoted the request. "I hope this… no I know this will help." Emily and Eddward sat in benched in the room. Jack filled the fire with sauna rocks and set the temperature to the right temperature. "I will see you in a while." He exited the room and closed the door.
"Really a Spa Emily?" Eddward said leaning against the wall. Emily leaned her head against the wall.
"Yes a Spa." Emily said waving her hand in the air. "They are meant to make you relax, release all the tension in your body. You need that and you know it. So please relax." She said smiling at him. Eddward nodded his head and closed his eyes. The steam from the sauna rocks warmed the room and Eddward slowly felt his body relax. His breathing became even and his mind began to wonder.
You can't run forever.
"I can run faster than that you little pansies. Come on! My grandmother runs faster than that and she's in a wheelchair!" Coach yelled. "I swear don't you make me come out there!" He waved his clipboard in the air. The football team stood on the field running drills. "I swear to God Barr if you don't pull your head out of your ass!" he yelled.
Kevin stood in the middle of the field running the drills. The ball was tossed in the air and he went to catch it. Not paying attention Jackson clipped him in the left and tackled him to the ground.
"Run it again!"
They ran the play again. Kevin got tackled again.
"Again!"
He hit the ground.
"Pay attention!"
He got tackled again.
"Barr!"
He missed the catch.
Coach blew his whistle and practice was over. "Over here now!" he screamed at the team. The team took off their helmets and jogged over to Coach. "I'm not going to yell, but what the in the blue hell is going on?" He asked. The team stood around him in silence. "No one wants to answer, that's fine. Practice tomorrow at five a.m." The team groaned. "Now go hit the showers. Get out of my face." The team turned and walked away from the Coach. Some of the team members bumped into Kevin and mumbled under their breath. Kevin picked up his helmet off of the ground and turned to walk way. "Not so fast Barr." Coach said. Kevin turned.
"Yes Coach?" He asked.
"What's going on? This is the worst I've ever seen you play in your life." He said crossing his shoulders.
"It's nothing. I'm having an off day is all."
"Don't you lie to me boy." He said.
"It's complicated."
"I know complicated." Kevin took a deep breath in and looked Coach in the eyes.
"It's Eddward." He whispered. Coach coked his head and took a step forward.
"Is he okay?" He asked worried.
"No. He is far from okay and I don't know what to do." He said.
"Talk to me." He said.
"I don't know what to say." Kevin ran his hands through his hair. "One minutes he's perfectly fine and the next he's losing his mind. Sometimes I'm afraid that he's not him anymore… especially after last night..." He trailed off.
"Last night?" Coach asked. Kevin looked away.
"He freaked out last night." He said.
"What do you mean freak out?"
"Last night we were… you know… getting in the mood… and when I touched him he ran from me. His eyes. He was terrified… terrified of me. I tried to comfort him but he ran away. He left the apartment and everything." Kevin whispered. "When he came back he didn't want to talk about it. He just took a shower and went to bed." Kevin said.
"Did you tell anyone about this?" He asked.
"No. It's not my business to tell." Coach nodded his head.
"I understand." He patted Kevin on the shoulder. "The only thing you can do is be by his side and never leave him alone. He's been through a rough patch." Coach said.
"I know but what can I do for him. I don't know what to do. I don't think I'm equipped to handle a situation like this. It's like he's slowly slipping from my fingers. I'm holding onto him with both hands but it's like he's slipping from my grasp." Kevin admitted. "I don't know if I'm enough." He said.
"You are enough!" Coach hollered at him making him look up. "When the going gets tough, the tough get going." He said. "He'll come to you when time is right. Talk to him. Don't give up on him. He needs you more than ever."
"What if I can't give him what he needs?"
"Give him what you can." He said. Kevin shook his head. I don't know if I can do this.
"Yah…" Kevin said.
"So what are you going to do?" He asked.
"I'll figure it out… can you talk to him?" Kevin asked. Coach nodded his head. "Now go on home." He said. Kevin shook his head.
"I'm gonna stay here a while." Coach nodded his head. Kevin walked away towards the bleachers. He took his phone out of his gym bad and dialed Eddward's phone.
"Please leave a message…" Voicemail? Kevin hug up the phone and grabbed a pair of headphones from his bag. He plugged in his headphones and ran around the track. Coach leaned against the fence and watched him run.
This isn't good.
"Eddward!" Emily called. Eddward opened his eyes and looked across the room at Emily. "Did you hear me?" She asked.
"No I'm sorry." He said. Emily rolled her eyes.
"How are you feeling?" She asked. Eddward rolled his neck in circles and stretched his shoulders. Sweat poured down his neck. He wiped his hand across his forehead and watched gallons of water pour down his arm.
"Like a hot ocean." He said. Emily laughed at him. Eddward smiled. "I do feel a little better." He admitted. "However I still don't…" He tailed off.
"Don't what?" She encouraged.
"I don't know how to explain it Emily." He said. She eyed him.
"Start from the beginning." She said. Eddward fidgeted with the sleeve of his robe.
"I feel like my life is slipping from my hands. One minute I'm okay the next I'm not. I'm even lying to Kevin." He said.
"Lying?" She questioned.
"I've been going to a psychiatrists. He's supposed to be helping me. I've only had one session with him but I don't want Kevin to know." He whispered.
"You haven't told Kevin?"
"I don't want him to think I'm crazy…"
"He won-"
"Yes he will." Eddward interrupted. "You don't understand. No one understands. I love him. I love him so much, but when were alone. When I'm alone… it's not the same. I can barley stand to have him touch me. It's not fair for him. He has his own needs. He can't constantly baby me. I don't know. When ever I sleep I see these things, I hear these things, I don't feel the same way anymore and it's hurting me, and I know it's hurting him."
"What do you mean not feel the same way?" She asked.
"I love him…" Eddward said. "I just don't know if I can handle a relationship anymore…"
"Eddward don't tell me…"
"I'm not saying that." He said looking up. "I can't do that… I don't know what to do…"
"Don't give up." Emily crossed the sauna and sat next to Eddward holding his hands. "Everyone goes through a rough path in their life. You just hit yours early. You have so many people who are here willing to help you. None of us are going to give up on you. We love you too much to do that. You have to believe in yourself. You have to love yourself as much as we love you." She said. Eddward nodded his head in agreement.
"It's just so hard. I don't know what to do."
"We'll figure this out. You're not alone." Eddward hugged Emily. Kevin.
Eddward and Emily exited the sauna. The sky outside was still dull but it stopped drizzling. Emily rubbed her arm. "I feel like I lost ten pounds she joked." Eddward laughed. They climbed into the car and drove away. "Where to next?" She asked.
"I'm a little bit hungry." He admitted. "Lunch?" Emily turned her head and smiled at Eddward.
"You don't have to tell me twice. They drove alongside the rode eyeing restaurants debating which one is the best. They settled on a small restaurant that sat on the corner. Emily parked the car and they walked into the restaurant.
"Pick anywhere you'd like to sit." The hostess said. They picked a table that over looked the forest outside.
"I'm going to run to the bathroom." Emily said and walked off. Eddward pulled his phone out of his pocket and saw that he had one missed phone call from Kevin. Should I call him back…? Eddward ignored the notification and dialed another number.
"Hello, Dr. Pullman's office how can I help you?" A woman said.
"Hi, my name is Eddward Vincent and I'm a patient of Dr. Pullman I was wondering if he has any availability this week?" He said kindly into the phone.
"Hold on one minute. Is this an emergency?" She asked.
"I think it is." Eddward said. The woman hummed and Eddward heard her click away on a keyboard.
"I'm going to transfer you to Dr. Pullman okay?" She said.
"Thank you."
"Hello Eddward? This is Dr. Pullman." Dr. Pullman said into the phone.
"Hello Dr. Pullman." Eddward said.
"I didn't think I would be hearing from you so soon what seems to be the problem?" Eddward was quite on the other end of the line. Dr. Pullman hummed. "I understand. I'll transfer you back to Helen to up your appointment."
"Thank you Eddward whispered.
"Hello Mr. Vincent we have an opening for tomorrow at five, is that fine for you?" She asked.
"Yes that is fine." He said.
"Okay we will see you tonight." She said. The phone disconnected.
"Who was that?" Emily asked sitting down.
"No one." Eddward said. Emily nodded her head. "Do you know what you're getting?" Eddward asked.
"Everything." Emily nodded her head.
"I'll see you later." Emily said hugging Eddward in the car. "Call me okay." She poked him the chest. Eddward nodded his head and kissed her on the forehead. "Wait here." She reached in the pocket and pulled out the key. Eddward shook his head. He closed his hand around hers.
"No keep it." He said. Emily nodded her head and placed it back in her pocket. Eddward got out the car and waved as she drove away. He climbed the stairs and walked into his apartment. He walked into the kitchen and found Kevin standing at the counter. His hair was dripping and jogging pants hung low on his hips. He just got out the shower. Kevin turned around and smiled.
"Hey you." Kevin said. "Would you like a smoothie?" He asked.
"No thank you." Eddward said sitting on the end counter.
"Suit you're self." Kevin said pouring himself a cup of green gunk. He lifted the cup to his mouth and took a sip. Eddward's skin crawled. "Where have you been today?" He asked.
"I went out with Emily." He said.
"Really? That's good." Kevin smiled. Eddward nodded. Eddward picked a grape off of the bowel in the middle of the table and ate one. Kevin eyed him.
"Where were you this morning?" Eddward asked.
"I had a group meeting with a partner from my class. That extra credit thing remember?" Eddward racked his brank.
"That's right." He said. "How'd that go?"
"It went well." He said. Eddward smiled.
"Do you have plans for tomorrow evening?" Kevin asked.
"Yes I have some meetings tomorrow so I will be busy all day." He lied. Kevin nodded his head. Eddward reached across the table and grabbed Kevin's hand in his. Kevin tightened his hand around his and smiled.
I can't.
"Okay class that is all for today." Eddward said dismissing his students. Eddward turned and faced Elijah. "Did you grade those papers?" He asked.
"Yes Professor Vincent. I already entered them into grade book for you.
"Thank you Elijah." Eddward gathered a stack of assignments and placed them in his bag. "That's all for today Elijah you can go home early. I think that's all for today." Elijah nodded his head and headed back into the office. Elijah waved as he left the hall. Eddward stood and returned to his office. Eddward looked at his watch 4:30. I must leave if I want to make it on time. Eddward gathered his belongings and through on his jacket and scarf. Eddward locked his office and left the hall. At the end of the hallway Elijah stood watching Eddward. He twirled a key around his finger and smiled.
Eddward walked through the pure white doors into Dr. Pullman's office. Eddward took a deep breath in and approached the receptionist desk. "Hi I'm Eddward Vincent. I'm here to see Dr. Pullman." Eddward said speaking to the receptionist. She shook her head.
"I'll let him know you're here. Please have a seat." She said. Eddward sat down on the coach and waited for his name to be called. He fidgeted with his clothes, hat, and the magazines sitting on the desk.
I shouldn't be here.
Why did I lie?
What if I can't be fixed…?
"Mr. Vincent." Eddward looked up. "The doctor will see you now." She smiled kindly at him. Eddward stood up and dusted off his pants. He walked down the familiar hallway. He stopped in front of Dr. Pullman's door.
I should just go.
But I need this.
I need help.
I need him.
I need Kevin…
Eddward raised his hand to knock on the door.
What happens if I get worse…?
Dr. Pullman opened the door.
"Please come in Eddward." He said.