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Things are slowly getting better, who am I kidding, things are just the same. The only thing that I look forward to is writing…with Jasper. He doesn't seem to mind me hanging around; he looks like he actually enjoys my company. It was the next day and I was in my room, when Edward came in.

"You look tired," not that he could ever be physically tired.

"Very." He voice was straight forward and hard.

"So did you forget too?"

"About?" he said getting into the bed.

"July 31st? The Volturi's last visit."

"I didn't forget," he was calm.

"Then why would you offer going to the island?"

"I thought you wanted to go?" Is he serious?

"I did, I mean I do, but you know it takes a while to plan."

"Yes…do you want to go?" Ugh why is he doing this to me?

"We can't, why are you still offering it? You always remind me about this day and you didn't this year."

"You seem to be doing a lot on your own Bella." What's that supposed to mean?

"What do you mean?"

"Bella, please I don't feel like it tonight, I don't want to argue."

"Okay then we won't"

There was something off about him. I know Alice was his sister, but why was he letting it affect our relationship? I crawled towards him, making small circles on his blue button up.

"Renesmee is sleeping and since we'll be busy all this week and the next, we should take advantage of the time we have now."

"Bella,"

"What?" I looked into his eyes, tying my best to impersonate someone sexy. He didn't reply but instead pulled me to him, kissing my neck lightly.

"I'd feel guilty knowing what Alice and Jasper are going through," stop.

"Stop, I spoke to Jasper, he told me that there is nothing that they won't be able to work out." Well he didn't really say that but I really wanted this moment to happen.

"Really?

"Yes really, he wants us to live our life."

I kissed his lips, opening his lips with the force of his tongue. Instantly he was on top of me, tearing at my clothes. This sudden urgency was too rough, as my hands were pinned about my head. This wasn't Edward. He craned his head down to massage my neck with his mouth. Though it didn't hurt, it wasn't pleasant either. Edward was moving too fast, too jagged. He wasn't giving me any time to enjoy any of it. This Alice thing was affecting him more than I thought.

"Stop," he immediately released me, as if expecting it.

"What's wrong?" his voice was monotone.

"I just remembered, I promised Jasper I'd read his book." This was true, so it wasn't a complete lie. I released my hands.

"Another time then?" I nodded grabbing the book and escaping through the deck door.

I was greeted by a cool breeze, as I sat on the steps and started to read. The book was like a work of art, it was different from Jaspers writing now. It clearly had a southern twang. I had to find Jasper to tell him how much I adored his book. The tone was so captivating, Jasper deserved to be famous. I followed his scent back in to the clearing. It was still strange to be here. He was there in the middle, practicing some moves.

"Jasper!" he turned at the sound of my voice. I was so excited, I was sure that if I was alive at the time Jasper was human, we would've been best friends, maybe even…

"Finish?" I had to show him how much I wanted to be his friend, for some strange reason I wanted to hug him.

I stretched my arms encompassing him. It only took seconds before I felt his arms around me, he smelled like roasted almonds, it was comforting. I released him.

"Jasper, this maybe is the best book, I've ever read…in my life."

"Thank you."

"It's different from you work now, but very familiar, I feel so proud of you!"

"That's the best critique I've ever gotten."

"This, this book, your entire book collection, they need to be published. Doesn't matter if it's anonymous, people need to read your work Jasper."

"Published?"

"Yes, and if you don't I will. We can get a pen name, who knows maybe J Jinks can help."

"Good idea."

"Let's go now." I was so giddy, I wanted this for him.

"Now?"

"Why not?"

"Maybe in the afternoon, after Renesmee has eaten?"

"Okay, meet me at the cottage around 2:00pm, don't be late."

"We're vampires Bella, we're never late." I smiled and then took full speed back towards the cottage. Renesmee was helping herself to some blood in the fridge.

"Hey honey, how did you sleep?"

"Not so good, I feel like someone had dropped an anvil on my head." She rubbed her temples.

"Maybe if you didn't cry so much last night, you wouldn't feel so bad right now."

"I couldn't help myself mama, it's so sad, how can you even be happy right now?"

"Because Jasper and Alice are working out their differences, you don't have to be sad for them."

"Jasper and Alice?" Why was everyone saying that every time we talked about them?

"Yes, Jasper and Alice, who else?" She quickly gulped down the rest of her blood.

"No one," she flicked her eyes to the clock.

"So what are you up to?"

"Do you think you can drop me off at La Push?" Ever since Jacob became Alpha, he had changed the treaty; only the Cullens were allowed to pass through.

"Sure," I grabbed my car keys and started out the door. Once inside the care Renesmee turned towards me.

"I love you mama," he r sweet voice was so innocent, she was just seven, my sweet seven year old.

"I love you too, more than my own life." She rubbed the locket around her neck.

"Have fun with Jacob and be careful please"

"Okay,"

"Are you planning on sleeping over?"

"Yes, but at grandpas."

"Alright, tell him I said hi." She gave me a quick peck on the cheek before disappearing into Billy's house.

Renesmee's Pov

I walked into the familiar house, I'd been here countless of times, Jacob was staring at me. He always stared but it didn't bother me, he was my Jacob. It didn't take long for me to put the pieces together, Jacob had imprinted on me, and we were tied together forever. Mama explained to me after I told her about my discovery; I wasn't allowed to do anything with Jacob until I was 18, not that I want to, Jacob is just my friend.

"So what do you want to do Nessie?" his gruffly voice made me feel better.

"Talk," he looked confused, I guess it was because I always wanted to play… mud pies would have to wait until later.

"Sure Ness," he sat on the old beat up couch, I followed and sat beside him.

"I think… I think dad is having an affair," I waited for the shock on his face, but it never came.

"I know," what? I felt speechless.

"You know?"

"Well I had my suspicions; I just didn't say anything, poor Bells."

"How did you figure it out?"

"Well yesterday pretty much confirmed it; the house reeked of them…together."

"Yea, I smelled it too, but mama was so distracted she didn't even smell anything, or she did but thought it was something else."

"It's sick, his own sister,"

"They're not really brothers and sisters, remember?"

"But still," he clenched his fists.

"How could he do this to her, to me?" My voice started crack and Jacob pulled me close to him.

"How does Jasper even go through it? Does he even know?"

"Of course he knows Jacob, it's written all over his face,"

"No offense Nessie, but your mom is slow," he was right, why couldn't mama see the signs?

"I need to tell her," I jumped up only to be pulled back down by Jacob's strong arm.

"No Nessie, you can't do that,"

"Why not Jake?"

"It's not our secret to tell, Edward has to do it himself."

"And what if he doesn't? What if he never tells?"

"I know it sounds bad but he have to Ness."

That's when I started to cry, I hated the thought of mama suffering, but I was angry too, I started to punch Jacob's chest. He didn't move instead he rubbed my back, offering hushed sorry's. My own father, Edward, was cheating on mama…with Alice. I looked up to her. After Rosalie, Alice was who I wanted to be like when I got older. She had a great fashion sense and she never let anyone down…until now. I hated her with all the burning in my heart. I wanted her to feel all my pain; I wanted them both to suffer. I suddenly didn't want to be in this body, he was a part of it. My cheating father was a part of me, did this meant that if Jacob and I ever got married I'd do the same to him? I placed a hand on his cheek to let him know my thoughts.

"You're nothing like him Nessie."

"Are you sure?" I sniffled.

"I see more of Bella in you than that leech." Usually I would hit him when he said such things but today I didn't. For now I would keep this secret but I promised myself that if Edward didn't tell mama the truth by the 31st, I'd do something drastic…join the Volturi.

Bella's Pov

After dropping off Renesmee I drove around aimlessly. I was now 2:00 and I was waiting at the cottage for Jasper. He knocked on the door and I let him in. He was wearing a tight grey and purple argyle sweater and black pants.

"Ready?"

"Yes, I'm so excited!" He laughed.

"Me too." We drove to the familiar building J Jinks owned. We had never been here together. After the Volturi came those many years ago, I had made myself the permanent liaison for meetings.

"Ah Bella, so nice to see…looking um very youthful." I smiled, he was very old now.

"Nice to see you too."

"And Mr. Cullen, you look well," I could feel his heart speed up. After all these years, he was still scared of Jasper, this revelation made me laugh.

"Thank you."

"So what can I do for you today?"

"We need to get something published, can you do that?"

"Would you be using your real name? Or penname?" I turned to Jasper.

"Penname."

"Okay, any ideas? Or would you like for me to just make one up?"

"No," interjected. "We'll think of one." He nodded and waited. I whispered to Jasper in a voice only he could hear. "Any ideas?"

"I don't want it to be too far from my name, but not too close either," I thought for a quick second.

"Do you have a middle name?"

"Yes, it's Blake," it was so weird to hear it, I like Jasper better.

"Okay well how about Blake Whitlock?" his eyes lit up, he like it.

"That sounds great," I turned to J.

"Blake Whitlock." He nodded and scribbled down some words.

"Do you have what you want to be published?" Jasper and I had decided to only publish his first book to see the public's reaction. Jasper had typed it.

"Yes." I handed him the typed book that Jasper had titled Resurfacing. J examined it once and nodded.

"Fill this form out," he handed two papers to Jasper. Jasper pulled out his gold pen and started to fill them out.

"How long will it take, I mean until the book is in the book store?"

"Unfortunately Bella, a while. I haven't used J Jinks press in years, it's going to take time to purchase ink, paper and hire workers."

"We'd pay extra" he sighed.

"It's not about the money; it's just going to take time." I really had hoped to see it in a book store by next week. I had been doing that lately; having unrealistic expectations.

"Okay I understand, so how much will this all cost anyway?" Money wasn't a problem; I had stuffed enough in my bad to feed the starving kids in Ethiopia.

Since you two are my favorite customers-"

"No, just give us the full price," Jasper interpolated. He nodded and wrote it down. I took one quick look at the paper. 250,000 dollars was written, scrawled to be more specific. I nodded.

"So do you mind if I ask?"

"Yes I do mind," Jasper stated quickly, I threw a sympathetic look to J. I didn't say anything though; it was Jasper's book, not mine. We left after giving J the money. I half expected for the ride to be silent.

"We should get back,"

"Why the rush?" Yes Bella. Why the rush? My mind was siding with Jasper on this one.

"I need to see Edward," His expression was completely readable, he was disappointed.

"Need? …. Forget about what you need Bella," he placed his hand on top of mine.

"What do you want?" I wanted to drive with Jasper nonstop; I wanted to write with him nonstop.

I wanted to train and laugh with Jasper My want was drowning my need. As if he could read my mind, he smiled and removed his hand from mine. What was I doing? What were these feelings? Then it dawned on me, Jasper was becoming my friend… my best friend.

"So where to then?" I asked, he grinned.

"Anywhere you want Bella." He emphasized you and want. I remembered reading about a book store opening in Olympia.

"In Olympia-"

"Book store opening, one free book each to first hundred people there." He finished my sentence. I grinned. It wasn't so much about the free book, but going to the store…with Jasper.

"How did you?" he cut me off again.

"I've been waiting for that city to get a better book store for years now."

"Really? So you want to go?" Of course he wanted to.

"Yes," I couldn't help but to let out a squeal. I was excited.

"Now I see where Renesmee gets it from, what was that?" he laughed and I rolled my eyes.

"That, that right there was the first time I've felt happy in a long time Jasper… thank you.

"Me? I did that?" I rolled my eyes playfully again.

"You've done a lot for me lately Jasper, I only hope that us hanging out has brought you the same happiness it has brought me." I was looking down now, waiting for the painful blow of him not saying what I expected.

"Bella," he turned to me completely, still driving at a steady pace.

"These past weeks have been the best for me, you've become someone I care a lot about," he paused maybe to think. "A best friend Bella, you've become that to me and so much more." I smiled, I feel the exact way.

"Whew," I rubbed the nonexistent sweat off my forehead. "I'm glad you feel that way too Jasper, you have become my best friend also." He smiled his warm Jasper smile and continued to drive. But what did he mean by 'so much more'? Did he mean like BFF or more? I didn't really care; I was too excited about going to the store.

When we finally got there, it was packed with humans. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea, I knew that there was still a part of Jasper that struggled with being around humans.

"We can go if you want," he laughed.

"I wouldn't attack in a crowd this big, too much attention."

"I didn't mean to, I just want you to be comfortable."

"I'll be fine… I promise." He smiled then got out of the car. Once inside, it was like we were giving out free candy. All eyes were on us. They stared like deers caught in a headlight, they looked some more than scattered.

"I never really got used to that," he laughed.

"It's natural for them to look…you're beautiful," He started down the fiction aisle, I followed behind.

"You are too," I laughed, it sounded so cheesy.

"Of course," he tossed some hair back mockingly I slapped his arm playfully. Again we acted as if we were connected; reaching for the same book.

"Ladies first,"

"Why thank you Mr. Whitlock," I took the book from his hand. Life Expectancy by Dean Koontz, I loved all his books.

"You like Dean too I see," he said.

"Yes, his work is so…so"

"Captivating."

"Yes, that's the word, I think I'll buy this one, we can share it." He smiled.

"I'd like that," walking further down the aisle I started to laugh.

"Do I know the joke?"

"Oh don't mind me,"

"What is it?" I pulled book from the shelf and handed it to him.

"Marked?" It was a book by P.C Cast and Kristin Cast. A book about vampires.

"Yes, I read it a couple of months ago, very funny."

"Really?"

"Yes, I was curious just to see how the human mind would write about us,"

"Anything close?" I got serious.

"Very…far from it"

"I guess I should read it, we can laugh about it together later." Fireworks went off in my stomach. What was this feeling? Why was I looking forward to it so much? Did Jasper mean more to me than I thought?

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