I'm so sorry it took me so long to update! When reality slaps you in the face, it has no mercy. But anyhow, I wrote a long chapter to make up for the wait…. I hope. Don't hate me. Please! hahah well anyhow I hope you like it. I didn't leave a cliff hanger this time and I don't think I will be doing so in a while (: Comment what you think about it so far!
Disclaimer: Don't own glee. Sadly.
Enjoy!
Quinn POV
I was crossing the street of my house to get the mail. As I got the key and opened the mail box I heard my name being called. I turned around to see Beth walking towards me.
" Beth! Stop Stay there! " I turned quickly and locked the mail box. I turned and saw Beth in the middle of the road.I made my way towards her. She was wearing her pink rainy coat, blue jeans and her rain boots. Her hair was up in a pony tail and she had a big smile.
" Mommy do you like what I'm wearing? " she asked talking a few steps closer to me.
" Why of course you do. You're a princess. " I said as I made my way to her as well. Before I reach her a car speeds by hitting me. I try opening my eyes but find it hard. As I manage to see clearly, I see a police officer holding Beth who was crying. Why is she crying? Why is she with the police officer? What's going on? I try calling out her name but silence still remains. I started panicking. I tried moving my legs but I couldn't move.
" Beth! " I'm finally able to call out. I notice Beth screaming and trying to run towards me but the officer is holding her.
" Let her go! " I yell. I try getting up but can't feel any part of me. My vision starts getting blurry and I feel myself drifting off. I feel panic raise in my body. I start calling out Beth's name louder but the harder I yelled the farther she would be. I falling into darkness screaming Beth's name.
I wake up with dry sweat covering my face. I place my hand on my heart beating hard. Just a dream. It was just a dream. I say in my head.
I stretched out my muscles and made my way into my bathroom. I threw water at my face and grabbed a towel from the towel holder and dried my face. I leaned my back to the sink and sighed. The voices in my head played out everything that happened yesterday. After processing everything, I pushed myself up and walked to my closet.
" What should I wear? " I walked over to my scarfs and took a look. " Red? " Na. " White?" Na. " Blue? " Na. " Black and white? " Yea.
I picked up the scarf and walked over to my shirts and grabbed a red one.
" Now for some jeans and sweatshirt" I grabbed some nice ripped demin skinnies and a black vest. After I was don't changing I made my bed. I grabbed my phone off of the ihome and sat on my bed. Unlocking I realized I had no missed calls or texts. I felt relief wash over me.
Well thats a good start.
I walked to my door and picked up my red toms before shutting the door and heading upstairs. I saw that Puck wasn't sleeping on the couch. Where'd he go?
" Quinn! " I heard as Puck came rushing in with a panicked look on his face.
" Yes? " I asked a bit worried.
" I can't find Santana she's not in her room! "
" What do you mean she's not in her room? She was there when we went to bed! " I spat out.
" She's not in there, I woke up and checked on her and she wasn't there. So I checked the rest of the house and I can't find her! "
"The backyard? "
" Yes! "
" Downstairs? "
" Yes "
" The porch-"
" Gosh dam Quinn, I checked the whole house! "
I rushed to the visitors room and looked at the room. Empty and clean. The bed was made but Santana's things were still here. I walked to the night stand and Santana's phone wasn't there.
" Puck, have you called her phone?!" I yelled. He came rushing in.
"Yes, and she wont answer me! " He looked so scared. I put my toms on and rushed out of the room and into the garage with Puck right behind me. I opened the garage door and grabbed Santana's car keys.
" Come on she might be in Lima. " I said as I made my way into Santana's car. Puck sat in the passenger seat. I felt the cold wheel against my face and started to feel my body fill with nervous. I rushed out of the drive way and down the hill. It took 15 minutes to reach Lima. Puck and I were silent the whole way. Both of us turning our faces each way.
" We need to split up. I'll drop you off at the school where I left my car last night and drive around Lima. " I turned and looked at him. He gave me a nod. I felt so scared. Where are you san?
I made my way into the school parking lot and threw the keys at Puck.
" I'll call you if I find her. " And with that he made his way to my car.
I drove out of the lot and headed towards the Lima Bean. I drummed my fingers against the wheel trying to calm my nerves. As I made my way into the lot of Lima Bean I groaned to myself. Santana wasn't here. I turned my car around and back into the street.
" Where are you Santi? " I thought back to all the times Santana ran off. Oh geeze.
I drove out of Lima and back to my house. I felt my hands get sweaty so I gripped the steering wheel. I pulled to the side of the road and dialed Santana's number. Straight to voice mail. Great, I should have known!
I pulled back into the street and continued up the street. My mind racing and playing the worst scenarios. As I approached my street I kept forward hoping she would be around the neighborhood.
Where are you, where are you?
I tried redialing her number but I always got a response from her voicemail. I was starting to get more worried by the second. I reached the far end of the neighborhood park and wood trails and parked the car. I got out of the car and ran into the park.
" Santana! " I yelled while looking around. It was pretty early which I was grateful for. I ran around the park and I couldn't find her.
I decided to run back to the car and go on the other side of the car.
" Santana! " I kept calling while running back. I reached the car and rushed in. I dialed Puck's number. I waited for him to pick up.
Ring…Ring…Ring… " You've called Puck, leave a message. If you're a hot girl call again " I let out a breathe I was holding. I looked at my watch and noticed it was getting close to noon. I breathed in and pulled out of the parking space. I drove back to my street and Started to make out a figure by the main entrance of the park. Who's that? My mind screamed Santana but I noticed the person had blood on there sweatshirt. Oh gosh! God please keep Santana safe. I prayed as I came closer to my house and the figure closer to me.
" That looks like my sweatshirt " I looked back at the person and it hit me. Oh shit.
I hit the brakes and saw her Jump off the road landing on the ground.
" SANTANA!"
I rushed out to her side and scream as I saw her.
" Oh my gosh Santana! Santana! Can you hear me? " I said while looking up at her. Her eyes were glassy and and she looked so lost. I noticed that her head was bleeding.
" Santana! Look at me! I'm taking you to the hospital! " As I unzipped the hoodie I took her hands out of her pockets gasping out loud and letting out a low scream. I felt hot tears pile up in my eyes. I looked at her hands while feeling the tears pour out. Her hands or even if they could be called that anymore were torn up. I could see the bone of her knuckles sending a disgust through my body. I choked a sob. Flipping her hands over, I was devasted her palms were cut deep and bleed. I let out the sobs and looked up t her face. I saw her letting go.
" Santana! Don't you fucking dare let go! " I gripped her face and looked at her.
" We are going to get you to the hospital! " I slid my arms under her and lifted her off the ground and made my way towards her car. I balance her weight on my chest in order to open her door. I laid her in the back seats not caring if her blood covered the seats and me. I buckled the lower half of her body. I took my vest off and placed it on her stomach and placed her hands on her stomach as well. I looked up and saw her dozing off. I wrapped my scarf around her head to try to slow the flow of the blood coming out of her head. I got out and into the front seat. I quickly put my seat belt on and dial Puck's number.I heard ringing. Come on! Pick up! Once it sent me to voice mail, I decided to rush to the hospital. I reversed into my drive way and down the hill.
My hands were sweaty and my mind was all over the place. I prayed to god to keep her alive.
" Santana were going to make it. I won't let you down. I won't let you go! "
I heard my phone go off and I reached over fro it. I pressed answer and hit speaker.
" Have you found her ? " I heard Puck's voice.
" Go gets Santana's mom and meet me at the hospital. Call Mr. Lopez and tell him we're on the way. We're about 8 minutes away! Hurry! "
I rushed out holding in the sob stuck in my throat.
" What? Why? Is she okay? What's- "
" I found her. She bleeding out. Her hands….They're torn up and bleeding out, she hit her head and…she wasn't responding… And she's-" The tears got to me. I couldn't go on. I looked at my reflection mirror and saw her body lied down. Please… Please make it.
I heard Puck's sob.
" I'm on my way. " He hung up and I threw my phone across the seat. I drove above the speed, praying to god that she was sight was blurry and I was shaking from the cries filling up the air. I came into Lima and started to see the hospital.
I rushed into the emergency drive and saw Mr and Mrs Lopez standing there with Puck and Nurses. I pulled the car to a stop and the paramedics ran to the back door and took Santana out and placed her onto ambulance gurney. Mr. Lopez rushed to Santana's side and ran into the hospital with his emergency crew. , Puck and I followed right behind.
The nurses blocked our way into the emergency room and forced us into the waiting area. I sat down on the chair and immediately buried my face into my hands. Letting the sobs out replaying the last image I had seen. 's face while he ran into the emergency room holding the hand of his daughter. My best friend.
It has been three hours. Three hours of waiting. Three hours of worry. Three hours of heart ache and sobs. Mr. Lopez sent someone out to tell us that they were still in surgery. Mrs. Lopez was sitting with Puck in the waiting room while I'm sitting at the far side of the waiting room by the window. As I scan the view I see cars pass by. So far I've counted 35 black cars, 24 white cars, 15 grey cars and 18 red cars. I hear a sob and look over to Mrs. Lopez holding Puck while he cried into her shoulder. I looked down at my feet and felt hurt.
I could have prevented this. If I would have heard her. If I would have stopped her. If I would have not mentioned New York. I can't help but feel as it's my fault.
I got up wiping my eyes and walking out if the waiting room. I fell the fresh air and hitch. I make my way to Santana's car and open the drivers door. I get in and buckle myself. I grab my phone and look that I have missed calls. I close my eyes and felt my chest heave. I looked back at the passenger seats and imagine Santana spawn out across the seats. Bleeding, pale, still, alone…..gone. I let my body fall against the steering wheel as I wrapped my arms around my arms around myself and began to cry. I clutched my phone and speed dialed Rachel's number. I placed the cold phone to my hear and begged for god to make her answer.
I reached voice main and I sobbed into the phone.
" Rachel " I cried. I didn't attempt to hid anything at this moment.
" Rachel! She didn't deserve this! This wasn't suppose to happen, she isn't suppose to be the one in the emergency room! She's not suppose to be here! She's suppose to be in New York living her life! For God's sake Santana didn't deserve his. Fuck! " I sob into the phone. I cried into it and felt my chest tighten.
" She didn't deserve to hurt like this. " I whispered into the phone before hanging up and letting the phone drop under the seat. I held onto the steering wheel and cried harder. Feeling my chest rise up and off the steering wheel.
I set the car into reverse and headed to the car cleaners. I parked the car and opened the small compartment and grabbed Santana's glasses. Tears slid down my face as I remembered where I had last seen these Black Ray Ban glasses. Santana, Brittany and I were headed back from cheerios camp and Santana had forgotten her sun glasses at the cabin. We made a stop at a shop stop and Brittany instated that Santana looked wonderful in these, so Santana bought all three of us a pair.
I grabbed my purse and made byway into the office.
" How may I help you? " Spoke a guy not much older than I. I looked at her through the sun glasses not bothering to take them off. Disgust struck through my body as he eyed me.
" I…My car needs to be cleaned and there is blood stains in the back seats. My friend was in an accident and I had to rush her to the emergency room. The stains are new so, just be careful. "
" Okay. It'll ne ready by tomorrow. I just need the keys. "
" Can I take somethings out before? "
" Sure no problem. " I walked back to her car and opened up the trunk. It was pretty empty so I moved on to the front seats. I walked to the passengers door. I opened the compartment again and grabbed the papers in there, as I placed them in my bag a picture in the compartment caught my eyes. I picked it up and read the back of it. October 10, 2010. Took her to the lack and confessed my love. Kissed and promised never to let us fall apart. I flipped the picture over and tears ran down my face. It was a picture of Brittany sitting on a deck with Santana sitting on her lap. Santana was whispering something into Brittany's ear and Brittany had a huge smile on her face as she looked at Santana.
The tears came harder. That was Love. That was happiness. I looked at it longer and felt anger and hurt rise. How could Brittany do this to Santana? How could she be with someone she doesn't Love?
I placed the photo in my bag carefully and grabbed other things that I thought Santana would be cautious about. I closed the door and stared into the back seats. My hand was on the door handle but I couldn't. I felt my chest tighten and I couldn't open the door. I dropped my hand and wiped the tears that ran along the side of my faces. I was so thankful for the glasses I was wearing.
I made my way back into the office and the guy handed me a clipboard. I quickly filled out the information and handed it back. He gave me a small smile and I headed for the door.
" I hope your friend gets better " He called out as I opened the door. I looked back at him.
" Me too " I whispered before leaving. I crossed the road and headed towards the Lima bean. It was within walking distance since Lima wasn't that big. I made my way inside and realized how cold I was. I got in line and waited to order. I looked around remembering all the times I had been in here. All the memories of the good times and embarrassing moments. A heart felt a little warmer at the thoughts but as soon as my eyes connected with someone I was brought back to reality.
I made my way to the register and heard my name being called out but I didn't bother look back.
" Welcome to Lima Bean how can I help you? " The cashier greeted
" Can I get a White Chocolate Mocha, a Caramel Macchiato, a Cinnamon Dolce, three Vanilla Bean Scones and three Cinnamon Rolls "
" Sure. It's going to be $15 Please " I nodded and reached in my back and grabbed my debit card and hand it to her.
" Okay it'll be out in just a moment. "
" Thank you " I quickly made my way to the right trying to avoid staring into their eyes again. I turned and grabbed a few napkins.
" Quinn, hey! " I regretted coming here. I mentally told myself to act cool so thats what I did. I turned around and gave the best show I could.
" Sam " I said with my teeth clenched together. You could hear the annoyance in my voice and he had heard it too. He gave me a weird look but continued.
" Why are you were glasses inside? "
" Because I can. " I replied sharply.
" Why are you being like-"
" Ma'm here's your order. " I quickly made my way and picked up the cart with coffee and the bag with food. I tried to walk past Sam but he grabbed a hold of my arm.
" Let me go Sam " I said with a serious face.
" Not till you tell me why you giving me such a bitchy attitude. "
" I told you to-"
" She told you to let her go Sam. " I turned and saw Finn. Thank god. Sam finally let me go and I rushed out.
" Quinn! Wait up! " Finn called as I made my way out into the cold again.
I felt his tender hands grab me and swing me around. He looked at the glasses trying to search for my eyes. He simply took the coffee crate from my hand and walked me to his car. He placed the crate on top of his hood and did the same with the bag of food. I thought in that moment he would question everything. I anticipated for the questions to come but they never did. Instead I felt those warm arms wrap around me and held me as I began to cry.
" Shhhh. " He whispered in his sweet voice trying to cover up his worry, but being Finn it wasn't all hard to notice.
I cried harder into his embrace and tried pull away but he held me tighter. This is what reminded me of why I loved him so much. He wasn't the most handsome person but he was the most genuine whole heart man I have ever known. He was there for Santana when she was afraid to come out, he was there for Rachel and he was my first love.
Oh uh- huh If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I heard him whisper as his heart heated against my ear.
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
Ill be the light to guide you
He continued to sing to me in his smooth voice
You can count on me like 1,2,3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4,3,2
You'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
Oooooh, ooooh yeah, yeah
If your tossin and you're turnin
And you just can't sleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you forget how much you mean to me
Everyday I'll will remind you Ooooh
Find out what we're made of
Where we are called to help our friends in need
You can count on me like 1,2,3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4,3,2
You'll be there
Oooooh oooooh yeah, yeah
He breathed in deep and I felt his chest rise before singing the last chorus with true meaning.
You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let you go, never say goodbye
You know…
You can count on me like 1,2,3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4,3,2
You'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
Ooooooooh, ooooooooh
You can count on me 'cause I can count on you '
He whispered the last part into my eyes and I felt the last few tears run down my face. He took the strands of hair off my face and pulled the glasses off and looked me in the eyes
" I'm here for you. I know something is going on, I can see it in your eyes and I can sense it. So please let me help you. " He begged with worry in his eyes. I was ready to tell him.
" Santana… " I managed to break out.
" Hey look at me " He said while lifting my chin
" Okay so I assume something happened between Santana and you? " I nodded my head no and he than looked like he was in deep thought. He put some pieces together because he breathed out Oh.
" Santana saw Brittany and Sam " He stated. I nodded at him.
" That's not all is it? Because I know that you're mad and upset about that but I know that that isn't the end of this story. "
" I- Santana's in the hospital. She's been in the ER for three hours. I found her with her hands torn up by my house. She was bleeding Finn! He tried avoiding my car and jumped off the road and ended up hitting her head, and than I ran to her, and she was lifeless and wasn't responding. She was bleeding out! I should have slept with her in the guest room! I should have watched her instead of falling asleep on Puck " I rushed out with tears
" Quinn! Slow down! Just stop " He said as he wrapped me up in his arms again.
" Is Santana at the ER now? Do her parents know? Puck? Where were you guys? "
" Yes she's still in the ER. She's been in there for three hours. I called had Puck call her parents on my rush to the ER. Puck came over to my house to help me with Santana because she was devastated when she found out. She was lifeless Finn. Lost and hopeless. " I whispered.
He gave me a tight squeeze before leading me to the opposite side of his car and opening the door. He helped me in and ran over to the drivers side and grab be the coffee and food and placed them in the back seat. He buckled himself up and turned the heater on. He looked over at me and gave a reassuring smile.
I was grateful for him. He was trying to be there for me. He was being my rock. My anchor in need, something I knew Puck wouldn't do. He plugged his phone into his stereo and played some Michael Buble.
He drove out of the parking lot and towards the hospital. He reached over and grabbed my hand, giving me a smile and placing in under his arm on the middle compartment. The ride was silent and I was glad. He was giving me time to recompose myself and get strength to what would come. He parked the car and grabbed the things from the back and got out and made his way to my door.
He was such a gentlemen and such a caring person. He opened my door and took my hand.
" Wait, use my coat, it's a bit cold " He said. I finally saw what he was wearing. He had a red button up shirt with a black tie, with a dark grey double collar hoodie zipped up half with topped with the Black Toggle men's trench that was begging placed on me. Wow. When did he get all fancy?
My thoughts were disrupted when I felt his hand slip in mine. I looked at him, he had a reassuring and helpful smile and I could help but smile back at him. He was being that person I needed and I was so thankful. I stood close by his side still a bit shaky at he held my hand and locked the car and grabbed the coffee and food. We started making our way back into the waiting room and saw Mrs. Lopez and Puck look up.
Puck looked a bit frustrated to see me with Finn but I didn't bother. We walked up to them and tried to give out a smile.
" Mrs. Lopez I bought you guys some coffee and food. I didn't know how long we'd be here and we all need to be prepared. "
" Quinn, I thought we talked about what my name is." She said. She didn't sound so broken like before but I could still sense worry.
" Right, Maria. "
" Thank you " She said and gave me a smile. I took the coffee crate from Finn and was surprised that it was till hot. I handed Maria the Cinnamon Dolce and a scone with a cinnamon roll.
" Thank you Quinn, you shouldn't have "
" No, we are all in this together. " I spoke with some encouragement.
" I- thank you hun. " She said before eating.
I looked at Puck and handed him the Caramel Macchiato with a cinnamon roll and scone.
" You shouldn't have bothered Quinn-" I gave him a stern look.
" Thank you. And hey Finn "
" Hey Puck and Mrs. Lopez "
" Call me Maria, Finn "
" Yes, Ma'm! I mean Maria " He said while blushing and Maria let out a chuckle making my heart swell. Things will be okay.
"Thank you Finn, and thank for the coffee and for your presence. "
" You're very welcome, I didn't actually get the coffee that was all Quinn but I am sorry to hear about what happened. I'l be here for all of you " Maria gave him a smile.
" Thank you son, that is much needed. Take a seat and eat. Quinn I don't want you to starve. " She said giving me a smile. I couldn't understand how she was so strong. Maybe she knew Santana would make it. Santana was a strong girl and I have faith in her.
Finn and I sat to the side of Maria. Finn was still holding my hand which gave me hope. I took a sip of my coffee and felt the warmth of it travel down my body. I didn't realize how cold I was before. I grabbed half of the scone and gave the other half to Finn. He hesitated before grabbing it and giving me a thankful smile. I smiled back and continued to eat.
Finn excused himself to the restroom and I missed the warmth of his hand in mine. Puck got up and sat next to me.
" Hey Quinn, I'm sorry about what happened earlier. I shouldn't have yelled at you and-"
" Puck it's fine. "
" No Quinn it's not. You were worried too. She's your sister just as much as she is mine. You were scared and I pushed you aside and that's not right. Forgive me? " He said while looking at me with watery eyes. I pulled him into a hug.
" It's okay. I would have don't the same thing. We were both worried and scared. But Santana's in safe hands now. We are strong and she is too. " I gave him a smile while pulling apart.
" You're right. " He nodded and walked back to 's side. The air left less heavy than before and I was thankful. Finn came back and sat next to me and held my hand. I felt my heart start to settle and for once in this day I felt like everything was going to be okay.
We were all talking sharing stories that we had with Santana. We all shared smiles and laughs and we all we're strong for each other.
" Remember Puck when we were in the locker room and we both slipped in front of the whole football team? "
" Oh my goodness, I remember that! " Puck and Finn laughed together and I was glad to see them talking and laughing. Mrs. Lopez chuckled at the goofy stories that they shared and she would occasionally embarrass Puck or me. Making Finn laugh and smile.
" Parents from Santana lopez " A doctor called out. We all stood to our feet and walked over to the doctor.
" Which ones Santana's family members? "
" I am, and so are they." Mrs. Lopez spoke out. The doctor nodded.
" So we managed to stop the bleeding from Santana's head and hands. I was told that she hit her head on the street but how did she get the cuts on her hands? " They all looked at me.
" I- found her running towards my house, she jumped out of the street when I came closer to her. I got out and she was bleeding from her head since she hit the curve but I found out myself about her hands after I took them out of her pockets. I have no clue how it happened. " I said as felt tears build up. Mrs. Lopez pulled me next to her giving me a hug.
" Okay, well Santana's cuts on her hands are stitched. Both her hands are sealed with bandages so when she wakes she can't do much with her hands. We don't want the cut to reopen. " We all nodded.
" Now. We had some difficulties. As I said before, we managed to stop the bleeding but Santana lost a lot of blood and went into hypovolemic shock. " We all looked at the doctor with worried looks.
" We were able to get her heart back pumping. That is why it took so long. "
" So she died during surgery? " Finn asked for all of us.
" Yes she flat lined for 5 seconds. But like I said, she's fine now. She's being set in her room as we speak. Last thing, the surgery was painful, of course she didn't feel it but we gave her large amount of medicine so that she'd sleep and ease off the pain of the surgery. She should be asleep for about 8-14 hours. When she wakes be sure she doesn't try to take the the bandages off her head and hands. Any questions? "
" What room is she in? " Finn asked
" She is in room A19. It's on the 10th floor on the left. Pick up the phone and say your Santana's family and they will let you in. The room can hold a good amount of people and three people can spend the night. There is also a food facility for the patients visitors so help yourselves. And the view is towards the hills so you have a great view. Anything else? "
" Yea, will she wake up in pain? " I asked.
" Yes, but we will give her some more medication to rest and ease the pain off. "
" Do you know where my husband is? " Mrs. Lopez asked
" He was washing up while I came out here. He told me to tell you that he'd be up once he was done. "
" Thank you Doctor. " We all said as we made our way towards the elevators. My worries and body felt at ease knowing she was okay. But there was something that wasn't okay. And that was my heart.
Puck picked the phone up and told them we were Santana's family. We walked into the care center and found her room. Finn held my hand every step and as walked into her room. I looked at him and felt a smile form without restriction I knew than that I would never let Santana hurt again. Cross my heart. No one or nothing would hurt her ever again. I was going to be here for her and I knew that I wasn't going to be the only one. She had Puck and her parents and Finn as well.
As I walked in behind Finn I saw her there laying in the bed with her hands and head wrapped in bandages. She seemed at peace and I was grateful to know that her dream was keeping her at peace. Even if she was dreaming about the being with source of her pain.
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