Sorry for the long wait, I wanted to get this up on New Year, but I've been sick. Promise the next chapter will be up soon. Anyway enjoy the story and please review, I love to read them.
Logan's P.O.V
Kendall was sleeping next to me on my bed. I was watching him sleep and thinking that nothing else in the world could be more beautiful. I wanted to wake him up and continued the make out session from earlier, but I knew between school, hockey, work, and taking care of his sister, that he needed rest when he could get it.
We have been dating for about a month now and things have been going great. We don't get a lot of time together, because of his schedule and that he doesn't want to let my parents know we are dating. The only people who know are James, Camille, Carlos, and Katie. He will only come over when my parents aren't home, which isn't very often, and he refuses to let me come over to his house. Then there is the biggest problem of our relationship, his dad.
He won't tell me anything about him, only that if he ever found out that the relationship will be over and that I'll probably never see him again. I worry about him, living with someone like that, I don't know what I would do if something happened to him. I know its only been a month, but I already feel myself falling in love with him.
He started to move, I saw him open those beautiful eyes and smile at me. He then realized that he had fallen asleep and bolted up, another rule of his was that he couldn't be here after nine.
"What time is it," he asked.
I tried to push him back down, but he was too strong for me.
"It is only seven thirty. Now lie back down with me." I said.
"Seven thirty, how long was I asleep for?"
"A couple of hours, I was going to wake you but you look too cute when you sleep."
He smiled at me and gave me a kiss on the lips.
"Where are your parents, they don't know I'm here do they?"
"No, Mr. paranoid, they are out shopping for their New Year's Eve party tomorrow. I really want you to come tomorrow, we can spend the holiday together, since I was in Florida over Christmas." I said.
"You know I can't, I have to work." he said.
"True, but you get off at eight and you come over after."
"How do you know I get off at eight?" he asked.
"I don't reveal my sources." I said with a smile.
"Damn it, I knew giving Katie your number was going to come back to bite me in the ass." he said.
"So you will come?"
"I don't know Logan, I don't think its a good idea, I mean won't it be weird me being with you at a party on New Year's Eve?" he asked.
"No, I told you my parents let me have friends over. Usually, its just James and Camille, but since James started dating Jo I invited her too and I can tell my parents I want you to come too."
"Won't they be suspicious, they thought you liked me that night at my work, right?"
"Yes, but I told them you were straight and had a girlfriend, so I will only be inviting you as a friend." I said.
He laughed at that, "They really believe that you are only inviting me as a friend?"
"Well, they will probably believe it's a last ditch effort to turn you to my team, but they really do believe that you're straight. You can bring Carlos along too, to help prove I only invited you as a friend"
I watched him contemplate my offer. I really wanted him to say yes, even if we couldn't be a couple that night, at least we would be together
"Ok," he said.
"Awesome, so you can come over right after work and you and Carlos can spend the night here if you want. James will spending the night, so my parents won't be suspicious that you will be staying too." I said.
"I'll come over, and stay the night, but there will be absolutely no funny business between the two of us."
"When you say no 'funny business' does that include a kiss at midnight?"
"Yes that includes the midnight kiss." he said.
"Why, we'll do it in private in my room. No one will know, I promise."
"I can't take that risk Logan, not with a house full of drunk people who could walk in at any moment and see us."
"JESUS." I said as I threw my arms up and took a few steps away from him.
"Do you even want to be in a relationship with me, because we barely see each other and when we do its usually short because you're so scared someone will see us together."
" I told you when we started this that we had to keep it a secret from everyone." he said.
"I know and we are, but even when were alone you don't want to be together long, because you think someone will get suspicious."
I sighed and sat down on the chair at my desk.
"I'm sorry," he said. "Its just that I know what will happen if my dad finds out about us and it scares me so much. I don't want to put you through the pain that he will cause. I do want you to know that when I am with you, however short it is, is the best part of my day. I can relax around you Logan, I don't even remember the last time I took a nap, but look I'm here for an hour and I'm sound asleep."
He then got up off my bed and knelt down in front of me and took my hand in his.
"You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't regret starting this relationship and I promise to try and calm the paranoid thing down a little bit."
I looked into those green eyes and knew I couldn't be mad at him anymore.
"I'm sorry," I said, "I'll try to be more understanding about you situation with your dad."
He smiled and said, " And we only have a few more months once we are in college we can be much more open about our relationship."
I felt my stomach flutter when he was talking. He had thought about our future and he saw that we are still together, he truly wants me in his life. I then shot out of my chair, knocking him over and started to kiss him hard on the lips.
He broke the kiss and looked at me and said, "As much as I would like to continue this, I have to go."
I was reluctant to get up, but him being bigger and stronger than me, I didn't have much of a choice. He got up and put his jacket on and I walked him to the front door.
I gave him a quick peck on the lips before he opened the door.
"Don't forget that we still have to give each other our christmas gifts. Can we do it tomorrow?" he asked.
"Yes, your gift should arrive some time tomorrow morning, so if it okay with you we will need to get five minutes alone to exchange." I said
"I think I will allow that," he said with a grin on his face.
I opened the door and shoved him outside. He laughed and got into Carlos' car, which he let him borrow, and drove off. I leaned against the doorframe and thought that tomorrow was going to be perfect.
Kendall's P.O.V
I was standing in front of Logan's front door, looking at a big Happy New Year's sign and building up the courage to ring the doorbell.
"How long are we going to stand here, because in case you haven't noticed it's freezing cold out here." said Carlos.
"I'm just a little nervous, this is the first time I will be around Logan's parents since we started dating." I said.
Carlos nodded, "I get that, but his parents would be cool with it if they did find out."
"I know, but I'm just afraid that if too many people find out then my dad will learn of us and then I'll have to leave Logan for his own safety."
Carols was about to say something when the front door swung open reveling Logan standing there with a big smile on his face.
"Hey," he said. "What are you guys doing out in the cold? Come on in."
I walked into the house and took a look around. There were lots of other guests there, most likely friends of his parents and then I saw James, Camille, and Jo standing in the kitchen. I gave them a smile and a wave and they gave me one back.
"So my parents want to say hi and then you can take yours and Carlos' overnight bags and put them in my room. I thought then we could exchange our presents since its the only time we will be alone together." Logan whispered to me.
"Sure, lead the way."
He lead me and Carols through his house in search of his parents. We spotted them in the living room talking with some people.
"Kendall," Mrs. Mitchell said as she gave me a big hug. "I'm glad you could come and this must be your friend Carlos."
"Yep that's me, and thank you again for letting me stay here tonight." Carlos said.
"Its not a problem we're happy Logan has made some new friends." said Mr. Mitchell as he shook mine and Carols' hand.
"Now boys, we don't allow Logan's friends to drink here. We will allow a sip of champagne at midnight. I hope you will follow this otherwise I'll call your parents and have them come get you. Do we understand each other." Mr. Mitchell said sternly.
Me and Carlos both nodded. He then got a smile back on his face and said, "Good now go and have a good time."
"Come on Kendall, I'll show you where you can go and put yours and Carlos' bags" said Logan as he grabbed my hand about led me to the steps.
I yanked my hand out of his and looked around to see if I anyone was staring, luckily no one noticed.
He had a look of hurt in his eyes for a second, but it quickly disappeared and he turned to Carlos and said, "Everyone should be in the kitchen, Kendall and I will meet you there in a couple of minutes."
He then grabbed Carlos' bag and I grabbed mine and we headed upstairs to his room.
Once we were in the room I closed the door and looked at him.
"I'm sorry about the hand thing, I didn't mean to upset you I just got scared."
"Its fine, I did it without thinking." he said
I chuckled, "since when do you do anything without thinking."
"Since I met you."
I felt my cheeks getting red. I opened my bag and got out his present.
"Here, Merry Christmas Logan."
He smiled and opened up his dresser and pulled out my present and handed it to me.
I unwrapped it, opened the box, and saw what he had given me. It was blank book of music sheets. A simple gift, but I loved it because it showed that he actually knows me and put thought into it.
I felt tears coming and I looked up and Logan was looking at his present. I had gotten him a book called '1,000 strange diseases' and he looked lost in thought. He has done this a few times since we started dating and I knew only one sure fire way of snapping him out of it.
I walked up to him and kissed him on the lips. I worked, he snapped right out of his head and leaned into the kiss. It was a short kiss, but very sweet.
"Thanks," I said. "I love it."
"Me too, I can't wait to start reading."
I rolled my eyes. "Why did I have to fall for such a nerd."
He smiled and shrugged his shoulders, "Just lucky I guess"
I laughed, "We should probably get back downstairs and join the party."
"I guess, or we could stay here and have our own party." he said as he put his arms on my shoulders and leaned in for a kiss.
"Funny, but no." I said as I kissed him.
"Fine, lets go and have a great time with our friends." he said sarcastically.
All I could do was laugh at him and follow him back downstairs to meet our friends.
"Five, Four, Three," everyone was yelling as they watched the ball drop.
I looked at Logan. He was watching the t.v. like everyone else, but I knew that he would rather be kissing me at midnight. I felt horrible that we couldn't and that it was all my fault that we wouldn't kiss.
"Two, One, HAPPY NEW YEAR," everyone was cheering. I was Logan's parents get each other a kiss and then hug Logan. Carlos came up to me and gave me a big hug.
Logan was next to give me a hug. As he was hugging me he whispered, "Don't worry about the kiss, there is always next year."
He pulled away and gave me a smile. He then left looking for Camille and James.
"Next year," I thought. I wasn't the only one who planned on this relationship lasting awhil. Logan still plans on being together for next year. I couldn't help, but stand there in the middle of his living room surrounded by people cheering with a big ass smile plastered on my face.
Everyone had left, Jo and Camille went home after midnight and Logan's parents had went to bed. It was the four of us sleeping on Logan's family room floor.
It was about 2am when I heard Logan say, "Are you still awake."
"Yeah, can't sleep"
"Is something bothering you?" he asked.
"No, just thinking."
"About what?"
"My mom." I said.
"What about her?" he asked.
"Just something she used to say. She would always say life is about changes. Very few things every stay the same, so enjoy life's moments cause you never know what changes are coming around the corner."
"Smart lady."
"Yeah she was the best."
"Do you mind telling me about her?"
I sat up and looked to see that James and Carols were sound asleep.
"Yeah, I'd love to talk about my mom with someone." I said.
"Great because I'd love to hear it."
"Where to start, ok well she was a morning person like me. We would always get up together, talk, and make breakfast. I remember she was funny, I was always laughing when I was with her and she could cook, nothing could beat my mom's breakfast. She is where I got my love of music from, she always had the radio on or was humming a tune or sining some old song she loved."
"It was her side of the family that the whole K thing started from too."
"What K thing?" he asked.
"Didn't you notice that both me and Katie's name start with K, as well as our last name."
"Yeah, I just thought it was a coincidence." he said.
"Nope, family tradition. My mom's name was Kathy, her parents were Kent and Katrina. So when she met my dad, Kyle Knight, she said it was as if fate destined them to be together."
"Awww, that's kind of sweet," he said.
"Yeah I thought so too, until she died and he became what he is now."
"Still, at least she was happy before she passed." he said.
"True, I just wish I had something of hers to remember her by."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, after she died my dad became really depressed. He stopped going to work and taking care of me and Katie. He would sell her things in order to get some money. He sold her clothes and jewelry, but worst of all he sold our family necklace."
"What was the family necklace?" he asked.
I smiled, "Promise not to laugh, buy is was a gold K on a chain. It was my great grandfathers. When he died he gave it to his only son Kent, my grandfather, and when Kent died he had only had only one child, my mom, so he gave it to her. I remember her wearing it all the time and her telling me one day it would be mine."
"And your dad sold it even though it meant that much to you"
"I remember not accepting that she was dead. I convince myself that she had left for a while and would come back. So I left the necklace in her bedroom and would check every morning to see if it was gone, cause if it was gone that meant she had come back. Well, one day I got up and the necklace was gone. I was so excited. I thought my mommy was back, so I ran down stairs and looked for her. I saw my dad on the couch and asked where mom was. You know what he said."
Logan just shook his head.
"He said, 'She's dead and never coming back. I sold that necklace so you can stop hoping that she will come back, cause she isn't.' I ran back up to my room and cried for what felt like forever, but then I remembered something my mom told me once."
"What was it?" asked Logan.
"It was when my pet hamster died and I was crying for a couple of days. My mom came in my room and held me and said ' My son, its okay to feel sad at the death of something you love but never let it consume you because it will not only destroy your life, but the lives of those around you. So sometimes that means having to get up and return to your normal life, no matter how hard it may be.'"
"Wow, I really wish I could have met your mom."
"Yeah me too. After that I started to take care of Katie and met Carlos and started to live my life, like my mom would have wanted me to. My dad figured out that he could drown his sorrows in booze and work, so he did."
"He never got back to any sense of normal."
"He is okay with Katie, but doesn't want much to do with me. I think I remind him too much of my mom. He can get scary though when he drinks a lot, but most of the time I can handle it. There are some times when he affects my life, like tonight at midnight when the only thing I wanted to do is kiss you and because of him I couldn't."
"Hey," he said. "Don't you dare feel bad about that, okay."
He got up and knelt down next to me. "I would rather have you here and not be able to kiss you, then not have you at all."
The clock then chimed three o'clock.
"We should probably get some sleep." I said.
"Actually, since its exactly three in the morning here, that could mean in some other time zone it just became the new year." he said.
"Now, I remember why I fell for a nerd and I leaned forward and gave him a kiss."
"Happy New Year my Logan"
"Happy New Year my Kendall"