Sutton rolled over, her stomach growled. Groggily she opened her eyes and grabbed her phone. She looked at the time 7:10 am. Ok, look. She thought. If I am going to lose sleep when the baby is born, can I please relish in the fact that I have it now? Her stomach growled again, she looked down at it, "Shut up." But she pushed the covers off her and stood up. The house was silent. The sun had barely risen over the mountains and the house was dimly lit. Sutton looked down the hall, Emma's door was still shut, she knew that she would still be asleep at this hour, but still she wanted to talk to her. She padded barefoot to the kitchen and opened the fridge, grabbing a strawberry greek yogurt and returning back to her room.

She'd just taken a bite when an envelope taped to her outside door caught her attention. She placed her yogurt on her vanity and went to her door. She unlatched it and watched as it swung open, she looked around the yard, but no one was around. She grabbed the envelope and shut her door. The outside simply said "Sutton" she flipped it over and pulled out a single sheet of paper. She eyes gazed over the sloppy handwriting. It looked like Thayer's. She flipped the paper over and found the signature. Sure enough it was from Thayer. She flipped the paper over again.

Dear Sutton,

There really is no easy way to say this. I need you to know how much I love you. I fell for you in LA. Even before you slept with me the first time. There was always something so captivating about you. Something in you I admired. But when all the drama with Ethan happened, I knew I would never get the chance to be with you. So naturally when you came around the second time, I wasn't going to let that chance pass by. And when we made love, the second time, it was everything to me, Sutton. You were everything to me. Then the baby happened.

I've thought long and hard about this. I've lost sleep over this. But today sealed the deal. Sutton, I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready to be a father. I couldn't bring myself to look at the mistake we made, Sutton. Hearing the babies heartbeat was too much. So I'm going away, Sutton. I need to get my life together. I can't think about being a father. I need to fix my own life first. So please understand that I'm not trying to hurt you. I love you so much and I know you're going to make a wonderful mother. This child is going to be so lucky to have you for a mom and Emma, Laurel and Mads as aunts.

Please don't try and find me. I left my phone behind, please don't try and call me. I'm so sorry for everything I've done. But I need to do this for me.

I love you so much Sutton, I know it doesn't seem like it, but I do. Please take care of yourself and our baby.

Love,

Thayer Rybak

Sutton felt the paper fall from her hands, she shook her head and suddenly her knees got weak, she fell to the floor and heaved, "No. No, no, no, no." She said. She looked out the window, hoping maybe he'd be there, waiting for her to realize it was all a joke. But when he wasn't, her heart sank. How could he do this to me? She thought. Her hand immediately found the spot where her baby was. How could he just leave like this? Sutton sat up on her bed, She tried to comprehend what she'd just read. This came straight out of left field. One minute he's telling her that they will get through this, the next he's running as far away from the problem as he could. She reached for her phone, wishing he'd call her, wishing she could tell him that she needed him. She wasn't ready to have a baby alone.

She didn't know how long she'd been sitting on her bed staring at her closet. She'd run over his words over and over in her mind. Trying to make sense of it all. But all there was to make sense of was the fact that Thayer is gone. Not knowing if he'd ever come back. She was alone now. A single mother. Suddenly a knock startled her, she looked up and saw Emma poking her head around the door. The room was brighter now, the sun poured in through the window, "Hey, are you okay?" Emma asked moving to her sisters bed. Sutton didn't reply, instead she handed Emma the letter. Emma took it and began to read, "No." She protested when she finished, "Sutton he can't do this to you." She said turning to her twin. But Sutton felt numb, unable to move.

"Ya think?" She said quietly, "But what can I do about it? I can't call him, I have no idea where he went or if he'll ever be back and in the mean time, I'm having his baby." tears poured down Sutton;'s cheeks and Emma brushed them away, pulling her sister into her embrace.

"What a fucking bastard!" She exclaimed. Anger surged through Emma and she wasn't even the pregnant one. But seeing Sutton like this, killed her, "No wonder he was so distant yesterday."

Sutton shook her head, "It doesn't fucking matter. It's done. I can't do this, Emma."

Emma looked at her sister, "What do you mean you can't do this? Sutton, you have to. You have no other choice."

Sutton rolled her eyes, "that's what you think." She said under her breath.

"Sutton, what are you talking about?" Emma said looking at her sister.

Sutton looked at her for the first time since Emma came in the room, "Nothing. Can you please just leave? I don't feel like talking about this right now."

Emma looked at Sutton, hurt by her request, "Yeah, ok." she said quietly as she got up. She walked to the door, and before leaving she stopped and looked back at her sister, "He's as asshole, Sutton. But you can do this. I know you can." Then she left, closing the door behind her.

Sutton laid back against her pillows and looked at Thayer's letter again, she sighed as she tossed it aside. Maybe Emma had faith in her, but Emma wasn't the one that was going to to be raising a child alone. She closed her eyes, hoping maybe someone could take her back in time. Maybe she wouldn't have slept with Thayer that day if she knew he'd chicken out and run like a scared little boy.