Fighting for my family
5/4/16
chapter 7
Note: new Chapters are posted, but don't kill me. You will know what that means in a few minutes after reading these next few chapters. Thank you for all the comments. I reread out loud (mostly to my dog) chapter 4 and saw so many errors. That made me go back through the rest of these not posted chapters. I made changes so thanks for bring it up. Talking English and writing English are two different things for me (which I was never all that good at it). So I am sorry about the grammar. If it's not to bad try to ignore it. If it's really major just tell me (this makes me better at it). Now if the characters say it, well that's how they talked to me. Anyway just enjoy the story. And remember it has a happy ending! (or I like to think so but that's not till later on). There is also some characters that die, just a warning now.
playroom building lobby area:
"Kate? Please," Kate hates for people to do things for her. "Let me..."
She sits there staring off into space, not looking at him. He sighs, letting his shoulders fall. He sits in a chair beside her. He knew that he had to let it be her idea. "I know you hate to ask for help but this..." He glances his eyes to her. "Let me help you." She sits there quite for a few seconds. "That's what partners do." He blinks, "That's what husbands do." a pause, "They help each other. making things all better." She finally looks over at him. He smiles, "Please," He holds out his hand. Lifting his eyebrows at her trying to convince her to trust him.
"Okay, but..." She takes his hand and starts to stand.
Castle nods, "Lean on me, that's why I am here." She smiles and does just that. She leans on him the whole way as they both walk down the hall to his room. And what she saw was exactly like Castle said was a few years ago, nothing in the room but a bed. Classy, she thought. "Please sit," He puts on his most serious look that he can muster at a time like this. He didn't ever want to have this talk with her, especially right now, while she was pregnant but he had to protect his family.
"We need to have a serious talk."
"Castle, not now! We have to go after..." a pause, "LocSat."
"No!" He shouts a little too loud. He lowers his voice, "Sorry." She stares back at him. He sighs, this is eating him up inside. But he had no other choice. The cards were dealt and he had to choose. "But no, your not going after him. Not now, Not ever."
"You can't make demands like that." She shot back, at him, which made this even harder for him to say.
"I just did. I have to protect my baby. My family is..." He lets his voice trail off.
The words 'my family' runs through her head. That was the first time, he said that to her. The first time was always the best when something like that is said.
"Our family," She smiles. Oh how it slid off her tongue was amazing, making it a reality.
"I don't want to put you two in danger," he comments trying to make his point.
"I..." she starts to say.
"I know what your going to say, that you already are, but I can't..." She tries to stand up. "I can't risk it." He touches her on her belly again. "You two are my world. I can't lose you. I wont lose you over this."
She touches the side of his face, "And I can't lose you." He swallows, trying to hold back the tears so he can finish what he had to say to her.
"I have to now protect you like you did for me. That's what real partners do! So I made a decision."
She swallows, she knew he wasn't finished giving his speech but she had something to add.
"One that didn't include me. Is that it?"
He lowers his head to look at the floor. She did the same thing to him, two years ago, right before they got engaged. He takes a few minutes to collect his thoughts again. This was never suppose to be this hard. But I want my family to be safe. He clears his throat.
"This is the hardest decision I have to make to..." he pauses, "To see you walk out that door again."
"Again?" Beckett questions, then it floods back to her, what he was talking about.
"But I have to. I can't... wont have it any other way."
"Castle," He shakes his head, "I..." she starts to talk but he interrupts her.
"Don't," He glances at her, then holds her eyes for a second. "You will do this," He blinks, "You will be on that flight an an hour." He turns to look away. She knew that he was doing all this for her safety but it didn't make the pain any easier to handle.
"Where," She pauses for a second. Trying to let all of this sink in.
"Our place, the one that we talked about. The one that we are going to start our lives over again."
"What about?" Her gut starts to hurt her again, something else he was about to tell her was going to change their lives for good.
"I will come when I can." See, there it is. The words that she never wanted to hear come out of his mouth, that he wasn't coming with her now. Would he ever? She thought at first that her brain misunderstood him. Then she thought about the words...when I can...so this was for real. But why. He's not staying to take out...oh but I think that he is.
"What?" She asks still in the shock, she was not going to lose him all over again.
"I'm staying..." He glance back at her. There she had conformation. This was not an easy choice for him to stay while he let his wife go across the world without him.
"But..." She starts then thinks better not to. She didn't want to argue a battle that she knew she might not win. He protecting you, girl go with it. He loves you. Her mind told her.
"The boys and I will take care of," He couldn't even say the word, of the man they were chasing down. "From here." He continues to talk, without slowing down.
"Your putting me on a plane without you?" She glances up at him. She already knew the answer she just want to hear it from him.
"Yes, yes I am." Tears begin to fall from his eyes. What else was he suppose to do? He had to protect her at all cost and this was it. This is where he was making his stand. Although he wanted them to do this together it was a bigger risk now. An innocent child was involved and he was't about to allow that.
"I want to go with you, trust me I do but with this..." He swallows, the lets out a long sigh, "You take care of them..."
'Them' she thought, that would be amazing if she had more then one. He reaches out to her, "That's what's most important to me."
"We are most important," She corrects him. "How are we?"
"Going to tell the boys," How she loves that he could read her mind like that. "I'll tell the boys that you took off again."
"Will they buy it?" She wasn't sure that they would this time. Or maybe all the fighting earlier was enough to show them that things weren't good between them.
"If not, I'll lie some. I'll think of something to say. I have been for months." Beckett sighs, That's another thing she doesn't like about this. She was turning into a liar. Something that she didn't want to, something that her mother would have hated to see, even her father. They taught her better then this. To stand up to fight, not back down. That's what he's doing Kate. Not giving up on you or his family!
"Don't remind me." He knew that this was the part that was eating her up inside. That she hates having to lying to the people that she cares about. Castle and Beckett did it when they first got together. It ate at her for months. Till that secret came out and it wasn't all the bad of a fall out. But this one might be. Kate kept them in dark because it was to dangerous for everyone involved but was it still. Maybe telling them about it, will give Castle some back-up if he needs it. she thought.
"We will have our happy ending, or..." Castle's voice interrupts her thoughts. She places her hand up to his mouth quickly.
"Don't say it." Her eyes were pleading him not to, "Don't say that word." She never want to hear that word from his lips, especially not now. She reaches for his hand, one that she will not be holding anytime soon.
To be continued...