Midnight
While I was in the shower, I couldn't stop replaying the horrible breakups and fights I had gone through. It was the words of the last fight that still haunted me.
Brian had seemed like a nice guy… Until it was made clear to me what was actually on his agenda. Only a month into the "relationship", he decided we were going to sleep together. I resisted and argued that I wasn't ready yet, and he lost it. The screams of hate still woke me up sometimes.
"Midnight, don't be a baby."
"Brian… I told you. I'm not ready."
"Of course you are, you stupid whore!"
"No! I'm not a whore!"
"Right… That would imply that I'm actually getting some action, bitch."
"Stop it!"
"Not until I get what I want!"
"What about what I want?"
"I don't give a shit what you want! Now what?"
"I don't wanna be with you!"
"That doesn't matter! You're gonna give me what I want!"
"NO!"
My final cry of desperation always startled me out of the dream. I had poured every ounce of strength into it. Then, I left. He didn't even follow me.
As I sat down by CC, I refused to think about my past.
"Hey there!" He chuckled.
"Hey…" My cheeks turned red as I realized how dumb I sounded.
"How was your shower?" He smiled, seeming quite amused.
"Good. Thanks?" I was unsure of how to answer that.
"It's almost midnight…" He winked.
"The latest part of the night and the earliest part of morning…"I said quietly, thinking about when my mother told me why she named me Midnight, despite how I promised myself not to think of the past. CC stayed silent. I looked at him. His gaze penetrated my thoughts and I smiled again, although it wasn't a completely true smile.
"Are you tired? It's pretty late." He said awkwardly.
"Only if you are." I bit my lip.
"I'll show you the bedroom, so you can go to sleep when you want." He got up. I grabbed his hand and followed him.
The bedroom was small, but cozy.
"I like it." I smiled.
"Good. Because this is where you get to sleep!" He laughed. I sat down on the bed.
"Are you sure?" I asked. I didn't want to be an intrusion.
"Yeah. I'll take the couch."
"Alright…" I laid back. He walked towards the door.
"Sleep tight, beautiful."
"…CC?"
"Yeah?" He turned around. I patted the spot next to me. He slowly sat down.
"Please stay. I… I'm scared to be alone." I hated saying those words. They made me feel so small and insignificant.
"What are you scared of?"
"I have nightmares. I scream and I feel trapped until I finally hit the wall or shock myself out of it." I felt so embarrassed.
"I'll stay. I'll make sure you're safe."
CC
"…I'll stay… I'll make sure you're safe." I silently added forever to the end.
"Thank you." She blushed. I leaned back so I was lying next to her.