Charmed... the other way around ::: The Drama Chapter 07:
Late Autumn 2002 Part 7

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That it was just a coincidence, that in the following weeks, every day someone was visiting me at some point or small distractions were always in reach, I still don't believe. But I really don't care how or why Andy did it, I just know, that there couldn't have been a better therapy.

I finally could push the subject of my mother aside. At least at day. As, no matter, how much I had banished the thought of Patricia Wilder into the depth of my conscious, it still was present and haunted me every night in my dreams.

The most 'successful' project – as Andy might would have called it – was Brian. He had bought me a book filled with baby names. We talked all morning, while discovering the most exotic and sometimes even stupid names, we could imagine. Then we ordered in some Chinese food for a late lunch – we kinda had gotten lost in the discussion – and afterwards started to heatedly discuss baby names.

When Andy got home, he looked at us as if we were nuts. I think he might even has felt a little left out, since his best friend and wife already like had decided what his kid's name was going to be. I felt kinda sorry for him as well. Something deep inside of me told me, he had no chance he ever would win a fight over this.

Brian had pleaded for a Brianna... after her future absolutely most favourite uncle. At that point Andy told him to now better grab his stuff and go, before he'd get desperate. We had a good long laugh and then packed the baby name stuff away to watch a movie.

Andy didn't know it then, but I had settled already on a name for our little one. I loved the name from the second I read it. But officially the serious discussion had only started the next day, when Andy and I had been alone in the evening.

The question of a name never had come into the picture. Not yet. There was too much on our mind from the day on, we knew, we'd have a girl. But with Brian's book it came more conscious into our minds our little girl needed a name. After a while of just babbling about names, we decided it hadn't been that successful and so we agreed to each of us writing down 5 names we liked and then discuss.

"Okay... well I have Aimee, Catherine, Fiona, Isabelle and Lauren" he told me in a somewhat proud voice after like almost an hour of searching

"Let's see... no, no, no, umm... no and ya... no!"

"Why not?" he asked, his mouth still hanging open

"First of all... Aimee, Fiona and Lauren are names you can't do nicknames of..." I started.

"Well, that's a pro for me..."

"But not for me" I wanted a nickname for each and every of my kids. No doubt. I mean. What use does it have when you called your kid Aimee and you called for her that way, when you're proud of her, when you say good night to her and when you're mad at her? With nicknames and full names, you could express already with the use of a name, what your mood towards your child is.

"And Catherine and Isabelle... I dunno... I mean... Isabelle... we'd probably call her Belle... I guess and that's just so... I dunno... calling your kid beauty?" I asked him, on what he just let out a small chuckle "And Catherine... it's just... nah... I always have to think about Catherine Hepburn and I don't really like her."

"Ya but I do..."

"Okay... fine... Catherine can stay... for now" I relented, smiling a little to myself

Andy smiled widely and kissed me "thanks! Even though I really wanna know what's going on in your head right now with that smile on your face..."

"Can't tell" I answered smirking slight...

"Right! Now you..."

"Weeell... I only have one name..."

"That would be?"

"Roxanne..."

"No way!"

"Andy... could you first listen to me..."

"Umm... no!! You don't wanna call our kid beauty... fine! But I'm not naming our kid after a slut..."

"Just because of a song..."

"Just because of an actress?" he countered

"It's kinda exotic... and I don't want a name like any other for our daughter. And... Just think about it... Roxy... that's really sweet... I mean... we would only call her Roxanne when we're like mad at her or something"

"We would... but what about the teachers?"

"My teachers never called me Prudence either... c'mon..."

"no..." he said, sounding just as determined as I was on naming our daughter Roxanne, just that he had the contrary opinion.

"You do realize that you're over voted, because... I do have all the work with this kid... I am the one getting fat... I'm the one being in pain for weeks and screaming for hours... I am the one who's gonna breastfeed her and I am gonna be the one to stay home to raise her, so I have way more vote in this than you do" I argued, getting a little away from him.

"That's not fair..." he called out, but I didn't let him finish whatever he wanted to say afterwards

"That you had 30 minuets of fun and I am the one suffering under it? Ya, you're right! No fair!"

"You know fine well, that if I could I'd do..."

"But you can't" I stopped him once more

"But..."

"You're not changing my mind. It's Roxy, Andy..."

"Then... how about... we make a list and ask everyone important to us. Roxy is starting out with two points Catherine with one... the rest family and friends can decide... a fair competition..."

"Okay" I grinned again, not telling him, I kinda knew already how this was gonna end.

It's funny that the fact, Brian voted for Roxanne made the final decision. Or not that funny, as Brian had seen my face the first time I read the name out loud. He knew I really had kind of fallen in love with that name. Andy just quipped to all of that, that he was going to name the next kid... and that I wouldn't get a say in it then. I just agreed, knowing, that if I really seriously hated a name, Andy wouldn't choose it after all.

The night the decision was final, we lay together in bed and Andy had just finished of his evening ceremony of bonding with his daughter – he every evening uncovered my stomach. Kissed and caressed it while talking to it – as I finally told him, why I kinda insisted on the name

"You know what? I gotta tell you something..."

"You do? What is it? Something wrong with... Roxy?" he asked... adding the name only reluctantly, but in a certain worry after all

"No... No, she's fine... I think..." I told him, not really sure. I wasn't at a doctor for a while, but the low kicks and punches I felt every now and then, made me believe, she was alright

"I... I had a dream the other night... when Brian was over... it was like... I brought a little girl to bed..." I told him smiling a little, as I remembered every tiny detail of the little girl's features. Her slanted blue eyes that are like two chunks of lapis lazuli. Her fine, curly, night-black hair. The soft, almost silky, skin.

"She asked me to tell her a story... and I asked her what she wanted to hear... and she said she wanted to hear the story of her name. And I told her that you and I were fighting over Roxanne or Catherine... and that we made a competition... and that uncle Brian was the final vote to Roxanne... and she just smiled happily, telling me, she was glad, cause there were two other Catherines in her class, and she really found that very confusing."

"So that's why you agreed on asking everyone"

"I think I also could have lived with Catherine... so... it didn't really matter...but it's funny I knew you'd say Catherine before you did..."

"Ya... weird" Andy just said and then kinda went silent. As if he was thinking about something. Later, I got to know, he immediately connected the dots between this dream and the dream I had about me, the killer and his victim. He already back then somewhat had realized that this was some kind of power of mine. I on the contrary, just thought of it as a weird coincidence. Especially cause I yet had to get to know, that other dream wasn't so much of a dream either.

"You okay?"

"Ya... sure. I'm just... tired I guess..." I nodded and pecked him

"Night"

"Sweet dreams, baby" he told me, kissed me once more deeply, before we both got comfortable positions to sleep.

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AN:
a little calm before the storm ;) hope you liked and enjoyed the peace. It's gonna change drastically in the next few chapters!! Leave me a few words, please?