Ch1. Reality Check-…Say Whaaaat! Part5
The day of my exam arrived and of course I was wracked with nervousness. I really didn't know what to do or how on earth I was gonna pass this exam and be able to go on an all-day date with my new husband. But I was not about to give up and I will do my best so Seung Jo will be proud of me-I will continue to befit him as his wife. All these thoughts were swimming thru my head as I sat in the car waiting to work up the nerve enough to walk inside and take my exam. This morning getting ready for my test wasn't much better either. For the life of me I felt I just couldn't wake up! I was just so desperately tired and to make matters more uncomfortable I've continued to have my Genie Dream on and off again for the last couple of months vivid in color and just so incredibly real as if I was waking to my dream in another world. Just so frustrating! I haven't been able to bring myself to let Seung Jo know about my reoccurring dream yet-it might upset him that it wakes me up early a bit unsettled about its meaning. And I also haven't told him that I've fainted twice now from just the complete exhausted-ness I've felt from all the pressure to do well-at least I think that's what it's from. I really don't want to confirm my other suspicion just quite yet-I don't think it's possible and it's way too early in our marriage to be worrying about such things either. But all this will have to wait till I finish with my exams today.
Seung Jo and Omanie give me there last bit of encouragement and tell me to do well. I get out of the car and head into the exam hall to take my test. As I sit and go thru question for question I'm completely amazed that they're the exact same questions I went over with Seung Jo three nights in a row! I called Min-Ah as soon as I hung up the phone with Seung Jo. I excitedly explained how all the test questions were the exact same ones I studied for with my amazingly awesome, super-hot, genius-smart husband!
"Wow, the questions were dead on! The husband I've married is truly an amazing genius of a man!"
"I really think I'm gonna be able to enter the Nursing Program for real Min-Ay!" As I shared my excitement and joy with her administration called my name to take the practical exam. I walked in the room and took a seat in the chair provided, and when I look up I was completely startled to see the same woman I sat before to enter college before me judging my practical exam! Was it even possible for fate to play such a cruel trick on me today? When I really need to transfer to this program, why did she have to be my evaluator? This is so not fair! But I began my test as instructed and as I did I began to get really nervous with her watching my every move like a hawk. Eventually in the end it proved useless 'cause she said I killed my rescue-e and there was no way she can allow a murderer to become a nurse. Resigned and a bit sad and tired from the whole ordeal we quickly headed home. Sitting on my couch in the Living room I announced the results immediately.
"The results were final and delivered on the spot." I said a feeling of judgment in everyone's eyes as I look away especially from Seung Jo. "They can't pick a murderer." Mother gasped as she disbelieved it. Eun Jo commented badly about me and nursing not going together and Seung Jo just looked towards me with sympathy.
"I think I will have to start looking for another major to transfer to." I commented sadly as I head up to my room to contemplate a new plan.
Heading for the stairs though, a wave of dizziness hits me suddenly and I stumbled to get my bearings reaching for the railing on the staircase and everything seemed to just go black and I could feel myself falling, Seung Jo racing to break my fall unsuccessfully along with the rest of my family. I awoke on my bed Seung Jo asleep on the table across the room from me. I got up and walked across the room and wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He immediately woke, swinging around got up and abruptly pushed me where he was just sitting looking me over closely with suspicion.
"Khan-chana?" He asked if I was alright worriedly as ever.
"Khan-chanta." I replied I was alright. "I guess I was more tired than I thought with all this studying. I'm sorry we won't be able to go on our date in two days."
"A promise is a promise and shouldn't be broke." He looks towards me and sees my despair. "But that doesn't mean we can't have a nice dinner together instead? What do you think?"
"Cheon'cha!?" "Really!? You don't mind if we go out?"
"Crae'sae," "Well, to make this clear it's not a date, just a nice dinner. You worked really hard and you deserve to go out somewhere decent. Don't you think this would be ok without breaking the original promise of an all-day date?"
"Wow!" You really want to go to dinner with me still?" I exclaimed joyously
"Pabo-Oh Ha Ni!" "Aigoo... Am'madae'yo", 'Of course, why wouldn't I want to go out to dinner with my wife! But can you do me a favor please?"
"Boeya?" "What favor can I possibly do for Baek Seung Jo that he can't already do?" I smirked out my comment with a coy smile.
Beak Seung Jo's expression then went from boyish cuteness to his familiar steely cold glare of a stare and walked up to me so acutely I nearly choked up on my throat. Grabbing my face he centers me towards him and holds my eyes in place immovably, and I can do nothing but stare straight at him in fear of my life and racking my brain to think of anything I could've done to conjure such reaction from him. There were none I could recall! What on earth are you doing! Seung Jo-what now! I thought frantically to my self.
"Putakyeo... Pudi-'Please...Please tell me what's going on with you? You don't look well and you aren't telling me anything and I hate when I have to sit back and watch you suffer in silence with no words to any one about the burdens your baring!" He said thru clenched lips.
His breath and hands on my face grasping me secure, my thoughts ventured to the bed across the room and...wait, I can't be thinking like this he's expressing genuine fear and concern and I can only think about... come on Oh Ha Ni why are your thoughts so muddled and clearly unfocused lately? You're so easily distracted more than usual, but now especially when Seung Jo's around-What IS going on with you?... looking into his eyes I could see his cautious concern there for certain.
"OH HA NI! Focus please! This is exactly what 'm talking about. You seem to be running yourself down to the bone-will you please go-". The smell of mothers cooking came wafting up the stairs and into our room. In that moment I was instantly hungry for dinner. I removed from Seung Jo's hold of me putting my finger to his lips to stop his fussing and started for the exit.
"Lets go down for dinner, I'm hungry!" I cheerfully said bounding to the door then stopping short.
Seung Jo roughly touseling his hair with his hand followed close behind then tripped into me as I stopped dead center halfway to the door. My stomach not more than a second ago desperately wanting food felt like it dropped to the floor and grasping myself midsection, my left hand whipped to my mouth I dashed for the bathroom flying thru the door and flinging up the toilet to barely make it to hurl what was left of lunch from after I took my exam today. Seung Jo racing to my side to hold my hair and gently rub my back comfortingly.
"Thought you said you were hungry?" Quietly laughing by my side. I wanted to punch him but I just continued to convulse in the toilet.
"This is what I wanted to say to you before you cut me off. I think you're making yourself sick with all this stress you're under. Silently baring the burden not sharing with me or even mother like u usually do. Will you please go visit the doctor before we go out for our Christmas Eve Dinner? Promise me you will go so I can put my worries at ease?"
Rushing to the stairs to head down for dinner my arm is caught up and I turn abruptly to see that Seung Jo has grabbed me. With a mischievous look in his eyes-almost as if he heard my thoughts just now-he whips me to him quickly grabbing me up into a strongly passionate hug. Pulling me to him he hugs me and gently moves my bang hairs from my eyes and sensually crooks his head bending, his lips meet mine. He kisses me sweetly, I'm all a stir and I wrap my arms around his neck and press myself against him securely. My eyes go wide as I see Eun Jo stuck in place halfway up the stairs just staring at what his brother just did mouth hung open unable to move from his place on the staircase. I quickly turn around in Seung Jo's arms discretely pointing his brother out to him. Seung Jo smirks a laugh and all we can do is both quietly smile and walk toward him to head to dinner as Seung Jo ruffles the top of his hair with his hand on the way downstairs to meet up with the parents. Eun Jo turning about face glaring steely.
"HYUNG! OH HA NI-HYUNGSOO!"... he heads at us. We just laugh as we quickly rush out of his view. One day you'll experience the pleasure of being in love soul-y too! I thought as I silently laughed to myself, looking at Seung Jo who seemed to be thinking the same as our eyes meet we quickly looked away, as he pulled out the chair for me to sit down. Eun Jo right behind us sitting next to me across from mother.
"Aigoo, Ugh! Newlyweds! Sickening!" Mother looking at him in abrupt shock reaching across the table to smack his forehead saying something about respecting the order of elders in the house since his brother is now a married man he can't say such things. Again, I bite my lip bending my head down to my chin quietly smiling sneaking a peek at the suffering Eun Jo.
'Life is Good! I don't think it can get any better than this.' As I grabbed my bowl and Kimchi and stuffed my face full.