Hurt By Him, Confused By You
Kagome's eyes fluttered open.
She groaned when a pain shot through her stomach.
Kagome blushed when she saw Sesshomaru sitting by her, leaning against Ah Un. She noticed he was asleep.
Kagome's mind flashed back to what had happened yesterday. Her eyes widened.
"Naraku is dead…" she whispered and small smile appeared on her lips.
Kagome looked down at her stomach and noticed it was all bandaged up.
She sighed and looked at Sesshomaru. "…why did you save me…?" her eyes saddened.
Sesshomaru stayed quiet, drowned in his slumber, breathing in and out softly.
"You're awake, human?" Jaken's voice came.
Kagome turned and saw Jaken peering down at her. "Yea…" Kagome smiled weakly.
"That's good. You know…" Jaken sighed and looked away. "Lord Sesshomaru…seems to care for you a lot…he doesn't even worry this much for Rin…there's….there's something special in you that seems to attract him,"
Kagome blushed.
"This is the first time I have ever seen him…" Jaken paused, finding the right words to say.
"…love someone so much…"
Kagome's eyes widened. "N…no, you have it all wrong…I…I'm merely just a companion, just like you and Rin…" she murmured.
"I can see it in his eyes. I am the one best to know him because I have been with Lord Sesshomaru over many years…you're the first one I've ever seen him look at such…such sadness when you're hurt…and such warmth fills his eyes whenever you smile…" Jaken made a small grin.
"You know, when I asked him why does he care for you so much…he smiled....and…he has never smiled before…ever, in my life, have I seen him smile…" Jaken sighed and turned his back to her. "Show him more warmth…care for him and love him…Sesshomaru sama is kinder to me and does not hit me anymore, when you do that…"
Kagome sweat dropped and laughed.
When Jaken was out of sight, she turned back to Sesshomaru.
Her eyes softened. "I know you care for me…but the thought of having you love me is just…too impossible…you always said love is weak…so of course, you may care for a person from time to time…but…" Kagome sighed.
"…you will never learn how to love someone…" her eyes saddened.
"Why am I saying this? Is it because…I want you to love me? Do I want you to love me…?" Kagome felt her heart bump faster.
"I…I want you…to love me…because…because…" Kagome stared at his closed eyes, hesitating to say it.
"…because…maybe…maybe…" her voice got quieter.
"…no…no, I'm sure…it's because…I…" Kagome smiled at him.
"…I…I love you, Sesshomaru…"
Sesshomaru awoke slowly. He looked down at Kagome and noticed she was awake, staring up at the sky.
"…are you ok, now…?" he asked quietly.
Kagome turned to him and smiled. "Thank you, Sesshomaru…" she replied.
Sesshomaru stayed quiet and just kept staring at her.
"If I hadn't saved you…if you were gone…then this whole world would mean nothing to me anymore, Kagome…" he murmured.
Kagome blushed. "W…what do you mean…?" she looked away shyly.
Sesshomaru smirked. "...never mind…" he stated and stood up.
"Are you hungry?" Sesshomaru stared down at her.
Kagome nodded slightly.
"I'll go bring some food…" he replied and dashed away.
Kagome laid there, staring at the sky. "…if I was gone…then this world…would mean nothing to him?" Kagome laughed quietly.
"So…does that mean I'm the world to him, then? That if I was gone, everything would just be…pointless?" she smiled softly.
"Maybe this is why I fell for you…you're so unpredictable, yet…you seem to care so much, but put it in words that I don't understand at all…" Kagome laughed and shook her head.
"…you're so confusing, Sesshomaru…"
Sesshomaru sighed and looked at the water.
"…I…I am…falling for her…?" his eyes narrowed.
"Love is weak…I mustn't fall for a human like my father-," Sesshomaru growled when flashbacks of Kagome appeared in his mind.
"…no…no, it's not that don't…because….because I know that I do love her…but…it's because I can't…" his fists clenched tightly.
"I can't love her. I'm a demon…she's a human…we both live in a completely different world. I can't…I can't love her…" Sesshomaru's eyes closed tightly to hide the pain. "Why does she make me feel like this? So warm inside…so comforting…it's like…I just want to hold her forever and keep her in my embrace. Father…"
Sesshomaru opened his eyes and looked up at the sky.
"Father…is this…is this how you felt towards Inuyasha's mother? Is this why you were willing to protect her no matter what? Because she made you feel like this…because you loved her…" an image appeared in the clouds.
Sesshomaru smirked when the image of his father reached out towards him.
"…father…tell me why…even though you and Inuyasha's mother are two completely different beings…human and demon…why is that your love for each other so strong?" Sesshomaru shook his head and sighed.
"You seek power…the only key to true power is having someone you love…I died protecting Inuyasha's mother, because I loved her. Knowing that, I didn't care about anything else…I didn't care that I was a demon or that she was a human…that doesn't matter at all. What matters to me…was that I was able to die, protecting her…protecting her and Inuyasha…I died, protecting her to the last moment…and for that, I was happy. Do not be afraid to love that girl, Sesshomaru…you have grown and ever since she came into your life, from the moment she stuck with you…from that exact moment…you loved her." Inutaisho's voice rang from above.
Sesshomaru looked down and stayed quiet.
"…I understand…" he made a small smile and looked up once again at the sky.
"Thank you, father."
Sesshomaru came back and saw Rin and Jaken running around, chasing each other.
He turned towards Kagome, who was now sitting up, leaning against Ah Un, staring at him.
Sesshomaru looked away and threw the fishes he had caught a while ago down by the fire.
"I'm not hungry, anymore," Kagome stated.
Sesshomaru walked to her and knelt down.
Kagome blushed at his stare. She looked away shyly.
Sesshomaru lifted up her chin and faced her to his direction again.
"Would you…be angry at me…if I took advantage of you?" he asked.
"E…eh?" Kagome blushed at his statement.
"…well…for example, like this…"
Sesshomaru leaned in and planted a small kiss on her cheek.
Kagome turned red. A chill went down her spine.
"W…what are you doing?!" she exclaimed.
"Hn. You wouldn't be mad. You're just surprised I did that…but you are not angry with me…am I right?" Sesshomaru smirked.
"….yes…" Kagome replied quietly.
"So then, you liked it?" Sesshomaru stared at her blankly.
Kagome blushed and stayed quiet.
After a few moments, Sesshomaru stood up and walked away.
Kagome felt the urge to call him back, but sat still.
"…why…why are you doing this to me…? It isn't fair…" She blushed and touched her cheek.
"You make me so confused…" Kagome smiled.
Sesshomaru sat on a boulder and watched Rin and Jaken.
"She wasn't angry…but only surprised…" he smirked.
"So then she must've like it…" he glanced back at her, who was staring back at him.
Kagome blushed and looked away quickly.
Sesshomaru smirked.
'What bothers me is…I'm just scared you won't feel the same way…' he thought and smiled faintly at her.
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