A/N: Hey everyone!

Here's a new chapter!

Hope you like it.

Trigger warnings: mention of self-harm and suicide.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own The 100.

"Lexa!"

"Raaah!"

"Lexa, calm down!"

"Get away from me!"

"Jackson, I need restraining chains over here! Quick!"

Abby was trying to keep Lexa still in her bed, but the brunette was fighting fiercely, and soon, she managed to brutally push Abby onto the floor and she got up, ripping her drip away from her arm, blood slowly dripping onto the cold floor.

Lexa stood there, enraged, obviously confused because of the pain killers. Abby knew they should have sedated her.

"I should have died with them!" the brunette yelled, tears streaming down her face. "You shouldn't have saved me! They died because of me!"

Lexa had tried to steal a drop ship and get to the Earth. 'Suicide by the Earth' they called it, but Abby had figured it out, and had brought her to the clinic after she fought the guards who'd come after her and injured herself. Under normal circumstances, that would have cost her her freedom, and they would have locked her up in a cell, but these weren't normal circumstances at all. Abby had asked the Chancellor to give the girl a chance, to allow her to grieve and get her life back. And he had accepted, maybe out of guilt and pity due to what had happened to her family. Except that Lexa hadn't had a life to go back to anymore. Her family was dead, and she was left on her own. Anya and Lincoln had tried to see her, but she had sent them away violently. Abby was the only one capable of preventing Lexa from hurting herself now, and that's what she intended to do, even if she had landed on her ass as Lexa shoved her away.

The older woman got up in a swift motion, but she stayed away from Lexa, giving the girl some space to try and make her feel safe. However, Abby thought that Lexa might not ever feel safe, ever again.

"Listen to me carefully, Lexa. What happened to your parents was a tragedy. But it's not your fault. Your dad died because of a tragic accident. And everything that happened after that wasn't your fault at all." Abby saw Jackson coming in with restraints out of the corner of her eye, but she quickly dismissed him with a shake of her head.

"I should have been there with them! I was supposed to be! I should have died with them…" The brunette collapsed on the floor, exhausted. She didn't want to feel like this anymore. She didn't want to feel anything at all anymore.

Abby was by her side in less than a second, and she cupped Lexa's face to force the brunette to look at her. "Lexa, it was not your fault. You're still alive for a reason, Lexa. You're not alone, and everyone who loves you will help get you through this, including me. Because you will get through this, Lexa. I promise you."

"Lexa!"

"Lexa, wake up!"

"Lexa!"

Lexa abruptly sat up straight on her bed, and she found it hard to breathe. She needed air, she needed-

She didn't know what she needed. But she sure as hell didn't need to relive those terrible moments from her past.

"Lexa," came Clarke's reassuring voice beside her, "it was just a nightmare."

Both Griffin women had insisted that Lexa stayed for dinner, and then also for the night, because as Abby had said, "Now that I finally get to see you again, I'm not letting you get away". Lexa felt so grateful that they were here. Because she'd had nightmares almost every night since that day, and for the first time ever, someone was beside her, comforting her and telling her that everything would be okay.

Clarke was tenderly drawing small circles on Lexa's back, and she took her hands in her own, squeezing them lightly as she whispered, "I'm here. You don't have to be afraid. You're not alone."

Lexa's breathing became more regular, and once she was able to form coherent thoughts, she thanked her. "Thank you for being here, Clarke. I'm sorry I woke you up."

Lexa brushed her thumb against the blonde's hand, and Clarke gave her a soft smile. "It's okay. I wasn't sleeping anyway."

Clarke didn't want to admit it to Lexa, but she had been unable to sleep, instead watching over her friend and just processing everything she had told her. How could someone bear this on their own for so long? Clarke wondered. Fortunately, Lexa hadn't been completely alone. Anya and Lincoln had been there, but as much as Clarke knew Lexa was grateful for them, it just wasn't enough. Now, Clarke was determined not to let the brunette feel alone ever again. She would be there for her whenever she needed her, just as she promised. And Clarke also promised herself to get through Lexa's thick walls, and be one of the people who Lexa could turn to whenever she felt like she needed to lean on someone.

"What was keeping you awake?" Lexa wondered, still trying to even her breathing.

"Drawing," Clarke lied, thinking that it might sound creepy that she had been watching her sleep, and that Lexa would likely feel the same. The brunette seemed to believe it, having noticed Clarke's sketchbook on the floor beside the bed.

"I wasn't kidding when I said you have a gift, you know?" Lexa chuckled. "I mean, I couldn't draw to save my own life, but I recognize an artist when I see one. And you're one hell of an artist."

Clarke blushed and returned the compliment, "Thanks. And I could say the same about your writing, it's really amazing."

She thought she saw Lexa blush, matching her own, but it was hard to tell in the darkness. Lexa then glanced at the clock on the bedside table, and she saw it was almost three in the morning. Clarke followed her gaze and suggested, "Come on, let's go back to sleep, and maybe I'll finally sleep too."

"Good idea," Lexa smiled. Noticing her and Clarke's hands were still entangled, she quickly pulled her own away, resting her head on the pillows. "Goodnight, Clarke," she murmured as she resisted the urge to place Clarke's hand around her waist. She was happy that Clarke was going to be her friend, and she would never do anything that might ruin that friendship.

"Goodnight, Lexa."

A knock was heard on the door on Sunday morning, and Jake went to answer it. He wasn't surprised to see Raven on the other side of the door, it was usual for the girl to just drop by to see Clarke. He was really happy that her daughter had such a thoughtful best friend.

"Good morning, Raven," he greeted the girl. "Here to see Clarke?"

"Hey, Mr. G. Yeah, is she here?" Raven queried.

Before Jake could answer, Clarke was beside him, inviting Raven inside without hesitation. "Hi, Rae! Come in. We were just having breakfast."

Raven was slightly surprised, because the Griffins usually had their breakfast way earlier than that. As if Clarke read her mind, she clarified, "We went to bed pretty late last night, and we decided to have a lazy Sunday."

They'd had so much fun last night, talking and playing stupid board games with Lexa. They hadn't seen the hours flowing by.

"I don't want to interrupt anything-"

"Don't be silly. You're not interrupting anything, Raven. Besides, we already have a guest," Jake cut her off, opening the door wider to let her come in.

Raven frowned, wondering who that could be. To say that she was surprised to find Lexa sitting at their table would be the understatement of the year. Last time she had checked, Clarke was still mad at Lexa for some obscure reason, and now they were having sleepovers without her? Raven tried to hide her smirk when she thought that maybe, Clarke and Lexa had decided to move on to the next level.

"Hi, Raven," Abby greeted her, and Lexa nodded, chewing on some food.

"Hey, Mrs. G, Lex," Raven greeted back, smiling.

"How many times have I asked you to call me Abby?" Abby said playfully.

They all chatted happily, and soon, they had finished eating breakfast – there hadn't much to eat to begin with – and Lexa stood up. "Thanks for everything, really. But I better get going now, and let you-"

"Lexa," Abby cut her off, scowling, "we already talked about this. You're not going anywhere. At least, not today," she finished with a small smile, which Lexa reciprocated.

"I don't want to bother you or any-"

"Lexa!" This time, it was Clarke's turn to scowl. "You heard her, it's doctor's orders that you stay here with us today." Clarke and the Griffins wouldn't insist so much if they didn't know that the last thing Lexa wanted was to be at her place by herself.

Lexa finally gave in. "Okay, thanks again for everything."

"Stop thanking us, it's fine." Jake flashed her a reassuring smile. He had only met the girl the previous day, but he was already under her spell. Lexa was truly an amazing person.

"Okay, I have no clue as to what's going on here," Raven muttered under her breath, and Clarke chuckled beside her.

The three girls ended up in Clarke's room, making small talk and laughing at silly jokes Raven kept coming up with. Suddenly, Clarke remembered her conversation with her friend almost a week ago, and she exclaimed, "Rae! You never told me if you asked Bell out!"

"Clarke!" Raven glared at her friend, because she'd rather keep her crush on the boy low-key. It wasn't that she didn't trust Lexa, she simply didn't want everyone to know.

Lexa chuckled, and that made Raven's cheeks turn a slight shade of pink. "Don't worry, I won't say anything."

"Oh, I know you won't. Because if you do, I might have to kill you," Raven deadpanned and Lexa burst in laughter at the supposedly scary look the other girl was giving her.

It felt good to be normal again, just hanging out with friends on a Sunday instead of doing homework. Talking about school, crushes and friends, not having anything to worry about. It was the most alive Lexa had felt in a while.

"Well?" Clarke urged her friend, because she still hadn't given her an answer.

"He sort of… asked me out the other day," Raven stated shyly.

"What? And you didn't tell me?" Clarke frowned.

"Well, yes, because you were all grumpy that Miss Cutie over here wasn't talking to you." Raven answered playfully.

Lexa blushed a little at the nickname, and Clarke feigned being hurt. "I wasn't grumpy, just… confused."

"Yeah, right. Whatever you tell yourself to deny that you were actually a pain in the ass all week." Clarke huffed, and Raven continued, "You still haven't told me what the fuss was about, by the way. Now that you two obviously sorted it out, it'd be nice of you to keep me in the loop." Raven gazed from her best friend to Lexa, and back at her best friend again.

Lexa gulped uncomfortably, and simply replied, "I was sort of a jerk to her."

"Sort of, or you were?"

"Raven!" Clarke scowled. "There's nothing to talk about anymore. Like you said, we sorted it out and now everything's fine. Right, Lexa?"

"Right." Lexa smiled fondly at her.

Raven rolled her eyes. It was obvious that they still thought they were just friends, that they weren't totally crushing on each other. If it hadn't been so tense all week between them, Raven would have outed them right then and there.

"Okay, I'll drop it," Raven gave in. For now, she quickly added to herself.

"So…" Lexa brought them back to the original topic. "Bellamy asked you out?"

Raven' cheeks turned a bright red and Clarke laughed, "Oh my god, is the great Raven Reyes actually blushing?"

Raven tried to shrug it off, though it was obvious that she was really embarrassed. "He suggested that we watch the moon rise together, and then watch a movie or something."

"How romantic." Clarke chuckled.

"I know. It's weird, isn't it?" Raven smiled mockingly, though she found Bellamy's suggestion adorable.

"You said yes, right?" Lexa questioned.

Raven huffed, "Duh, of course I said yes. He's really cute and he seems like a nice guy."

"Well, if he hurts you, he's gonna have to deal with me," Clarke deadpanned and Raven laughed.

"And me," Lexa added, making Raven laugh even harder.

As it was nearing lunch time, Lexa got up from where she was previously seated, and said apologetically, "I wish I could stay, but I really have to go. I usually eat with Lincoln on Sundays, and I don't want him to be alone."

"He lives on his own too?" Clarke asked, and immediately regretted having added the 'too', because Raven didn't know that Lexa lived on her own. The thought of Lexa being alone at her place all the time made Clarke cringe.

Raven frowned, but didn't say anything as Lexa replied, "Yes, he's eighteen so he applied for a small apartment. Normally, the Chancellor would have refused, but when Lincoln explained his situation, he had no choice but to accept."

"His situation?" Raven finally asked, curiosity getting the best of her. When she saw Lexa awkwardly moving from on foot to the other, she quickly added, "I'm sorry. I don't want to pry or anything. I was just curious, but you don't have to explain."

"I'd rather he tell you about that himself," Lexa clarified.

"Of course, we get it," Clarke agreed.

As Lexa told Clarke's parents goodbye, Abby gave her a quick hug, and Clarke did the same, though Lexa had the feeling that it had been unnecessarily longer than a friendly hug. Maybe she was just imagining things. Raven only waved to her goodbye, snickering because there seemed to be a lot of hugs suddenly, and she was so not a hug person.

The two best friends went back to Clarke's room, and Raven couldn't resist it anymore. She had to ask. "So… You and Lexa?"

"What do you mean 'me and Lexa'?" Clarke raised a questioning eyebrow.

"Come on!" Raven exclaimed. "You royally ignore each other all week, and now you're best buddies? She spends almost an entire day here?"

"There's nothing to say, really. She apologized, I got why she ignored me, and I forgave her. That's it." Clarke shrugged, dropping her gaze onto the floor, but she knew it wouldn't be enough for Raven.

"Clarke." Raven flashed her a pointed look.

"What?" Clarke huffed, raising her gaze to look at her friend.

"What's really going on with you two?"

"Nothing!" Clarke was exasperated now. That topic seemed really sensitive to her. "Gee, Rae, could you just drop it already? There's nothing to tell you because there's nothing going on."

Obviously, Raven wasn't convinced, but seeing her friend all defensive made her give in once more. Instead, she moved on to her favorite topic of the week, Bellamy. She still had to tell Clarke in details how he had asked her out, and Clarke laughed because she'd never seen her friend get so mushy about a boy before. She really hoped that it would work out between the two of them. They both deserved happiness. And with that thought, Clarke's mind was wandering once again, mostly focusing on her certain brunette whose biggest secret she had just found out, and she promised herself that she would do anything to protect Lexa.

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