Authors note:
Sorry this took a little longer than planned. I got started on a new one shot. Just a little idea that was buzzing around in my head that I needed to get out. The link will be on my profile soon if you're interested.
Special thanks to those who reviewed the last chapter. That's the most I've had for a single chapter. And though it doesn't really seem like a lot I cant tell you how happy it made me :) You're reviews really do make a difference so thank you all.
So here goes the final chapter as such, but the epilogue is still to follow.
Hopefully it will live up to all the build up:|
Chapter 7.
That next morning I woke up feeling sleepy and worn-out. Thankfully I never suffered from killer hangovers so after a cold shower and a litre of water I was raring to go.
Unfortunately the same couldn't be said for Alice who for the first time ever was like a bear with a soar head. She was sat in the kitchen with her head in her hands, her cereal lay half eaten besides her.
"Good Morning" I spoke as I made my way towards her.
"Are you suffering?" I asked cautiously.
"That's what the drilling going on in my head is!" she sarcastically replied
"I am never drinking again" she dramatically declared as she sunk further into her chair.
After we spoke of the many funny stories from last night she seemed to recover slightly and the bubbly and energetic Alice seemed to be returning.
Soon after Esme came downstairs looking as glamorous as ever. Clearly she didn't suffer from hangovers either.
I had expected things to be a little awkward when I thought about last nights confession but thankfully she did not mention it. However from the small smiles she sent my way I was sure that she approved of my affections.
Rose appeared not 10 minutes later unsurprisingly overcome with excitement.
"I'm getting married today" she declared with the brightest smile I had ever seen in my life.
We all ran towards her to congratulate her.
The morning flew by as we did our hair, make up and any other last minute emergencies.
As she stepped out in her bridal gown I didn't think I had ever seen a more beautiful bride.
Rosalie looked truly stunning and I found tears forming in my eyes at her perfection.
"Bella what's wrong?" she appeared concerned by my outburst.
"It's nothing it's just me being stupid. You look amazing Rose I'm just so happy for you really I am" confessed overcome with emotion.
"Thanks Bella" she said as she patted my shoulder.
"I cant wait until you are a part of the family" she added.
After Alice made a few final adjustments to my hair and make up we were finally ready to head to the idyllic church just on the outskirts of town.
Me and Angela headed off early to secure our seats ready for their arrival. Approaching the venue I knew it would be spectacular but still I couldn't contain my amazement when the beautiful and statuesque church came into view.
When we made our way inside I had thought I was fully prepared for the scene before me but all rational thoughts left me when my eyes came to rest upon Edward.
The sight of him all suited and booted threw me off balance. He looked magnificent and I couldn't take my eye off him.
I felt foolish as he caught me staring and his smile became more pronounced. When he looked so handsome I struggled to breathe. Angela picked up on my awe and was quick to nudge me.
"Breath Bella" she encouraged.
Easy for her to say she didn't have his eyes on her.
I was rooted to the spot as he approached grinning.
"I didn't think it was possible for you to look any more beautiful but you somehow always manage to surprise me Bella" he complimented.
"Thanks" I shyly replied
"You ready for this?" he asked gesturing towards the large congregation.
"Maybe" I admitted hesitantly.
He just chuckled and took my hand and led me to the front of the church.
"You will do great. Besides I'm here." he reassured me as he placed a light kiss on my cheek.
Soon I was seated and Edward headed off to greet more of the guests.
The time between everyone arriving and being seated seemed to fly by and soon enough the familiar organ tune began to play.
We all stood as Rosalie entered. Though I had seen her dress this morning I could not believe how truly breathtaking she looked. She had that expectant wedding glow as she looked across to Emmett. Glancing at him I saw only unconditional love and devotion reflected in his eyes and I knew they were going to be together for the rest of their lives.
When she reached the alter and lifted her veil a large gasp echoed through the church at Rosalie's beauty. The service was traditional and conventional.
It was simple but charming and as they exchanged their vows I could no longer hold the tears and the flood gates finally opened.
Emmett's deeply moving vows seemed to have the same impact on many and there were few dry eyes in the church.
As they were proclaimed man and wife the guests erupted into applause as the couple shared their first kiss as man and wife.
Soon enough we were all being led out of the church to participate in numerous group photos.
I attempted to hide at the back but with Rose and Alice on the case it was impossible.
Despite my misgivings Edward was insistent and literally dragged me to the forefront.
"But Edward the front is for family" I tried to argue but it came out more winy.
He just gave me a displease look "Bella you are family" he sounded aggravated and forced me in front of him. His arms came around my waist to hold me in place and I relaxed against him.
After countless photos I thought I was safe when the photographer moved on to taking pictures of the bride and groom with their immediate family. That was until a hand reached out to stop me.
"Oh no you don't! Your not going anywhere"Rose forcefully declared.
"I want some pictures with my friends" she argued leaving me little room for disagreement.
From then on I was ordered around like a puppet on strings into pictures with the practically everyone.
When Rose insisted on having one more picture I let out a sigh of relief. I hated being the center of attention so was grateful it was nearly all over. That was until she informed me the last shot would be of me and Edward - alone!
"Get together" she ordered with a devious grin on her face.
Edward stepped towards me and almost instinctively his arms wrapped around me once more. It was difficult to appear unaffected by his presence.
"Smile Bella you look like your sucking on lemons" Emmett joked.
It was easy for him to say, he wasn't the one stuck in front of Mr Perfect.
Yes I looked prettier than usual in this beautiful dress, but besides Edward my looks paled in comparison to his dazzling smile.
I heard Edward chuckle at my negativity
"Relax Bella" he instructed as he pulled me closer against him.
After what felt like an eternity of taking the perfect photo. I was almost free to leave but not before Edwards insistence that we have another photograph with his parents. Apparently the pictures from earlier had just been for the bride and groom and now it was pretty much a free for all. I was anxious at the prospect so I tried to protest.
Unfortunately Edwards dazzling skills put an end to my objections. He was too charming for his own good. Why was he so irresistible?
I finally put my foot down after having my another photo taken, this time with Charlie. This was getting out of control. So finally after much discomfort on my part we made our way to the reception.
It was being held at the prestigious county club on the outskirts of Forks so I knew to expect a lavish venue. It did disappoint. When I entered the elaborate room my vision was full of beautiful antique tables and chairs decorated in elegant flowers , ribbons and decorations.
I was so focused on the grand scene in front of me that it took me a moment or two to realize that Edward was leading me towards the top table.
I instantly began to tense. Yes it was Rose and Emmett big day so they would obviously be the center of attention but that didn't ease my worries.
Edward was perceptive as ever picked up on my anxiety instantly and tried to reassure me by gentle squeezing my hand. It was amazing how he could make me forget about everybody and everything in the room with the simplest of touches or when he looked at me like that. Before I had time to protest and find a way out I was already seated. How did he manage that?
The Stupid dazzling man!! I thought to myself as Edward sat besides me with a proud grin on his face.
Being the best man Edward showed no hint on nerves. If it were me and I had to make a speech I would be a nervous wreck, terrified at the prospect of speaking aloud but Edward seemed as assured as ever.
"Aren't you nervous about your speech?" I questioned as we waited for everyone else to arrive.
"Terrified" he replied casually.
"You don't sound terrified" I accused.
"Looks can be very deceiving. Inside I'm a nervous wreck" he confessed.
"You'll do great" I reassured him as I laced his hand in mine. He smiled back at me in thanks.
The rest of the guests settled down and awaited the happy couples grand entrance.
They arrived to another round of applause and soon enough the speeches began.
For the first time in a long time I sensed Edward tense and he nervously fidgeted with his hands. I gingerly tried to reassure him by once again taking his hands in mine. He visibly seemed to relax and offered me a relieved smile.
We were both startled when Emmett's voice interrupted.
"For some strange reason, custom says that the Groom has to present his defence before he's had the opportunity of hearing the Best Man's case for the prosecution.
I have no idea what stories he is planning on telling you and quite frankly I'm worried.
As you all know my character is so unblemished that he might have to resort to making something up. So please take anything he tells you with a pinch of salt.
Now I know I am expected to give a speech thanking you all for being a part of our special day but we all know my little brother is the one with a way with words so I will let him do the honours later on.
But before I do I would just like to take this opportunity to thank you all for being here and give a special mention to a few people who made this day possible.
To my mom and dad for always being there and supporting me throughout. I can never thank you enough.
To my annoyingly organized little sister Alice for helping to bring this day together with her crazy antics and even weirder ways.
I'd like to thank my little brother Edward for being my best man and getting me here on time.
Also to all of you, our wonderful friends and family, thank you for being here to share our special day.
And last but by no means least, thank you to my beautiful wife Rosalie. Thank you for making me the happiest man alive by agreeing to marry me. You are everything I want and need in life and I shall love you till the end of eternity.
Now I'm sure you have all heard enough from me so let me hand you over to my little brother and best man Eduardo,that's if he wasn't too busy making eyes at the a certain young lady" Emmett sniggered
I felt my cheeks turn permanently red as I heard a few low chuckles. It was official I was gong to kill Emmett!
Judging by the way Edwards grip tightening on mine I was sure he felt the same.
Cautiously looking around I recognized the knowing look I received from Esme. If last night had left her in any doubt then today only confirmed knew I was in love with her son.
I felt Edward release my hands as he began to stand . It sounded like he muttered something like "thanks Emmett" before he took a deep breathe and began.
"Hello Ladies and Gentlemen.
For those of you who don't know me I'm Edward, Emmett's younger brother.
Let me first start by saying that I wish I could say I find it difficult to stand up here and make a fool out of my brother on his wedding day, but I'm no liar.
Besides I am the best man so in the time-honoured tradition, I will now do my best to give Emmett the most uncomfortable five minutes of his life.
Let me say that the bridesmaids look absolutely smashing today, and only rightly outshone by our bride. Rose you look stunning, I have never seen such a beautiful bride. If my heart wasn't already spoken for then I would be first in line to help you come to your senses.
Where do I start in describing Emmett. I could describe his constant joking around or his love of all things sports related. But I wont bore you with what I'm sure you already know.
So instead, I'll keep things very short by talking about Emmett's few weakness - an inability to hold his drink! So be warned I will be requiring some of you're help tonight in picking him up off the dance floor. Sorry Rose but I doubt you will be getting your dream wedding night!
I can honestly say that in all the years, no one has ever questioned Emmett's intelligence.
In fact, I've never heard anyone even mention it. But seeing my brother so happy here besides Rose it is undeniable just how perfect a couple they make. I have no doubt that marrying rose is the most intelligent decision he has ever made.
On a more serious note, all joking aside Emmett you are the best brother I could have ever asked for and am incredibly proud to call you so.
I admire your strength and determination and I am genuinely over the moon, along with everyone here, that you two have found each other.
There are not many best men who can describe both the groom and the bride as true friends, but in that I'm lucky. I am incredibly lucky to have two such beautiful, loving and caring people in my life. Rosalie it is an honour to officially welcome you into the family.
It is an honour, albeit a most terrifying one, to have been asked to be the best man.
But I do feel a certain relief to see the end of my duties in sight.
I am certain that Emmett will never have any need to ask me to be his best man again.
I on the other hand am hopeful that he will be returning the favour in the not too distant future.
As my speech comes to an end let me leave you with a few final thoughts.
For those of you not lucky enough to have that special person in your life, do not fear, it will happen.
What true love means is subject to each and every person , so I can only tell you what love means to me.
Love has the strangest ability to hit you when you least expect it and in the most obscure of places.
It is that unquestionable / unexplainable feeling when you cant stop thinking of that one special person.
Whenever your together you treasure every moment ,every single word or gesture.
You may be discussing something ordinary but coming from the object of your affection it suddenly becomes the most significant topic in the world.
In their presence you cant let go of each others hand and can sit in complete silence without saying a single word because your comfortable and understand each other.
Besides that person you never feel out of place but without them you feel lost.
Even when your apart you cant stop thinking of them whether you working, spending time with friend or simply relaxing at home.
You may even start to annoy your friends and family with endless talk about what she has done or said.
You're simply not interested and stop looking at any other woman altogether because they hold nothing to your love.
You see your future with that person and that one person alone and can quite happily picture further down the line marriage, kids and beyond.
Love means a change in yourself .You want to make yourself a better person simple because only the best is good enough for the one you love. You would give up your life for that person and know they would do the same for you.
You belong to that person and have no doubts that they belong to you too.
That's what I see when I look at Rosalie and Emmett.
So now I come to my final wedding day duty which isn't a duty really – it's a real pleasure.
On behalf of myself and all your guest I sincerely wish you my wonderful brother and your lovely wife,everlasting love and happiness.
To the happy couple, may their happiness be complete and their marriage long and prosperous
A toast to the bride and groom
To Emmett and Rosalie."
After the toast and a loud round of applause Edward sat down besides me.
I smiled like the proud fool that I was of him and how he came up with such a funny, heartfelt and romantic speech. I think I just fell in love with him all over again.
He turned to me, his expression clearly asking how he did. I instinctively reached up to cup his face. "That was brilliant Edward, honestly the best, best man speech I have ever heard" I beamed.
It was so beautiful it had me in tears, especially the part where he had described what love meant to him. I found myself desperately wishing he felt that way about me.
He reached up to wipe away the few remaining tears and leaned across to place a kiss on my forehead. It was something I noticed he did a lot lately.
As the other speeches drew to a close everyone began their own conversations, but in all honesty I was still thinking over Edwards speech. A few things stuck with me.
Whatever did he mean by in the not so distant future or his heart already being taken?
Depending on which way you look at it, I had stupidly or hopelessly convinced myself that there was something more between us besides friendship.
After all of those almost moments I couldn't help but wish it was me that he hoped to have a future with.
As a result I resolved that that night would be the night I confessed all of my feelings to Edward. I just needed to work up the courage to actually tell him, which was a lot easier said than done.
Its not like it was Mike Newton or Tyler to whom I was about to declare my love for.
This was Edward Cullen we were talking about! The same Edward Cullen who was charming, intelligent and caring, not to mention stunningly good looking.
I was nothing in comparison to him but not once did he made me feel inadequate, if anything he was always giving me compliments. It was me that doubted myself.
But as the night went on and the happy couple shared their first official dance as man and wife I had more pressing matters of concern. Namely dancing.
I had specifically told Edward I would be in no way participating and that he would quite literally have to drag me kicking and screaming to the dance floor.
Unfortunately this did not deter him, in fact if anything he looked more amused and would not let it go.
Finally after what felt like hours of Edwards relentless pleading I finally submitted
"Dance with me" Edward asked yet again.
"Edward no! There are plenty of girls here who would be more than happy to dance with you" I replied though I was already jealous at the prospect of that happening.
"I don't want to dance with them. I want to dance with you" he answered.
"Honestly Edward we have already established that I cant dance. I don't want to inflict that on you" I tried to put him off once more.
"How can you be inflicting anything on me if I am the one asking you?"he challenged.
He gave me the classic Edward Cullen dazzling look reserved for making me crumble and god damn him it was working. My resolved began to slip instantly.
Not keen to take no for an answer he pressed on.
"Please Bella Just one dance that all I ask and then I will leave you alone" he pleaded and how could I deny him anything.
"Fine" I somehow found myself agreeing.
"But don't say I didn't warn you. If I hurt you or embarrass you then you've only got yourself to blame" I sulked.
"Silly Bella I am a good dancer so there is no cause for alarm" he tried to reassure me whilst I sniggered. He hadn't seen me dance and had absolutely no clue what he had got himself into.
"Just trust me on this" he silenced my laughter.
As if by magic Edward guided us to the dance floor.
Normally I would have been terrified but in Edwards arms I felt comfortable and calm.
Not knowing what I was doing or where to place my hands Edward seemed to pick up on my uncertainty and was quick to take control.
Placing my one hand on his shoulder he took the other one in his hand, whilst his free hand slipped around my waist. He pulled me closer and it was reassuring to have him this close to me.
I actually felt at ease. Unfortunately the song had yet to start and once it did my panic kicked in.
Thankfully Edward was there to reassure me.
"Relax you're doing great" he whispered in my ear. Maybe if I hadn't stepped on his toes at least three times already I might have believed him.
Suddenly and I don't know how he managed it but Edward lifted me off my feet and placed mine on top of his. He drew me closer still to him.
"There we go much better" he announced.
"See your dancing" I could hear the smile in his voice.
I could only nod in response and snuggled in closer to him so that my head rested against his chest.
Edward gently guided us around the dance floor to the rhythm of the music.
I don't think I had been happier than when I was in his arms.
I would even go as far as to say that I was saddened when the song drew to a close. As the final notes played I clung even tighter to him, scared that anything would break the moment.
He pulled away slightly but rested his forehead against mine.
"That wasn't so bad after all was it?" he asked.
"No" I replied.
He continued to look at me with a unreadable expression on his face whilst his arms held me close to him.
"Thank you Bella" he declared.
I stood dazzled as he looked at me, his eyes were focused on mine and I couldn't look away from the intensity I saw there.
I realized now was the time to confess all and I finally worked up the courage to speak.
"Edward?" I said though it came out more like a question.
"Bella" he replied slightly amused by my no doubt odd behaviour.
I paused thoughtfully, it was not like I had this planned out in my mind beforehand. What was I meant to say -Oh by the way Edward I love you.
Deciding I would just let the words present themselves I took a deep breath before I prepared to spill my heart. But it was not declaring my love that scared me the most. What terrified me was the fear of not being loved back.
Before I had the chance to utter a single word a unfamiliar voice to my left interrupted.
"Mind if I step in?" a young man I did not recognize questioned.
He was mildly good looking and athletic and if I hadn't known Edward I would have said he was attractive.
Who was I kidding anyone compared to Edward would always be second best.
My expression must have gone from determined to horrified as I looked desperately towards Edward pleading for help. I needn't have worried as he spoke in an instant.
"Sorry Jacob but Bella only dances with me"he declared leaving no room for argument as he placed a delicate kiss on my forehead.
Jacob looked unimpressed and stormed off towards the bar.
"Thanks" I gratefully spoke.
"Any-time Bella" he replied.
It was Edwards turn to look hesitant as he began to speak "Bella"
Unfortunately it seemed like fate had other plans for us tonight as a panicked voice interrupted once more. This time though it was Esme.
"Edward can you go sort out the Jackson boys before they start fighting again" she begged
Edward looked to me apologetically.
"I'll be right back" he said as he headed away from the dance floor seemingly frustrated.
Esme offered me a similar apologetic smile.
Soon after I left the dance-floor and headed to the bar for a much needed drink.
My confession wasn't exactly going according to plan.
As I waited to be served at the bar I got into polite conversation with an elderly lady I later found out to be Edwards aunt. She was very funny and I enjoyed the countless stories she told me of his childhood. I would have to remember to bring those up with him later.
Speaking of which what was keeping him so long?
Suddenly I felt a hand on my waist. Yet I was disappointed when I realized the touch wasn't so familiar.
Whenever Edward touched me it was like I was drawn to him. My body recognized his touch- it was warm, soft, distinctively protective almost bordering on possessive but in a way I liked.
Not that he needed to, but it was almost like he was claiming me as his.
This touch was harsh and rigid in comparison and as I turned around I instantly knew why.
Jacob the guy Edward had dismissed on the dance floor stood in front of me smirking. His look was calculating and I knew he was pleased to have got me on my own.
I desperately looked around the hall for a familiar face but was only met with a sea of empty faces I didn't recognize. I realized I would have to deal with him on my own.
"So we meet again. Bella isn't it?" Jacob drunken slur drew me away from my thoughts of escaping.
"That's right" I tried to sound polite but the more I looked at him the more he creeped me out.
"You know there's this really great restaurant I know not far from here. I'll take you there. I guarantee you will like it" he said as he moved closer to me.
"Thanks for the offer but I've already eaten" I replied stepping back from him trying to let him down gently.
"Go on" he pushed clearly not taking the hint.
"No I'm fine"I replied more sharply. I was done with being pleasant I just wanted rid of him. Unfortunately Jacob wasn't taking no for an answer.
"Come on I'll take you there" he said as he grabbed my arms and pulled me towards him.
I was half expecting to end up in his drunken clutches until I felt two strong arms wrap around my waist from behind, pulling me back into his chest and away from Jacob.
I sighed as I recognized Edwards touch instantly and relaxed.
"She said no" Edwards harsh voice spoke.
"Sorry man" Jacob began holding his hands up in the air.
"Didn't realize she was taken. You cant blame a guy for trying" he finished.
Edward arms remained around my waist as I turned to look at him. I didn't even look to see if Jacob had left already.
"Thanks for that" I said blushing.
"Its okay. I wasn't exactly going to let Jacob Black get his filthy paws on you"
He shook his head before he spoke again "I cant leave you alone for 5 minuteS before the wolves descend"
Deciding I needed to just get my confession off my chest I went about setting up the right moment.
"Look I've got to go to the ladies room but I have something I need to discuss with you when I get back" I nervously stated.
"Okay" he seemed curious before he continued.
"I will be right over there" he declared as he gestured towards the balcony on the far side of the dining hall.
I could only nod, terrified at the prospect of what I was about to do.
Quickly I scarped into the rest room and let out a shaky breath as I entered.
This was it, I had waited far to long to declare my feelings. I just needed a moment or two to collect my thoughts. I was all set to leave when the door swung open and in walked Tanya.
She smiled at me curtly before she spoke.
"Bella" she greeted me.
"Hi Tanya " I replied
"Nice dress" she stated thought there was clear insincerity in her tone.
"Thank you, yours is lovely too" I attempted to be pleasant despite still being pissed of at her for ruining mine and Edwards moment weeks ago.
"You really do look quite pretty but I'm afraid that wont help you win Edward over" she stated matter of factly
"What exactly is that supposed to mean?" I asked shocked by her sudden change of conversation.
"I've seen you making eyes at him all night" she announced.
"Excuse me " I said taken aback.
"I see the way you look at him, so does everyone else. You really should move on from this Bella its not healthy."she criticized.
"I don't understand" I stood dumbstruck.
"I'm sorry to be the one to break this to you Bella but he's simply not interested in you!
Someone like Edward could never like someone like you.
Do yourself a favour and move on from this silly little infatuation" her tone was patronizing.
"You cant honestly believe he feels something for you?" She appeared to laugh at the very thought and that hurt. Apparently my torment must have been written all over my face.
"Oh you did didn't you? How sweet" she sounded sympathetic now.
"I hate to say it but your not his type, your simply not pretty enough . Edward only goes for pretty girls. I wouldn't surprised me if he had already moved on to the next girl whilst you have been stood in here. He may seem like Mr nice guy but its all an act to make him appear more alluring. I should know I was stupid enough to fall for it" she sneered.
"You're lying" I angrily hit was no way Edward was like that.
"No Bella, you're the one lying to yourself if you ever truly believed you had a chance with him. Take my advise-move on and put it down to experience" she said.
"You don't know what your talking about, Edward is not like that. I know him" I defended.
"So tell me this, if you know so much about our good doctor . Did you know about the job he has been offered in Chicago?"
Her smile was triumphant as I stood speechless.
"Thought not" she declared victorious but still chose to dig the knife in.
"Well ask yourself this, if he failed to mention that what else has he failed to mention" she questioned.
I couldn't take anymore of this so made my excuse to leave.
"I have to go" I managed to say before I practically ran out of the room.
There had to be some mistake. I knew Edward. If he was taking another job he would have told me. Besides she was probably just bitter over the fact that Edward had revoked her numerous attempts to date him.
I made my way out still determined to do that which had been weighing heavily on my mind for such a long time. My nerves kicked in and I felt like butterflies were running riot in my chest.
I glanced across to the where Edward had arranged to meet me and was instantly drawn to see his unique hair shine in the light.
The next thing that caught my eye took my breathe away immediately. He was not alone!
Instead a beautiful brunette stood besides him. She could have been a model or actress for all her glorious and exotic looks. I felt like I had been punched in the chest as I stood staring at the beautiful couple.
The words Tanya had so viscous said repeated over in my head, "your not pretty enough, Edward only goes for pretty girls"
Maybe Tanya was right after all. I was stupid for ever thinking that Edward could have felt anything more than friendship for me, let alone loved me. I felt foolish at the realization and soon tears began to gather in my eyes.
Those traitorous tears soon began to fall, so as quickly and discretely as possible I headed out the front doors keen to forget the sorry state of my love life.
I had to get out of a place where everything reminded me of the one thing I so desperately wanted but would never have.
The even sadder part was that even out of the reception I could not rid him from my mind.
I thought of all the little things like the way his arm would rest on my shoulder, or how he'd sit with one hand on my knee. Or the feeling of falling asleep in his arms to the sound of his heartbeat all those nights at the hospital.
Those were the same things that had deluded me into thinking he returned my affections.
I knew a part of me would always be in love with him and at that precise moment I realized I would not be able to exist without him in my life.
So I made a pact to keep my feelings hidden. He would not return my affections so I couldn't risk loosing him. It would be enough just to be friends. I'd much rather be his friend than nobody.
I would smile like nothing was wrong, act like nothing had changed . I would even try to look happy for him when he moved on to someone new. I would be happy for him even if I wasn't a part of his happiness. I just couldn't face the thought of that night being tonight.
As time past I would resist the urge to kiss him, to hold his hand or declare my undying love . It would be hard when inside I would feel like I was dying but I would do it all so I could keep him in my life.
I was still contemplating when I heard footsteps behind. I couldn't stand the thought of anyone seeing me in such a state so I quickly headed further out of the exit.
Unfortunately I wasn't quick enough and soon I felt a strong hand grip my arm and turn me around. I didn't need to look up to know who it was.
Edward......
"Are you okay?" he asked concern evident on his handsome face.
"I'm fine" I lied.
I had never been a good liar and he picked up on this immediately
"You don't look fine" he stated still apparently fact that my tears were still falling didn't for some reason his concern only made me all the more angry.
"What would you care? Why don't you go back to your girlfriend?" I snapped.
"My girlfriend?" he repeated looking confused.
"You know the one, the tall girl with the perfect hair and perfect skin!" I sarcastically replied back.
He looked puzzled before smirking slightly.
"You mean my cousin?" he said in an amused tone and smiled that crooked smile that always got me.
"Oh" I lamely stated.
Sadly this new found knowledge didn't ease my worries over what Tanya had said.
This may not be the girl but there would no doubt be someone equally beautiful who Edward would someday end up with. Once again I had the urge to flee and quickly took off once more.
"Bella wait" he shouted but I continued.
"Stop" he shouted as he caught up and quickly rounded on me.
"Please just leave me alone" I begged still refusing to look up at him.
"No I wont not until you tell me what's wrong" he said gently.
"its nothing" I lied
"It doesn't look like nothing to me" he pressed on.
"Please just let it go Edward" I desperately pleaded.
"No" he all but shouted at me.
"I'm your friend Bella. What type of friend would I be if left you like this. I hate to see you upset" he appeared pained.
I remained silent at the prospect of being Edwards 'friend' and looked down to the floor.
He was having none of it and instantly lifted my saddened face to meet his gaze. He was not giving up as he examined my expression no doubt trying to work out the reason for my tears.
"Its nothing Edward, please leave it alone"
"To hell I will. Your upset and I want to know why?" his anger returned and his face tensed.
"Did somebody hurt you?" he asked.
"No" I answered bluntly but that didn't ease his concern.
"Bella, I'm begging you please tell me what has you so upset" he had practically resorted to begging.
"I cant" I sobbed.
Looking up to meet Edwards gaze I was disturbed to see that he looked pained. But soon after that his stern look returned.
"Fine have it your way if that's the way you want it. If you wont tell me I will go find someone who will" he stubbornly declared and took off angrily towards the main entrance.
"Edward don't" I panicked.
He turn around instantly but still seemed angry
"I cant read your mind Bella, although I wish to god I could. You have to tell me what is going on before I go out of my mind" he admitted.
"Fine" I shakily agreed.
"But before I do you have to promise me you wont loose your temper" I said hesitantly at the thought of how he would react to Tanya's claims. He may not love me but he was always very protective over me.
"I promise" he agreed and so I launched into the whole sorry saga of the claims Tanya had made in the toilets. As I expected Edward was furious, obviously angered by her accusations.
What I wasn't prepared for fury in his eyes, that left even me a little worried. I was even more anxious at the sight of him heading back to the reception. I didn't want to face another showdown with Tanya so I stepped forward to stop him.
"Edward it's okay it is all forgotten about, just leave things as they are" I pleaded.
"It most certainly isn't okay" he shouted outraged at the mere suggestion.
"You promised you wouldn't" I argued.
"That was before I knew what nonsense she was spouting" he ranted.
"Please its okay I'm glad I know" I tried to calm him down. Unfortunately my methods seemed to have the adverse affect and if anything he looked more aggravated.
"You mean to tell me you seriously believe that crap she is saying?" he narrowed his hostile gaze to me and I could feel myself tense at both his tone and fierce expression.
"She told me things Edward" I could only offer as my reasoning.
"like what?" he asked frustrated but at least some of his anger had evaporated.
"The job in Chicago?" I told him.
He shook his head ruefully before he spoke again.
"That was last week and is besides the point. I turned it down" he declared.
"oh ..." I replied feeling silly for assuming that just because he was offered the job he would automatically take it.
"Oh indeed" he broke my thinking as he continued. Thankfully his irritation seemed to have calmed.
"Cant you see she is just jealous"
"Jealous of what?" I asked puzzled.
"You! You stupid fool" he sounded exasperated but I was too confused to understand the reason behind that.
"Whatever reason has she got to be jealous of me?" I asked startled by his claims.
Again that frustrated look returned as he brought his hand up to pinch the bridge of his nose.
"Will you ever see yourself clearly. You are everything she want to be but could never possibly be. Your smart, caring and beautiful, not that you would ever know it" he declared.
I was struck by his claims but knew he was only trying to make me feel better.
"I'm not, look at me Edward I'm utterly plain" I painfully admitted.
"Don't you ever say that, don't even think it" he said outraged before his expression became serious.
"She sees your insecurities and plays on them. But I know you Bella and I know that that isn't what's troubling you. There's more to this than you are letting on. What is the real problem here?" he asked.
I hated that he knew me so well.
"I cant I'm afraid to tell you" I admitted, horrified at the prospect of declaring my feelings.
"You don't have to be afraid to tell me anything" he tried to reassure me and gently placed a hand on my shoulder. He looked hurt when I flinched away.
"Trust me you don't want to know what's going on in my head. I just... I cant....not now"
I stuttered my excuse. I had worked myself up for this big speech but when the moment came I just couldn't get my words out.
"I cant understand if you don't tell me what your problem is" he snapped. Angry Edward was back and that brought out the fury in me. I'm sure it must have been frustrating for him but it was a hell of a lot worse for me.
"My problem!" I let out
"My problem!! I will tell you what my problem is. It's you. You and your stupid adorable hair, your beautiful eyes,and your perfect crooked grin . I love your name , I love the way you look at me so intensely that I loose all trail of thought, I love how you can make my day brighter just by being in it, and how that stupid chuckle always makes me smile.
I love how you always make me feel special and beautiful when no one else even notices me.I love it when you touch me, even if it's only to hold my hand. I love everything about you" I unleashed all of my built up frustrations out on an unsuspecting Edward. I nervously looked across to gauge his reaction.
"Bella I..." he started to speak but I couldn't stop there.I might never get the chance again.
"No Edward its okay,you don't have to say anything just let me get this out. I'm not mad at you. I'm more mad at myself for deluding myself into thinking that there was even a slight possibility.
I mean do you even know how much you mean to me?It is tearing me up to have these feelings for you, but I can't get rid of them. I know its preposterous to think you could return my affections but I can't help myself. I don't want anyone else. I only want you.I want to be the one that touches your heart and makes it skip a beat like you do to mine. I want to be the person that you build your life with"
I let out a deep breath once my confession was over. I was out of breath and anxious. Where had all of that come from?
Of course I wanted to declare my love but surely I could have come up with a better way of going about it. I had probably scared him off with my stalker like observations and obsession. My worst fears seemed probable as he stood there in silence, a shocked look on his face.
"Please say something" I pleaded, needing to know what he was thinking.
But still Edward remained silent, though he looked like he was trying to find the words to say. No doubt trying to find think of a way to let me down gently.
I couldn't stand the thought of his sympathy so once again l turned to flee. I was right I had scared him off.
"Bella wait"he called out after me as I desperately tried to get out of there as soon as possible.
I was nearing the parking lot when he caught up with me, gently gripping my arm and turning me around to face him. Tears came fast as I looked up at him. I couldn't stand the thought of things changing between us.
"You cant just drop something like that on me and expect me to be able to find the words instantly" he softly spoke.
"It's okay Edward you don't have to feel sorry for me" I answered truthfully. His sympathy was what I couldn't bare the thought of most.
"You..." I started
"damn it Bella you had your chance to speak now let me have mine" he interrupted slightly angrily.
"You may be smart but you fail to see what is so obvious to everyone else. You have the one things that Tanya is most jealous of. The one thing she will never have but you're too blind to see it. Still you don't know what I'm talking about" he sighed before he looked at me intensely.
"My heart Bella, you have my heart" he declared and before I had time to comprehend anything else his lips gently covered mine. My eyes closed of their own accord as my initial shock was replaced with joy and I put all of my feelings into the kiss. Thankfully Edward had wrapped his arms around me and pulled me flush against him. If he hadn't I'm sure I would have fallen to the floor.I was so shocked.I couldn't get my head around the fact that he felt the same for me. Instinctively I wrapped my arms around his neck, desperate to run my hands through his hair like I had long dreamed of doing. I almost feverishly pulled him towards me and he took that as a sign to deepen the kiss. I could only sigh in content as his arms gripped me tightly to him and brought me so we were impossibly close to one another.
I couldn't believe I was kissing Edward and what a first kiss it was. Sweet and longing but also needy and desperate. It was like in that one kiss we were both letting out the months of frustration we had both felt. Like we were trying to convey our shared love in that single moment. It said everything we had been too afraid to say aloud and I couldn't have been happier.
After several heated minutes a need for air forced us to part, thought our hands still lingered on one another. I fingered the hair at the back of his neck as he brought his hand up to frame my face. His eyes burning with emotion.
"I love you Bella Swan" he declared as he leaned forward to offer me another kiss. This one was different though, more softer, delicate even, like he was trying to convey just of precious I was to him.
Much too quickly he pulled away. I'm sure I must have been pouting like a small child for that crooked grin returned and he offered me a chaste kiss on the lips.
"I can't tell you how good it feels to finally be able to do that" he declared,to which I felt myself blushing. He merely leaned in to kiss my cheek affectionately as his grip around me tightened.
"You confessed your feelings I think it only fair that I declare mine." he said.
"The moment I saw you looking all terrified at the hospital I knew I had to meet you. Once I did I knew I had to be your friend. At that point I would take anything I could get. But being your friend only made it worse.I had no control over my feelings, I had no choice but to fall in love with you.
Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to act normal around you when all I wanted to do was kiss you?"
"Why didn't you then?"I interrupted.
"I'm not as brave as you seem to think I am. I too had apprehensions,what if you didn't return my feelings, what if you only saw me as friend? I couldn't take the chance that if I told you, you would push me away. I was spineless but in my defense I had thought I made my feelings for you very obvious"
"I didn't know. I thought you were just being nice"I replied but looking back I could see just how apparent it had been. All the small looks and touched suddenly made sense.
"You silly woman whom do you think the inspiration behind my speech was? I had thought I had been to obvious but apparantly not" he smirked.
"I thought earlier you were trying to let me down gently" I wearily confessed
"You kept me waiting when I told you how i felt"I stated puzzled.
"You took me by surprise .A happy surprise all be it" he answered and soon enough I was engulfed in another deep kiss. It just seemed to get better and better.
This time I was the one to pull away.
"I love you" I said properly for the first time without it literally being part of my rant.
He smiled the brightest smile I had ever seen. It was contagious as I felt the goofy grin light up my face.
"Just as I love you" he declared and leaned in to kiss my cheek affectionately.
"Now that we have that sorted there's the small matter of my brothers wedding to attend to. I do believe you owe me another dance after that fright. I honestly thought someone had attached you" he said.
"Do we have to?" I attempted to distract him by wrapping my arms around his waist and leaning in to kiss him once more.
He wasn't fooled but still he kissed me before pulling away smirking.
"Yes we do. Besides I want to show you off" he proudly stated.
It seems his dazzling skills weren't limited to his look alone and extended to his kisses too. As somehow unknown to me I found myself stood at the entrance to the reception once more. He looked to me seriously before he declared,
"I will spend the rest of my life if I have to, to convince you just how beautiful you are".
I could only cling even closer to him as we headed inside. Edward arm was around my shoulder pulling me in to his chest whilst my one arm fell around his waist almost like we were stuck together.
As we entered I spotted Jasper ,Alice, Esme and Carlisle all sending us bright smiles and the thumbs up, clearly showing they knew we had finally sorted out what they had obvious long foreseen. Besides them sat an equally pleased Angela who beamed joy at our acceptance.
We were halfway to the dance floor without a sign of protest from me when Charlie appeared in front of us. I was momentarily wary as he took in mine and Edwards embrace.
"You finally asked her I see" charlie sounded amused.
My eyes widened as I looked between the two of them, Charlie's expression was satisfied but Edward looked sheepish.
"You knew all along" I practically shouted.
"But why on earth didn't you tell me?" I asked.
"I had to let you figure it out for yourself bells" he replied and I could see his reasoning. I needed to get past my insecurities for there to be a chance for Edward and I to make it work. I nodded understandingly.
When we made it to the dance floor Edward once again lifted me into my favourite dance position,my feet atop of his and my arms clung around his neck. I loved the way we fitted together.
"How long?" I asked looking up to him.
"A few weeks now" he replied as he went on to confess his conversation with Charlie at dinner after he was released from hosopital. He also seemed embarrases when he confessed that he had sought out Charlie's approval to date me. I could only swoon at his adorable blush. I couldn't control the urge to kiss him so I did just that.
Everything and everyone was forgotten as his lips closed over mine. All that existed was Edward and I. After a heated session I shyly looked down to avoid all the eyes on me . I heard Edward chuckle as he pulled me in so I could hide my head in his chest.
"You really are adorable when you blush" he whispered in my ear.
As our dance ended I reluctantly pulled away to find Edward looking at me seriously.
I was about to ask him what that look was all about when like as so often happened before a voice interrupted our moment.
This time it was a rather smug looking Emmett and Rosalie.
"I told you so" he announced smugly.
"Welcome to the family" he added as he pulled me out of Edwards arms and into another hug. He soon released me and Rose was next to bombard me with hugs. When they both released me I gladly felt Edwards arms return around me.
Instead of my usual fear of dancing,I found I didn't actually mind dancing at all so long as it was with Edward. As a result I happily spent the remainder of the wedding pretty much in Edwards arms on the dance floor.
As the last song of the night played out I found myself once again dancing cheek to cheek with him. His eyes probed mine expressing the love that had always been there, but that I was too insecure to see.
So as the lights dimmed and the dance floor cleared I stayed happy to enjoy the last dance of the night wrapped up in Edwards loving embrace.
Little did I know the next time I would be dancing in such a way would be at our wedding!!!!
Authors note : So there we have it the ending as such. Hopefully it wasn't too cheesy but what can I say I'm a sucker for a happy ending. Let me know what you think...
The epilogue should tie up any loose ends.