When Mikado wake up Izaya was long gone , leaving the boy alone in a small apartment a little hurt. Sure Mikado didn't think that after they slept together once they would automatically become a couple , but is it wrong to dream ? The brown-haired got up from the futon with the all body aching in pain . He went to a bathroom and cleaned himself . When he finished he sent Izaya a simple text.

[You didn't break me ]

Then he called Anri and asked her to tell him what was for homework .When the call ended Mikado went straight to his homework.

The informants office in Shinjuku...

Izaya is siting in his chair looking at his cellphone reading the text that Mikado sent him.

'' I know , Mikado ... I guess I will have to try harder... '' he smiled sadly.

'' Why don't you want him to love you ? doesn't make sense . I thought you wanted him around you ? '' Nami asked curious .

'' I have my reasons ... '' he said not looking away from the text he got from the boy.

'' Reasons, huh ? Your not afraid to use anyone for your sick games . You even have something like a cult of people who are broken and easy to manipulate . You even used Saki to manipulate the leader of Yellow Scarves . So why aren't you using Mikados love for you ? He is the leader of Dollars , one of Ikebukurus largest gangs there is ... so it REALLY doesn't make sense that you don't want him near you. And you would miss out of a perfect opportunity to manipulate some one... '' she stated the facts.

'' Mh ? '' the black-haired man looked at her '' opportunity ? Sometimes there are times that you have to back down because if you don't you might lose everything ... '' he said putting his cellphone into his pocket .

'' What could you possibly lose ? You have nothing to lose . Your money ? I don't think you care about that. Respect ? Yeah , you don't have that either way , people are scared of you that's it . Love ? Well from what I know only Mikado feels something like love for you because others hate you with all their heart . So again, I ask you what could you possibly lose that's so important to you ? '' the secretary asked a bit curious .

'' Myself... '' he murmured silently under his nose so no one would hear.

'' What ? '' she asked .

Izayas expression changed a wide grin appeared on his face '' Nami-chan! '' he said in his annoying voice '' Bring me tea , the black one that I like so much . ''

'' Great , his grin came back... '' she frowned '' Okay. '' she said.

The next day .

Mikado wake up , showered , dressed and went to school wearing his usual blue school uniform . He met up with Masaomi and Anri in school . His blonde friend was glad to see Mikado at school and away from Izaya.

'' So Mikado ! '' Masaomi exclaimed putting an arm around Mikados shoulders '' finally someone decided to show up in school , you know Mi-ka-do skipping school is wrong ''

'' Masaomi... '' the brunette said a little annoyed .

'' Good morning Ryugamine-kun.. ''Anri said.

'' Good morning Anri-chan...'' he said politely.

'' Yes , hello Anri , you are even more erotic than ever ! '' the blonde said in his sing-song voice.

'' Masaomi , stop embarrassing Anri . '' the brown-haired boy said harshly.

'' I'm not embarrassing her . I'm stating facts '' he said while Anri blushed.

'' Kida-kun...'' she stuttered.

'' What ? I can't lie . The world has to know how sexy is Anri-chan '' Masaomi said throwing his arms dramatically into the air. Anri started blushing even more and her eyes looked at Mikado and caught the sadness in is eyes.

'' Mikado-kun are you alright ? '' she asked with a glint of worry .Masaomi looked at Mikado to.

'' Yeah I'm okay '' the brunette said .

'' Are you sure Mikado-kun ? '' Anri wasn't so sure about Mikados answer.

'' Yes , really everything is fine '' he said with a fake smile . So Anri dismissed the case , but Masaomi knew better , he felt that something was bothering his best friend .

Hours passed and the last bell rang telling that school was over . Mikado was worried about Izayas health , but mostly he just wanted to see him and maybe give him grief after leaving so suddenly so he decided to visit him in Shinjuku . He took the next train there. After a not so short or long trip on the train he stepped out on the platform and walked to Izayas office . Knocked on the door and Nami opened it .

'' Hi , is Izaya here ? '' the boy asked .

'' Yes , but I don't think this is a good time to visit him. '' she replied expressionless.

'' Is he with a client ? '' he asked .

'' No , but still his busy ... '' she said.

'' If his not with a client than he will spare 10 minutes for me '' the brown-haired boy said while coming in . For some reason his heart was beating hard and screaming to turn around and go home . The boy walked down the hallway and stopped in front of the room where Izaya was because every step his heart was screaming louder and louder to just leave . He took a deep breath and opened the door , walked in and froze for what he saw and heard there .

'' Ahhhh Izaaayaaa! '' some girl moaned .

'' Sakiiiiii-chaaan ! '' Izaya moaned .

Mikado found Izaya hovering over a girl moaning and gasping . They were having sex on the informants table . Mikado was in shock , his heart shattered , in the corner of his eyes tears started gathering . He turned around and left the room without saying a thing . While leaving he accidentally slammed the door making Saki look back.

'' Wh-h-hat waaas thaaat ? Ahhh ! '' she asked panting.

'' Nothing important '' he said getting rougher and rougher .

'' Ahhh ! '' she moaned.

' Mikado... ' Izaya said the boys name in his mind. Than he took his cellphone and texted someone .

When Mikado left the building where the informants office was located in , he couldn't control his thoughts and feelings anymore so he started running so he wouldn't have to think about anything. He ran and ran even thought he wasn't much of a runner , he never stopped to even catch his breaths because he knew if he stopped he wouldn't be able to runaway anymore.

The boys legs carried him far ... Back to Ikebukuru at least ... He only stopped when he felt he couldn't run anymore . Tears started rolling down his cheeks , legs gave out and he fell to his knees panting . Mikado put a hand on his chest trying to calm down.

Few minutes later he got his breath back , tears were still falling but he managed to look around and take in the surroundings . He was in the same alley where he told Izaya that he was the leader of Dollars .

'' Ha ! Even not thinking I ended up here ...'' Mikado smiled sadly '' I guess my heart wants what my heart wants ... '' he looked at his hand '' I guess I shouldn't have opened that door , ha ? '' sighed '' I should have listened to my heart... for you I guess I was just one night stand ... not that I expected something else...I can feel my heart still breaking when I remember you with a girl ... ''his tear falls to the ground '' Crying won't make me feel any better... '' he rubs his eyes '' these feelings don't help me '' the tears stop '' he wanted to break me , I guess he won ... '' his heart is slowing down to a normal beat '' feel hurts ... I promise I won't hurt anymore... '' the look in his eyes filled with feelings turn into a cold-ice stare like something died inside his little heart '' I won't feel anymore... ''

A dark shadow appears behind the boy .

'' Mikado ... '' it says .

AUTHORS NOTE...

Can I ask you something? Are these characters OOC ? And by the way don't worry I'm not ending this story yet ... I just might not have so much time to write for at least for four days , I have an exam and I have to study ...