"I am so sorry. He was really nice to me before," Roselyn apologized to Barbara when Khaalid left. She knew what it was like to be bullied and hated. She didn't want Barbara to feel the way she felt every single day because of the letters she received and read from people who hated her. Although she felt a connection to humans from the letters, they still hurt because they were written to make her leave Gotham altogether and chase her out of town. After all, they didn't want another Poison Ivy. "I would have never brought him here if I thought…"
"I know, Rosie. You don't have to apologize because it's not your fault," she explained.
"Is it bad that I want to see him again?" Rosie admitted.
"Not at all," Barbara smiled and looked up at her. "He's your brother. You must be so happy he's alive."
"I am," the brunette smiled broadly. "I just hate how mean he was to you."
"I'm a big girl, Rosie. I can handle it. I'm sure his life hasn't been easy."
"You're right. He talked really highly of his parents before, but what parent just dumps their kid off in Gotham?" Rosie queried.
"Not good ones," Dick finally spoke after Khaalid left. "But that doesn't give him a right to say that about you, Barbara."
"Just drop it," Barbara said to him. "He's only Rosie's age. It's no big deal, really."
"Babs, are you serious?" Dick asked with a bit of anger in his tone. Barbara gave Rosie a look which she knew it meant to leave the two of them alone. It didn't happen often, but Rosie understood Barbara's social cues. Roselyn rushed into her room and shut the door behind her. Whatever they were going to talk about, Rosie didn't particularly want to know. Her educated guess was that the words probably hurt Barbara because who was okay with being called an invalid? Dick was probably talking to Barbara about how she doesn't have to pretend to be strong around Rosie all of the time because it was also important for Roselyn to see that she wasn't the only one who could be bullied. This was when Rosie figured out that these thoughts were actual words. She had connected with a plant in the other room accidentally and overheard their entire conversation.
Rosie continued to listen until she heard Barbara's voice shake and she admitted there was some truth to what Khaalid said because if anything ever really did happen to Rosie, it wasn't like she could care for her anymore. Rosie wished Jess was there because she could use a hug right about now. Instead, she had the next best thing and after she changed into her pajamas and got ready for bed, Rosie clutched the teddy bear Harley had given her when she was eleven years old.
Why did her brother have to be such a jerk? It had been over a decade since she last saw him and he had to go and ruin it by being an asshole. It was strange how she wanted to see him again, as if something was drawing her to him. However, she knew she shouldn't want to have any kind of relationship with him if he was going to call Barbara an invalid. Everything was just so confusing because she felt a connection with her twin, but she wanted to stay loyal to the woman who took her in. Barbara had done so much for her and Roselyn most definitely didn't want to betray her in any way.
But he was her brother and it made her feel less alone to know he was out there. Rosie did have Pammie, but it wasn't the same. She had known Khaalid since the day he was born. He had gone through all of the pain and torment living in the glass enclosure in Woodrue's lab. They experienced the same exact treatment and he knew what she went through and she knew what he went through. Khaalid always protected her when they were children. He never allowed himself to be afraid and let her hide behind him. When Woodrue got violent when something didn't go his way, without fail, Khaalid would allow Rosie to hide behind him and he'd take the worst of whatever punishment Woodrue felt like giving. She recalled that he once wanted to test how fast they'd heal after receiving burns.
Roselyn got out of bed and decided to see what was going on between Dick and Barbara. The teenager asked a plant by making a mental connection and it told her Dick left, but Barbara stayed. Rosie hated that she ruined their one night off as a family at Wayne Manor. Rosie was told by the plant that Barbara was in her room. Rosie walked over to it and didn't bother to knock. Slowly, she opened the door and saw the redhead lying in bed with the lights off. "Barbara?" she dared to speak.
"It's late. You should get to bed," Barbara said in a defeated tone which was very unlike her. Rosie frowned and made her way over to the bed and climbed into Dick's side. She got under the covers and realized she still held the teddy bear which made her feel more like a child. Wordlessly, Rosie used her free arm to drape it around Barbara's stomach. "What happened tonight at Bruce's?"
"Damian happened," Rosie sighed. "I already know I don't belong here, but I want to pretend I do and he doesn't let me." She pressed her forehead against Barbara's upper arm to try and keep herself from crying. She needed the comfort. Did she deserve it? Probably not, but she still wanted it.
"You do belong here. Don't you even think for a second that you don't," Barbara replied. "We aren't going to go over there anymore. I don't want you near him."
"That's not fair to you and Dick," Rosie interjected.
"I've had it with him sneaking around and being just plain awful to you."
"There's nothing you can do," Rosie said. "Besides, I like Selina. And I guess Bruce is okay, too."
"I don't want you alone with Damian then," Barbara said. "I know I said this before, but I really mean it this time. You are not to be alone when he's around because that's when he gets to you." Her hand rested on Rosie's forearm.
"Okay," Rosie agreed even though she didn't really care. Although Damian's words were cruel, they were true and she couldn't possibly be that afraid of the truth. Regardless, it still hurt and she always left him feeling less and less like a human. Damian only stated verbally what was said in all of those horrendous letters she received and hid from Barbara. "I…I kind of want to see my brother again." She felt Barbara tense and Rosie nervously bit the inside of her cheek to keep from saying more for the moment. There was nothing else she could say because she just admitted to wanting to see Khaalid again despite the fact he called Barbara an invalid and wouldn't address her directly. It was so very wrong, but Rosie wanted to give him another chance.
"You don't need my permission to see your brother," Barbara replied calmly.
"So, you don't mind?"
"Of course not," Barbara said. "He's your family and you do have the right to have a relationship with him. I'm not going to stop you."
"I don't agree with him," Rosie had to say. "What he said was out of line and I'm sorry. If he was going to say that, I never would have brought him here."
"He's probably had a hard life. I'm not taking it personally, sweetie, it's okay. I'm pretty tough."
"I know," Rosie smiled. "And I know you'd be able to take care of me if anything bad happened to me. You've been doing a good job so far."
"You think?" Barbara grinned.
"Yeah because no matter what, I know you'll always be there and love me even if I don't deserve it."
"Stop saying that, Roselyn. I've told you a million times and I'll tell you a million more until you understand you deserve my love, you deserve Dick's love and Pamela's and Selina's and everyone else who cares about you. What you don't deserve is Damian being such a bully to you." Rosie didn't agree, but she nodded her head against Barbara's arm anyway so she didn't have to have a discussion about her self-esteem again and how important it was that she thought positively of herself. She already had to listen to her therapist who she learned to tune out easily. Her therapist, Dr. Robinson, was a nice woman and meant well, but Rosie knew she wasn't going to make any more progress with her. The therapist was great at the time and got her out of her social awkwardness. She was generally good with self-esteem and whatnot because she specialized in those kind of cases, but nobody specialized with someone who wasn't even human and Rosie felt there was no way she'd be able to help her.
Roselyn had the letters to prove Damian's remarks were true. A huge number of people who wrote to her agreed with him and only a handful of people at best agreed with Barbara. Therefore, Rosie knew Damian was correct because so many more people were on his side. "I mean it, Rosie," Barbara said sternly. "I hate that you feel like this all the time. What can I do to help you?"
"There's nothing you can do," Roselyn finally admitted.
"Well, I'm going to be there for you no matter what happens."
"Even if I see my brother again?"
"I will always welcome him with open arms, sweetie."
"I wonder why he thinks the way that he does."
"Someone put that belief in his head."
"Then who put my beliefs in my head?" It wasn't like she was raised well for the first eleven years of her life. In fact, she had been raised poorly and yet, she still tried to see the good in other people despite what she had been exposed to.
Barbara didn't answer.
"Are you going to work tonight?" Rosie asked, referring to Barbara going to the clock tower and playing her role as Oracle.
"I should go, but I think I'll take the night off," she replied.
"Can I stay in here with you?" Rosie questioned.
"Sure," Barbara said. Rosie smiled and snuggled closer. She truly did crave this kind of comfort and she hated that she couldn't just give it up like everyone else wanted.
So I looked at how many views Hybrid, the story that started all of this, has and it's almost at 19,000 views! To me, that's a lot and wow! I know this story won't have nearly as many, but I'm glad you all have stuck around this long. It's pretty amazing :)
Although this chapter is more of a filler chapter, it kind of gives us an insight on how Rosie views herself. While Rosie believes what people tell her, Barbara does not- she's obviously hurt, but she doesn't let it affect how she thinks of herself.
