By: Venus
Nakago----------------Scorpius
Tomo led at his own pace, graceful, his figure shadowed by the sunlight coming up the hills, quietly. The feathers looked so uncontrolled that I had the overwhelming instinct to grasp them and hold him tightly. Yet they looked so much like wispy flowers.
"Tomo," I implored weakly, please listen to me. What if he had tried to kill himself? What if he was doing it now throwing himself off the cliff, maybe he had a rope or something... He would hang himself !! this is unlike me but I had really been so harsh. I had treated him like a kid. I caught up and took his shoulder.
"I order you to stop and turn around." The mask facing me was impassive, normal glazed concentration. Tomo disengaged from my grip, regarding me formally. No no this wasn't what I wanted let ME talk instead.
"Nakago, I am a coward so sorry about that. You love Soi. Your heart can't sustain any more trust. It would break you to take in anymore. Don't force it when it can't go any further. And I won't tell anyone about your secret, it's safe with me. Your mother is yours only. Is that what you're trying to say?" My kokoro just broke, snapped inside my chest. An unexpected thing yet it did. I had figured the only woman who loved me was kaasan, then the next Soi.
I cast about, we needed to talk slowly and for my benefit. Perfect the tree was large enough for both of us. I motioned there. He cocked a brow. After you, he was saying. I pushed him before me. A rustle as the illusionist gathered up his long cloak, aside, and crouched on a suitable spot. I struggled to articulate how sorry I was. The desire to communicate for so long had been buried so deep it took tremendous effort. Little One help me. I grinned as she made herself comfy inside his ear, winking.
"Take your time," the Asian assured, giving full attention, the ambers glittering like diamonds an gold dust.
"I don't hate you. I never meant for it to explode, I just got so angry. The anger, this anger confused me. At the moment when touched, y vulnerability just emerged. I don't like that. it's being pried open,
The other nodded. I realized how compassionate he was------he had heard me out. He acted as a mirror taking away the pain. He really could empathize with me. I got carried away by my intuition and need to block out love and pity thinking it was weak. We want so much to be loved by anyone else, so we force it on others demanding instead of just accepting. For when it's the time people will support you, render this service unasked. I am weak . I don't want to be cold, Tomo. He gazed into my eyes. I want your approval. What I am planning now is crucial to Kutou. I just want to rule the country better, I hope to create an environment for us all that we will not be abused.
Tomo you're my teacher.
Thank you for your support and love Soi.
Thank you all of you.
A warm hand touched mine, something foreign to his airs, formality, perfection. "I wish you both happiness." He drew back, stood up briskly. I squinted up at him.
"I am not lying! I can't choose between both of you. Both of you are too good. I love you also."
"Don't lie to us. To yourself."
"It's the truth. You are just as important to me Tomosan." Hug him! Hug him hard! The fairy seemed to draw us closer. I hugged my comrade. He coughed. Denial self-punishment was in his voice as he said no it cannot be. It cannot. I did not let go.
"I can. We can------ I love you." The man at last relaxed in my grip, locking me in an embrace. His breath fuzzed up my hair. I felt so loved and at peace. Then we proceeded back, holding hands. I turned to him. He smiled shyly. I wonder why his paint around the eyes were smudged. The twins whistled. Soi was confused, then said hey and brightened up: 'Soka I see!' To what?
"She said we could share you." Tomo whispered happily. Shun- chan was pestering us all to go indoors for he was hungry. Amiboshi apologized on his behalf. Why not? Soi picked up a violet flower and said show yourself. "Fairy you cannot hide from us any longer. You can't get out of here."
I smiled. The twins squatted, peering at the flower she was holding. Stars exploded suddenly. I sneezed, my nose and throat ticklish as hair being forced in. Tomo seemed the worst affected, his entire dress star-dusted.
"Here I am!" Tomo spoke and we all gawked. It was highpitched, cartoonish in tone.
Nakago----------------Scorpius
Tomo led at his own pace, graceful, his figure shadowed by the sunlight coming up the hills, quietly. The feathers looked so uncontrolled that I had the overwhelming instinct to grasp them and hold him tightly. Yet they looked so much like wispy flowers.
"Tomo," I implored weakly, please listen to me. What if he had tried to kill himself? What if he was doing it now throwing himself off the cliff, maybe he had a rope or something... He would hang himself !! this is unlike me but I had really been so harsh. I had treated him like a kid. I caught up and took his shoulder.
"I order you to stop and turn around." The mask facing me was impassive, normal glazed concentration. Tomo disengaged from my grip, regarding me formally. No no this wasn't what I wanted let ME talk instead.
"Nakago, I am a coward so sorry about that. You love Soi. Your heart can't sustain any more trust. It would break you to take in anymore. Don't force it when it can't go any further. And I won't tell anyone about your secret, it's safe with me. Your mother is yours only. Is that what you're trying to say?" My kokoro just broke, snapped inside my chest. An unexpected thing yet it did. I had figured the only woman who loved me was kaasan, then the next Soi.
I cast about, we needed to talk slowly and for my benefit. Perfect the tree was large enough for both of us. I motioned there. He cocked a brow. After you, he was saying. I pushed him before me. A rustle as the illusionist gathered up his long cloak, aside, and crouched on a suitable spot. I struggled to articulate how sorry I was. The desire to communicate for so long had been buried so deep it took tremendous effort. Little One help me. I grinned as she made herself comfy inside his ear, winking.
"Take your time," the Asian assured, giving full attention, the ambers glittering like diamonds an gold dust.
"I don't hate you. I never meant for it to explode, I just got so angry. The anger, this anger confused me. At the moment when touched, y vulnerability just emerged. I don't like that. it's being pried open,
The other nodded. I realized how compassionate he was------he had heard me out. He acted as a mirror taking away the pain. He really could empathize with me. I got carried away by my intuition and need to block out love and pity thinking it was weak. We want so much to be loved by anyone else, so we force it on others demanding instead of just accepting. For when it's the time people will support you, render this service unasked. I am weak . I don't want to be cold, Tomo. He gazed into my eyes. I want your approval. What I am planning now is crucial to Kutou. I just want to rule the country better, I hope to create an environment for us all that we will not be abused.
Tomo you're my teacher.
Thank you for your support and love Soi.
Thank you all of you.
A warm hand touched mine, something foreign to his airs, formality, perfection. "I wish you both happiness." He drew back, stood up briskly. I squinted up at him.
"I am not lying! I can't choose between both of you. Both of you are too good. I love you also."
"Don't lie to us. To yourself."
"It's the truth. You are just as important to me Tomosan." Hug him! Hug him hard! The fairy seemed to draw us closer. I hugged my comrade. He coughed. Denial self-punishment was in his voice as he said no it cannot be. It cannot. I did not let go.
"I can. We can------ I love you." The man at last relaxed in my grip, locking me in an embrace. His breath fuzzed up my hair. I felt so loved and at peace. Then we proceeded back, holding hands. I turned to him. He smiled shyly. I wonder why his paint around the eyes were smudged. The twins whistled. Soi was confused, then said hey and brightened up: 'Soka I see!' To what?
"She said we could share you." Tomo whispered happily. Shun- chan was pestering us all to go indoors for he was hungry. Amiboshi apologized on his behalf. Why not? Soi picked up a violet flower and said show yourself. "Fairy you cannot hide from us any longer. You can't get out of here."
I smiled. The twins squatted, peering at the flower she was holding. Stars exploded suddenly. I sneezed, my nose and throat ticklish as hair being forced in. Tomo seemed the worst affected, his entire dress star-dusted.
"Here I am!" Tomo spoke and we all gawked. It was highpitched, cartoonish in tone.