´Hi Ally, what´s the matter?´

´Chase?It´s Nathaniel. He vomited and has a fever of 103. I´m on my way to PPTH now.´

´I will be right there.´

´Ok.´

Cameron closed her eyes. She had to tell him. She already felt guilty for letting him believe he was the father of her son but she had the gut feeling that telling him about her sons sudden illness now was wrong either.

A vicious circle.

10 minutes later...

House ran his hand down his face, still glancing at the whiteboard when Cameron rushed into the conference room, carrying her son in her arms.

´House?´

He turned around and stared at the little boy, who was clinging onto his mothers neck for dear life, whimpering softly.

House swallowed hard and looked away. He couldn't stand looking into her eyes at the moment. Too many things had happened between them.

´What do you want now?´

´Something is wrong with him. He vomited two times in a row and has a fever of 103. What´s wrong with him? I don´t think that he has the flu or something.´

´We will see. Maybe you just freaked out about nothing and it is the flu.´

Cameron rolled her eyes at him and followed House down to the clinic. She felt uncomfortable and didn't even know why she'd paged House in the first place but when it came to him it seemed that she always did things that weren't in her nature.

She was in love with this man after all.

The clinic, of course, was a madhouse. Doctors ran around from one room to the other with files clutched in their hands,Patients coughed, sneezed and behaved like they'd catched a terminal illness.

Cameron kept on walking.

´Shh Baby. It will be ok´, Cameron whispered and placed a kiss on the babys cheek but it didn't really help. The little boy started crying as soon as House began to check him out. Listening to his breathes, checking his temperature.

Cameron stroked Nathan's back, while House checked out the inside of his son's mouth, which turned out fine. The boy's blood pressure was low.

´We should admit him. I think it is nothing serious but I want to run some tests just to be sure.´

Cameron swallowed and nodded silently, avoiding his gaze. She couldn't look him in the eyes. She felt guilty. Sad. Uncomfortable.

House didn't say anything and walked away.

20 Minutes later Nathaniel was admitted and now had a room with two other kids. Two toddlers. One boy, one girl who were 3 and 4 years old.

So young.

Cameron never left the room, but kept looking at her son,who was laying in the hospital bed, drifting in and out of sleep. She swallowed when a nurse came in and told her, that they had to take something of Nathan's blood. She knew her son was going to cry and held his little miniature hand, as the nurse took some of the boy's blood.

Chase didn't come in yet. Maybe he had a last-minute surgery to attend or something but if Cameron was honest to herself it was much better this way right now. It was already hard for her to have her little baby here. Sick. Afraid. And she had to deal with House aswell who hadn't visited him since Nathaniel had been admitted.

He avoided her and their son.

She sighed and ran a hand through her long, blonde hair. She was tired of all this but she knew that it was her own fault. She'd been too damn scared to deal with her problems and had tried to take the easiest way out: Running away.

Well she'd been wrong with it, because everything turned out getting worse now. She would've to deal with Chase sooner or later, because House knew that he was the father, not Chase. Cameron knew she couldn't lie to Chase any longer but still feared the moment where she would have to talk to him. He'd been estatic when she'd told him she was pregnant. When they'd found out the gender, he'd begun to plan how the nursery would look like and which clothes he would buy for his son. He'd come up with new names for him every day and had told her how proud he was to be the father of her child.

Cameron'd listened to all of this with a heavy heart. In that very moment it'd felt like a frozen shape, only needed to pump blood.

It'd felt like she didn't have a heart at all.

Well. She wasn't that adorable, wasn't she?

Time went by and Cameron still hadn't left the room. She'd started to read a book she'd left in her car just in case she got boring. Every once in a while she checked on her son and comforted him when he started crying about something.

After a while a nurse came into the room to set up an IV. Cameron smiled at her warmly and soon the nurse left the room again, leaving Cameron all alone in her misery.

Heavy rain drops started hittinh the window and thunderbolds began to lighten the grey, dark sky like golden fences. Cameron 's little baby kept on sleeping and didn't even notice what happened around him. He was just fine. Now.

Cameron looked at the other two children who were in the room aswell and smiled sadly. Their parents had visited them earlier that day. They'd come into the room together, holding hands and comforting each other.

Cameron would never have that. She would have to go through this alone.

She turned around when someone came through the door, first thinking it was a nurse again but soon realized she was wrong when two piercing blue eyes stared at her.

´What are you doing here?´

´Just checking out how you were doing. Well it seems like you are fine, so...´

He started to turn around.

´House...wait.´

He rolled his eyes and turned around again.

´What do you want Cameron?´

´You came all the way here just to check on how we were doing?´

House only shrugged.

Cameron laughed bitterly.

´What do you want me to say? ´Hey Cameron. I have a son? Great, lets play happy family´?´

Cameron didn't say anything.

´Well I think you know way better than this. I can't do that. It's in the nature of every human being that they are lying, cheating and running away just to turn things right for their own good. Well, you proved my theory. End of story.´

Cameron looked up with tears welling up in her eyes. She didn't want to be like other people. She wasn't like other people.

´I'm sorry. I already told you that. I never wanted to hurt you. It never was about me. Just about him.´, she whispered, pointing to her son who was still asleep.

´He deserves a father who really loves him, who likes to spend time with him, who admires and adores him. And sorry about that, but you really don't fall in that kind of category.´

´Well, you will never find out if you are right or not´, House whispered and looked down.

Cameron sighed and closed her eyes. A tear ran down her cheek.

´He will always be your son and if you want to visit him...or anything else I won't get in the way.´

She knew it wasn't about her. She had to shove her feelings for him aside.

It was over wasn't it? She'd destroyed the chance to be with the man she was in love with for 4 years now and as bitter and sad as it was: She had to accept, that she'd lost him. But still she wanted to fight for one thing: Giving Nathaniel the father he deserved.

´House I....´

House turned around when someone cleared his throat and moved the glass door.

Chase.

Well...Did Chase hear everything or not? We will see.=) Please review!!!!