Disclaimer:
I don't own YJ that belongs to DC. The song "Open Wounds" is a song by Skillet and belongs to them and their producers.
In the dark with the music on
Wishing I was somewhere else
Taking all your anger out on me
Somebody help
Megan had gasped and Artemis clenched her fists. Jess was covered in bruises and there were gashes all over her body. When they asked her how it happened, she clammed up. My so called mentor! She wanted to scream…but she couldn't find her voice. She put her head down, Megan and Artemis whispering words of comfort.
"We won't let it happen again."
"It'll be all right. The bruises will fade."
I would rather rot alone
Then spend a minute with you
I'm gone, I'm gone
And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
Megan was talking to Jess, but she was only half listening. She was still thinking about him. He haunted her memories, pushed her passed her limitations. He hated her…He wanted her dead. She didn't understand how they could care for her. She was unwanted by the person she'd loved the most. Loved, being the key word.
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
Open wounds
She'd never hurt him like that. Never. No matter how awful he was to her. She'd loved him, respected him, adored him. Yet he only seemed to hate her more and more. She looked at Artemis, who seemed to be analyzing her. The blonde archer seemed to see through her ruse. Something was bothering Jess, and Artemis knew it.
Downstairs the enemy sleeps
Leaving the TV on
Watching all the dreams
We had turn into static
Doesn't matter what I do
Nothings gonna change
I'm never good enough
Jessamyn turned to walk out. Her memory flickered to the first and only time she'd ever trained with him. He was swinging at her, but she was blocking most of his shots. When he stopped, she smiled and said, "How was that Scotty? Pretty good huh? I've been practicing."
He turned and hit her hard in the gut and she collapsed.
"You're pathetic, you're weak, you're nothing but a waste of mass," Scotty rounded on her. "Get and keep out of my face."
Jess cried so hard that day. She remembered a pair of arms around her and tried to think of who it was. She wracked her brains, unable to come up with an identity.
And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
Tears ran down her cheeks as she waited for them to finish packing. Conner had been the first to notice, and he nudged Megan.
"She's crying about something…."Conner muttered.
Megan nodded and flew over to her.
"Are you okay Jess?"
No…no Megan…I'm never okay. The sentence got stuck in her throat. She was unable to speak. Jess lifted her eyes to meet Megan's.
"YOU'RE WORTHLESS! YOU DESERVE TO DIE!"
The words blared in her mind. The feeling of fists contacting her skin, and the overwhelming sense of concern from the Martian made her shudder. She needed to get away from her. Jessamyn stepped away from them. She gave them a false smile. She shuddered until Robin reached out a hand.
"Hey….are you all right?"
Tell me why you broke me down
And betrayed my trust in you
I'm not giving up, giving in
When will this war end?
When will it end
You can't stop me from falling apart
You can't stop me from falling apart
You can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
"Is there something wrong?" Kaldur asked.
"No….no," Jess croaked. "I'm fine. Just a little emotional…this is all so much at once."
"Abused one day saved the next…yeah that'd be a little 'whelming," Robin said.
He wrapped an arm around her and said, "Let's forget that and go outside."
Jess smiled and nodded, "Let's go!"
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
How could you, how could you
How could you, how could you
All I ever wanted to be was you
All you ever gave me were open wounds
Jess threw away her thoughts of him for memories of Scotty. She embraced Robin and said, "I love you guys! You're the best!"
They raced out towards the beach, Jess keeping up pace with Wally. She smiled as her feet hit the wet sand. She was wearing a long sleeved, long button down shirt over her bathing suit. No one had even noticed the bruises and cuts on her legs. She unbuttoned the shirt and let it fall off. Robin's eyes widened. The bruises were unbelievable. They were everywhere! The others noticed too, but kept quiet. She ran in the water, splashing Wally and Robin. The two boys laughed, running into the water after her. She grinned as they ran about the surf. Runaway and his nasty words were the last thing on her mind.