Hope everyone is having a good week so far! RL has been crazy but my happy place is my stories so here is your update. Thought I would throw a little Jasper at you today. See you at the bottom :)
JPOV
Bella.
How the hell can Bella be in my life again?
I just got where I could go a few days without thinking about her. I finally accepted that I am going to be marrying Alice and then here comes Bella waltzing…wait no bulldozing back into my life. She had to know! She had to have tracked me down, but how? She didn't seem like the type though and she was genuinely shocked when I walked into her office this morning.
My Beautiful Sunshine, fuck she is even more gorgeous in person! Mary Alice Brandon is an attractive woman but damn she has nothing on my Sunshine. Mine. Huh? I keep thinking of her as mine and she never has been. First that fuck-up of a husband she was with, now that was a real piece of work. She didn't tell me a lot but I don't know how she could put up with his childish ass for as long as she did. She told me once one of the things that she enjoyed most about 'us' was the simple adult conversations.
Now it seems she is involved with Edward. I don't particularly have anything against the man, I mean we could even be considered friends but Bella is mine. Shit, stop thinking that way!
Did I make a mistake leaving that note for her this morning? I just couldn't walk away like I did with her thinking the worse. Hell I've done that before, three years ago. I have to tell her the truth. I can't have her thinking we were just acquaintances. Fuck I actually fell in love with her!
"Jasper, Evil Pixie Bitch is on line 3 for you and your next appointment is here," Charlotte's voice fills my office from the intercom. I smirk at her nickname for Alice, right on the nose.
"Tell Alice that I just got back from the attorney's office and am now in with a patient and booked solid all afternoon and will call her back tonight. Send Mr. Adkins back in about 10 minutes."
"You got it, Sug."
I can just imagine the look on Alice's face when she doesn't get to talk to me when she wants to. Ever since she found out about my relationship with Bella 3 years ago she is on me like stink on shit. I hate it! I will let my sister-in-law, Charlotte deal with the Evil Pixie Bitch. I bet Charlotte and Peter would love Bella. Stop! Get her out of your head, Whitlock!
My computer pings alerting me of a new email, I jump to answer it, maybe it's her. IT IS! Hells Bells…that was one of the nicknames I had for her. I like that it stuck with her.
TO: JWhitlockMD D
FROM:
DATE: August 28, 2013
SUBJECT: My contact info…
Dr. Whitlock,
I received your note. You can reach me at the office on the main phone line, I do not have an extension, but it is my understanding that I will be sharing a secretary with Mr. Masen. As today is my first day I do not have my work email set up yet so all correspondence will continue the way it has always been with this firm, I am assuming through Mr. Masen or his secretary. This is my personal email so please do not respond back as I do not use this for business, I just wanted to let you know how to contact me since you requested the information and are so eager to get your prenuptial agreement completed. I will let Mr. Masen know of your urgency in this matter and we will start on it this afternoon.
Thank you,
Isabella Swan
WHAT? NO NO NO! Shit I have to tell her the truth.
TO:
FROM: JWhitlockMD
DATE: August 28, 2013
SUBJECT: Please...
Gorgeous Girl
This is a personal message so I am using your personal email. Just hear me out, please that's all I ask!
I am so sorry about the way that I left off things three years ago. Please know that I have thought about you every day, missed you so much. I have to be completely honest, had I known that you were single and available I would have dropped my girlfriend in a heartbeat and been at your side without another thought. However I guess things just weren't in the cards for us, but now that you are back in my life, I can't lose you again. I realize that the first time was completely my fault…she found out about us. The first time was when I called out your name while fucking her and then she started searching my email and phone contacts until she found your name and number and then checked my phone records. Baby I am so sorry, it was easier to walk away from the beautiful relationship we were building and focus on the one that was right in front of me. Alice and I had been together since college and both of our families were…she was…FUCK! There just isn't any good excuse for what I did. I panicked, plain and simple.
I was completely honest when I told you I was going to be busy for a couple of days, I was out of state for a medical conference, she had already looked through my phone without my knowledge. She was taking care of my house while I was away, that is when she went through my home computer and my phone bills. She picked the lock to my office and broke into my desk and files. My office is off limits. She knew this because I have patient files and records there…along with proof of us. I thought I was covering my tracks well enough. When I got home she confronted me with everything and made me choose right then and there. Believe me I know now, I CHOSE WRONG! I knew right after I chose her that it was wrong. I am so sorry I didn't pick us. I don't want things to be awkward between us now. Please accept my apology, baby. I will be waiting to hear from you.
Your Cowboy
SEND.
I refuse to lose her, even if we can only be friends, damn she was like my best friend 3 year ago. We talked about everything…well, no I guess we didn't. She told me all about her life and I told her about my days, sort of. Looking back I guess I really held back a lot from her, we exchanged pictures and values about relationships and of course she continually kept me hard with all the flirting and eventual cybersex. Fuck it was hot. We were perfect for each other.
It actually scared me how quickly I fell for her, how intense my feelings were for a woman I had never physically met. After just talking to her and getting to know her for a few weeks my feelings for her already surpassed any I had ever felt for another woman. At the time I just chalked it up to her being someone forbidden. Boy was I wrong!
Mr. Adkins knocks walks into my office as I hurry and minimize my email account. All my thoughts of Bella will have to be put on the back burner for the next hour while I help Mr. Adkins try to decide which he wants, his wife or lover he met online. FUCK ME.
Toward the end of our session my computer pings with an incoming email, I can't wait for him to shut up so I can check and see if it is Bella or not. What will she say? Will she believe me? Will I have another shot? Wait, I don't need to be thinking about another shot with Bella, I am marrying Alice…eventually...maybe. Everyone needs one last fling though, right? Bella isn't just a fling though she never was and never could be.
SHIT, Mr. Adkins looks like he is waiting for me to say something, what the hell was he talking about?
"Well, Mr. Adkins we have made good progress today. See Charlotte on the way out and she can put you on the books for next week."
He is still looking at me like I lost my mind…HA! I think I have. He gets up, shakes my hand and walks out of the office. I damn near trip in my rush to get to my computer. It is her!
TO: JWhitlockMD
FROM:
DATE: August 28, 2013
Subject: Your case
Dr. Whitlock,
Upon review with my superiors it has been found that it would indeed be a conflict of interest for me to have anything to do with any of your affairs. This email is to let you know that Edward Masen is currently and will remain your attorney in all your matters. All further correspondence needs to be directed to him. Best wishes for your upcoming nuptials.
Very truly yours,
Isabella Swan, CLA
Certified Legal Assistant
to Edward A. Masen, Jr.
Law Offices of
Denali & Masen
I feel all the air leave my lungs in a rush and panic sets in. She can't do this to me! I specifically requested her. And Dr. Whitlock? What's that about? I just poured my heart out to her and this is the response I get? Please baby, please don't do this. I can't lose her before I even have a chance. What do I do next?
Well, there was a little of Jasper's mixed up emotions and thoughts.
Thanks to everyone who is not following and/or added DC to your favorites, there are so many to list but you know who you are and I appreciate each one of you! Thank you for your reviews too, I hope I didn't miss anyone!
lmb1- Poor Jasper is so confused. He knows what he wants but how does he get there? DUMP ALICE! Now for him to figure that out. :) He really doesn't want to disappoint anyone. And Edward & Bella's conversation will be posted on Sunday!
VioletDream13- Yay! Yes, it will be an EdwardxBella for a little while, but I will not have Edward broken hearted by Bella and Bella wouldn't do that to Edward, so no worries :) Jasper will not be happy that Edward is standing in the way of something...and someone he wants. It will be answered soon...er or later HAHA. I will continue the story, don't worry. I hate it when I am really getting into a story and then it just stops.
midnightblupuppy- Here is your update, I hope you liked it! I will post again on Sunday.
inge80- I just can't stand Tanya's character LOL so she won't be a good person in any of my stories! You will find out about Bella's past on Sunday and it is not nice at all...just a warning. Jasper needs to put himself first, in a healthy way, ironic for a psychiatrist huh? And no it wasn't an 'oops' DC Jessica and Angela are so opposite of Arizona Jess & Ange it makes Bella appreciate her friends even more. She is kinda mad at them feeling like they blew her off but they will make appearances later.
ellaryne - Poor poor Jasper is confused and doesn't know how to make that 1st step or even what direction he wants that first step to be in. I think he finds it easier to give into whatever Alice wants just to keep her quiet and happy(ish) then it would be to rock the boat for Bella who has never demanded anything of him.
wastedpain - ROFLMAO! Jasper does need to get his shit together. I am glad you love my Edward and it makes me so HAPPY that my Bella is best! YAY! Pervy Uncle Aro will not be silenced for long, and as for never thinking you would say something like that, I tend to do that to people ;)
The-Majors-Keeper - I am so glad you love it, Sam! Till Sunday :)
Guest- Thank you! Hope you enjoyed a little JPOV today. Next update on Sunday :)
Guest (Sarah)- Thanks! The chapter on Sunday is Bella telling Edward some of her past and quite possibly needs a tissue warning.
Keep the reviews coming, I love hearing what you all have to say! Till Sunday
~Shasta