AN: Okay so this is the next chapter of this story obvious and I hope that you all like this chapter too.

Just so you know this chapter is from Spencers' POV, I might just say so and it won't be the last chapter from her POV.

So just read this and leave a review, it would be really appreciated and it will definitively help with posting more chapters. If I get some I can promise that the next chapter will be up in 24 hours. I have it already typed and I have the draft for chapter 9 ready and I'm working in chapter 10.

Disclaimer: I don't own SoN. The song I used this time is Another day by, Lene Marlin, she is from Norway.

Oaky that was all for now.

Chapter 7: Another day


Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile
I see it now, and I, can say it's gone
That would be a lie
Cannot control this, this thing called love

I can hear voices talk to me but somehow I'm not able to respond to the people that are talking to me. I know that I recognize some of the voices, I hear mum and dad and my brother and my best friend and then there is this voice that I know that I know but I can't place it, in my heart it feels like its Ashleys' voice but I know that can't be true. I know that we haven't been in contact for five years sp why would she of all people be here, it must be my imagination, that's the only reason I can think of. There is one voice that I haven't heard and that is my so called girlfriends' just so you know she is the reason that I' here, wonder what happened to her. But I don't want to call her girlfriend I mean I never thought of us like that but I think that she might have seen us like that, so according to me Jen is more like an ex and I hope that she knows that.

Now let's get back to the voice that I think is Ashleys', that voice always says that she is sorry and that she never will leave y side but in the next breathe says that she must leave but that she'll be back as soon as she can and the voice is back the next the day. And there is so many different promises that the voice makes I can't even say name one of all of these promises. She says a lot of things, one thing that I can clearly remember is that she, cause I know it's a she is that I'm her reason but unfortunately don't I know what she means cause that is something that she haven't said.

Hang on a minute how come that there is this bright white light just in front of me, I have seen that light a lot lately, I can't place it and every time I'm getting near it I'm taken back but there was this one time that I almost was there and then I was brought back to this more like dark place but the last week has been better and better but it's not the place I want to be at. Can you look too? I think I'm seeing someone closer to the light I just need to look who that is and when I know I'll come back, okay? Why does this feel like I'm going to die, I can't die! I'm too young and I have so much to live for, like seeing Ash again and tell her that I love her and that I have never forgotten her.

"Clay? Is that you?" I said and looked at a boy/man that looked like my dead brother.

"Yes Spencer it's me."

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to guide you; I thought that we have had this conversation before."

"I know but it's just as strange every time I get here."

"Okay, so let's go through this one more time, just so everything is clear for you. I'm here to guide so that you either wake up or take the step to the other side with me."

"Great so let's get this party started. I don't want to be here anymore."

"Okay, but today we're going to have a visitor with us so that you can get even more guidance."

"Fine, who is it?"
"Rafie."

"Do I know a Rafie?"

"Think Spence, just think. This is one of the reasons why you can't cross over or wake up."

"That I don't know who Rafie is?"

"Not just that, nut you need to feel more, what I mean is that you think too much and analyses everything to much just go with the flow."
"That's not you Clay that is more like Ash." I said.

"Whatever, let's just get this going. Oh here is Rafie."

"Ah". I said when I saw the man, why am I so stupid. Rafie is Ashleys' dad.

"So I didn't think I would ever see you Spencer, I thought that you would have woken up by know" Rafie said.

"What do you mean?" I asked and I was a bit surprised that he said that but then again this is just some weird dream I'm having yet again.

"Here is the deal it's pretty easy. I think so." He said "I know what I would do."

"So what's the deal" I asked I was just losing a bit of temper, this isn't why I'm here I want to wake up now.

"Fine he'll tell you" Raife said and pointed to Clay.

"Okay, Spencer it's like it's every time you are here, listen to your head or to your heart. When you do that you'll wake up."

"But I do that, I mean, the first time I followed my head and that was not good so after that I have followed my heart but I still haven't woken up. So just maybe, just maybe this isn't just my problem. Maybe there is someone on the other side that is a wake that must say something so that I know that I have something to live for." I wasn't that happy, I was pretty mad at them. They made it sound like it was my fault that I wasn't a wake yet.

"Maybe you're right but just maybe there is something that you haven't really told yourself, that you need to say." Clay said. Why must he always be so smart, it really sucks, you know?

"Tell me more? I more or less demanded.

"Can't do that" both of them said.

"Just so you know, this really stinks and you stink too." I said, I mean I want to know who wouldn't and I know that they know.

The three of them continued their conversation back and forth and the truth is that they didn't get any further Spencer wanted to know what they meant and they couldn't tell her.

"Just so you know this is just so boring, and you guys are boring" I said "The truth is that I thought this would be fun, I mean you were so cool when you were alive."

"Spencer, just stop complaining. Have you ever thought that that could be the reason?"

"My complaining?"

"Yes" Clay said and sighed.

"Okay in have done some thinking and I know what I want to do." I said and I was happy with my decision.

"And that is" both asked me.

"I want to follow my heart."

"Great Spence, but you always says that and yet again you come back here."

"I know but know I know why and if this is the reason then I won't come back."

"Okay and that is?"

"I love Ashley and I need to tell her."

"Was that hard" Rafie asked me.

"Not really." And with that I kind of left both Clay and Rafie and it was good feeling. Both Clay and Raife looked at each other like they were happy and I seemed almost like they knew that this was something that I should have realized much sooner.

This something that has been going on ever since I've been in this coma that is something I know. But today was the first time that I admitted to myself out load and to other people, with other people I mean people that are dead. I know that all of this sounds a bit crazy and if didn't happen to me I wouldn't believe it all. And one more time I'm back at my bed at the hospital and I still can't talk to anyone or see them but this time I know that I'll be back soon. It's just one more thing I need to do.

And I know this feeling that I'm feeling is a something that I can't control and I don't think I want to control it either. But at the same time I want to be able to control it. And this feeling is something that I think that they call love, and this was just another day in my life that I won't get back.

AN: so now you have read this chapter and I hope it was good. Please leave a review. I'll be so happy and when I'm happy I have inspiration and inspiration equals updates and it might give e inspiration to write updates to my other stories to.

Johanna