I slowly reached over not thinking at all and began to remove its outside wrapping. After it was gone I grabbed a pair of scissors and cut the tape on the small box and looked inside.

I stared down and pulled out its contents; two letters and a small box. I was going to open the little box first, but the one letter said in what I believe strict instructions on the envelope to read first the other said to be the last thing I opened.

I pulled the top of the envelope open and slowly took out the letter and began to read.

My Dearest Roza,

If you are reading this then I can guess that you've either had this mailed to you or you met my family over in Russia. I do hope it is the second option I know you would have loved to meet them and got along great. If this is mailed to you a year later after the attack then my mother followed the instructions I sent her along with this package.

The main reason for this is to let you know that I will always love you. When I was turned into a strigoi the first thing I thought of when I awoke was you and I began to cry and sob. The strigoi that turned me tried to feed me blood, but I refused I didn't want to become a monster, the only thing that kept me going was the thought of how disgusted you would be knowing I'd become such a disgraceful creature. However, I can only keep it up so long, the blood lust that came with this curse is…unbearable. I try as hard as I can to fight it, and before I lose all my humanity to it I write these letters in hope that you would someday get them.

Inside the small box is a gift that I had hoped to give you someday, it belonged to my great-great- grandmother. I do hope that you like it if not I would understand. There are so many things that I wish to say to you, but above all I wish to hold you; to have you in my arms and to never let go. I wish to look into your eyes and to tell you that everything will be ok. However, this can never happen I know that and it pains my heart.

I really only have two last wishes and I do hope you can fulfill at least one of them. I know you must have been sad; the sound of your voice that horrible day as you screamed out to save me haunts me forever. But my Rose, my lovely Roza I want you to be happy even though I cannot be with you I do not want you to be sad or sorry. Someday you will meet someone else, if you haven't already and I hope you can let go of me to be happy with him, to love him as you have me. The other is my own personal wish that someone out there will find me and end this miserable existence that is not even worth being called a life. What I said that day in the van stands true, death is a better choice than roaming this earth as a murderer.

Please know this Roza, no matter if I be dead or alive you are always in my thoughts and in my heart, for an eternity.

Love you,

Dimitri

I stared down at the letter and felt a tear slide down my cheek; I hadn't even noticed I was crying until now. My hands were shaking as I reread the letter over and over again taking in every word he wrote.

Slowly I put the letter back in its envelope and laid it aside; the box was not very big and I had a guess as to what was inside but in a way I wish I would be wrong hoped it was not what I dreaded and wanted so dearly.

The lid flipped open and tears poured out of my eyes as I stared down at the most gorgeous ring I'd ever seen. It wasn't gold, but silver, intercut engravings circled the entire ring making it appear as if vines ran all the way along it, the left and right sides of the main stone flared out creating a fan of small twisting vines. The stone in the middle was gorgeous, a shiny diamond that cast a small rainbow against the box when hit with the light. Being no expert I gave a rough guess at least 2 carrots.

My hands worked by themselves lifting the ring from its container and slid it onto my left ring finger; a perfect fit.

My mind swam with imagination of Dimitri getting down on one knee and proposing with it, having his soft warm hands place the ring there himself. Tears continued to pour down my face and my whole body shook as I sat on my bed.

Nothing about me was working; my senses were gone, so much that I didn't even hear the knock, or the door opening. I did feel arms reach over and take the letter to look over, I wanted to stop them from seeing it from seeing me like this but I couldn't. A minute later arms where around me and I was pulled against someone's chest. A smell of soft cloves drifted to my nose and I didn't care I just clung onto his shirt and continued crying into him.

We sat there like that for what seemed like hours, he rocked me carefully back and forth trying to sooth me. I had stopped crying; the tears had run out, even though I still felt like crying.

Finally getting my mind back I pulled away and Adrian's arms fell back, "I'm sorry for getting your shirt wet."

He just looked at me, "Rose you don't need to apologize for that, for anything."

"I know, but it's the only thing I can think of to say right now."

He just nodded, "do you mind if I see it?"

I knew what he meant and lifted me left hand, "it's beautiful"

I nodded in agreement not totally trusting myself to talk.

"Well…I was suppose to come and get you for dinner, but…"

"Oh right, I had forgotten." I got up and went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and nearly jumped with shock. My eyes were nothing but red, tears still wetted my face, I looked horrible.

"Shit…" I began washing my face off in hope of some sort of recovery.

Adrian came up behind me, "you don't have to go you know; I can bring you something if you want."

"No I promised Lissa I would be at dinner, a little make up and I'll be good as knew…"

"Only on the outside"

I stopped and looked over to him, "there isn't really much I can do about that right now, I'll just put on a smile for an hour or two, no one will notice."

Adrian walked over and took my hand and lifted my face with his other so I was looking into his face, "Rosa, you don't need to put on an act for them, you're hurting right now and…"

I stopped him in mid sentence with a kiss on the lips.

He pulled back and looked at me, I was slightly surprise, "after all this time you've wanted to kiss me the minute I do you pull away."

He let go of my hand and face, "Rose I have wanted to kiss you, still do, but not now, it wouldn't be fair, I'd be taking advantage of you."

I just stood there, I knew he was right I just needed someone right now, even him, and I did like Adrian, but I still didn't know if it was the right kind of like.

Not saying anything more I just nodded.

"Well I'm glad you actually agree with me for once." He turned to leave but turned back and kissed the top of my head. "I'll bring you all the good food."

I was about to protest, but he was already out of my room the door closed behind him.

I continued to wash my face anyway and put my hair up and changed into my pajamas being as I wasn't going to leave my room any more tonight.

I sat on my bed once again, the box and both letters still lay there. I reached out for the first letter and placed it safely on top of my night stand along with the little box. The ring remained on my finger.

I picked up the second letter and stared at it, not sure what to expect and not wanting to have another cry fest.

My mind went through all the pro's and con's which actually took about 45 minutes. Finally giving up I opened it as I had the first and began to read.

Everything in me stopped, my mind began to race and shock showed on my face, just as the knock came at my door I jumped up and ran to open it.

Adrian stood there with a whole assortment of food, "I didn't know what you liked exactly so…"

"Where does the head guardian or someone in charge stay here!?"

He looked startled, "huh what?"

"I need to talk to someone who is in charge here besides the queen now!"

"Rose what's going on?"

"I'll tell you later, please where are they!?"

He pointed down the hall, "last door on the left his name is guardia…."

I took off before he could finish not really caring what his name was.

I ran as fast as I could, in my pajamas and with the second letter in hand.

Hey everyone!! I do hope you all enjoyed the secrets of the box, well most of it the next part of it you must wait to find out in chapter 8! ^__^

So thanks to all of you who voted in my poll; although I'm still kind of undecided as to who I'm going to pick. However, for you lucky Matt fans he is going to be returning if not the next chap chapter 9!

And to let you all know at this point there is only going to be 4 chapters left, I want this done before the book comes out so unless I stop my procrastinating ways of only writing one chap a week 11 chapters is all I'm going to do.

Anyway that is my plan for now, thanks again for all your wonderful reviews you guys are amazing!! ^__^