A Rough Life To Live

You Scare Me Heero

WARNING: MAY CONTAIN VIOLENCE, SWEARING AND SEXUAL INSULTS.

I am dyslexic so I am very sorry if some of the words are wrong!

In Emy's POV, I will not put the writing as her accent, only when she talks will that happen.

A/N: This story was inspired by Correlero's story 'Dickensian Street'. Please read if you like stories that show how much the Gundam Pilots care about each other, and another version of what would happen if Duo went back to his home please read her story. She is down as one of my favorites on my main page so please look. Thank you.

Previously:

"So who were they?" Asked Trowa calmly. Emy sighed before turning to Duo, to see who would tell. Duo nodded at her.

"Remember I said bout Ol' Knigh'?" She asked, she didn't give any of them time to answer. "Those guys work for 'im... Ol' Knigh' is top 'ere... He's tryin' ta git rid of me 'nd Duo..."

"Whys he trying to get rid of you?" Asked Wufei not even looking at them. Emy glanced over at Wufei for a second before sighing and looking down at the floor.

"Because me and Emy are the only ones who don't agree with his ways." Duo explained to everyone. Obviously Emy didn't want to talk about it much. "He's got this deal with Oz."

"With Oz..." Quatre said so soft and innocently.

"Yeah. If Oz stay out of his way, he'll give them every street kid... To make them in to soldiers, or..." Duo paused. "T-to...To experiment on..." Duo looked down at Emy who still stared at the floor. Quatre gave a small gasp.

"That's terrible." Said Quatre. Duo nodded and sighed.

"Bu' dat's not all..." Emy added. Everyone looked at the female next to Duo. Each one not sure of what exactly the girl was on about. She sighed.

"They 'ave another plan..." She started to explain softly. "Their gonna git every street kid der is... 'Nd put 'em der..." She gulped. "When they're all der...." She paused, all eyes still on her. Her head lifted ever so slightly and looked up. All the boys saw how sad she was. Her eyes glistened with tears in what little light was in the room. Her skin seemed paler than it first seemed. Each pilot could tell that they were not going to like it.

"Their gonna kill 'em..."

"Their gonna kill 'em..." She said so suddenly. There were a few gasps and wide eyes in the room. Emy just looked down at the ground. She couldn't look at them, why would she. She just said something that made their mission more important than ever. They weren't just getting rid of Oz now. They were saving innocent lives from getting hurt.

"That bastard!" Thought Duo. Duo clenched his fists at this point. He had seen many horrible things but this was the worst thing ever. "Old Knights gone to far this time."

"We have to save them." Thought Quatre worriedly."Emy why didn't you tell us earlier?!"

"We can't botch this mission now." Thought Trowa. He was right, this mission had gone up way higher than their other missions had been before now.

"This is unforgivable." Thought Wufei. He was disgusted at the thought of that happening to children. Wufei wasn't a kid person but even he knows that they don't deserve this.

"If that's so then we'll have to do more than just destroy the bases." Thought Heero tactically. "We'll have to re-think our plan of attack."

~Duo's POV~

No one was looking at each other now. We were all thinking about how much this would change our mission! None of us had expected this to happen. Out of all of us, I think I feel the worst. I had lived on this colony. I didn't know about this plan. I had been so blind when I came here. Now that I think about it, kids use to run around in the streets even if Oz was around. When we came here there was not one sight of a child. No one was in sight. There are many street kids here on V08744, I was one of them. Emy and I had always looked out for them. But when I had gone, I left Emy, not only on her own but... The only protection for the children. I am so stupid, that's why she is here all the time and not out. Why there weren't any kids by the Maxwell Church. I'm slipping. Being back here I'm going back to street kid and not being a Gundam Pilot.

"What should we do then?" Asked Trowa not sure whether or not he should have asked that question. I looked up from my lap. Only Heero and Quatre would have that answer. Only they could lead us out of this.

I turned to Quatre. He didn't look so sure of what to do now. He seemed to be doubting himself on his skills of tactics and leadership. He is an amazing guy, but when something like this happens, he usually leaves it to Heero to decide. Quatre get a hold of yourself... Why am I saying this in my head, when I should be telling him from my mouth. Even though the words are on my lips, my voice wont speak them, as if their words that have been erased from existence.

I turned to Heero who was just watching me. Well, it was either me or Quatre. I can never tell with Heero any more. Put me and Quatre next to each other and I'll never tell who Heero is looking at. Heero please have an answer to Trowa's agonizing question. Do we just leave them?! Or do we help?! I look back at my clenched hand resting on my lap. I'm not sure what goes on in Heero's head. Once you think you know the guy, he goes and does something completely different. Many times I have tried to understand this guy, but each time have failed. Mind you that's probably how everyone of us feels with each other. None of us can really tell what the other is going to do next.

"I'm not sure!" Came Heero's voice. My head shot up. I noticed everyone was looking at him. Even Emy. That shouldn't have been the answer.

"Until we know for sure what this guy is going to do. We can't pull off this mission in the set amount of time we've been given." Heero explained. I was afraid he was going to say that. Something inside seemed to tell me that, that wasn't a good enough answer and I should start to demand a better one. But that would only cause problems in the group, and if we all get in to a fight, by the God of Death I do not want Emy to be there. Last time we're lucky we had a mission to complete so it stopped us from killing each other. I looked at Emy from the corner of me eye. She was watching Heero closely. She seemed intrigued by the Perfect Soldier. Was she trying to read him? Emy no matter how much you try your never going to read Heero. The eyes are the windows to the soul. Ha! Whoever thought of the obviously hasn't met Heero. The silence in this room is killing me. I have to get out of her and be on my own. I can't stand this any more.

I stand up, letting Emy free of my hold. I walk past her and head for the door to the other rooms. I hear her say my name with concern. I open the door, walk through and close the door behind me. I lean back on the door, listening to what everyone is about to say and do. I hear movement in the room.

"Leave 'im." Comes Emy's voice suddenly. I guess she's talking to Quatre. There is a short pause of silence before she speaks again. "He needs ta be alone for awhile." You still know me Emy. After all this time. You know me better than they do. Not that I would expect anything less from you. I sigh before heading for the stairs and up to my old room. Look at me. I'm depressed and I'm the crazy, hyper, knuckle head of the Gundam Pilots.

~Emy's POV~

Duo had gone up over an hour ago. Right now Quatre is helping me make something to eat for everyone. Not much we could eat. I don't eat much myself anyway, so I don't stock up that much. My attention turns to Quatre who seems to be in his own world. I'm surprised he hasn't hurt himself. Guess he has himself on autopilot while he's thinking about everything. I sigh. Maybe I shouldn't have told them about Old Night's Plan. Maybe they wouldn't be depressed. I stop what I'm doing and walk over to the archway to the dinning room. I lean on the frame and silently watch the boys do their own thing. The only sound there is, is the small talk Trowa and Wufei seem to be having at the far end of the table. What their on about I don't really want to eavesdrop on. My attention then turns to Heero. He was still staring at the closed door that leads to the staircase. I sigh.

Duo leaves the room as I say his name with concern. Each one of us watch how he leaves the room. I hear the door close and turn back to see Heero getting up and walking over to the door. He seemed to put it on himself to go and see what's wrong with Duo. But I know Duo, and right now Duo would want to be on his own. I stand up in his way of the door. All eyes are now on both of us. I'm not that much shorter than Duo, maybe an inch. Heero is probably only a inch and a half taller than Duo. But I feel like a five year old child being told off by my father for doing something wrong when I'm standing by Heero. His eyes. Why can't I read him?! Why? His eyes just glare at me. I remember the staring competition me and Heero had on the first night here. I was about to break at the sight of his eyes. No emotion, no feelings, my heart seems to break when I look at those cobalt blue eyes. I'm afraid of your eyes Heero. Do you know that?

"Leave 'im." I say. I'm not scared of Heero! I'm not scared of Heero! Yes, I am scared of Heero. Wouldn't you? From what Quatre told me when Duo had gone out earlier, Heero is the strongest and smartest out of all of them. Not someone you really want to meet. Last night Duo had called Heero the Perfect Soldier. I think now I understand why.

"He need ta be alone for awhile." I spoke once again. He stares into my eyes. I know he's trying to read me again, as he usually does. I'm not going to stop him this time. He can see what I'm like. He can see my emotions. I don't care. I don't care one bit. He can see I'm scared, I know it. My brother is sad and I'm gonna make sure no else makes him sad.

"He's sad, Heero." I start. "I've put 'im there. I'm not gonna let anyone else make 'im worse." I paused as he carried on trying to figure me out. "He protects me. 'Nd I care for 'im."

I thought at that point, my life was going to end. I really thought Heero was gonna kill me. What was I to expect? He's still looking at the door. I sigh and hesitantly walk over to him. Trowa and Wufei just think I'm probably going to ask something of Heero. Well, their partly right. I lean on the chair and lower my lips to his ear.

"No matter how much ya look at dat door, he ain't comin'." I whispered. I stand up before walking back to the kitchen. I stop and place a hand on the frame of the archway. I look over my shoulder only to see Heero take a swig of his beer. I sigh and walk back into to help Quatre.

After everyone has had something to eat I start to clear up. Wufei and Trowa decide to be perfect gentlemen and offer to do it since me and Quatre cooked. I give them my thanks before showing them where the plates go. I look over to see Duo's food on the counter. Lucky it was something that you could eat cold. I don't feel like re-heating it. I walk over to it and picked it up. An idea struck me like lightning. I give a small smile before walking out of the room with the plate on a tray. Quatre looks up at me in confusion as I walk up behind Heero. I wink at Quatre, to say trust me. If Heero wants to see Duo so much then I'll give him an excuse to do it. I put on a sad look.

"Heero?!" I ask. Heero turns and looks up at me. He stairs into my eyes once again. Stop looking into my eyes, you scare me Heero. I smile sweetly and hold out the tray a little, covering my emotions.

"Could ya do me a fave?" I asked using slang. "I don't wanna see Duo starve. Could ya give dis ta 'im?" I asked him sweetly. Hopefully this will work. Please don't let him see through my plan. If he does I'm dead. I can tell when there's something going on between two people. Duo and Heero aren't an exception. But hell this is a risk. Heero pushes the chair from out of the table and stands up. He turns to me and our hands brush as he takes the tray off me.

"Sure." He says calmly. He turns slowly not to tip anything. He walks over to the door and stops at it. He balances the tray on one arm and opens the door before walking out it and up the stairs to Duo. I walk over and shut the door with a small smirk on my face. I turn and sit back down next to Quatre. Quatre looked at me confuse.

"Why did you ask Heero to do it?" He asked innocently. I smiled, he was cute when he was innocent. I gave a small giggle.

"Givin' 'em time ta talk." I said and smirked again. Quatre looked at me confused then smiled calmly at me.

"You noticed?" He asked curiously.

"Maybe Heero will regain a bit more of his humanity..."

~Normal POV~

Heero walks up the stairs and turns to face Duo's door. Heero sighs. He looks at the door for a few seconds.

"Duo open the door." Said Heero calmly. Heero waited for a reply. After what sounds like movement an answer comes.

"It's open." Comes Duo's voice.

"My hands are full." Says Heero rolling his eyes. He could easily have opened the door, but he had to get Duo out of the room somehow. Some more movement was heard before the door opened. Heero's eye met Duo's. Duo's eyes went wide at the sight of Heero and a tray of food. Duo had to hide away his laughter or other wise that food would be on him. That had cheered Duo up a little. Heero rolled his eyes at how slow Duo was taking to take the food off of him.

"Do you want this or not?" Asked Heero holding out the tray to Duo. Heero frowned. Duo gave a cheeky grin.

"Didn't know you cared?"

"I don't. But Emy does."

"Is that your lame excuse?!" He smirks. "Since when do you take orders from a girl?!"

"You protect her and she takes care of you." Heero answered. Duo looked away from Heero and lost his smile altogether. Heero's featured softened ever so slightly. Even thou Duo was annoying and independent, Heero knew that Duo needed help sometimes; even if he didn't deserve it from annoying them. Duo walked into the room and set the tray down on the small desk in the room. Heero didn't go in. He just discreetly looked around. To the left was a bed with messy sheets half off it. Obviously Duo had been on the bed. Next to that was the small wooden desk with a chair at it. Above the desk was a mirror hanging on the wall. Heero had never really expected Duo's room to be so... plain. When you picture Duo you'd think music, rock bands, a laptop of his own, a few pieces of metal that he collected for God knows what reason. Not something this plain. This was Heero's idea room, not Duo's.

Duo placed the tray down on the desk and turned to see Heero standing at the door looking at his room. Duo smiled at him.

"It isn't much. Is it?" He asked with a small smile. Heero looked at him showing no emotion. Duo indicated for Heero to come in. Duo had a feeling Heero wanted to talk with him, but not sure if Heero knew that yet. Heero shut the door behind him and crossed his arms just standing in the middle of the room. Duo rolled his eyes at how on edge Heero seemed to be. Duo just looked at Heero. Duo sat down on his bed and watched Heero's actions.

"Your room is quite... plain." Said Heero trying to stop the silence. Duo gave a small smile and looked around the room.

"I guess it's more to your liking than mine." Said Duo smiling away as if they were just two new friend who just came to his house for the first time.

"It's alright." Said Heero looking around to avoid Duo's eye contact.

"He's getting annoying." Thought Duo. Duo looked at Heero trying to gain eye contact once again. Heero was having difficulty with Duo for once. He didn't know what was wrong with him. The palms of his hands were sweaty, he was finding it difficult to breath. Was he ill? It almost felt the same way as he did earlier when Duo walked out of this place.

Duo stood up and went to walk over to Heero when something unexpected happened. Duo's leg got caught in the messy sheets half off the bed, causing him to fall into Heero. As soon as Duo hit Heero, Heero's reflex's went into action. He wrapped his arms around Duo's wait and placed his legs far apart for balance. Duo looked up at Heero and blushed at the position they were in. Duo's body was right up against Heero's. His hands resting on Heero's firm chest and Heero had his arms around Duo's waist holding them closer. Heero looked down at Duo to see him blush. Their bodies touching. Dark violate eyes meet cobalt blue eyes. A sudden silence. A sudden heat. Heart leaping in a giddy whirl.

"What's this feeling?" Heero thought as he stared at Duo. Heero started to notice many things about Duo. His pale skin that brought out his violate eyes. His lips looking soft and inviting. His perfect skin covered in a soft rose red. Heero couldn't hold himself back.

"Heero... Do you feel the same way?" Thought Duo. Heero's slightly tanned skin helped show off his muscles that were wrapped around Duo's waist, trapping him. Heero's blue eyes had always caught Duo's attention. Everywhere they went, no matter the mission or situation they were always the same.

Heero and Duo started to come closer and closer. Their eyes still locked, but closing slowly with each passing second. Both set's of eyes were closed. Their faces inches apart. Heero's grip on Duo tightening. Their lips brushed for a second before locking together passionately. Sparks started to fly all over the place. Both seemed in a daze at this point. Their thoughts far away from their actions and surroundings. Duo's hands slid up Heero's chest and up and around his neck. Heero's lips parted slightly and his tongue slid out of his mouth and started to lick at Duo's lips. Duo didn't really know what to do. He just slid his lips apart slightly and Heero's tongue went into search the moist cavern of Duo's mouth and map out the area. Duo and Heero started to have a fight for dominance, obviously Heero wins.

Neither could tell what this feeling was. A strange and powerful feeling that was keeping them together. As if it was a dream they didn't want to stop. Both felt safe and happy being in each others grasp. Why was this feeling there? What was it? Where Duo and Heero gaining more feelings for each other than just friends? But at that point both boys realise what their doing and pushed back from each other. Both panting slightly, eyes lock, but not the same way as last time. This time they were trying to find out what had just happened.

"What... just happened?"

"We... We made out!"

Okay I am so so so sorry for the Heero Duo bit. I had planned to do this part differently but no matter how much I tried I couldn't get it the way I wanted it to be. And I know the ending sucks but I had to stop it at there because in the next chapter nothing much is going to happen so I need that for the beginning of it. Once again I am so so so sorry for it being rubbish.

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