Warning: Language towards the end. And I started writing this and my fingers just seemed to develop a mind of their own. This chapter got away from me and just wouldn't stop. Lol.

Everything went back to normal after my talk with Sirius; and by normal, I meant that Sirius forgot that I wasn't hanging out with them anymore. It wasn't long before a month had passed and another full moon was coming up. I doubt that this full moon would be any different than the last.

Sirius had lasted an entire month with Sally, and that was enough to convince him that he was in love with her. According to Sirius, if he doesn't get tired of her within a few days, then she must be something special. I never understood his logic, but the fact that he was 'in love' with Sally was enough to make me avoid them even more.

The biggest change in the past month would have to be that James and Lily were finally together. That came as a big shock to everyone, especially Lily. But Sirius had planned something big for Sally on their three week anniversary that took up the entire weekend. That left James and Peter with nowhere to go, and that caused them to hang out with me and Lily. In that one weekend, James had managed to capture Lily's heart. Good for them.

I was happy for Lily, really I was, but at the same time, I couldn't help but feel insanely jealous of her relationship and James. It was something I could never have with Sirius. Of course, now that Lily and James are an item, Lily was spending a lot of time with the Marauders. Because Lily was with James, I spent most of my time with Avery. He was a great guy. He was smart, and funny, and really attractive. But there was just no spark between us. We went out on a date a while ago and it was fun—the most fun I've ever had on a date. But when he kissed me goodnight, I realized it wasn't going to work out. He was a great kisser, but my mind was still on Sirius. Apparently, I was destined to pine after Sirius for the rest of my life. Oh, how fun.

Avery and I are still friends though. We hang out all the time now since Lily is always with James. The date made the both of us realize that we're better off as just friends, and I didn't mind at all.

I put on a cloak and hurried to the Whomping Willow; I was already late as it was. I didn't want to transform here in the castle. As I approached the tree, I noticed that someone was already there waiting. I got closer and saw that it was Peter.

I stopped for a moment, too shocked to move. Since I left the group, I hadn't really spent much time with Peter. We hung out once or twice because we were both third wheels, but during those times, we never really talked. Peter and I were good friends and all, but I don't think we've ever really spent time just the two of us. I wasn't as close to him as I was with Sirius, and even with James. I actually always thought that the only reason he came to these things was because James and Sirius came.

"Peter?" out of the three of them, Peter was the last person I expected to come here, especially alone. "What are you doing here?"

"It's the full moon," Peter grabbed a stick and poked the knot in the tree. We hurried into the passage. "I'm here to help you with you transformation, what did you think?"

"I just thought that…" I never felt so grateful to be friends with Peter in my life. "Never mind; we better hurry."

"I couldn't find James and Sirius and I didn't want to be late, so…"

"It's alright Pete," I didn't really expect them to be here anyway. They have girlfriends to attend to now.

We made it into the Shrieking Shack and hurried to the room where I usually transformed. Peter transformed into Wormtail and sat in a corner and waited. I smiled sadly. I knew he wouldn't be much help as a rat; he was too small to stop the wolf. But the gesture is what mattered to me.

I felt the light of the moon hit my body and doubled over in pain. The transformation was starting. I bit down hard on my lip to stop myself from screaming out as I felt my bones moving around and my skin stretching and even tearing in some places.

"Remus!" I glanced at the door of the Shrieking Shack and saw a breathless James before a scream tore through my body. I caught a glimpse of him changing into a stag before my transformation was complete. But before I lost myself to the wolf, I had one final thought in my mind: Sirius wasn't here.

I woke up the next morning with my body sore all over. I ached everywhere, but my injuries weren't as bad as the last moon. I think all I had were a few scrapes and scratches here and there.

"You're awake," a soft voice caught my attention. I turned to the left and saw Lily smiling down at me. James and Peter were behind her.

"We brought you some chocolate," Peter moved forward and handed me a large bar of chocolate. I gave a small thanks and began to unwrap the bar.

"How come you never told us you told Lily about you being a werewolf?" James asked after I had taken my first bite. "We forgot it was a full moon until we were heading back to the Tower. I almost thought I wouldn't make it."

"I didn't tell her, she figured it out on her own." The rest of our conversation was interrupted when the nurse came out and inspected me. James, Lily, and Peter, had to wait outside. After making sure that everything was okay, she let me go to breakfast with everyone.

We walked in and saw Sirius already there. Sally was next to him, as usual. Everyone started walking towards the direction of Sirius, and I found myself following them. I wanted to walk away but James and Peter were busy telling me about their latest prank and I couldn't just leave without looking rude.

James took a seat next to Sirius and Lily sat next to him. Peter sat across from Sally, and that left me with the only seat left, right across from Sirius.

"Where were you guys last night?" Sirius asked as soon as we all sat down.

"Where do you think?" the comment left my mouth before I could even think about saying it. I hope it didn't sound as bitter to them as it did to me.

Sirius looked straight at me and I looked back, our eyes locking. I saw confusion in his eyes before they widened with realization.

"Oh shit, Moony, I'm—"

"Don't," I replied curtly. I don't want another apology, I really don't.

"What are you guys talking about?" Sally asked, with confusion clear on her face.

"Nothing," I snapped. I know I shouldn't have snapped at her, but I couldn't help it—I'm just so angry with her. I saw Peter and James giving me identical looks of disbelief. I wasn't one to snap at people, no matter how much I hated them. They always used to tease me about being polite, but it was just how I was.

"Remmy, I—"

"I really don't want to hear it right now, okay Sirius?"

I saw hurt in Sirius's eyes, but I couldn't find myself caring. James and Peter were looking at me as if I had just grown a second head. This was a side of me they never saw before.

"I don't feel very hungry," I stood up quickly and left before anyone could say anything. As soon as I stepped out of the Great Hall, I ran. I wasn't sure where I was going, only that I needed to run.

By the time I calmed down enough to stop, I found myself by the lake. I sunk down beside a tree and tried to catch my breath.

"Remus!" I turned around at the sound of my name and saw James running after me. He stopped right next to me. He bent forward with his hands on his knees. His face was read and his breaths came out in gasps.

"You run really fast, you know that?" He asked once he was breathing properly. He sank down beside me. I silently wondered why he was the one who had come after me. Lily probably sent him.

"What happened back there? That wasn't like you."

"I don't know, Prongs. I guess I just snapped,"

"But, you never snap at Sirius!"

"I…I don't know what came over me," what did come over me back there?

"He's really sorry he wasn't there last night. But he and Sally were celebrating their one month anniversary. It means a lot to him."

"I used to mean a lot to him," I replied bitterly. I felt tears starting to build up in my eyes and bit the inside of my cheek to try and stop them.

James was silent; he didn't have a reply to that. He was looking at me in such an odd way that I regretted saying what I just did. "You do mean a lot to him, Moony. You're his best friend."

"You're his best friend, James."

"But you and Sirius connect in a way that he and I don't and probably never will. It's all fun and games with me and him. You're the one he goes to when he's upset."

"In case you haven't noticed James, Sirius and I haven't talked in about a month."

"Remus, where are you going with all of this?" James asked after a few minutes of silence.

"I just…" I don't know what came over me at that moment. But all the pain that I had kept bottled up the past month just seemed to burst out. "We haven't talked to each other in a month, James. The last time we talked, he was apologizing for not being there during the full moon. He was upset because I was never around anymore and he thought it was because of him.

"He asked if things could go back the way they used to be and I said okay. I forgave him. But things didn't go back to the way they used to be. They can never go back to the way they used to be! And it's all because of her."

"Her? You're not talking about Sally are you?" I could see the concentration in his eyes. He was trying to figure everything out. "Remus, are you jealous of Sirius's girlfriend?"

"Yes!" my mind shouted no but my mouth said yes. I didn't seem to have control over any of my actions today. "I'm jealous because he spends all his time with her and not with me. The only time he does remember me is when he realized he forgot a full moon. I don't want to be remembered only one time a month, James." I wasn't sure when I had stood up, but I suddenly found myself looking down at James, who was still sitting on the ground.

"Sirius is new to this relationship thing. You know he's never had a real girlfriend before. He never found anyone he really liked. Give it a while and I'm sure he'll find a balance between his friends and girlfriends."

"It doesn't matter,"

"Why not?"

"Because I don't want to be just friends with him!" I punched the tree. The pain in my arm seemed to fuel my anger even more. "I can't be just friends with him because I love the fucking bastard."

"You what?"

I felt all the anger disappear as I looked down at James's shocked face. Fuck, fuck, fuck! I wasn't supposed to say that! I started panicking. James was Sirius's best friend. There was no way he was going to keep this from him. Fuck!

"I… I have to go," I turned and ran, leaving James sitting by the tree.

Like I said earlier, I have no idea where this chapter was going. I hope it wasn't too bad.

I'm not a big fan of Peter, but he had to have some kindness in him if they hung out with him all throughout Hogwarts, right? Hehe.

Anyway, classes start tomorrow so I might be busy. Thanks to everyone who alerted my story. It's nice to know you all want to read what happens next.

Please review? It'll definitely motivate me to write faster. And if you have any ideas, feel free to throw them in. I'm always open to suggestions ^_^