Blue

This is an AU/Tcest/Mpreg story. Interested then read. Not your cup of tea. I can totally respect that, but pass my story by and don't get all preachy. To each their own.

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Chapter Seven

Raphael's Point of View:

We all hurt ta see tha tears runnin' down Leo's face. What had Bishop done ta me? What had happened ta upset my usually calm brother so bad?

"What happened, Child?" Father urged as Leo gripped his hand like a lifeline.

"Bishop had shot R-Raph up with some k-kind of drug," Leo continued, "He roared and t-threw himself at the door like an animal. I called his n-name and then he turned to look at me and…and those eyes weren't Raph's."

"Wasn't Raphie's eyes?" Mikey echoed in confusion, "Leo, what do you mean? Did Bishop put a Raph clone into the room with you? Did you know that it was a clone because the eyes were a different color or something?"

"No…I…Raph…," Leo stuttered as he refused ta meet our eyes with his own before he finally focused back on our baby brother, "He…Raph…Mikey, this is so hard."

With a cry, Mikey flew and wrapped himself around our brother. Leo had never looked so lost before and we could all tell that retellin' this tale was killin' Leo inside. Donnie and I looked at one another helplessly as our baby brother soothed Leo with Father's help. My heart sank down inta my toes as a fear curled itself inta my stomach. This was more than me havin' beaten on Leo. Fearless wouldn't be this upset over a simple bit of violence even if it was his brother that did it.

"I-I'm okay now," Leo assured as Mikey slowly came back ta sit between Donnie and I as Master Splinter had ordered him ta do, "Thank you, Mikey. I needed that hug."

"I have plenty more to give whenever you need one," Mikey sniffled as Leo smiled gently over at tha youngest, "Please…Leo, please finish your story. What happened to you? What did Bishop do to you and Raphie?"

Leo looked down and then back up at us sadly. I watched as he flicked his eyes over ta me before lookin' away again.

"What did I do?" I asked as Leo's eyes snapped ta me fearfully, "Leo?"

"You didn't do anything!" Leo wailed as he leaned up only ta be pushed gently back down by LH as I gasped at his emphatic tone, "Bishop caused this! It wasn't you! None of this was you! I hate him! I hate Bishop! It was that man that caused all of this!"

Donnie and I exchanged horrified looks as tha dots began ta line up. Mikey looked confused while I reigned in my anger and even Father looked livid at Leo's sufferin'. Tha impatient side of me wanted ta scream at Fearless ta just spit it out already, but tha rational side of me saw how hurt Leo really was emotionally. I had been right in what I had thought earlier. This was more than me havin' beat on Leo. I had done somethin' horrible that Leo was tryin' ta keep me from knowin' about. Leo was still protectin' me as ill as he was at tha moment.

"Breathe, Child," Sensei sighed as Leo continued ta shake horribly, "Tell us everything. Whatever happened was most assuredly caused by that man. None of us blame you or Raphael for anything so be at peace. Calm down."

Leo hiccupped in distress as he tried ta breathe deeply. This was a mess. I needed ta know tha whole truth because if I did what I was thinkin' I did, Fearless had every reason ta be as upset as he was at tha moment. I walked over and pulled up another chair on Leo's other side as he looked at me with a face full of pain.

"Tell me what Bishop did," I gently ordered, "I know he made me hurt ya, Leo. Tell me tha truth. What did Bishop make me do ta ya?"

"I can't," Leo whined as he shook even as he squeezed my hand tighter.

"Yes ya can," I offered as I rubbed my bro's hand gently, "Ya said it yaself, Bishop did all this. I was drugged so whatever happened, Bishop caused. Finish tha story, Leo. Tell me what happened durin' our time in that lab. Ya can do it, Fearless. Deep breath and let it all out."

My brother swallowed and shook, but again tha steel in his soul reasserted itself and he nodded at me. He opened and closed his mouth several times before closin' his eyes for a moment. I squeezed his hand in hopes of loanin' him some of my strength to say tha rest of tha story. Finally, Leo sighed before sittin' up a little straighter and fixin' me with a heartbroken gaze.

"You…you were so s-strong. I-I fought. I tried, but I w-was chained…and…and Bishop prepared me, but it still hurt the f-first time," Leo babbled in distress as all tha air was sucked from my lungs and tha images in my dreams began ta filter through my mind with more clarity.

Blue tryin' ta call out ta me. Blue askin' me ta stop as I enjoyed tha ride. Blue's arms immobile on tha floor because of tha shackles that held him down. Leo was Blue. I had raped my brother. That fuckin' Bishop had drugged me and I had taken Leo without his consent! No! This couldn't be happenin'! I couldn't have, could I?

"I…what?" I forced out as Leo whimpered.

Rage swirled in me so strong that I wanted ta scream and destroy anythin' I could get my hands on, but tha shakin' hand in my grip centered me enough ta keep my emotions in check.

"LH said that Leo is fragile," I reminded myself, "Keep it together, Raph. Leo can't handle ya goin' off."

"It was my fault. I couldn't stop you," Leo urged as he curled in on himself while Sensei tried ta reassure him as Fearless turned his head ta look with pleadin' eyes at Master Splinter, "Father! It wasn't Raph's fault. It was mine. I was too weak. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Blame me. Don't blame our Raph for anything."

"Oh, shell," I breathed in horror as I tried ta pull up an actual memory of my time in captivity, but I only had fuzzy images that had surfaced in my dreams, "Oh, my God. Leo."

Donnie had his mouth covered with a hand as he held a weepin' Mikey in his other arm. I vaguely heard Master Splinter tryin' ta soothe Leo as he sobbed in despair. LH looked concerned that Leo was gettin' so upset. There was more ta this story.

"Leo, calm down," I urged as I squeezed his hand in mine while he looked at me tearfully, "Ya said it hurt 'tha first time.' How…how many times did I…did I rape ya, Leo?"

Leo's eyes locked on mine and I rubbed his palm reassuringly. Unbelievable, after everythin' that had been done ta Leo, he had worked so hard ta keep this from ever bein' found out. My brother had been tryin' ta keep this ta himself ta protect me. I had hurt Fearless and he was still shieldin' me. I needed ta hear tha truth.

"I d-don't know," Leo admitted lookin' away, "We were locked in that r-room for three days and y-you took me repeatedly until the drug s-spent in your system right before our rescue. I'm so sorry, Raph. I had hoped that I'd never have to tell you the truth."

"Dear Lord," Donnie breathed as I had ta suck in several breaths ta get enough air in my lungs, "I didn't think to examine you down there. I missed the signs."

"God…Leo," I moaned as my brother looked at me in sorrow, "Leo, I'm so sorry. I…shell!"

I lowered my head in defeat only ta look back up in surprise when Leo placed a soothin' hand on my shoulder. Tha older turtle was lookin' at me with such compassion on his face. Leo wasn't blamin' me for anthin'. How in tha world could he have forgiven me like this?

"Leo, there is more goin' on here and we all need ta hear tha truth," I stated as Leo looked fearfully away from me, "What else happened? Ya've been so sick and I can see ya still are. LH told us that ya have a condition. What else did Bishop do ta ya?"

Leo choked again and Father and I continued ta reassure him until he could get his emotions under control.

"It's okay," I whispered as Leo began ta calm, "We're goin' ta get through everythin' together like our family always does. Tell us why ya've been so sick, Leo. What else did Bishop do ta ya? Ya can do it, Leo, tell us tha rest."

Leo lips trembled as he looked up at me before sighin' and noddin' at me.

"Bishop walked in on the last time we were…t-together to taunt me," Leo explained, "He…he…Oh. Oh! Leatherhead!"

LH barely got a wastebasket up in time for Leo ta hurl inta. I grimaced as I rubbed tha older turtle's shoulders as he emptied his stomach. Finally, Leo finished his vomitin' and leaned back in tha recliner lookin' pale and exhausted.

"Perhaps we should finish this later?" LH suggested as Father fussed over Leo, "I'm not sure that Leonardo can continue at the present moment. The stress of telling this story is making him get sick again."

"No," Leo breathed softly, "Raph's right. I need to tell everyone tha truth. I can't hide this any longer."

Hide? Hide what? What tha shell did that mother-fuckin' bastard do ta Leo? I again forced tha rage down ta keep from upsettin' Leo any worse than he already was.

"What did Bishop do?" I demanded as tha rage continued ta build within me even as I took Leo's hand back within my own, "Just tell us, Leo. What else did Bishop do?"

"B-Bishop told me that he wanted to study us from beginning t-to end," Leo sighed, "T-the drug he gave you was to make you lose control like an animal in h-heat."

"Heat?" I heard Donnie repeat as I turned back ta glance at him as tha purple-masked turtle's eyes widened.

I didn't like that look one bit. Donnie had figured out somethin' and by tha look on his face, it wasn't somethin' good.

"Hush, Donnie," I urged before turnin' back ta Leo, "So he made me go inta heat and I…did what I did ta ya. What else?"

"Bishop had done s-stuff to me so he could get y-you to…to…God! I-I can't say it," Leo broke down as tha tears poured from his eyes, "I'm sorry, Raph, I'm sorry! This is so hard and I'm so afraid that you will hate me! I-I can't handle this if you hate me!"

"Shh," I soothed as Leo shook harder, "It's okay. I will never, ever hate ya. Not now and not ever. Just take a deep breath and let it out. Ya can do it. Tell me what Bishop did ta ya that has made ya so sick, Leo. I'm right here and so is everyone else. Tell us tha truth."

"Okay," Leo agreed as he tried ta reel his emotions in, "B-Bishop drugged you to..to impregnate me and he knew the minute that I had conceived."

"What?!" I gasped as tha rest of our family looked horrified.

"I'm pregnant," Leo croaked out as tha tears continued down his face, "Bishop made sure that I would have a live b-birth so that he could dissect our b-baby. I found out right before we were r-rescued. I've been so scared. I didn't want to be the reason that our family was ripped apart. Don't blame Raph. Blame me for being so weak. It's not Raph's fault. Please don't h-hate Raph or my baby. I-I'm so sorry everyone."

Pandemonium broke out as everyone began talkin' at once. I stayed silent as I began ta put tha pieces together. Leo had tried ta protect me from tha truth. He hid tha pregnancy and must have gone ta Leatherhead ta get medical care for our baby. He had been livin' in fear with a secret that was tearin' him up inside. Fragments of words kept runnin' through my head.

"Don't touch me. I'm sick of touching and…and…don't touch me. Forcing. A-always forcing. Don't want. I don't want it!"

VWV

"Leo is suffering from a mild case of PTSD. This is a disorder that occurs when a person goes through a traumatic event and has flashbacks."

VWV

"I've been analyzing the substance that I found in your blood and determined that it was some kind of compound that affected your hormone levels. I think what happened is your body began to act more like an aggressive animal."

VWV

"Leo is still protecting you and not because that is his way. Our brother's eyes panicked at the thought of you leaving. That wasn't hatred that was love for his brother. Leo will not heal if you throw yourself a pity party, Raph. You heard him. He needs all of us near."

VWV

Leo is trying to protect us by not telling us everything that happened to him. He needs to speak with someone that he is not trying to shield so that he can get everything off of his chest.

VWV

"It was my fault. I couldn't stop you. Father! It wasn't Raph's fault. It was mine. I was too weak. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Blame me. Don't blame our Raph for anything."

VWV

"I once again dreamed of my mate Blue. I don't know how I knew that Blue was my mate, but he was mine and I had finally come ta realization that I was very attracted ta tha turtle in my dreams."

VWV

"I've been so scared. I didn't want to be the reason that our family was ripped apart. Don't blame Raph. Blame me for being so weak. It's not Raph's fault. Please don't h-hate Raph or my baby."

VWV

"But he is very delicate in both mind and body right now so let him take the lead."

VWV

"Pregnant," I gasped within my mind, "I'm goin' ta be a father! Shell, I'm only eighteen years old and I'm goin' ta be a dad? I raped Leo and got him pregnant? What tha shell kind of animal am I that could do such a thin'? What was I goin' ta do now?"

I gasped again when a voice sounded from within me with amazin' clarity.

Grow tha shell up, Asshole! Leo is tha one that has been dealin' with all of this alone and is carryin' your child! He has done all of this ta protect ya and tha baby! Remember who Leo is ta ya, Raphael. Tha dreams were not just memories. Ya had emotions that were real and pure. Remember those emotions and tha answers ta what ya need ta do will be easy ta come up with.

I looked ta Leo as he continued shakin' and remembered that LH had said that he was in no condition ta be upset. He was pregnant with my child and I had a responsibility that was more important than self-pity and blame. Tha internal voice from within me was correct, I knew what I had ta do. Leo was too fragile right now and I'd be damned if he was goin' ta suffer any longer.

"Quiet!" I shouted as everythin' grew silent and I turned ta Leo and wiped tha tears from his cheeks, "Ya shouldn't have kept a secret like this, Blue, it was too much for ya to have ta deal with on your own. Ya are not weak and nothin' is your fault. I can't believe how amazingly strong ya are ta have decided ta keep our baby and try ta deal with this all alone ta spare me from knowin' what happened. Thank ya for tellin' me tha truth."

"Blue?" Mikey questioned as Leo's eyes widened while I unraveled his mask from my wrist.

I didn't answer my little brother as I leaned over and tied Leo's mask back around his head and then tucked him more securely underneath his blanket.

"Do ya think we're goin' ta have a boy or a girl?" I asked Leo as he looked up at me in surprise before I turned ta our family, "Do one of ya have an issue with this?"

"My son?" Father questioned as he looked at me in confusion, "What are you asking us, Raphael?"

"I need ta know if ya guys have a problem with Leo carryin' our child," I continued, "Leo is not ta blame and neither am I, but I have a mate and baby ta protect now so I'll find Leo and I a new place ta live if ya got a problem with anythin'. Blue is not ta be upset anymore so say your piece now if ya've got some gripes, but ya better watch your words around my mate. I'll knock all of ya one if ya cause Leo anymore stress. Blue's been through enough for an entire lifetime and it ends today."

Everyone blinked at me includin' Leo. I noticed LH grinnin', but I ignored him as I studied tha faces of my shocked family.

"Mate?" Leo gasped.

To be continued…