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Chapter Seven

JJ stared blankly at the wall in front of her, refusing to move from her position on the bed, knowing all eyes were on her. She heard every single whisper but tried to pretend like she couldn't, focusing all her attention on the blank wall, counting each breath she took, trying to forget about Jasper's face earlier that night, trying to remember the protective, loving brother she had grown up with.

"JJ, do you want to talk about it?" Emily finally said, taking a deep breath as she looked at the other two people in the room with her – Reid and Morgan – shrugging her shoulders as she got no answer, the same response they had all received from the woman for the past four hours since they got back to the hotel room.

"Are you angry at us?" Morgan finally spoke up, moving a little closer to JJ but making sure he didn't get too close. Still nothing from her,

"We need backup." He whispered, turning back towards Emily and Reid, pulling out his phone before walking out of the room.

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"Baby girl!" JJ snapped her head up when she heard the familiar voice, it was one of the first movements she had made in a few hours and she could finally see the look on Emily's face, it was one of hurt but for once JJ didn't care. They had all betrayed her and that was all she could think about right then.

"Do you mind if I sit next to you?" JJ realized that Garcia had been briefed on her 'condition' before entering the room, she shook her head and knew that the hurt in Emily's eyes increased in that one moment, because of the one gesture.

"Maybe we should go, we will be back later." Garcia nodded, not looking at the three as they left the room,

"Honey, I know how hard this is going to be but I need you to talk to me okay?" JJ nodded, wrapping her arms tighter around her knees as she turned to stare at Garcia,

"I heard about your brother, what he did, what he could have done to you. And I know you feel betrayed by the team but it's a good thing they were there, everything could have been so much worse baby girl." She brushed a hair out of JJ's face and smiled at her friend,

"I know but I didn't want him to get caught.. I wish I never took this case." JJ admitted, her head hung low as she bit her lip, holding back the tears about to fall from her eyes,

"I know that he is your brother but sometimes we need to give up the people we love when they do bad things." JJ nodded, sniffing as she let the tears fall,

"I know but he helped me so much when I was younger and he has been through so much, he doesn't deserve to be put away in a prison."

"Maybe he can claim mental illness or something, I don't know honey, but you have to let him go okay? He killed all of those people, he was going to hurt you, and just because he's in prison, it doesn't stop you seeing him." JJ nodded,

"I don't know what happened to him, I miss the old him so much. I knew it was him as soon as Hotch and Emily did, I was so afraid of admitting it to myself though. I love him so much and he loves me too, I know he does, but something is wrong and I have known it for about one year now."

"How often do you see him?"

"He comes to see me whenever I have a break from work, mostly every two weeks." She smiled a little,

"He kept going more and more into himself, he started cutting himself again, and I even picked him up from the hospital three months ago after he took an overdose." She sighed and closed her eyes,

"Delayed reaction to our childhood I guess, we never did get help for it. I am so scared, will the same happen to me? Am I going to snap as well?" She whispered the questions, scared of Garcia's answers,

"No baby, you're different, you have us." She smiled, wrapping the shaking woman in her arms as she rubbed her back gently,

"What scared you so much about his face?" She said as they both pulled away,

"He reminded me of my mum for a second and then someone else..." JJ trailed off, her eyes watering once more as she thought back to her childhood, wishing she could just forget it all.

"Tell me." Garcia moved closer to JJ, putting her hand in hers as she waited patiently for JJ to find the words,

"My Granddad... on my mums side, I guess he – with the help of his wife – made my mum who she was, they were horrible people. I used to hate going there every weekend, it was something I hated even more than my home life. I always knew something was going to happen, I used to hate the way he would insist I sat on his knee as he bounced me up and down, the way he would kiss me on the lips even when I was four years old.. I hated everything about him." She took a deep breath,

"He would take me and Jasper into the garage on our own, and it started off just talking to us about... stuff..." She blushed a little,

"He would tell us all about sex, and we were only young.. I guess we didn't know what he was on about or we didn't care, we would just sit there and pretend to listen while we messed around. We had our own signing language thing, everyone in our house seemed to go by 'children should be seen and not heard' rule so we would sit there for ages making up silent gestures so we could still talk to each other." She blushed a deep shade of red once she realized she had gone off subject,

"Sorry, you didn't really care about that, did you?" She laughed a little, but Garcia shook her head,

"Take you time and tell me anything, even if it's not relevant. It's good to hear something about your childhood for once." JJ was grateful to have a friend like her as she smiled lightly and tried to think back to where she was,

"It got worse as we got older, he would make us touch him.. down there.." She looked away from her friend, trying to hide her own embarrassment,

"And then it carried on, we had to do more stuff to him, and then he would do stuff to us. And then when I was seven years old and Jasper was nine, he would make one of us sit there while he..." She wiped away the tears falling down her pale cheeks, her body shaking at the memory of the man she had hated so much, still hated.

"He would rape one of us while the other watched, and my mum knew... she walked in once and she took one look at what was going on, said sorry and walked back out." JJ was almost numb as she finished, she felt Garcia's arms around her in a tight embrace and she relaxed into it,

"It's all going to be okay, I promise you, this time you're going to get the help you have always needed and I, along with everyone else on the team, will be here for you whenever you want. You didn't deserve any of that JJ, nobody does. Remember, I am always here for you, even if you need to call me at two in the morning because you need a talk, I will be there in an instant. I love you baby girl, you're my best friend." Tears fell down her own face, landing on JJ's blonde hair as she held her close to her,

"I love you too." JJ whispered, closing her eyes as she finally let sleep overcome her.

Eight year old JJ stood in the garage, her thumb in her mouth as tears fell down her face. Jasper stood next to her, looking at the man in front of them in fear. He knew what was going to happen and so did she – it was what always happened when they were there.

Jasper grabbed his little sisters hand as they were made to walk forward into the garage a little more, approaching the old man on the rocking chair in the middle of the cold room.

"Jennifer, baby, come here." He finally said, she nodded, mostly out of fear, letting go of Jasper's hand and walking slowly towards him. Jasper could do nothing but watch as the man put his hands all over the little girl, anger bubbling up inside of him as he watched him lift her up on his lap, his trousers already undone.

He felt sick as he watched the tears roll down her face, the smirk on the man's face grew then, showing his yellow teeth, whispering words that Jasper couldn't hear from the distance. He clenched his fists, walking over to the other side of the room, covering his ears as he heard JJ scream loudly as the pain took over her body once more. And he knew that it wasn't the first time and he knew it wouldn't be the last time.

JJ jumped off his lap when he was done, walking over to the other side of the room, clearly in pain as she looked up at Jasper with her big, blue eyes. He nodded in understanding, picking up the tiny girl in his arms – he was big for his age of ten but JJ had always been tiny for her age, making picking her up a lot easier.

"Your turn now Jasper." He sighed, wiping away his sisters tears from her face as he put her in the corner of the room, making sure she was facing the wall and told her to cover her ears and not to look anywhere but the wall in front of her. She nodded, obeying immediately, refusing to move or remove her hands from her ears as she knew the same was happening to her brother right then, she found herself wondering the same as he had just minutes ago – when was it going to end? Would it ever end?

JJ woke up quickly, feeling the wetness on her cheeks from the tears, knowing she must have screamed out loud as Garcia and Emily came running in from the bathroom. Garcia ran up to the shaking woman, holding her in her arms as she cried into her shoulders.

"Make it go away.." She whispered, feeling Emily on her other side as her two best friends held her in their arms, and for the first time in a long time JJ actually felt safe from everything, from everyone, even her own loving brother.