Thanks for all the reviews - smiles - here is an update for you :D... dnt hate me for the cliffy :) just review your anger. more soonies. ps. Patrick.. hope you like your cameo appearence.

I watched Ron rush out of the dorm room, my thoughts glued onto what him and Draco will be doing before school starts no matter how much it made my heart ache. I got up, knowing that if I went back to sleep my dreams would consist of moving images of Ron and Draco. Silent tears fell down my cheeks as I got dressed and stared at Ron's empty bed, even though he hadn't slept in it since school had started back again, seeing it empty now killed me inside.

I walked down into the common room, not the least bit surprised to see Hermione sat at one of the desks, work books in front of her looking perfectly relaxed.

"Harry, your up early!" She states with a fond smile full of concern as I sat opposite her. "Is everything okay?" She must have seen Ron walk out that stupid smirk painted on his face.

"Yeah every thing is fine," I lied and she knew it was a lie but at the same time didn't push me to tell her the truth, because my lips couldn't vocalise the amount of pain I was actually in. She smiled at me weakly and then focused back on one of her books, I took the liberty of taking one from her and started to read.

Time passed us both quickly, and before we knew it the once empty common room started buzzing with students. I looked up when I heard the common room door open, and was surprised to see Ron walk through it, even with his head down I knew it was Ron, he couldn't hide with hair that unique.

"Hey Ron!" Seamus shouted, Ron didn't look up he waved a hand to the Irish boy before running upstairs, escaping the crowds that had turned to stare at him.

"What do you think that was about?" Hermione asked, her eyes telling me to go up and have a look. But I couldn't bring myself to go upstairs and listen to what ever happened between him and Draco.

"Probably had a fight with his new boyfriend," I muttered viciously even though it killed me to be so hard on my best friend and the keeper of my heart.

"He looked really upset," Hermione sighed.

"Well if he wanted to talk to us about it, he would have walked over and poured his fucking heart out," I said in a bit of a yell, causing eyes to focus on us, great now every one knew we wasn't together any more. Another thing for Draco to rub in my nose. "I'm going for breakfast," I lied, my appetite vanished when Ron broke up with me, I just needed to be alone.

I walked absent mindedly around the castle, my eyes hurt as tears threatened to fall but I held them in, appearing to be the strong soldier that I apparently was. My heart ached for Ron as I made my way out side the castle, the bright colours of Autumn made everything hurt more. I walked into the forest, and found a secluded place and sat and stared at the dirt beneath me.

My pain was washed away with guilt, no matter how much I pretended, I needed to know if Ron was okay, even if he isn't my boyfriend any more, he's still my best friend and that counts for something right?

After a few minutes of steadying my breathing I pushed myself up, wiping the dirt from my clothes and walked back to the castle, there was half an hour until lessons and I knew exactly where Ron would be at this time – breakfast. Head down I walked past the crowds who were talking about me and Ron, or the lack of me and Ron.

"Are you okay Harry?" A fifth year Patrick asked, I had never noticed him before but his eyes captivated me, and I stopped and stared at his smile.

"Fine thanks," I smiled briefly, kicking me on the inside, I had to find Ron. I rushed towards the great hall, stopping to take a steady breath before pushing the large oak doors open. I walked up and down the Gryffindor table, I saw everyone who should be there, all except for Ron. I stopped at Hermione who knew who I was looking for and shrugged.

"He wasn't in the dorm room, I got Seamus to get him to come for breakfast but he said he was gone," She said with a worried expression, "Do you think he is okay?"

"I'm going to find out," I answered, I looked towards the Slytherin table, Malfoy was sat in all his glory, hands and mouth all over Pansy. I walked out of the great hall, head in a spin at where Ron could be. I double checked the dorm rooms, no luck, I paced around the hall ways for ten minutes until reality struck me, where would he go where he knew know body could find him?

The room of requirements.

I raced up to the seventh floor, and like predicted I walked back and forth three times before that familiar screeching sound entered my ears, and a black door appeared before my eyes. I opened the door slowly, not wanting to startle Ron if he was in there.

He was. His hands hiding his face, his body shielding his silent sobs, he didn't even realise I was in the room. I closed the door quietly, and walked over to him. He looked up, and for the first time that day I saw his face.

His eye was black and blue as broken tears tried to fall, his lip was smashed with dry blood forming around the side. I walked over to him quickly wondering what his reaction would be, but to my surprise he embraced me tightly, holding onto me as if he hadn't seen me in years. I could feel his body shake as he sobbed with out control onto my shoulders. He was broken.

"Ron, its okay, I'm here now." I whispered, as I rubbed his hair with delicate fingers.

"I'm so sorry," He cried hysterically, his breathing had become rigid, and I knew he was struggling to maintain it as he started to wheeze.

"Ron calm down," I started to panic, as he started to breath funny. His body shaking in my arms. He took a deep but shaky breath, and I sighed in relief as he started to calm down though he was still crying.

"I'm sorry," He said again this time more understandably as his breathing went back to normal. "I made a mistake,"

"Ron, its okay." I said as he fell back into my arms. "What happened?"

"I deserved it," He said in an audible whisper. "I shouldn't have dumped you, I deserved it."

"No you didn't Ron, who did it to you?" I asked as my hands smoothed down his lower back, I felt him melt to my touch and was glad that he wasn't pushing me away.

"I deserved it, I shouldn't have left you for him, he told me so. It was a mistake, I was a mistake. Everything I've done.. all a mistake." I could feel his breath becoming short, he didn't sound like himself. I pushed him away slightly, his pupils were dilated.

"Ron, what have you done?"

"It was all a mistake," He mumbled. I felt his body get rigid within my arms.

"Ron!" I screamed now, he snapped back to attention and hazily looked in my eyes. "What have you taken?"

"I'm sorry," I felt his arm move to his pocket, and he took out a small tub. Empty.

"How many did you take?" I asked in a panic as I started to lift him up.

"Too many." He whispered. "It was all a mistake, I'll be with them again, like old times." I knew he was talking about the twins, and my heart melted at his words. "I wont be able to hurt you when I'm gone, please let me go." Silent tears fell from my eyes.

"No, I'm not letting you leave me Ron not again!" I was shouting now, my emotions taken over me as I picked him up, he was lighter then he should have been which only told me how deep his pain over the twins really were.

"I love you Harry," He whispered as he slipped away from me.