Hello readers! Thank you for all your reviews and encouragement to keep going. I gotta say this chapter went through a lot of thought because while I was reading it I wanted to delete it and start all over again, but I decided against it. So I hope you enjoy this chapter and I hope the dialogue doesn't sound too stupid because I thought it kind of does.

-groff-monteithchick94

Chapter 7: In an Ocean All Alone

Finn and Rachel continued to stare at each other for what felt like hours. When did she start becoming even more beautiful? Finn thought to himself. Since they've seen each other he has never fully assessed how much she's changed. When he left her she was still growing and now she has blossomed into a beautiful woman. He doesn't know what to do. Should they talk about what happened or just continue to stare at each other? Finn clears his throat forcing him and Rachel out of their trance.

"Rachel," he starts.

She looks anywhere but him, afraid to make eye contact again. She has a fiancé and Finn is not him, even though she wants him to be. If she looks at him, into his beautiful, soft brown eyes she'll get lost in them.

"Rachel," he says again to have her full attention.

Rachel sighs and looks at him. "Yes, Finn?" she asks.

Finn grins and takes a deep breath. "You surprised me with that hug," he says.

Rachel giggles nervously. "I know, it's just that I needed you. I've missed your hugs and the way it feels to be enveloped in your arms," she confesses.

Finn stares at her, not sure how to respond to her confession. So he sighs, rubs his already sweaty hands together. "I've missed you too Rachel, but I need to know that we have some kind of closure between us. I left you in New York without saying goodbye and I hurt you," he replies.

She looks at him, meeting his eyes. "Can we not discuss this Finn? I'm not ready to. I still need time," she replies.

Finn sighs in frustration. "How much time do you need? I'm ready Rachel. I'm here to say all the things I've been wanting to say since I left you," he responds standing up.

Rachel looks up at him then at the floor. She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, then opens them again. "I think you should go, Finn," she commands in a weak voice.

Finn scoffs. "Fine, but when you're ready to talk, Rachel, I'll be waiting." He heads for the door, but before he leaves the living room, he takes one last look at Rachel. She could feel his eyes pleading for her to turn around, but she ignores him and hears him leave. She breathes a sigh of relief and clutches her aching heart. Rachel has a lot to think about. She falls back onto the couch, staring at the ceiling. She pulls up her hand and gazes at the ring. Rachel sighs as she thinks about her relationship with Jessie. It is a good relationship, but a couple of things aren't right. For example, Jessie can sometimes be too much of a drama queen or king for Rachel. If Jessie is so bad then why is she having a hard time choosing between him and Finn, it shouldn't be too hard. Even though Jessie can be a drama queen er king , he can be romantic, charming, and sexy. Unlike Finn, Jessie knows exactly where he's headed and what he'll be doing for the rest of his life. Of course his proposal wasn't part of the plan.

Finn arrives home, fuming with anger. He slams the door shut, startling Quinn, Mercedes, and Puck who were in the kitchen. He didn't bother looking at them as he makes his way into his room, incoherently mumbling to himself about what happened earlier with Rachel. Quinn and Mercedes look at each other, each holding a confused expression then they look at Puck, who shrugs. Quinn and Mercedes start to argue about who should go in there and comfort Finn. Meanwhile, Finn takes Rachel's scrapbook and throws it against the wall, letting out a frustrated grunt as the book leaves his hand. He then takes the picture of him and Rachel at the Statue of Liberty and throws it against his closet. The picture frame lands on the floor shattering the glass. Finn heaves in and out as he sits on his bed with his back facing the door.

"You're his ex-girlfriend," Mercedes says.

Quinn rolls her eyes. "You didn't date him," she retorts.

Mercedes chuckles. "No that's not an excuse, you're going in there blondie," she replies.

Quinn sighs in defeat and makes the trip to Finn's room. She lightly knocks on the door and peeks in. He sat on the opposite end of his bed with his back facing the door. She let's out a sharp breath and walks into the room.

"Finn?" she calls.

"Quinn," he says back. He turns around and looks at her. "Does Rachel really love Jessie?" he asks.

Quinn stands there looking at him. "I-I believe so," she answers.

Finn sighs and turns back to facing the window. "You should've seen her earlier, she hugged me and then when I tried to talk to her, she wouldn't even look at me!"

Quinn clutches her heart, seeing Finn all vulnerable breaks her heart. In the past, she would have laughed at his face but since Beth was born, she matured. She sighs, walks up to him, and lays an awkward hand on his shoulder. "Finn, I know it hurts you that Rachel is with Jessie but you have to respect that she needs time. No matter what you do or how she feels for you, she's engaged," Quinn says.

Finn sighs and looks up to his old flame. "If only she wasn't then things would be a lot easier, but she didn't even want to talk about it. I had so many things to say to her that she just shut me down."

Quinn nods. "She needs time, Finn. I'm sorry but it's true, you can't force Rachel into your arms until she's ready."

Finn sighs and looks at the carpet then at the mess he's made in his room. The scrapbook lay beside him, opened to the page of their wonderful three-year anniversary. He looks at the picture where he and Rachel are in Central Park, riding in a horse drawn carriage. He wishes he was back in that time, when Rachel loved him and only him. Quinn takes his silence as her cue to leave. She closes the door quietly and walks back to the kitchen where her boyfriend and Mercedes are waiting.

"So what was bugging him?" Puck asks. Quinn raises her eyebrow, shocked that he's curious even Mercedes gives him an incredulous look.

Puck looks at both of them, a little offended that they think he's acting weird. "What? Finn's my buddy and if he's going through girl troubles, I wanna know. So excuse me if being sensitive is a new thing for me," Puck states.

Both Mercedes and Quinn burst out laughing at his little rant. Puck looks at them annoyed and shakes his head. As Quinn regains herself, Puck glares at her. Quinn clears her throat. "Anyway, it's Rachel," she begins.

"What happened between them?" Mercedes asks.

Quinn sighs and sits on Puck's lap, he wraps a protective arm around her waist so she wouldn't fall. "He went over there, they had like a moment, and when Finn wanted to talk about their relationship, Rachel wouldn't even look at him," she explains.

"Wow, I bet Berry is having the best day ever," Puck comments.

Quinn gasps and elbows Puck in the chest. He says, "ow" and rubs the sore spot. Mercedes chuckles and shakes her head.

"That poor boy, it's sad that he's still in love with her even after all the relationships he's been in after her," Mercedes says.

Quinn and Puck nod, remembering Finn's girlfriends. None of them made him happy like Rachel did. Although he tried his best to place the past behind him, none of his "mistakes" (Mercedes and Kurt's name for Finn's girlfriends) could hold his heart.

Rachel lays on the couch, still staring at the ceiling lost in thoughts about Finn. What is she supposed to say to him, that her world fell apart the second he walked out of her life? Or that no one, not even Jessie, could replace Finn? There are so many things on her mind that if she said them out loud, they would just be incoherent babbling. Rachel wants to talk to Finn but she's afraid of what he'll say and what she'll say. Can they get passed this episode? Rachel yells at the top of her lungs to relieve her stress. She gets off the couch, walks to the kitchen, and pours herself a glass of water. After she washes her cup, she heads to her room in need of some music that expresses her feelings perfectly. She presses "play" on her stereo and waits for "Incomplete" to start as she lays on her side while playing with Finn's music note necklace.

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you, within me I can find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

Chorus:
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is , incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
but You still wonder if we made a big mistake

Chorus:
I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is , incomplete

Bridge:
I don't mean to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go...

Chorus:
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you what I'm going to be is, incomplete...

Incomplete..

Again Rachel couldn't help but cry. She is in love with Finn and not Jessie. Why is she prolonging the engagement? The reason she is still engaged to Jessie is because she still loves him but isn't in love with him. So Jessie has been there whenever Finn wasn't but Finn has made her feel alive and young. But with Jessie she felt mature and calm, humdrum even. Of course Jessie can give her a lot of things Finn can't, like proper advice about the business, an understanding of the stress being an upcoming star can bring, and the stress that she feels he feels it too. Then again, Finn gives her encouragement, love, and a better way to live without the theater. Before Finn, all she wanted was to have a Tony with her name on it, but now? She would still wish for a Tony but all she wants is true happiness. And Rachel knows that Finn can give that to her. She should probably make a pro and com list, but who to love shouldn't be decided by that. Rachel groans; she's been through this before, yesterday and the day before, the same thoughts going through her mind as Finn keeps finding his way back into her heart.

Finn sits in the same spot, staring at the same window with the same thoughts running through his mind. Why can't Rachel just pick? Then maybe his life can move on to a different setting because for the past three years, he's been stuck in a love affair that has changed him and his life. If weren't for Rachel, his life would be a disappointment. He wouldn't have gotten into Ohio State and graduated in the usual 4 years if it weren't for her helping him in high school. He finally finds the will to get off his bed and out of his room with a new attitude. At least Rachel is thinking of him than not at all. He walks to the kitchen and sits down in one of the chairs, receiving glances from Puck, Quinn, and Mercedes.

Finn looks up to them and says, "So what's for dinner?"

"Um, Lasagna," Puck answers, " You ok, man?"

Finn nods, gets up, and fills his plate with lasagna. He sits back down and starts to eat. Puck resumes eating while Quinn and Mercedes reluctantly resume eating.

As you can see, "Incomplete" will not be the song Finn will sing to Rachel. When I was listening to "I Need You Tonight" I kind of wanted to use that one but I don't know anymore. "Shape of My Heart" seems like the perfect song. I don't know, what do you think? And sorry for those of you who wanted Finn to sing "Incomplete", I chose to use it as this chapter because it describes both of their feelings perfectly. And I hope Rachel's internal conflict doesn't sound like the one in Chapter 6. So please REVIEW and keep reviewing :). And I'm not making "Shape of My Heart" the next chapter, instead it's gonna be a different song, I just have to find the song haha.