Addicted To You

2/2/05

by: Cynic X

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Chapter 7: Blindness and Broken Hearts

Kagome sat at a booth in the ice cream parlor, not really interested in the triple fudge sundae she had ordered. She went there after school, like Inuyasha had told her to do, and here she was for the last twenty minutes waiting for him to arrive.

"I am so lame." She thought sadly as she played with her spoon, moving the ice cream around, but not really eating it. It was becoming a sloppy, melted mess, that she thought resembled her life. 'Everything is all mixed up and ruined.' She thought with sadness for about the billionth time that day.

Her head jutted up suddenly, when she felt someone slide into the seat across from her. Surprise was the least of the emotions she was feeling as she looked up and met Inuyasha's violet eyes. She had thought she was never going to talk to him again.

"Hi." He said, oblivious to her horrible mood.

"Hi." She said softly, finally laying down her spoon, and resting her hands in her lap.

"Sorry I'm late. I had to tell Kikyo that I had kendo practice. She wouldn't leave me alone." Inuyasha said shrugging.

Kagome just nodded, her mood becoming worse by the second. She wanted to be a good friend, but she didn't think she could stand hearing about Kikyo and Inuyasha's new relationship.

"I can't believe we really did it, we broke them up." Inuyasha said happily.

"Yeah." Was the only word that Kagome could bring herself to say. She tried to fight back the sobs that were forming in the back of her throat and the tears that were threatening to fall. What was wrong with her? She thought angrily. Could she really feel this way? Could she really be so stupid? Did she really want her heart to be broken again?

"Hey, are you alright?" Inuyasha asked, waving his hand in front of her face.

Kagome, looked up. "Yeah, sure, fine." Kagome said with a fake smile.

"You don't look fine. And you didn't even eat your sundae. It's your favorite. Something must be really wrong with you." Inuyasha commented, pointing to the gooey mess.

"I…I just don't feel too good." Kagome said softly. It wasn't a totally lie, she really did feel horrible.

"Oh, maybe you should go home and rest." Inuyasha said.

"No, its fine. I wanted to celebrate with you." Kagome said again, trying to be happy for his sake.

"Finally, all our hard work paid off." Inuyasha said with a smile.

Kagome shook her head in agreement. "I saw you today with Kikyo. She wasted no time getting back together with you."

Inuyasha blushed slight. "Y…yeah, I guess you could say that."

"Do you enjoy being with her?" Kagome asked. She didn't want her jealousy to get the best of her, but right now she wasn't thinking straight and she couldn't stop the words from forming.

"Yeah. Kagome where are these questions coming from?" Inuyasha asked.

"I…I'm sorry. I was just curious." Kagome answered, trying to brush his question off.

"Are you sure everything is alright?" Inuyasha asked again.

It was almost like he was giving her the go ahead to tell him how she felt, but Kagome couldn't do that. She had just had her heart broken, and didn't feel like picking up the pieces again, but she couldn't lose this one chance either.

Kagome thought for a second. "Inuyasha, can I ask you a question?"

"Sure, anything Kagome."

"Did you ever feel something for someone, but knew it was totally wrong?"

"Huh?" Inuyasha replied.

Kagome continued. "Like unrequited love. You cared for a person, but knew they didn't feel the same way about you."

"Oh, like what happened with Kikyo. I still wanted her back, but she wanted nothing to do with me." Inuyasha answered.

Kagome's walls almost broke down at Inuyasha density. Here she was trying to tell him how she felt, and he was so clueless to anything except Kikyo. How could she have been so stupid to think that she had any chance in the world at being with him, that he would want a nobody like her.

"Inuyasha, I suddenly don't really feel well. I think I should go home." Kagome grabbed her coat and school bag and ran out the door, as the tears broke free and started making their way down her face. She ran all the way home…never turning around and never seeing the look of confusion on Inuyasha's face.

Later that night, or rather, early the next morning, Kagome moaned and turned over in bed again. No matter what she tried, she just couldn't get comfortable. Looking over at her clock, she saw that it read 2:00 am in neon green numbers. She groaning, decided that there was no way she was going to be able to get up in the morning for school. She wanted so much to fall asleep and forget her miserable life, but she couldn't stop thinking about what happened earlier with Inuyasha. She didn't know why she tried to tell him how she felt. She realized too late that the only reason he had spent anytime with her was because he was trying to get his girlfriend back. Why should he even stop and think twice now that she, Kagome Higurashi, a nerd who Inuyasha didn't want to be seen with, had feelings for him. She rolled over again in bed, trying to fight back the tears that were threatening to fall. Why did she always do this to herself, she thought with misery. She had gotten what she wanted too, but it was no longer what she truly wanted and she cursed her fickle heart and berated herself for falling for guys who treated her like dirt. Maybe she should just forget about Inuyasha. Kouga wanted her and that should have been what was important. Inuyasha had Kikyo now, and no matter how much she wished that it were different it wouldn't change.

On a sudden surge of impulsiveness, Kagome got her fighting spirit back. She was Kagome Higurashi, senior high school student. She had gotten her boyfriend back, and so help her, if Inuyasha was too dumb to see how she felt, then she would show him how much she didn't need him. Finally at peace with her decision, she ignored the little voice in the back of her mind that whisper this wasn't what she wanted, and decided that she would take Kouga up on his offer to be his girlfriend at school that morning.

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– CynicX