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COMPLICATIONS OF SEX

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Synopsis

Harry and Snape bump into each other before 7th year. They begin a sexual relationship, but is one of them developing feelings? SLASH, HPSS, SSHP, Harry/Severus, Severus/Harry, MPREG, OOC, AU.

Notes

Story contains SLASH, HPSS, SSHP, Harry/Severus, Severus/Harry, MPREG, OOC, AU. Please no flames regarding any of these warnings as you have been forewarned.

Disclaimer

I do not own Harry Potter etc.

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Chapter 7: Discoveries

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"What the hell are you doing here?"

"Charming… but in answer to your question, your friend Miss Granger gave me your address."

"She… she did what?" Harry gasped.

"She seemed to think we needed to talk."

"What else did say?" Harry asked nervously.

"Could we discuss this inside?"

For a few moments Harry didn't move, he couldn't. He was frozen. What on earth was Hermione playing at? What had she said? Did she tell Snape about the baby? He felt physically sick and his nerves were becoming overwhelming. He eventually managed to move so Snape could come inside.

"It's nice," Snape said, looking around, as Harry closed the door. "How long have you been living here?"

"Not long, I've only just finished decorating."

"You've done a good job."

"Thanks, so… what did you want to talk about?"

"Could we, sit down perhaps?"

"Oh… right."

Harry walked into his living room and sat on the sofa, Severus joining him. For almost a minute they sat in silence, Harry couldn't even bring himself to look at Severus, who was the first to break the silence as Harry had no intention to do so himself.

"So, why did you tell me you were moving abroad?"

"That was my original plan, I… changed my mind."

"Is that so?"

"Yes." Severus eyed Harry sceptically, he knew he was lying but didn't feel he should press the matter any further. It didn't really matter, they had more important things to discuss right now.

"Harry, could you look at me please?"

Harry looked up and into Severus' eyes. The man looked sad. It physically hurt Harry not to be able to touch him, he wanted to so badly, but he couldn't. The most important thing in his life at the moment was his baby, and he wasn't going to jeopardise that for anything… or anyone.

"Miss Granger tells me that you're in love with me… and that I was the reason you decided to leave Hogwarts."

"I… don't know why she said that."

"Are you saying it's all a misunderstanding?"

"I… er… sir I-"

"I'm not your Professor anymore."

"Oh… right, yeah."

"Would you at least do the decent thing and be honest with me please?"

Harry stared at Severus for several seconds, contemplating whether he should do or not. He finally decided that he just couldn't lie anymore. Severus knew he would be lying if he tried to deny it. He took a deep breath and answered the question.

"Yes… I fell in love with you. I don't know how or when exactly, but it just became unbearable to think of you having sex with other guys. And it was selfish of me, we weren't boyfriends and I had no right to make demands on you. I decided the best thing would be to end it as being with you became too hard."

Severus fell silent, taking in what Harry had just said to him. Nobody had ever told him that they were in love with him before, and he found himself feeling extremely grateful to Harry. It felt nice to be wanted, to be loved… he'd never thought he would be interested in love. But since his "relationship" with Harry…

"Why didn't you talk to me about it?" Severus asked quietly. Harry let out an involuntary laugh.

"You were my sex buddy. My Professor. You'd made it crystal clear at the start of our… relationship, that you didn't do love, you only did sex. When I tried to go to the G.A.Y club with you, you lectured me about being your "fuck buddy" and even smirked when you asked if I was developing feelings for you… so do you see now why I didn't bring it up?"

Severus thought back, remembering that conversation. He hadn't realised his feelings for Harry at that point and he could see now how it would have been impossible for Harry to tell him how he felt. It pained him knowing how hurt Harry must have felt being turned down by him.

"I'm sorry," Severus said genuinely.

"What for?" Harry asked sternly.

"For everything that's happened… treating you like a sex object… being the cause for you leaving your education and all your friends."

"It was my decision to leave; you didn't force me to go."

"I know, but I played my part in it. Are you… still in love with me?"

Harry looked away from Severus and down to the floor. The answer was yes. One hundred percent yes. But he couldn't tell him that, he just couldn't. Things were too complicated, maybe if the situation were different, but it wasn't.

"I… don't know," was the reply that came out of his mouth.

"I see. But that doesn't really add up does it?" Harry looked back at Severus. What was he talking about? What didn't add up? Before he asked him, Severus spoke again. "If you were unsure as to whether you were still in love with me, surely you would have returned to Hogwarts. What would be your reason to stay away?" Shit. Severus was right. Wondering how on earth he was going to eventually get out of this situation, if at all, he bit the bullet and told Severus straight.

"Ok, I'm still in love with you. Happy now? Do you want a full page spread in the Daily Prophet?"

"Harry I wanted to hear you say that before I… before... the things is… I'm in love with you too."

"What?" Harry asked flabbergasted.

"It was staring at me for weeks and I chose to ignore it. I knew you were making me feel… different to other men I have slept with. I've never before craved to be so close to someone, just to embrace, not even to have sex with. It hit me hard the day you left. When we made love… it was… it was wonderful, I've never felt so good in my entire life. I wanted to lay with you in my arms forever, and then you got up, dressed and left without even glancing back at me. It hit me with such force my feelings for you."

"Why…" Harry started to say, but didn't finish his sentence, so Severus finished it for him.

"Why didn't I say anything?" Harry nodded. "I didn't know what your feelings were, and you were leaving, moving abroad you had said, I wouldn't have wanted to be the person to make you chose me over your plans."

The next few minutes were met with silence, but not uncomfortable silence. Both men were thinking deeply about what had just happened here. They had both admitted that they had fallen in love with one another and that their feelings were still as strong as ever. The point was, what happened now? Whereas Harry was frantically thinking of a reason or an excuse to get Severus out of his life forever, Severus was wondering how to broach the subject of the two of them becoming a fully fledge couple. Severus was the first to speak again.

"Harry… would you like to start over?" he asked, a slight nervousness in his voice that Harry had never heard before.

"What do you mean?"

"I guess I'm asking if you'll be my boyfriend."

Harry swallowed a lump that had materialised in his throat and tried to hold back that tears, but he couldn't. They began to fall down his face. Severus put his hands on his cheeks and wiped the tears away. The feel of his hands on his skin was wonderful, he never wanted him to move.

"There's no need to cry," he said softly to Harry, which made him want to cry even more. Severus was being so… so gentle and caring towards him. He was saying all the right things and if there wasn't a baby growing inside of him he would be making love with this man on the sofa right now, never to let him go. Ever! But, he had to be strong. He tried to say something, but nothing would come out. Severus lowered his lips to Harry's and kissed him sweetly, mistaking Harry's tears and reluctance to say anything as a positive sign. But it was anything but. Severus placed a hand behind Harry's neck and pulled him deeper into the kiss.

"No, I… I can't do this," Harry said, wriggling out of Severus' embrace.

"Why not? What's wrong?"

"I… I don't trust you. I want to be with someone I can trust."

"You can trust me. Harry, I promise you, you can." But Harry was shaking his head at him. "Look, I know I probably seem a risky prospect, but I've never been in love before. I know we will work. I've not felt this way before, ever. I haven't… I've not had sex since we… since we made love. I don't want to have sex with anyone else… only you."

"I'm sorry, I don't believe you. You'll get bored of a relationship, you'll start sneaking off to find other men."

"Harry please, give me a try. I promise you that I will give our relationship one hundred percent and I will never ever cheat on you."

"I don't want to risk getting hurt," Harry said quietly. Severus was silent for a few moments, staring at Harry and wondering what on earth went wrong here. This was not how it was supposed to go.

"Is there anything I can do to change your mind?" Severus asked.

"No."

"Are you going to come back to Hogwarts?"

"No."

"Well, I guess there's nothing more to say then."

"Guess not," Harry agreed.

"Well… could you direct me to the toilet before I leave?"

"Upstairs, last door on the left."

"Thank you."

Severus went up the stairs and Harry sighed with relief, the ordeal was over. Severus would soon be gone and he didn't know about the baby. He could get on with his life and prepare for being a parent. A couple of minutes later, Harry was just thinking that Severus was taking a long time up in the toilet, when he suddenly froze and felt a wave of dread penetrate his entire body. The nursery, the door was open. Shit! Shit! Shit! He ran up the stairs as fast as he could and stopped, swallowing nervously. The light in the nursery was on. He approached slowly and peered around the door. Severus was in there, holding one of the numerous teddy bears and looking at the cot. Knowing that there was nothing he could do, no lie that he could use to worm is way out of the situation, Harry stepped into the room and cleared his throat. Severus turned around and looked at Harry. His face was blank and Harry didn't have a clue what was going on in his head.

"You're… you're pregnant?"

Harry nodded, his eyes filling with tears.

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