Shane' Pov:
I can't believe she's gone, she's out of Morganville; I always wanted her to go, to be safe but she's not with me. I've screwed up big time, my wife wants a divorce, the big scary vampires want me dead and my best friends hate me. How could all this happen? Olivia was just a stupid mistake, it was only meant to be a one time thing, a bit of fun but I don't know what happened; it lasted 3 months. It ended my marriage, made me lose the one thing in my life that was good; made me lose the love of my life. When I'm with Claire I feel so alive, so invisible. Without her I'm nothing, I'm as good as dead. I need her like a plant needs sunlight, like a vampire needs blood; I just need her. From the moment I met her I fell in love with her, even with all the bruises she looked like an angel; when I heard her voice it was like I was in heaven. At that moment I realised this was my future, she was my future; I had to keep her safe, to love her and never hurt her. But I have, I've hurt her in ways that can't be fixed or covered up; I've broken her heart. I'm so stupid, how could I have let this happen? Let her slip through my fingers. Now I'm never going to see her again, she's probably going to fall in love with one of her new roommates and there's nothing I can do about it because I made this happen. She won't speak to me; she won't even look at me. I watched as she drove out of my life forever, I suppose I couldn't really do anything; there were 3 vampires in the room who all loved Claire and who all want me as far away from her as possible. Shane stop making excuses, this is your fault and you could've persuaded her to stay but you didn't, the only person to blame is yourself! I thought to myself.
I was sitting on our bed, remembering our first time; Claire's first time. Everything Claire and I did together, most of our memories happened in this room, like her accepting my proposal, wearing Lyssa's ring; holding her close to me as we slept, touching her warm body…everything. I'm going to miss her so much. Eve and Michael hadn't spoken to me ever since she left; Eve kept giving me daggers and telling me how much she hated me. I don't blame her; she and Claire were like sisters. They didn't even want me to live in the house anymore but Claire had made them keep me here, that's Claire always doing good things, even after I cheated on her. I don't deserve any of this, I didn't deserve Claire either. She trusted me and I let her down. I felt tears escape my eyes, I couldn't live without her; I didn't want to.
I went into the bathroom and straight over to the cabinet, I opened it up and took out some pills; I stood there until I'd swallowed all 18 tablets, I could feel them braking down my system, I began to feel drowsy; soon the pain would go away and I'd be with Alyssa and my mum. Claire would get what she wanted, freedom from me forever; at least I can finally give her what she wants. The pain in my stomach was unbearable, I gripped it tightly; my legs gave way and I fell to the floor with a loud bang, my head hit the stone tiles; it went black.