Arizona stands alone in a hospital hallway waiting for word on Callie. She leans against the wall and slams her head against it gently, feeling just as helpless as she did when the baby was being operated on by Stark. Getting lost in her own thoughts she slides down to the floor, bringing her knees up to her chest. "Please be okay, please be okay." Arizona whispers to herself not noticing Mark walking towards her.
"What happened!" Mark yells as he walks over to Arizona on the floor.
"She-she collapsed." Arizona says quietly.
Mark shakes his head worried as he looks around, looking for answers. "Is she okay, where is she?" he asks.
"Derek's running some tests." Arizona says quietly.
"God Damn -." Mark starts getting angry but trails off into his own thoughts.
Arizona takes a hard swallow and it takes her a minute for her to open her mouth. "Derek thinks she just fainted."
"Fainted." Mark repeats, a wave of relief hitting him.
"Yeah." Arizona says.
"Is he running an MRI?" Mark asks.
"Yup." Arizona sighs quietly.
"Man." Mark says as he runs his hand through his hair.
Arizona looks up at a distraught Mark for a brief second before tuning back to the wall in front of her. "Look I will stay here with Callie, go back to the baby." she says.
Mark looks at her for a second before shaking his head. "I should-" Mark starts.
"When Callie comes out she is going to ask about her and I'd like to be able to tell her that you haven't left her side." Arizona interrupts in her same monotone voice.
Mark looks at Arizona but then gives in. "If anything happens, page me." he says.
"I will." Arizona agrees.
Mark looks back down at Arizona and can see her looking lost and depressed.
"Are you okay?" Mark asks waiting for an answer as Teddy comes walking over to them seeing her friend down on the floor. "Arizona." he asks but still gets no reply.
"Mark, I got it." Teddy says as she touches his arm slightly.
Mark nods his head and heads down the hallway. After Mark is out of view Teddy goes over to Arizona and sits by her on the ground. Arizona looks over at Teddy for a second before looking at the ground in front of her. "Derek's with Callie running a bunch of tests."
"I heard." Teddy says as she rests her head back against the wall behind her.
"We were arguing and then I just left her…I just stormed out." Arizona says shaking her head at herself angry. "When I went back in she was on the floor." she adds quietly.
"Callie will make it through this Arizona….she will." Teddy says trying to bring her friend comfort.
Arizona and Teddy continue to sit in silence for a few seconds before Arizona lifts her head up to stare at the wall in front of her. "She's angry at me."
Hearing this Teddy looks over at Arizona confused. "What?" she asks.
"She's angry at me and she-" Arizona starts but then pauses for a second. "She has every right to be."
Teddy looks over at her speechless, not knowing what to say.
"It's my fault…the accident." Arizona says as she tilts her head.
"Arizona a truck came out of nowhere, it was an accident." Teddy says adamantly not wanting her to blame herself for this.
"Mark texted her." Arizona says mostly to herself replaying what happened before the accident over in her head. "And being the good, kind person that she is she wanted to check in on him and make sure that he was okay. But I took her phone and I threw it in the back seat!" she exclaims angry at herself. "She took off her seat belt to reach back and grab it." she then adds before she rests her forehead down on her knees.
"Arizona." Teddy sighs quietly.
"If I would have just let go of my…my jealousy and my-my anger. Then she would be okay." Arizona says choking up as she looks back up. "And our baby…would be okay."
"You can't think like that." Teddy says as she places her hand on Arizona's shoulder. "It is not your fault, nobody blames you." she adds.
"She blames me." Arizona says quickly.
"Callie?" Teddy guesses.
"I can see it in her eyes." Arizona says sternly. "We've been so snippy with each other these last couple of weeks."
"You have a baby in serious condition in the NICU, you have seen what that does to parents….the fear and the terror. It is understandable." Teddy explains.
"It started long before the accident." Arizona says as she wipes a couple of tears away from her face. "I told her that it wasn't my dream. I told her that having a baby with her and Mark is not what I wanted!" she yells as she covers her forehead with her hands, giving in to her own anger at herself. "She just sat there on the couch speechless as I told her that the baby inside of her was not my dream, God!" she lectures herself.
"Arizona you love…that baby." Teddy says firmly. "You love Callie. And they love you and…they need you." she then adds.
Arizona not believing it looks down at the ground but the second she sees tears hit the ground below her she decides to leave. "I gotta go." Arizona says as she stands up and wipes the tears away from her cheeks.
"Arizona." Teddy sighs as she stands up after her.
Arizona stops in her tracks and turns around to face Teddy.
"Callie's never going to forgive me." she says firmly. "And I don't blame her." she then adds before she walks away.
Arizona walks outside to get some fresh air and sits on the bench outside of the hospital for about half an hour before heading back in. She slowly makes her way to the ICU and sees Derek and Meredith talking outside of Callie's room.
"Well?" Arizona asks as she walks over to Derek and Meredith.
"She fainted." Derek says with a relieved look upon his face.
Arizona lets out a relieved breath and looks down at her shoes for a second before back at Derek. "She did…are you sure."
"Yes we ran various tests including an MRI and everything came back clear." Derek says as he looks back at the chart.
"Can I see?" Arizona asks holding out her hand.
Derek knowing there is no point in arguing, hands Arizona the chart. Arizona looks over a few sheets of paper before coming to the same conclusion. "So she fainted."
"Arizona you know as well as I do that she is stressed and sleep deprived. Now add a serious head injury and not being on her feet in a while, it is not a surprise." Derek says as he takes the chart back and looks back at Callie through the window.
"But she is going to be okay." Arizona says.
"Callie is recovering slowly, but she needs sleep. If she gets the proper amount of sleep I see no reason why she can't go home in a few days." Derek says.
"She'll never leave." Arizona sighs knowing that for a fact.
Derek shakes his head knowing that she is right and Meredith jumps in. "Let's cross that bridge when we get to it." she says.
Arizona nods in agreement as she looks back through the window at Callie.
"Now I told her to get some sleep, but I doubt she will without a little persuasion." Derek says.
"I got it." Arizona sighs.
"I'll check on her later." Derek says before he and Meredith head down the hall.
Arizona nods and watches the leave before carefully turning the nod and walking. She walks in and sees Callie opening her eyes at her.
"Hi." Arizona says as she walks over to the foot of the bed.
"Hey." Callie says softly.
Arizona looks over her carefully before resting her hands on the bottom of Callie's legs through the blanket. "How are you feeling." she asks.
"I'm a little dizzy, but I'll be fine." Callie sighs.
"Good." Arizona says nodding her head. "Good."
Callie looks over at Arizona and can tell that something is on her mind. "This is where you yell at me and tell me how stupid I am."
"You're not stupid Calliope." Arizona says firmly.
"That is basically what you have telling me for the last two weeks." Callie argues.
"That is so not true. I have done nothing but sit by here and support you." Arizona says getting angry.
"Oh please." Callie says sarcastically as she rolls her eyes.
Arizona bites her lip, not wanting to lose it before letting go. "Are we seriously doing this right now, you just collapsed! When I saw you on the ground my heart stopped." Arizona says pissed. "Do you not get it Calliope!"
"I get it Arizona okay! I get it!" Callie snaps back.
Arizona lets out an angry breath before turning back to Callie who is avoiding eye contact with her. "Look, I know that you are angry at me. I know that you blame me for the accident and I am sorry." Arizona chokes out as Callie turns to her. "If I could have changed spots with you I would have in a second!" she finishes painfully.
"Arizona…..I don't blame you." Callie says quietly as tears well up in her eyes. "I blame myself!"
"Callie." Arizona says quickly at the statement as she walks over closer to Callie.
"I should have done a better job, I failed her." Callie says as tears begin to flow down her face.
Arizona still in a bit of shock walks over and sits on the bed by Callie's side "Callie this is not your fault." Arizona says firmly.
"I was supposed to keep her safe inside of me Arizona until she was ready and I failed." Callie admits.
"Callie you have done everything for this baby since the moment you found out that you were pregnant." Arizona says.
"She is so tiny and she-she is hurting and I can't do anything about it!" Callie exclaims angry.
"Callie." Arizona says softly.
"And I'm leaking Arizona! I am leaking breast milk and it won't stop. And they can't even feed the baby the milk through that stupid tube they use because of all the drugs they have been pumping into me!" Callie rambles on.
"Callie I know that this is hard, but it isn't your fault." Arizona says as she looks at Callie with her head down. She reaches over and gently tips her chin up so that Callie is looking at her. "You are not to blame."
"You told me that you didn't want anything happening to our baby….and I was so happy, I was so happy that you cared about this baby as much as I did. And then I go and I hurt her." Callie chokes out through a sob. "I hurt her little head and I-I hurt her little body and her little-her little hands. Please don't hate me Arizona." she cries.
"You did not hurt her Calliope and I could never hate you." Arizona says as she wipes away tears from her eyes.
"I'm just…I'm just so sorry Arizona." Callie cries. "I am so sorry." she continues as she bows her head and lets her sobs take over.
"Oh." Arizona says as she leans over and takes a crying Callie into her arms. "Shhh, I got you. I got you." Arizona sooths in her ear as her own tears take over. "It'll be okay…she will be okay." Arizona whispers in Callie's ear before she places a lingering kiss to it.