I hadn't seen anyone after the death of my mum; I turned everyone away, even Justin. It was the fourth day, I hadn't seen anyone. I heard a knock at the door, and I knew dad was out so I mopped down stairs and opened the door. All I had to do was look at the purple supra's and know Justin came to see me. I look up at him and I stared into the beautiful face I call boyfriend.

"Is it too soon," Justin asks while he reaches for my hand. I couldn't resist I grab his hand too and pull him into a hug. I rest my head on his shoulder and kiss his neck.

"I missed you" I whisper into his ear, he smiled and replied "I missed you too"

I invited him inside and we sat on the couch, I rested my head on his stomach as he played with my hair. I noticed the date on his watch as I put my hand in his; I noticed it was the day of my mum's funeral. Justin saw that I noticed, and took his hand out of mine

"It's okay, I know" I tell Justin whilst looking up at him,

"Let's get ready then, gorgeous," Justin replies in the sweetest voice possible

I walk up stairs into my room, Justin following close behind me. I pick out my black maxi skirt and black mid drift singlet. I walk into the bathroom to get changed; Justin waited and sat down on my bed. I slipped on my clothes and put my makeup on. I was shaking, but I didn't really know why, and I could barley put my hair up.

"Justin, could you help me for a second" I yell through the bathroom door, he opens the door and sees my hands shaking as I try and put my hair up. He puts his hands on mine and kisses them softly.

"I'll do it" he says whilst taking the elastic and putting my hair in a pony tail. When he's done, I look down at my feet and let the tears roll down my face. Justin picks up my face and kiss's my lips softly,

"Please don't cry, when you smile I smile" he says whilst staring into my eyes and whipping the tears off with his fingers. I hear scooter call us from down stairs that we have to go, I take Justin's hang and make my way towards the door. He lets go and throws his guitar over his shoulder and grabs my hand again.

"What do you need that for," I say curiously

"You'll see" as he walks down the stairs and looks back at me.

It takes around and hour to get to the cemetery my mother will be buried in. I get there and see around fifty people waiting around her coffin, crying and placing their flowers. I see Moni, Chaz and Jaden walk towards me. They say sorry and give me a hug, but all I want is Justin right now. I grab his hand and we walk up to my mother's coffin. I see the beautiful photo of her placed at the top with flowers surrounding it, all I can see is water gathers up in my eyes. Justin squeezes my hand as he sees me cry and rubs my back.

I take my seat as the ceremony starts to begin; I put my hand on Justin's leg as he puts his hand on mine. It starts with her past life, how she loved everyone and everything. Past friends say their speeches and places flowers on her coffin. My Dad gets up for the first time not drunk and says his speech, this is the first time ive seen him cry and I can't help it but start crying too. When it's my turn to get up and say my speech and place my flowers on her coffin, I freeze up and can't stop crying. Justin looks over at me and rubs my knee

"I know what she wants to say" Justin says, whilst he grips his guitar and stands up. He pulls a chair out and sits down and rests his guitar on his knee. "This is for you Ms Stewart, and for her daughter Hollie, who I love," Justin starts strumming the guitar, whilst giving me a wink and his crooked smile. He opens his mouth and sings

"Ohh Ohh Ohh .. and I pray
I just cant sleep tonight.
Knowing that things aint right.
Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go.
Children are crying.
Soldiers are dying
Some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And its starting today.

Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey

Haven`t tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day

I close my eyes and pray
For the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today.
I just cant sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and I pray

I pray ..

I close my eyes and pray .."

When he finishes I can't help it but run up to him and kiss him passionately on the lips. I look into his eyes and mouth thank you, I place my flowers on her grave as I see the coffin get lowered into the ground. Tears move down my face.

People start to leave as the ceremony ends, but I'm still standing there crying, staring at my mother's grave. Justin comes up to me and hugs me from the back, "time to go shawty," he whispers in my ear as he takes me hand and leads me to the car.

"Hollie," He says whilst we sit down and buckle up, "Tomorrow, I have to go back on tour and uh… with your mum in all… do you still want to come on tour with me?" Justin says curiously not trying to hurt my feelings.

"all I want to do is be with you right now," I tell Justin while I kiss his check and play with his hands.

"all I want is you forever," Justin says whilst turning my face and placing his soft lips on mine…