Ashley POV

Wake up
My love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up from below
Such a brilliant star you are

Ever had that one moment in youre life when you just wish that there was a rewind button? That there was a way to take back all the things that you said, all that you did? I've always known that I had feelings for Spencer, more than a best friend should, but as the coward that I was, I never did anything about it.

Aiden and I had been friends for a real long time and began dating before Spencer came into the picture. But I've always felt like there was something missing. I know I know, that sounds a bit cliché, but that's how I've always felt.

Then Spencer came into the picture, we clicked from the start. She just seemed to understand me. She knew me better than I knew myself, more than Aiden did. And I guess that's what scared me, I was afraid of what she did to me. How she got me missing her even though we had only seen each other not too long ago. How seeing her name on my phone whenever she called brought butterflies. How a simple touch from her sent shivers up my spine. I knew that I couldn't hold the feeling in any longer, but I did, and that always made me hate myself even more.

We began to drift apart. I spent more time with Aiden thinking that all these feelings for her would go away, that I wouldn't be thinking of her as much as I did if I wasn't around her. But it just brought more pain and heartache. I was losing my best friend.

Aiden proposed to me a few weeks after school had ended. Stupid me said yes, at least with him I knew I wouldn't get hurt, or so I thought.

And will your love keep burning baby
Burn a hole right through my eyes
All these short times feel like no time
I thought you ought to know

That day at my house with Spencer was probably the most alive ive felt in a really long time. I've never felt that way with anyone, not even with him.

But like the retard I was, I pushed her away afterwards. I didn't even explain myself, I just left. I told her that it was all a mistake…

Choosing Aiden over her has been the biggest mistake of my life. I want to make things right, but I really don't know how…

A/N: I know that its a short update, i'll try and post up a longer 1 2moro.. hope i didny disappoint anyone..