"Hey." Naomi waited expecting both them to turn to greet her and was disappointed when neither of them even noticed her appearance. "Oi!" She said loudly and both of them jumped spinning to face her.

"Oh t-thank god." JJ quickly said and Naomi frowned, her and Freddy weren't that late they couldn't have been waiting long. "I thought I was never gonna be able to look a-away." Emily nudged him with her shoulder and smirked before looking up into confused blue eyes.

"Katie!" She said pointing to the dance floor. Naomi glanced to where Emily was indicating and a look of disgust quickly fell upon her face. "What are you doing here?" She asked bluntly and it brought Naomi's attenton back.

"Could ask you the same thing." She had actually been slightly disappointed on hearing Emily wouldn't be here. She knew it was wrong to feel that way when she had Freddy; her heart and her head were constantly fighting.

"Did you come with Pandora and Thomas?" Emily wondered looking around for the couple and didn't notice the distressed look on Naomi's face.

"Erm no, I came alone although I did see Freddy in the queue outside." It should have been harder lying about her boyfriend but it easily rolled off her tongue.

"Oh Shitification!" Emily looked at him quickly checking that he wasn't getting locked on.

"Hey you alright?" She asked him turning his head to face her, her vision was so blurry she saw about 4 JJ's but she attempted to focus on the middle one.

"Yeah…but…" He started.

"But what Jay?" Naomi asked.

"Effy." He said and pointed to the free spirited girl on the dance floor, there were random guys taking a stab at dancing with her, but she paid them no attention. Emily couldn't help but watch the way her body moved and images of the girls naked body pressed against hers rushed through her.

"Fuck." Emily said getting a little flushed and the blonde girl shot her a look. "Look there's Pandora and Thomas!" Although she had tried to divert the attention she still felt Naomi's intense gaze on her. The hairs on Emily's neck began to stand on end and she was almost over taken by an urge to kiss Naomi. Jesus she thought to herself, decide which one you are hot for! The drugs in her system were making her sexual desire work on over time and she was having trouble keeping up.

"Jesus Christ." Naomi muttered and Emily looked at her, she'd known this was going to be an interesting night. "What's she doing here?"

"Cook." JJ said. "I think he j-just invited e-everyone."

"Great." Emily heard Naomi say, but her eyes were still running over Effy's body and feeling like she was trapped in the middle she gingerly stood up.

"I'm gonna go to the toilet." Emily didn't wait for a response from the other two and began to stumble through the crowd. She needed to get away from both girls, every part of her was conflicting with the next. When she saw Naomi that's who she knew she was meant to be with, and then when she saw Effy everything got confused.

Crashing through the bathroom door she went straight to the sink and took in her appearance with a grimace. Her hair was wet from sweat after dancing with Katie, her makeup was starting to fall down her face. "Oh I'll be fighting them back." She chuckled to herself, not caring that other people were around her. Noticing an empty cubicle Emily made her way over and was about to shut the door when a hand stopped her. Poking her head round the frame she saw Effy standing there with a smirk, confused Emily stumbled back and fell hard on the toilet. The brunette walked in and locked the door behind them.

"Hi." Effy said as she leaned against the door never taking her eyes of Emily, who was trying to get her mind caught up on the circumstances.

"Hey. Is there a reason we're locked in here together?" Emily asked as she rubbed her head, the cubicle was spinning. "Because I don't actually need help peeing, I've been doing it for 21 years, you might even say I'm an expert."

"I wanted to talk." She said turning round to give Emily a little privacy. "You said you'd call…" She trailed off and Emily hazily noticed a sad tone to the girl voice.

"I know I've had a lot going on." Standing here Emily realised you didn't even need to use the bathroom. "I'm sorry, I should have called." She continued grabbing Effy's arm and turning her around to face her.

"so you and Naomi…" Effy began her eye brow lifting, to prompt Emily to carry on but instead was greeted with a shrug.

"I hadn't seen her since that day. I don't know."

"You want her back?" Her eyes were burning into Emily and it felt like a hundred butterflies had been let out in her stomach. Effy was throwing all her emotions in different directions and Emily couldn't help but let her eyes drift down to her lips.

"Yes…no. So much has changed and happened. Fuck I don't even know who she is any more." Emily said, she hadn't seen Naomi in two years, they could be two completely different people. But then with that said her heart still seemed to skip a beat whenever she thought of the blonde.

"No matter how much people change they still stay the same."

Emily frowned. "That doesn't make sense." And Effy couldn't help but smile at the confused look on the redhead's face.

"At the core people never really change Emily."

"You changed." Emily threw at her and Effy was taken back.

"No, not really." She challenged and suddenly went stiff when Emily took a step closer to her.

"Yes you have." Her voice was husky but confident. She'd seen the alteration in Effy with her own eyes. She wasn't that young teenager who was drowning any more. Emily noted the way that Effy was staring at her with an intense gaze, she wasn't looking through her, she was looking inside her. "What?" She questioned.

"Nothing. I was just thinking."

"Don't hurt yourself." Emily smiled and Effy felt a blow to her heart. "What cha thinking about?"

Without missing a beat Effy answered, "kissing you." This only caused the grin from Emily's lips to fall. "I'm not going to but I'm thinking about it." Effy clarified and then unlocked the door and left Emily watching her confused. The brunette couldn't stand being that close to Emily anymore and escaped, it had been a mistake following the redhead to the toilet. Her mind had been all over the place recently, she hadn't been able to get Emily off her mind and she couldn't explain why. She thought talking to the girl might have helped clear her thoughts but it had all fucking back fired. So instead of trying to face the confusion she walked to the bar and ordered 5 shots downing them quickly.

Emily on the other hand was now approaching the smokers exit, needing to get some air. Her body was feeling hot especially after her talk with Effy…she wanted to kiss her?! What the fuck?!?! But it had made her heart flutter hearing the words.

It had begun to rain so Emily stood under the shelter watching the rain pour down on the ground. She was sure that it was meant to get easier the older you got?! This was not easy. There was Naomi who she loved, always had and then there was Effy, there was just something about the mysterious girl. "Fuck." She said under her breath.

"Bad night?" Came a voice from her right and when she looked to the source she saw Naomi leaning against the wall next to her.

"Yeah kinka. The weathers shit." She said.

"The companies even worse." Naomi finished and they both chuckled remember a time spent together lost in their past.

"My head is killing me!" Emily said loudly as she placed her head in her hands. "You having a good night?"

"Not really me is it." Naomi said and Emily knew what she meant instantly. This really wasn't Naomi's scene at all…so why had she come…had she come to see Emily? "You look like you're buzzing. What are you on?"

"No fucking clue, but it's making me feel great." She laughed but Naomi's face suddenly went serious.

"You don't even know what you've taken?!" She almost shouted back and Emily stared at her.

"No and you know what, I don't care. I just wanted to feel something feel…" She trailed off, her mind was having trouble keeping up with her mouth.

"Why?" Naomi shot back.

Emily gazed at her for a while before answer. "Because I fucking hurt. Every part of me aches Naomi. I thought I was fine and then I saw you and BAM, I'm not fine anymore. So excuse me if you don't agree with it." Emily told her with her right hand clamped tightly over her heart.

"Sorry." The blonde said ducking her head down, not wanting to look into Emily's eyes. And they were silent both sitting there lost in the own mixed up feelings. So much had happened between them and yet here they were again sitting in the rain, no matter what happened they always seemed to end up together.

"Naomi." Emily said in a quiet voice and the taller girl turned and looked at her and suddenly got caught under Emily's gaze. "Can you tell me you don't love?" Naomi heard the words but she couldn't believe she was actually hearing them and she looked more intensely at her ex girlfriend.

"What?" She needed to hear it again to make sure.

"Tell me. Can you tell me you don't love me?" Her heart began to hammer in her chest at Emily's words, and no she couldn't tell her that. She still loved Emily and she probably always would, but there are some wounds that never heal and seeing her and Effy was one of them. And now there was Freddy. This just confirmed to her that she needed to distance herself from the redhead because otherwise she was going to fall into old habits.

"Ems…I…" She started but couldn't work out how to end the sentence.

"You can't say it." Emily said as she slowly turned her whole body to face Naomi and then gradually began to lean towards the blonde, lifting her chin, reducing the distance between their lips. Both girls eyes shut instinctively with only a mere centimetre between them.