Chpt. 5: Bitter Sweet
Orihime returned to the human world and walked to her home where she planned to rest and invite Ichigo over. 'I am sure I love Kurosaki-kun,' She thought to herself walking down the desolate street, 'at least, I am sure of it.' She made it to her home and she stopped at her door and entered in. There was a light on in the bathroom. She payed no attention to it, it probably was Rukia anyway. Rukia always came over to take a shower. She took off her shoes and continued to the kitchen where she put water on the stove to make some chocolate tea.
"Inoue, is that you?" Yelled another female voice. It very sounded very well like Rukia's own voice.
"Yes Kuchiki-san." She replied getting out the tea, sugar, chocolate and cups.
She didn't pay attention or notice that Rukia had stepped out of the bathroom in a robe and stood there watching her with a plain look on her face. She leaned against a wall and folded her arms, staring at Orihime blankly. Orihime turned carrying the tea cups and sugar and saw Rukia standing there in nothing but a robe and blushed and looked away then started over to the table where she set down the drinks and herself. Rukia giggled and followed Orihime with her eyes, "Relax! I am in a robe."
Rukia soon followed and sat across from Orihime and drank the tea, adding lumps and stirring them in with her finger. Silence flew over them with an undying end. That is until Orihime spoke, "Where's Kurosaki-kun?"
Rukia looked at Orihime and then at her tea. "He is still in his room." She stirred in another lump, "He asked me to leave because he wanted to be alone. So I left and came here."
Orihime sighed an 'Oh' and sipped her tea. Rukia sipped her tea and then spoke once more. "Orihime," she looked at her dead on, "Do you love Ichigo? And I don't mean I guess or maybe," She set her cup down, "do you love him, or is it because Renji wanted and could have him because Ichigo liked the both of you but couldn't choose?"
Orihime looked at Rukia wide eyed and tears started to form on her eyes. "Of course I love Kurosaki-kun!" She grabbed the hem of her skirt and clenched hard. "I have always loved him, but as soon as Renji came in the picture, he always started acting different around him. Being near him all the time, I knew Ichigo had some feelings toward him." Rukia nodded and closed her eyes in a deep sigh.
"Would you do anything for him?"
Orihime lifted her eyes and met Rukia's, "Of course."
"Then you have noticed ever since you two had been together he has been depressed and then of course, the hallow that almost killed Renji, he emerged himself into a mental state of depression?" Orihime had streams of tears flowing from her face as Rukia spoke. "You know Ichigo doesn't truly love you, he believes he has to. He loves Renji, and if you truly love Ichigo like you say, let him be happy and be with Renji."
Orihime processed the words Rukia placed in her head, she wanted Ichigo to be happy, but she wanted her happiness too. Her eyes were shut tight in frustration and sadness on which was more important to her. Rukia's eyes looked out the window and then narrowed then looked back at Orihime and looked soft.
"Orihime, I didn't mean to make you cry," She maneuvered over to her side and gave her a hug. Orihime gave in and wrapped her arms around Rukia's chest and sobbed. They stayed like that for a while, and every now and again Rukia looked out the window.
Rukia pushed Orihime's face to look at her own. The girl opened her watery eyes and stared at Rukia. Rukia's eyes softened toward her and looked almost sorrowful. Rukia lifted the girls chin and leveled their faces.Rukia looked out the window one last time then placed a kiss on Orihime's mouth. Orihime felt no restraint to kiss Rukia, and proceeded to let her.
Moments later the door opens and there standing at the door was him. Orihime and Rukia spit and Orihime looked scared at Ichigo. Ichigo stared at them and said one word, "Thanks." He immediately turned and sprinted off to the one place where he can be happy and choose what he wanted.
Orihime tried to get up and go after him but was stopped by Rukia. She wrapped her arms around Orihime's waist and held her down. "No Inoue, let him go." She forced the girl back.
Orihime kept kicking and arms pushing Rukia's off her, "no, I don't... Ichigo...!!" Rukia held on to the girl until the girl grew tired and went limp. Her face and shirt were soaked and Rukia picked her up and carried her to her room and gently put her in her bed. She sat on the edge of the bed and gently tried to calm her down. She grabbed some tissues and wiped her face off as much as she could.
Rukia waited and let the tired Orihime fall into sleep then let her sort things out in the morning. Rukia looked out the window and smiled. 'Ichigo, will you be happy now? Can you forgive me for your unhappiness?' Rukia looked at Orihime and continued smiling, 'Cause if you don't forgive me, I don't think Orihime will.'
-Earlier that day while Orihime was with Renji-
Ichigo sat in his cramped room, still in shock about what happened the other day. He sat on his bed and just kept seeing the image of Renji in his arms depressed and about to die, covered in blood. 'The worst part of all this is he said me name before he went unconcious. Did he like me? Did this incident when he ran away from my school because he saw me and Orihime?' Then his eyes widened. 'I truly am a dumb ass, how could I not notice that Renji liked me more than he showed.' Ichigo slapped his hand on his head and cursed himself under his breath.
Ichigo was so depressed he had cut himself from it all. He held the razor in his hand and slid it from the top of his wrist, deep to the start of his arm. The deep red mixture poured out and he felt the release. He felt the unnatural high of his life falling out of him and he felt some-what better. He rested his head against the wall as blood started to soak his pants, and bed and he felt himself slipping into unconsciousness.
He looked up and saw a blurry figure look at him and frantically yelled at him and start to wrap his arm up. Ichigo was so out of it he didn't care anymore and finally entered into the brink of death. ''ICHIGO!''
Ichigo was sitting in an all white place, floating. hi didn't know what was up, down, left, right, he couldn't sense anything. 'Am I dead?' He said in his head. 'It doesn't seem like I am. I hope I am.' He looked at his hand and saw that there wasn't a scar from his cut.
He looked around and saw nothing but white.
"Ichigo!"
He looked around and saw no one, but the voice was so familiar.
"Ichigo, don't please!"
He closed his eyes and tried to determine who it was. But he couldn't. He lost all of his senses.
"Ichigo I am so sorry, I never meant for this to happen! I wanted your happiness!"
He felt himself being shaken in one spot and felt a hard pounding in his head. He opened his eyes and saw Rukia sitting at his bedside with her head pressing against his chest hard. She was shaking like crazy mumbling incoherently to herself. Ichigo looked at her and moved to comfort himself more. "I can't breath." He managed to get out.
Rukia lifted her head and looked at him through watery eyes and hugged him tightly. Ichigo coughed and pushed Rukia away before he died of lack of oxygen. "Ichigo I am so glad your alive!"
Ichigo smiled and giggled a little.
Before he knew it he felt a hand fly across his face and then his head throbbed along with his face. Rukia's face went from happy to an angry, sad face. "What was that for?"
Rukia cried as she spoke. "Ichigo you idiot! You almost died!" Rukia lightly pounded his chest and continued to yell at him. "You made me think this was my fault and mainly it was!"
Ichigo looked at Rukia and sighed, "Rukia," He said softly, "It's not your fault, it's mine." Rukia looked at him, "I didn't want my family to know my true self, even if I didn't know my true self. Deep in my mind I think I love Orihime."
"Baka!" She said, "Orihime doesn't love you really, she was just jealous of the fact you liked Renji and he liked you back! She wanted you to be with her, even if it caused you to do this to yourself." She said and looked at the floor. "It's my fault! I never should of told Orihime to go for it!"
Ichigo looked up at Rukia in confusion. "What?"
Rukia looked at Ichigo and felt a lump in her throat. She tried to swallow it, but it wouldn't budge. Ichigo waited for her reply, an explanation on what she had just said. After a while Rukia sighed, "I thought since you didn't go after Renji, I-I thought I could push Orihime to go out with you because you seemed so depressed. But then, Renji was planning to also. I didn't know what to do! So I just wanted to see how it would play out. I never think this would happen!" She slammed her face in the soft bed and pleaded for forgiveness. She held his hand and soaked the both of them.
Ichigo looked at Rukia. "So, Orihime doesn't love me?"
She looked at him and became even more melancholy. "No she doesn't, she was being selfish and didn't care about your feelings. She wanted what she wanted and didn't care if it hurt you in the process!"
Ichigo grew angry, "No, She wouldn't!"
"Yes, she would! She is an evil, emotionless bitch!"
Ichigo snapped and flew into sitting position and slapped her, "No she wouldn't! I know her!" Rukia clasped her hand on the red spot that formed on her face, surprised. "I think you better leave me alone."
Rukia stood up and walked to the door as her eyes filled with more tears. She paused at the door, "Ichigo, at least come over tonight to her house and you'll see, you'll see I was right. Then go to Renji."
She finished her statement and then proceeded out the door.
Ichigo laid on the his bed and noticed his arm was covered in bandages and felt better. Someone healed his cut and bandaged him up. Probably one of the seats in squad four, most likely Hanataro. He laid in bed and thought about whether he should go and see out Rukia, or stay. He thought about it until he fell back asleep.
-back to plot-
Ichigo ran, and ran to Urahara's shop to get to The Soul Society and to see Renji. As soon as he got there he saw Urahara outside, like he knew Ichigo was coming there and waited for him. Ichigo ran until he was stopped by Urahara. "Ichigo," He didn't look at the man. "Is there anything you need?"
Ichigo stared at the door in silence still not looking at the man. He hid his arm and looked away. Urahara didn't budge and stayed patient, waiting for Ichigo to speak. "Do you need anything?"
Ichigo looked at Urahara, "I want to get to the Soul Society so I can talk to Renji." He spoke.
Urahara smiled as he felt Renji's reiatsu inside his home and neglected to tell Ichigo. He lowered his zanpakuto and stepped in front of the boy. "There's no need to."
Ichigo became furious, "Why the hell not?" He asked, then he heard a limping sound and the sound of something hitting the floor. He looked at the door and saw Renji standing there, hanging onto his zanpakuto and clutching the door. His hair was down, surrounding his face with his delicious red hair. Ichigo finally saw it, he stared at Renji hard and felt hot. Renji looked very sexy.
Renji looked up and smiled when he saw Ichigo. "Ichigo!" He let go of the door and tried to get closer to Ichigo when collapsed on the floor.
"Renji!" Ichigo non hesitantly ran to Renji helping him up.
When he got to Renji, Renji grabbed Ichigo and placed a kiss on him. Ichigo was surprised at first but then naturally wrapped his arms around the red head's head and buried his hands deep in his long, luscious hair. Renji held onto Ichigo and made the kiss deep, where it soothed the want in their souls. Urahara smiled and giggled underneath his breath where the boys couldn't hear him. No matter what they didn't care, nothing mattered now. Ichigo pulled away. As he looked at Renji his eyes swelled.
"I'm so sorry Renji!" He held Renji close to him, "I am such an idiot, your the one I love! I know it now deep in my heart!" He sobbed into the mans shoulder clutching at his clothes.
Renji put his hand behind Ichigos head and rested his cheek on the side of his head. "I know." He spoke softly, "I forgive you Ichigo!" He managed to cough out.
"I hate to break up this love fest," Urahara spoke, "But, Renji is severely injured, he needs rest so both of you, come in and rest." The older man moved and picked up Renji and took him in the house. Ichigo got up and followed them into the cozy house and closed the door behind them. Urahara exited one of the rooms and sat down at the table and sipped some tea inside a cup. Ichigo sat down and rested his head on his hand. He still couldn't believe that he and Renji kissed. Even though others wouldn't approve of that, to him, it felt okay. No, more than okay, it was great, awesome! Words can't really describe how he felt at that moment. Except he didn't feel so depressed anymore.
The image of Renji with his hair down popped in his head and he loved it. The man looked absolutely scrumptious like that and he just wanted to eat him up. He stared at the door and waited, thought about what to do. Stay outside or go inside.
Urahara sipped the tea and then poured some more. He watched Ichigo silently, trying to predict what the boy was thinking at that moment. If anything, he was thinking if he should go in there or not.
"Go inside and lay with him."
Ichigo looked at Urahara and scrunched his face. "Will you get out of my mind, I barely even like me being in there!" He said in protest.
Urahara laughed and sipped his tea. "I can't, I am in everyones mind, either as a haunting or a dream." He grabbed some cookies and took a bite leaving crumbs on the edges of his mouth. "But mostly in peoples dreams." He said and took another drink of tea.
Ichigo laughed and got up. He walked up to the door and took in a deep breath. He looked at Urahara and saw him nod a 'go ahead in' and he opened the door. Renji sat up with his shirt off, his hair down and underneath a blanket. Ichigo couldn't help but soak in the sexiness placed in front of him and felt himself wanting Renji to dive into him.
Renji smiled when he saw Ichigo enter. Ichigo walked over to Renji and got underneath the covers with him and locked them both into another passionate kiss. It was more naughty as it happened. In someone elses house, using someone elses things, it was so wrong and yet, they couldn't help themselves.
Ichigo ran his hand deep into Renji's hair and let the mans tongue explore his hot moist cavern. Renji's hands moved up underneath the strawberry's shirt pinching his nipples. Ichigo let a moan slip from deep in his throat and the man felt hot in his pants. He wanted to bury his cock into the boys ass. He continued pinching the boys nipples making Ichigo moan and gasp.
Their tongues clashed in the caverns lust filled them both and their erections. Ichigo's erection burned in his pants. Renjis hand traveled from his nipple to the outside of Ichigo's throbbing dick.
He grinned and pushed Ichigo down with a mighty thrust and climbed on top of him. Ichigo wasn't surprised, he wanted this as much as Renji did. He looked at Renji. "Are you sure this is okay?"
Renji stared to Ichigo in hunger and nodded. He has wanted this since he met the boy. He wanted to pleasure the boy in any way imaginable. Ichigo smiled and moved some of the loose strands of hair that was in Renji's face and pulled him into another passionate kiss. He pulled away and leaned back. The only thought in Ichigo's mind was to taste the sweet taste of Renji Abarai and loose himself as he blended with Renji.
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: Did everyone enjoy the preview to maybe one of the most delicious scenes I may actually type? Sorry to cut you off here, but I wanna save the most juicy part for later. I mean I am really tired! Oh and I have been working also on my Naruto fic... its an UCHIHACEST one! :D look forward to it after I finish Denial and My Burning Flame Called Love. Well, until next time you will see a great yaoi! TTFN!
-Drea