HURRY HURRY; YOU PUT MY HEAD IN SUCH A FLURRY.
Agreed.
Who the fuck are you? You... slept with Nick, and you just agreed to never speak of it. Whore.
He leaves and I lay my forehead against the counter, are you kidding me. Joe, Joe will find out, he should... not that it matters, he hates you... he should. God, why can't anything be SIMPLE.
I finish my coffee and head out to the deck, just relax Lilly. As I'm crossing the living room there's a knock at my door, I sigh, what now? I open it up and... him. Him, standing there, looking like hell.
"Hi." He says with a nervous smile.
"Hi." I reply, just as nervously.
I open the door wider and turn around, an open invitation. I hear him step in, he closes the door behind him. I walk to the coffee pot, because I need more. I turn it on and go back to the bar, putting my face in my hands.
"Lily?"
"Yeah." I answer.
"Why did you leave me?"
I jerk my head up, fuck.
"What?"
"You heard me- why did you leave?"
Damn.
"It's complicated."
"I think I can keep up."
I swallow hard, take a deep breath.
"I was in too deep."
I look at him, and he's watching me, his eyes say go on.
"My whole life, I've never seen a functional relationship. And, well, it's hard for me, being with someone. And you- you were so loving and perfect. All of a sudden, it was like- boom! You have something to lose, someone to focus on besides yourself. And you had your band, you were good, like really good ; I knew I couldn't hold on to you."
"I had this thing in my head, and it was saying summer love, gonna ditch you so fast your head will spin. And I thought, better to ditch than to be ditched. So, I left you."
I place my head in my hands once again, what a stupid bitch.
"How could you ever, for one second, think that I would leave you?"
I look up and he's right in front of the bar.
"Lily, I loved you so much."
Brings his hand to my face.
"I still love you."
His lips are so close, can almost taste him...
Fuck, won't love me after this.
"I slept with Nick."
Author Note- update. I've lost intrest, sorry, next chapter will be the last. If I don't get 5 reviews I probably won't even do that chapter. My other works will be more thought out.