"Living in Chaos" is a song by The Offspring

"Hold On" is a song by Good Charlotte, I did not write it.

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Living In Chaos

Jude was on the telephone to Kyle, "Okay so this Saturday, and make sure you don't blab to him Kyle." Jude laughed in his response, "Okay. Okay, I'll see you after school then," she said as she put her back pack on, "Bye."

Alexz Voice Over

Birthdays will be birthdays. Speed is turning eighteen in a few days. Four to be exact. It's scary knowing I'm right behind him by a few months. I know I'm not the one turning eighteen, but it's really been making me think of how much has happened and I'm not even eighteen yet. I'm sure Speed is freaking out about how old he is. I won't be surprised if he cries knowing he'll have to pay full admission at Cave Man Days now and knowing that he can't act like a little kid anymore, so his mom says.

Speed came racing around the halls catching up with Kyle, Wally, and Jude. "Ahhh! Four days! Four days til my birthday!" he yelled as he joined in, in their group.

"Kinda scary knowing you're the oldest out of all of us." Wally said as he stopped at his locker.

"I don't care, I'm gonna be eighteen! I can do things that you three," he pointed at them, "aren't old enough to do."

"Keep talking. Remember if you beat up on us, you can get arrested." Kyle warned him.

Speed was speechless for a second, "But you guys are always the ones beating up on me though.." he said as he looked away, "But I don't care I'm gonna be eighteen, I'm gonna be eighteen!" he yelled as he ran down the hallway going in and out of the crowd til he turned the corner. Jude couldn't help but laugh at him.

I guess Vincent Speiderman will always be a kid at heart.

Opening Credits

Jude and Wally came up to Speed and Kyle at a table in the cafeteria and took a seat. Speed stared straight forward as Jude sat down across from him. She looked over her shoulder to where he was staring, at Kaiden.

"Man, just go talk to her." Kyle said as he took a bite out of his burrito.

"She never wants to talk to me. I mean at least she doesn't think I'm this crazy weird dude anymore. I don't think?" he said as he looked up at Wally who shook his head no as he chewed his pizza.

"You talk to her all the time don't you?" Jude asked Speed.

"Well, stuff like, hey, what's up? But when I get to, wanna go check out a movie dude? She totally like walks off."

"She's got a boyfriend Speed."

"Who is it? I never see him."

"I don't think he goes to this school." Jude said as she looked over at Kaiden and saw no guys sitting at her table.

"Are they serious?" Speed asked as he took a drink of Coke.

"Seem to be. He's been over a few times." Jude said as she ran her fork around her plate.

"That is why I don't get cafeteria food." Jamie said as he took a seat next to Speed, watching Jude make a weird design with her spaghetti. Jamie pulled out of a paper bag his own lunch.

"You think if I throw a party she'd come?"

"I don't know. But I think you're gonna have to postpone any kind of party til next weekend."

"What? Why?" he said with his attention finally off Kaiden and onto Jude.

"We have to finish recording that song. Tommy says we can record it at the apartment, so we'll rent a few movies after we're all done."

"You do know that you and Tommy have to actually watch the movies right?" he said with a smirk. Jude flipped spaghetti in his plate on his burrito. "Aw dude, I was still gonna eat that!"

"It's spaghetti freak." Jamie said as he finished his sandwich.

"You can't mix Mexican with Italian. It's just not the same." he paused, "So dude," Speed said referring to Jude. Jude looked up at him, "Do you think you could talk Kaiden into possibly going Saturday to the recording. Say she can play my guitar."

"She plays guitar?" Jude asked.

"You didn't know?"

"Man that's just stalkerish." Wally said as he looked up at Speed, "Jude's her like step sister and she doesn't know if she plays guitar."

"Yeah how the hell do you know?" Kyle asked.

"She told me."

"Oh you asked her that before you asked her to the movies in one of your many conversations huh?" Jude asked.

"Very funny." he said, "But seriously, what do you think?"

"I don't know. I can see if she's up for it. It's been crazy at home lately with Sadie home for a while."

"Her and Kwest broke up?" Kyle asked.

"No. They're just not living with each other. I don't know, it's supposed to make their relationship 'stronger'." Jude quoted.

"Well it'd be cool if you talked to her for me dude."

"I'll try Speed. I'll try."

Jude and Kaiden walked in the front door and dropped their bags as Sadie came around the corner, "Fine I'll just do it myself!" she said as she charged up stairs.

Kaiden looked back to Jude then started to make her way upstairs, "Wow, she can't go long without getting laid for a while can she?" Kaiden said as Jude laughed, feeling bad for laughing at her sister like that, but she thought it was funny as she followed Kaiden upstairs.

"Hey Kaiden. What are your plans this weekend?"

"I don't know, why?" she said as she reached the top of the steps and started to go down the hall.

"Well me, Kyle, and Wally are throwing a surprise party for Speed at the apartment downtown. Wondering if you wanted to go." she said as they stopped in front of Kaiden's door.

"He's turning eighteen?"

"Yeah."

"Eight, I would believe, but eighteen!" she said even more shocked than the last time.

"Yeah. Trust me we're all kind of a little freaked."

"Oh. Well I don't know. I think Sean was talking about making plans. Do you care if he tags along?"

Jude paused before she answered. She thought if Kaiden at least went Speed could talk with her. Sean wasn't going to stop Speed from making conversation, he wasn't the jealous type. "Sure. He can come along, I'm sure he won't care."

"Okay. I'll ask him tonight when he calls or over IM."

"Okay, just tell me what he says." she said as she made her way back down the hall toward the stairs.

"Sure, uh Jude where are you going?"

"Gonna head up to G-Major," she said as she looked back at her, "Do you wanna come?"

Kaiden thought about it, "Could be fun, sure." she told her as she followed Jude downstairs.

"So you play guitar?"

"A little, not real good." she told her, "How'd you know?"

Jude laughed a little, "Speed."

"Kaiden where are you going?" Yvette asked in a firm tone.

"Uh, I'm going with Jude to G-Major." she said, like she was pointing out the obvious.

"I didn't say you could go." Yvette said quickly as she stepped toward Kaiden.

Kaiden stepped off the stairs and took a few steps toward Yvette, "Yvette it's just G-Major. Jude invited me along."

"Well did you just expect me to say yes? Just–"

"I didn't even know you were home! Why are you freaking out about this?"

Yvette quickly slapped Kaiden across the face. Kaiden's face rested on her shoulder for a few seconds as she moved her jaw. "Don't give me that tone young lady." she said quick and serious. "Jude," she said without leaving her eyes from Kaiden, "Go along dear, Kaiden's not going."

Jude didn't know what to do. What would Yvette do if she left? "I don't have to–"

"Go to G-Major dear." she told her in the same tone that she used with Kaiden.

"I'll be fine Jude, just go." Kaiden told her as Jude left.

At G-Major Jude sat in a closet sized studio with Wally, Kyle, and Jamie, planning Speed's party.

"Okay, Wally." Jude said as Wally looked up from his PSP to Jude. "You told everyone about it that's coming right?"

"Yeah, and they swore their souls to secrecy."

"I think the only one we had to worry about telling would be Speed," Kyle said as he tossed a gummi bear in his mouth, "And he's not coming."

"Yeah, Kyle, what about you? Did your uncle say he'd drop all the drinks and stuff off?"

"Of course Jude. I told you I got the hook up for junk food." he said as he got off his back and put another gummi bear in his mouth.

"Just goin' down the list." she told him, "Jamie."

"Yes Miss Harrison?" he said as his eyes didn't leave the rubix cube he was trying to solve.

"You and Patsy were goin' to decorate the place. Is that all taken care of?"

"Course. Patsy was gonna spray paint it, but I didn't think you'd like that. So we went crazy in the Party store and bought a ton of hats and plates and stuff like that."

"What kind of plates did you get him?" Wally asked.

"Superman."

"Aw, it's all about Batman." Wally told him.

"Jude, what were you in charge of?" Jamie asked.

"I'm gettin' Speed to the actual party aren't I? And I'm pickin' the cake up." she said as they remained quiet, "Oh, it wasn't like your guy's jobs were that hard!" she said as Speed came headed toward the room. "Quick, put everything away."

Jude stuffed the paper in her pocket just in time before Speed walked in.

First Commercial

Jude and Speed walked down the hall toward the studio carrying their guitars, "What is so special about Kaiden?" Jude asked.

"I don't know. It's weird. Kinda hard to explain, like, she just seems like, I don't know. She makes me happy when I see her." he told her as they approached the door. "I can't believe I'm eighteen!" he said excited as Jude smiled and unlocked the door. "Where's the lights?"

"Dang and I thought we were late." Jude said as she followed him in.

Speed hit the lights, "Here we–"

"SURPRISE!" everyone yelled as they jumped from behind a hiding spot.

Speed's eyes doubled as he saw the decorations and stack of presents, and his eyes made it to the huge birthday cake Jude picked up earlier that morning. "Dudes!" he yelled as people came up to him wishing him a happy birthday. Kyle and Wally nearly murdered him with his birthday punches. And the party started. Kwest was there spinning off some songs and Tommy showed up to help Kwest out, he even got Speed a gift, a water gun and a card that had a picture of Darius shot on the front, which Tommy regretted getting him when he actually filled it up with water and started chasing people around with it.

The party was going pretty great, and when Kaiden showed up, alone, Speed went crazy. Jude did too, because now she could socialize instead of telling Speed 'she'll be here, don't worry.'

"Happy birthday Vincent." she said as he made her way towards her.

"You didn't have to get me anything." he said as he leaned against the table she was standing by.

"It's no big deal. You don't go to a birthday party without a gift ya know." she told him as she handed the box to him.

He unwrapped it and pulled a book out, "Guitar for Dummies." he said in a laugh.

"Yeah, now look over at Jude."

Speed looked up from the book and in front of him Jude, Kyle, Jamie, and Wally carried a guitar toward him. Speed instantly took it. It was a Gibson.

"Lets just say, its partly for your birthday, and partly for when I smashed yours last year." Jamie said as he patted Speed's back.

Speed looked back at Kaiden, "You didn't pitch in on this too, did you?"

"Just a little. I didn't know what to get you."

"You didn't have to. None of you guys did." he said as he observed the guitar. "Let's play dudes! C'mon, we got all the equipment. I want to play this baby!" and he, Kyle, and Wally went up to where they performed.

"Jude you singin' this one?" Kyle asked.

"I think I'll let Patsy take this." she said as she walked over towards Tommy. "Hey." she said as she stood by his side.

"Great party."

"Yeah." she said as SME kicked in and Patsy started singing. She talked a little louder so Tommy could hear her over the music. "You having fun?"

"I'm in shock that the kid jumping up and down like an idiot on stage is eighteen." he said as Jude looked up at Speed. Speed was pointing out and winking at Kaiden.

"That kid's got it bad."

"You can say that again."

"To be young and in love."

Jude looked up at Tommy after he said that then back up at SME, but before she could say anything Yvette barged through the door. The band stopped playing, even Patsy was startled by her rough entrance. Jude looked at Kaiden. Kaiden got all tense as she turned her head away from Yvette, "Kaiden!" she yelled, as she spotted her seconds later. Kaiden didn't argue, she didn't want to cause a scene, but Yvette wasn't going to let that not happen. She grabbed Kaiden's arm hard as if she committed a crime, and Yvette was the cop, and she pulled her out of the party bitching at her about how she can't just leave. It was kinda quiet as Speed set his guitar down and walked out after her.

He opened the door, quickly closing it behind him and saw Kaiden against the wall crying holding the side of her face, "Excuse me?" Speed said to Yvette.

Kaiden shook her head at Speed for him to go away, but he ignored it, "Vincent," she whispered.

"Quiet you!" Yvette yelled, as she turned back to Kaiden. "What do you want?" she asked Speed.

"Did you just hit her?"

"Well isn't that bold of you."

"She's my friend. I don't like when my friends get hurt."

"Don't worry about this one." Yvette said as she pulled Kaiden away by her arm again, and left out of site.

Second Commercial

That night of the party Jude sat in her room, strumming away at her guitar, and began singing, a new song, that she wanted to definitely go on her album. While the song is playing clips of Kaiden are shown in the bathroom in front of the mirror pulling her sleeve up revealing multiple gashes up her arm. Silent tears run down her face as she pulls out a locked box from under the counter in a cupboard which contains a lot of sharp objects. Kaiden adds another gash to her arm.

"This world, this world is cold.

But you don't, you don't have to go.

You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely,

And no one seems to care.

You're father's gone and your mother hits you,

This pain you cannot bare.

But we all bleed the same way as you do.

We all have the same things to go through.

Hold on, if you feel like letting go.

Hold on, it gets better than you know.

Your days, you say they're way too long.

And your nights, you can't sleep at all. (hold on)

And you're not sure what you're waiting for,

But you don't want to no more.

And you're not sure what you're looking for,

But you don't want to no more.

But we all bleed the same way as you do.

And we all have the same things to go through.

Hold on, if you feel like letting go.

Hold on, it gets better than you know.

Don't stop looking you're one step closer,

Don't stop searching it's not over.

Hold on.

What are you looking for?

What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?

Go ahead...

What are you waiting for?

Hold on, if you feel like letting go.

Hold on, it gets better than you know.

Don't stop looking you're one step closer,

Don't stop searching it's not over...

Hold on, if you feel like letting go.

Hold on, it gets better than you know...

Hold on."

308 Somewhere I Belong

promo

Jude and Tommy finally get their bothered questions off their chests after they finish recording. The two finally make peace, and even piece things together.