Sorry everyone about my super slack updates. I don't even have an excuse for you, I've just been feeling really uninspired lately and not sure where to take things… However, during my vacation in Senecaville Ohio and being without internet has made me crazy with the need to write. So here I am.
I plan to update a lot because it is way too hot to go outside during the day so I'm just gonna write. J
Anyway, this is gonna be long so don't let your screensaver come on and interrupt the goodness!
xXBackNowXx
Previously in Obsession
"I love you."
She was breathless when she said and it didn't help when he crushed his mouth to hers and his hand grasped her backside and curled in her hair.
And in that very moment the worst thing possible happened.
"OH MY GOD GAARA! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HINATA!!!!"
Enter Naruto Uzumaki and friends.
xXPresentXx
Hinata jumped away from Gaara's grip so fast it made the corners of his mouth turn up in amused annoyance. He turned to face not only the most annoying Naruto there, but also Neji, Ino, and Sakura there. Goodies.
"H-Hi E-everyone… h-h-how- what are-"
"We came to see you Hinata. We got your letter and we rushed over here." Sakura said cutting in and smiling at Hinata's ruffled appearance and tomato red face.
"Letter?" Gaara questioned Hinata with a puzzled and questioning expression.
She turned another shade darker and opened her mouth to stutter through an answer when Neji stepped forward with a parchment in his palm.
"Yes Gaara-sama." He stressed the last part with disgust." It seems you finally loosened your grip on Hinata's collar so she could send us one." He handed Gaara the letter with a smirk on his face.
Gaara stared at Neji for a long time all the while everyone sensing the tension reach new heights. Hinata's gaze went back from her husband to her cousin over and over and her anxiety increased once more when Gaara spoke.
"Watch it Hyuuga Neji, you are in my house and in my presence. Do not delude yourself into believing that your relation to my wife enables you to do and say as you please. In fact, though I cannot kill you without an immediate war, I can indeed throw you out of Suna on your ass." Gaara said without inflection or hesitation.
Neji raised an eyebrow and was about to retort hotly when Ino's hand came down on his forearm and squeezed harder than Sakura.
"Gaara-sama. I apologize for our intrusion but we are here only because Hinata invited us to visit her seeing as how her conditions have improved." Ino spoke diplomatically.
"Come on Gaara!" Naruto said as he approached his old friend with a sloppy grin on his face. "When was the last time you and I got to hang out together?" He asked now in Gaara's face. "huh? Huh?"
Gaara's eye twitched in annoyance but he found himself smiling (aka... smirking) at the blond shinobi.
"Not long enough for you to mature any or to learn to respect other people's space." Gaara intoned dryly and Naruto roared with laughter and clapped him on the shoulder.
He turned to the rest of the group. "See? What I tell ya? Gaara's happy to see me!" he exclaimed before glomping on to Suna's ruler. "I missed you buddy." He said before turning to Hinata and picking her up and swinging her around.
Even though Hinata's crush on Naruto had long dissipated she couldn't suppress a giggle and as she hugged everyone else she began to laugh, really laugh. The sound was infectious and soon her visitors were also laughing with her, even Gaara had a real smile.
However, while he watched his blushing wife greet the guests he couldn't help but feel guilt rise in the bile at the back of his throat. He had kept her away like a caged bird with no hope of freedom or a reunion with her family. He realized then as she smiled without fear that he could never truly make her happy and that he would never be able to let her go to do that either.
"Hindsight is always 20/20." He thought to himself as he stared at her letter, which was proof that he was never enough to make Hinata happy.
"Let me show you around. I'll give you a grand tour!" Hinata exclaimed with no stutter making him snap away from his thoughts.
"What?" he questioned without thinking and Hinata turned around to face him, obviously startled.
"I want to show them around the house and maybe the city if that's alright with you?" she repeated to him.
He felt a pang of guilt at the pleading undertone in her words. Her beautiful eyes were round and with her back turned to her friends he could obviously see the desperation in her eyes. "For once, Gaara," He told himself. "Don't be selfish."
So instead of giving into his most basic and primal urges, he leaned down to kiss her forehead. "Have fun." He whispered in her ear before pulling away.
His comment must have startled her again because as he moved to leave she grabbed onto his sleeve and he turned back to her.
"You aren't coming with us?" She whispered and saw the hesitation in his eyes.
"You don't need me watching your every-"
She shook her head and interrupted him with an impatient and haughty sigh. "No. I didn't mean it like that. I invited them to visit both of us. I know Naruto missed you. Please, Gaara. Come with us."
This time he was the one to hesitate and he had to clear his throat in order to get rid of the burning ache in his throat.
"Please." She repeated.
How could he have said no to such a beautiful woman? How could he have resisted the lure in her eyes or the heat from her hand? At that moment he wondered if anyone would be able to resist Hinata when her lush mouth formed the world 'please'.
"Okay." He said his voice rough and hoarse to the point where he had to clear it again.
Hinata smiled and wrapped her arms around his waist. "Thank you." She said planting a brief kiss on his cheek.
She turned back to the rest, who were politely trying to ignore the PDA between the couple. "Is everyone ready?"
And just like Gaara thought, no one could have resisted.
xXTobeContinued….NotXx
-Hinata P.O.V-
I just cannot believe this! It's so… so… unreal. Here I am doing the one thing I never thought I would be able to do ever again… Enjoy a good time with the people I have missed and love. In my absence away from the village I had forgotten how good Naruto-kun was at making people laugh. Or how Sakura would always cut him off with a punch or ear pull when he went too far. Which he did. Often. I don't believe I have laughed so much in all my days in Suna combined as I am now.
I couldn't help but turn to Gaara, who was still as striking and brooding as ever. It made me a little sad thinking of how much had passed between us. So much heartache and tragedy affected our actions toward each other. I hated him for all the things he's done to me, but somehow I still love him. I can't think of being a day without him, without seeing his face or feeling him. No one in the world made me feel weak in my knees or made my inside burn with desire with just one look. Not even Naruto.
A throat cleared and I realized Gaara and me had been staring at each other and I saw the heat in his eyes that was mirrored by my own. I couldn't help the rush of blood that raced to my cheeks like lightning and I broke out of my haze and turned to Sakura who had cleared her throat in order to draw my gaze.
"Oh. S-sorry." My voice was hoarse for some reason so I had to take a drink of water.
"Why'd you clear your throat for Sakura?" Naruto asked suddenly curious and turning his attention away from the waitress he had been staring at.
Sakura elbowed him. "Shut up you idiot and mind your own business." She growled making him cower back in his food and the rest of the table smile.
I suddenly felt heat as Gaara intertwined our fingers and held my hand under the table. I glanced at him and he bent to whisper in my ears.
"I like it when you look at me that way, Hinata." He said my name like some erotic word and it had me beat red and slightly panting from the heaty effects of his warm breath on my ear.
Once again a throat was cleared but this time it was Neji.
-End of her POV-
Gaara pulled away from her ear to face his wife's cousin, wanting to rip away his head from his shoulder.
"Do you wish to start some kind of conversation?" he inquired dryly, "Or are you to proud to ask for a cough drop?"
Neji smirked at the sarcasm in the Kazekage's voice. "You can keep your cough drop, in fact I know a perfect place where you can shov-"
"Neji! Watch your mouth!" Hinata interrupted him, abhorred at his table manners. "I'm sorry if our antics offend you but we are married and quite active if you understand that too." Hinata only slightly blushed as Gaara made a primal growl at her use of the word active.
-Gaara's POV-
Did she just say married and active? If only we were alone right now I would show her just how active she makes me want to be. I could close my eyes and imagine all the ways tasting her would be, especially since my rage is under control. Her smooth soft skin, silky hair, delectable curves that only Hinata had. I couldn't stop the low growl in my throat or the raging hardening of my lower body.
"I apologize cousin. Old overprotective habits die hard for me." Neji said, interrupting me from my daydreams and I looked at Hinata, expecting a gracious acceptance but I was greeted with a flash of utter despair that set briefly in her countenance. Somehow, no one else noticed her pain.
I knew at that moment she was thinking of just how protective he and every other member of the clan had been when she was sold to me. I will never regret having Hinata for myself, but the way she was given to me was humiliating, even if most of the general population didn't know the truth. Hinata would always know and this knowledge had me kissing her temple, silently telling her I understand.
Hinata smiled briefly and shrugged. "Well then, all is forgiven then." Gods how hard those words were for her to say to a member of her clan. I remembered her telling me once that she wished she could kill every member of her clan for letting her be sold like a whore and of course during that time I only agreed and let myself prove how much of one she truly was.
Bile rose in the back of my throat, burning me with guilt. I could feel my rage grow inside me at my own actions and knew I must remove myself quickly so got up from the table. "Excuse me for a minute." Was all I could say and I walked away briskly to head to the bathroom.
I shoved myself through the door, taking deep breaths to steady myself. My stomach churned like the sand I controlled. Of all the opportune moments for my emotions to wreak havoc on me! I kneeled down in front of the toilet, not bothering to close chipped stall door and vomited.
How long I sat there retching into a stained toilet I will never know. I lost track of time as my sudden bout of sickness appeared. The familiar smell of the vomit made my nostrils burn in disgust and my mind return to old memories. The memories of my first kills, of my abuse, memories I spent years forcing down that was now threatening to up heave just like my vomit. All because my angelic wife had a look in her eyes. How poetic. I smirked and pushed myself away from the sticking bowl.
"Your pathetic Gaara." I said out loud, dismissing anyone who may have been present to hear.
A door opened and the bathroom was suddenly filled with laughter and chatter from the dining area. I suppose it was enough to get me off my ass and flushing the toilet. I paused before I pressed the lever, waiting in case more decided to make its way out of my belly. When there was no immediate threat, I pressed the lever and stepped out.
My eyes locked on to my reflection and I cracked a smile. I looked a mess with my jumbled hair and sweaty pale skin. There were dark circles under my eyes and fine lines on my face I hadn't noticed before. My early twenties seemed more like early forties. What disturbed me though were my eyes. They broadcasted my weakness and I could see my facade wasn't going to hold on much longer.
I put my head on my arms, bracing myself on the edge of a dirty sink and chuckled. How funny that I'm married to Hinata. Beautiful, compassionate, youthful Hinata is bonded with a monster. I braced my hands on the sink, washing my face and rinsing my mouth.
A stray movement drew my eyes and I spun around but the bathroom was empty and yet… I was almost sure… it was an old woman.
-End of his POV-
"What was that about?" Sakura asked as Gaara took off to the bathroom and Hinata turned to their perplexed faced, which were now turned to her as if she held the answers of the universe.
Unfortunately, she could only shrug despite the bad feeling that had settled in her chest.. "I wish I knew."
xXBuildin TensionXx
When Gaara returned after a few hectic moments of retching he returned to see everyone laughing again and the food almost finished. He took a swig of wine and sat back down.
Hinata took his hand and smiled at him with concern.
"Are you alright?" She asked and he stroked her cheek and nodded.
"Good." She said, her smile turning into a grin. "I have good news for you." She paused and stared off into space as she began to ramble slightly. "Well, I think it is news. Actually it's not even my good news but it is-"
"Hinata," Gaara interrupted. "What is it?"
"Uh well actually Gaara…" Sakura said and she blushed.
"Me and Naruto here-"
"ARE GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!" Naruto shouted, obviously in the midst of a happy high. "DID YOU HEAR THAT GAARA? IM MARRYING SAKURA!!!!!"
Everyone in the restaurant cringed at the sudden increase in volume and Gaara shushed him.
"Yes I heard you. Congratulations, now shut the hell up before I knock you the hell out!" Gaara growled and Naruto, suddenly aware of his surroundings, lowered his head sheepishly.
"Sorry, I'm just…"He looked up again with a grin."Happy as hell."
Sakura was in full blush mode now as Naruto stood and brought her with him.
"Me and Sakura are leaving. We are going to uhh.." He thought of a good word for the activities he planned to have with her all night long. "Celebrate. See you guys."
"W-Wait, Naruto-" Sakura tried to stop him but he just hauled her out of there before anyone could really say anything.
For a long minute it was very quiet as everyone looked at each other with reddened cheeks. Hinata was the first to start to giggle and then laugh, which caused everyone else to let loose too. Even Gaara chuckled a bit. Okay, a lot.
As the tension eased away Ino spoke.
"There is something about getting engaged and married that makes me so...." she looked at the ceiling as she worked to find and appropriate and finally after a few moments she smiled. "Horny."
Hinata's face turned beat red and her small mouth seemed to drop in disbelief as Ino began to laugh loudly.
"What?" she asked as Neji stared her down. "I'm serious the whole idea of finding someone who can love you forever and wants to be with you forever is so romantic it can get me panting."
"Really?" Gaara asked an easy grin on his face. "I bet Neji wishes he knew that earlier."
Eyes turned back to Neji, who was practically burning a whole in Ino's face with his gaze. Ino blinked suddenly and then scooted away from Neji a bit.
"N-N-Neji… W-What are you l-looking at me l-like t-that f-for?" She cursed as he grabbed on to her waist and pulled her right on top of him
He turned to his cousin, who had graciously pretended to eye the silverware. "Hinata, I and Hinata will be taking our leave now. I apologize for any inconvenience we might have caused." He said as he yanked Ino up with him.
Hinata smiled. "No, it's alright. I-I don't mind-"
"Good." He said abruptly and began to pull Ino towards the door, much to her dismay.
"Hey! WAIT A MINUTE!" She yelled, turning heads of everyone in the place.
When she saw her yelling was futile she spun around. "Hinata! We'll come see you tomorrow-"with a glance back to Neji she corrected herself. "Or maybe the next day! BYE!" She yelled as she was wrenched away from the door and disappeared.
Gaara turned to Hinata and saw she looked rather pleased.
"What is it?" he asked and she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"Nothing…it's just…" she paused and tightened her hold on his hand. "I'm glad everyone has found someone to love them. Especially Neji, I always thought he would be sentenced to marry someone in the clan." She began to chuckle. "In fact, for awhile there I believed it would have been me."
Gaara frowned at the thought of Hinata marrying someone like Neji… then again, he wasn't the perfect match for her either.
Hinata sighed and leaned her head on his shoulder.
"Gaara?" The husky note in her voice made him stare down at her and then he saw it.
Desire. He had only seen it once before Shukaku had first raped Hinata and sent them on their path of destruction. He immediately recognized the pout of her lips, the way her eyes were hooded ever so slightly and her cheeks pinkened from something other than embarrassment.
"Do you know what I'm going to ask you?" She asked him, her voice once more teasing him to goosebumps.
He swallowed hard and nodded, not for one moment pulling away from her gaze. He was trapped.
"Will you give me what I want?" She asked with a cocked eyebrow.
Gaara imagined for a moment her writhing underneath him as he truly showed her what it was to be man and wife. The easy slow pumping he would give her throughout the night. With that image alone he knew what he was going to say before he truly thought of whatever ramifications there would be.
"Yes."
~SO do you like??????? hmm? Don't keep me on edge I am still going on reviews I received a while ago about whether or not I should up the ante and change the rating to M so that is what Im going to do.. which means... LEMON NEXT CHAPTER!!! My first, but ooh baby its gonna be good. I dont bury my head in romance novels for nothing! Lol. Anyway, besides that part I know I said it would be super long but.. for me this is long since Im super SlacK. Hopefully I will have the next chapter done and edited by this weekend. KEeP Your Fingers Crossed!
And by the way, any of you who want to flame, Im up for constructive criticism so dont be an ASSHOLE! You dont want me up in your stories because I will point of every flaw, failure and basically send your stories to the graveyard. :) Im just asking for you to respect me and I promise I will to you. Ok!~