Chapter 7 - Changed minds

Amu's POV

Tadase lips were soft but emotionless. This is what I waited for all this time and i don't think I was enjoying it . My idea of a first kiss involved fireworks and a bundle of emotions making the moment warm and fuzzy, but I felt nothing , nothing at all.

Then again this was my first kiss maybe this was how kissing was suppose to feel like , maybe the expectations I had only existed in movies and t.v.

He pulled away slowly and blushed as he looked at me. It was silent none of us knew what to say.

he cleared his throat and turned around. " I'll come pick you up tommorrow". He said before he ran off.

I stood still and walked back into my house. It was still light outside.

I spent most of the day in my room thinking about Tadase , I had the biggest crush on him and when we kissed i didn't feel anything

My shugo chara's being nosy as usual appeared ready to say what they thought I should do

" wait for your date tommorrow maybe things will make more sense then". Ran cheered

" I don't know maybe you just dont like the prince as much as you thought you did." Suu suggested.

I sat up and shook my head side to side.

" I don't know , I don't know.... and you'r just making it worse !"

My charas floated away and hid in theyre eggs.

I didn't mean to sound so mean but I get very irriatable when im confused.

Ran , Mikki , and Suu continued their conversation about my dillema from the other side of the room. I wasn't paying very much attention to them until I heard what Mikki had to say.

" I liked Ikuto". She said.

That's right!. I forgot about Ikuto, I was so mean to him and told me to leave me alone. I hope that he knew I meant just for a while , I didn't want him to leave forever. I wonder if he would come back. I wasn't mad at him anymore , I knew that he wasn't after my lock , he couldnt open it without me anyway . I guesse I was just being emotional I realize now that I over reacted.

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" Amu , Tadase's here " . My mom calls from downstairs.

I walked downstairs to meet him. I was ready a long time ago , I needed to be , I took forever to pick out my clothes.

I ended up wearing a blue capris with a white tangtop , I left my hair down.

" You look lovely". Tadase commented as his usual polite self.

I was excited to see what Tadase's plans were.

I walked out the door and waved to Ami and mom before I left.

The atmosphere wasn't as akward as I thought it would be. Tadase did most of the talking I just listened, that was a good thing I had no idea what to talk about anyway.

The plans he had was a day at the zoo. This was only my second time being to a zoo so I forgot about everything and enjoyed the day.

*****

After my date with Tadase I sat in my room like any other day and thought about my situation. I liked Tadase but when I was on my date with him there was nothing romantic about it.

As I was going over how the date went with Ran , Mikki, and Suu the same name kept coming up. Ikuto.

Its been exactly 3 days since I seen him . A small hint of worry grows inside of me. It was only a small amount , nothing to worry about. But another week or two and I swear im going to send out a search party.

*****

Its been about three weeks since I began dating Tadase and still no Ikuto, where was he?.

I hope he didn't be the alley cat he is and take off out of town , I wanted so badly to apologize for overreacting I did.

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Ockay im officially freaking out , where is he !?. where's ikuto. Ive been too busy worrying over him to spend time with Tadase and my other friends.

Thats what I was asking myself all last week , Im on my fourth week now. But I think I found the answers to all my questionds.

Why things with Tadase werent right , why I couldnt stop worrying , and why I feel this empty space. Tadase is only a friend to me I admired him , it seems that I had love and admiriation mixed up. The one that I loved , well at lets just say liked , was Ikuto.

Smug , cocky, annoying , but sweet Ikuto. All this time I thought that I thought that he was nothing but a pest that was until I found out that I liked fighting with him and joking around.

Now it was time to make things right . The way that things were right now was messed up. I had a friend as a boyfriend , A love that I havent seen in a month, and my weekends were spent here in my room thinking about what I knew all along.

It was time to stop waiting for him to come to me and time for my to have some guts and go to him.