Hey everyone… this is a real short chapter… the thing is, that my computer had to be changed and the actual written chapter is on another computer and it's not working so all of my work for a month has been for nothing because right now I have to do all over again!
Anyway, I'll try my best to write the best and right a lot so that you readers don't become disappointed.
PREVIOUSLY ON HOLD ME TIGHT…
"Kory! I need to know… IS IT MINE?!" I closed my mouth, his words hitting me.
My heart was pounding, I felt like I was going to spill the words 'yes'. I couldn't do that… it would be over. I would have ruined it for him, me, Jace and Komi. I wasn't going to do that.
I didn't say a word, and simply turned, ready to walk away.
He took my hand, his hands warm. "Kory… you're lying to me… it's all an act isn't it?"
"No… stop… just leave me alone, Richard. I am no concern of yours anymore… I'm with Jace and there's nothing you can do about it."
"Why do you have to so complicated?!"
"I'm not the one who's dating their ex-girlfriend's sister!"
"Oh… and you think you can go run off with your guy best friend when you truly love me?"
"Oh… how would you know if I truly loved you, huh? Did you ever think for once that I, Kory Anders can love someone else other than you, Richard? Must you be so selfish all the time?"
"This is déjà vu, Kory. You did the same thing to Xavier, when we broke up in high school. You're just using him, Kory."
"You know what? Richard, you're just jealous that it's his baby and not yours!" I yelled out, then covering my mouth…
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It was too late to hold back… it was over.
The next day…
"Kory… which looks better on me?" Komi asked.
She was a wearing a spaghetti strap, mermaid dress with intricate white roses on the end. It suited her perfectly, her bouncy character and her mischievous life.
"I like that one. It suits you." I said reading my wedding magazine.
"Kory, why don't you try on one of the dresses? I mean you'll be married to Jace right? He is after all the father of that baby of yours." She said winking at me.
I smile slightly and shook my head.
"Aw, come on! Try your favourite one… you designed it remember?" she said, entering the change room to try the next one.
I hesitated. "Fine… I'll go pick one."
I hated thinking of my own wedding. It pained me to know that the one man that I wanted to marry was not only marrying someone else but marrying my own sister. My blood. What would our kids be like? They wouldn't be cousins… they would be…half siblings.
What was I going to do?
As I searched the racks I had remembered the one dress that I designed one night. It was in high school. I had been sketching something and it ended being my first wedding design. Of course I didn't have it made until a couple years later.
I believe it was the time I had… well my first baby. I knew Richard was the one at the time. I didn't want anyone else. It's funny how things never change around here. It's like déjà vu…
I smiled when I finally found it. It was all the way in the back. I planned it that way… I never wanted anyone to buy that one… knowing it was the dress.
It was a Taffeta sleeveless bridal ball gown. (Taffeta is a certain material, I looked it up) It had a soft round v-neck line with intricate beading for the straps. On the front and back we have slight pick ups and the chapel length train.
I went to the change room next to Komi.
(/2007/11/14/another-45-fantastic-wedding-gowns-part-5/ )
As I came out, Komi screamed.
"What?! What's wrong?" I asked looking at myself in the mirror.
"Nothing! It's so gorgeous Kory! It's the perfect dress!"
"Oh, Komi thank you. Do I really look good in it?" I said smiling.
"Oh…yeah, it looks good… I mean it would be perfect for me!" she said.
My smile dropped.
"I'm going to ask if there's another one like it." She said.
I looked at the mirror. I loved it… and it killed me knowing that the gown I was going to wear for my own wedding was going to be for my sister, once again. Was she trying to steal everything away from me? The love of my life, my favourite wedding design?
I saw my reflection in the mirror. It was getting tighter of course around the stomach. But I would be able to fit it after the baby. My flaming red hair looked wonderful with the white gown; it looked sexy and innocent with my emerald eyes.
Then she came back, "They said there was only one of those. Do you mind if I put in on?" she asked, pleading.
"Yeah! Sure…" I said taking it off in the change room.
Another horrible day…
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"Kory… this isn't right." Toni said as she, Garth (Aqualad, by the way) and Julian (her 4 year old sun) were helping me with the decorations and catering.
I had decided to help my sister since she insisted that she plan the whole wedding. It sucked because soon I had to join Richard who's supposed to agree and accept everything, while Komi is at a spa.
"To be honest, you should just tell your sister the truth no matter who much it hurts her," Garth suggested as we looked at the menus.
"It's her day… if she loves him then I can do nothing about it." I replied.
"Kory, you're being stupid and nice again. First, you loved Richard first. Secondly, he doesn't love her, it was all set up before your parents died." Toni pointed out as she found the perfect centerpiece.
I ignore the comment, in which Toni knew.
"Where is he anyway?" Garth said looking around.
"Well, I told him not to be late." I said checking the time, half an hour late.
"I'm here… don't get all pissy." He said, in casual clothing with a beanie.
"Nice… you look almost like a regular guy." Garth said, giving him a high-five.
"Hey, man. We should talk about the flower we're wearing for the wedding." Richard said.
"Well first of all, we need to find which flowers to choose for the decorations." I said looking around the flower shop.
"Did Komi say anything about what colour or what flower?" Toni asked, looking at the orchids and the tulips.
"She wanted white gardenias." I said picking it out and giving it to Richard.
"They look ok."
"Perfect, now we need the catering part." I explained.
"Komi told me she wanted Italian."
"Richard, did she tell you what kind of Italian dishes she wants?" I asked.
"Well, no… but she said I could choose."
"Kory, Garth and I have to split and take Julian home. I'll see you later." She said giving me a kiss on the cheek.
"Bye, guys!"
Richard just waved.
"So, ummm… how's Komi?" I asked.
"She's at the spa, remember?"
"Oh… right. Well I meant in general."
"She's fine." He said trying to avoid everything.
My phone rang. "Hello?"
"Hey, little sister. How's everything?"
"Oh nothing, here I'll put you on speaker." I said pressing the button.
"Hey darling!"
"Hey, babe." He said calmly.
"Are you looking at the Italian dishes?" she aksed.
"We're getting to it." He said, as I passed my phone to him.
I went to look at the menus and looked at the pictures. I was thinking of a romantic candle lit tables with spaghetti. We were thinking of doing the reception outside. But she didn't want to be bitten outside. So we ended up getting a hall.
"Komi, what kind of dishes do you want? I mean if we get creamy pasta it would match nicely with the white gardenias."
"Perfect Kory! Gosh, that's why I love you. You make things easier for me."
I didn't say anything after.
"Anyway, I was just checking on you guys. I have to go now." She said hanging up.
He gave me my phone back.
"So what now?" he asked.
"Well, I think we're done for today."
" You want to get some dinner?" he asked.
"Um… ok." I said.
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We were having sushi. I was getting more uncomfortable around him.
"How's the baby?" he asked.
Funny how that's the first thing he asks.
"He's just fine." I said."
"So, it's a boy?"
"Well, it's just my guess, he… kicks a lot."
I hoped it was going to be a boy. It was funny because every time I was around Richard, he would start kicking harder. Like he knew the truth and knew what I had said; that I had lied to Richard.
It felt weird inside, I kept holding my tummy until it would settle down. I would whisper to him to calm down. He was getting bigger.
"Are you ok?" he asked.
"He's kicking right now." I said, with a weird face.
"Um… can I… can I feel him"
I hesitated but nodded.
I put his hand on the spot where he was kicking the most. He smiled. "I can see why you think he's a boy."
He continued, "I bet Jace is excited."
"I guess he is."
"You going to marry him?"
"I don't know."
"Why not? He's the father, so why wouldn't you?"
"Well… I don't want to rush anything. I… I don't want to get married because I'm having his baby. I want to marry because I truly love someone. I didn't plan this… it just happened."
"But shouldn't you marry for the baby? So that he could have his father?"
"I don't want to make mistakes when it comes to love. I'd rather have married a guy who I love rather than have a bumpy marriage and have my kid witness it."
"So what are you saying? Things are going bad with Jace?"
"No… I…"
I know it's short! But I'm really annoyed, because my dad had to switch my computers numerous times and I had to write this chapter a gazillion times already! So I'm going to give you this chapter and then start fresh on a new chapter… and sorry that I was late for the dead line… SO VERY SORRY. I hope you can forgive me. Shoot not much time until the next deadline. Anyway, have fun… you'll get more I promise.
FILIPINA-PRINCESSA
p.s. I KNOW I WAS LATE SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO REVIEW ^_^