Chapter 7:

Rpov:

Instead of sleeping, I did what I did best: I planned revenge.

Dimitri thought I was a whore? I would prove him wrong.

I have decided that I am going to be a mature, focussed young lady who wants to do well in life and does not focus on the past.

Well, we shall see how long it lasts, I'm going to at least try.

In the morning I woke up to the sound of Christian talking to Eddie about some random shit about going to class. It was funny how Christian is 19 but still has to go to school and I'm 18 and I don't have to do the normal lessons. Mind you Christian did not attend his last two years of school so he has catching up to do where as I do not.

Quickly getting ready and saying my goodbyes I rushed out of the door and walked down to where my new hell would be. Dimitri's room. Well I may as well call it my room now, but that would just be making it come true- I now live with the devil.

Ok so maybe I am being over dramatic, he isn't a devil….just a major asshole!

I walk in to the room, I doubt Dimitri would even be here, most likely training. I was wrong.

Dimitri was lying face down on his bed, the covers tangled around his feet.

Dude he is naked!

Now I couldn't see his manhood? Penis? Dick?

Dude stop saying words that describe the same thing!

But I could in fact see his very delicious back side, and damn was it juicy and plump….maybe if I bit him he wouldn't notice?

Don't be stupid rose I'm m pretty sure he would wake up if you bite him!

Dimitri was obviously waking up but I was still staring at his perfect bum (ok sue me, I have a thing for cute ass's)

He turned his head to look at me and smiled still in a tired haze.

Suddenly his smile turned to pure panic as he realised he was naked.

"shit!" he yelled as he pulled his duvet cover over his body and unfortunately his lovely bum.

"dude chill out, I didn't see anything, well I saw your bum but its not as though its really inappropriate not like if I saw your emm your emm penis" I stuttered out.

"so you didn't see my penis, but you did see my bum?" Dimitri asked me, looking ashamed and embarrassed.

"yeah" I replied. Dimitri's face looked angry and ashamed and embarrassed still.

"what its only a bum Dimitri, its not as if you need to be embarrassed" I said, trying to make his shame go away, god knows why though as he is a major ass- pun intended.

"you should have knocked on the door!" Dimitri yelled.

"you shouldn't sleep naked then, you bitch me out for sleeping topless and then you go and sleep naked!" I moan right back at him.

"well I always sleep naked, I just didn't yesterday as you were there, but you weren't there last night so I just fell back into old habit" Dimitri said, still looking embarrassed and almost as though he wanted to cry.

He rushed off to the bathroom with his duvet cover still wrapped around him.

What was his problem? I mean it was only a bum…

DPOV:

I locked the door to the bathroom and felt the embarrassment come rushing back like it did when I was with Kate. AKA the bitch.

Why? Why? Why did she have to see my bum? I would have preferred is she had seen my penis.

Dude you would have preferred if she had sucked on it.

Ok I'm still talking to myself even when I am feeling very embarrassed…I must be a right psycho.

I jumped in the shower, trying to forget the fact that Rose has seen it. I'm surprised she hadn't mentioned it, made some sick joke out of it.

I hadn't even noticed but the tears were flowing down my face, the salt taste of them dripped into the corner of my mouth.

I didn't really understand why I was crying this time. It was just Rose, she had loads of things wrong with her, so she couldn't take the piss out of the things I had wrong.

Dude name one thing that is wrong with Rose?

My inner chatter was right, Rose didn't have anything physically wrong with her, so she could still use this to hurt me.

I felt stupid. Why was I crying? It's a sign of weakness.

But I didn't mind showing my weakness when Kate left though. I cried for days, asking myself why? Swearing to myself I would get revenge on that fucker, thinking to myself why Kate didn't understand?

I hadn't explained it to anybody before, not wanting them to think I was untouchable and disgusting. But it wasn't my fault. It was his.

I guess people are just vain. I am untouchable.

I'm a slow dying flower

I'm a frost killing hour.

Sweet turning sour….and untouchable.

He made me untouchable, but what annoys me the most is women.

They aren't perfect.

I ignore it if they have stretch marks, it just makes them more beautiful. I ignore it if they are insecure about their body, I just make them see how beautiful they really are. I ignore it if they have scars, it makes them who they are and the struggles they have been through.

I ignore all of these, but Kate couldn't ignore the fact that I wasn't perfect. I don't want to be perfect, because I'm not, nobody is.

But kate ignored the fact that I had scars from when I fought in battle. But when I hadn't fought in battle and I had scars she would run off, run as though im untouchable.

I guess im starting to believe it.

Ive been treated so wrong, ive been treated so long, as if im becoming untouchable.

Maybe I already am untouchable, I guess kate proved to me that I just am not good enough.

I shut the shower off and wrapped a towel around me, looking in the mirror above the sink. You could tell I have been crying, you could see the redness and bloodshot.

You could see the deep purple rings under my eyes from the nightmares, from the lack of sleep.

A bang on the door made me jump.

"Dimitri, its Rose. You've been in there for two hours, is everything ok?"

No, everything is not ok.

"yeah, I'm fine, ill be out in a second" I replied bluntly, my emotionless voice probably sounded dead.

I felt dead, dead inside.

With fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart.

I couldn't let the past get to me. But I already had. I have failed.

I'm a failure.

"Dimitri, its been half an hour since you said that you were coming out, are you sure everything is fine?" Rose asked through the door. I could hear the worry in her voice and it made me want to laugh. Why was she so worried? Its not as though she cares, nobody does.

No one cares when you are untouchable.

"Dimitri, open the door!" Rose shouted. When I didn't answer there was a loud bang on the door, and then the door flew open.

She was holding a chair in her hands and had managed to bang through the door with it.

"what are you doing Dimitri?" she asked with a calm, soft voice. She sounded so unsure of herself.

I was still looking at my reflection in the mirror, but I turned to look at her.

"sorry, did you need to use the bathroom?" I asked before I walked out past Rose and into the bedroom.

"Dimitri? Is this about when I saw your bum? Because you really don't need to be embarrassed, I didn't see anything? Or is it about something else, have I done something wrong? Are you still angry about yesterday?"

"stop asking questions Rose!"

"well answer them then!" Rose said in a panic. Probably worried about me. God knows why though, nobody usually worries about me.

"why are you acting like this?" Rose asked before she grabbed my shoulder. I spun around and before I knew what had happened, Rose was on the floor cradling her cheek.

I looked at my hand that was in front of me, had I just hit her?

No!

No I couldn't of!

I wouldn't be like him!

Ok so yes I gather after reading this chapter you all hate me? don't worry it all works out- well no not really- in the next chapter…

This chapter was inspired by the song 'MY SKIN, BY NATALIE MERCHANT' the song is beautiful but sad at the same time.

So any clues as to why Dimitri thinks he is untouchable?

Oh I just thought I would add- nobody raped him, so don't go assuming that because that would be wrong.

Anyway review!