Hey My Loves, so here is the chapter you've all been waiting for, The flashback chapter, also known as Chapter 7 Or by its chapter Name ' The Night I Lost my Virginity' So hope you all love it as much as I do. It might not be that good, but I tried to do as best as I could, this chapter is basically made from fluff. Its all soft and romantic, not crazy smut action like at all. Maybe In the next chapter if I get enough reviews wanting it. Anyways...onto Kendall losing his V-card. lol.
Disclaimer: I dont own Big Time Rush, but I really wish I did *goes and crys themselves to sleep*
"Logan who was your first?" Kendall asked as casually as he could.
Logan and Kendall were at Logans house again, wrapped up in Logan sheets, Logan wore nothing but a pair of gray and white boxers,
while Kendall wore a long-sleeved dark gray shirt two times his size and a pair of black sweatpants. It had been almost a month since the whole waking up horny as fuck thing had happened, and Kendall was starting to show alot more,but not much about a centimeter and that was it but Kendall believed that he was hidious and now he refused to wear anything his size Logan tried to tell him he was beautiful and it wasnt needed but he didnt lisson. And also he refused for Logan to see him with no shirt on and never ever allowed Logan to see him naked now a days.
When James and Carlos had found this out they had felt bad for Logan but for Kendall to, becauase really no one understood what he was going threw. Thet didnt have to deal with the hormones or the eating or the morning sickness or the not being able to sleep or the constent moving in his stomach. But they of course had also found the hilarious part of the situation and had teased Logan about not getting any for the next three months or even longer.
And Of course it was right infront of Kendall.
Kendall had gone into panic mode, thinking that Logan would leave him because he wasnt getting sex. He tried to tell himself he was being stupid, because Logan hadnt left him when he wouldnt even let him kiss his forehead for thoose two weeks and had never even looked at another girl or guy. And during the first almost nine months of there relationship when they wernet having sex because Kendall was a virgin and still wasnt ready,Logan had been so sweet with him, always being so patient and never getting frustrated with Kendall when he would push him away.
He had always felt like he had owed Logan for that so he keeped his older and more experienced lover happy with lots of Blow-jobs since Logan always said how much he loved Kendalls mouth, and had even let Logan make love to him a few times, but he had insisted on keeping his shirt on and had made Logan turn the lights off and when Logan woke up the next morning he would already be re-dresses.
Kendall had been thinking alot lately.
He had lost his virginity to Logan and he had known that before they had gotten into a relationship, that Logan was at one time...well a man whore.
He remebered when he had found that out, by that time he was almost obssesed with Logan and while he knew Logan wasnt a virgin with his sexy smirk and 'please take your cloths off' eyes he couldnt help but feel like his heart was being torn to pieces.
And it had been the most emmbaressing moment of his life when he had discovered both James and Carlos were not virgins either and had almost died when they had asked him of he was a virgin and had had to said 'yes', because hey they were playing truth or dare and he had picked truth, but being the nice guys they were Carlos, James and Logan had just nodded, taking it in, But when they saw the tears of emmbaresement in his eyes they had all rushed to tell him that it wasnt a big deal and not a surprise because he was the youngest.
And it had made his heart stop Logan had sat next to him, wipping away the single tear that had escaped his eye and telling the innocent younge blonde how sweet he thought it was that Kendall was still a virgin and wanted to wait for the right person.
That had been one of the best days of his life,like,ever.
Kendall had always wondered what had Logans first time had been like. If that person had been better at sex then Kendall was. If Logan ever thought about it at all. If Logan had loved that person.
Logan looked down at the beautiful blonde whos head was laying on his chest, meeting wide insecure eyes.
"Why are you asking that, Angel?" Logan whispered running his fingers threw Kendalls hair.
"No reason, I was just wondering." Kendall said biting down on his lip, hoping Logan would believe him.
But of course he didnt the older knew the blonde to well.
"I know when your lying to me,Kenny." Logan said gently kissing his hair.
"If you tell me I'll tell you." Kendall said cutely sounding like a younge child.
Logan said "Ok but you first."
Kendall refused to look at him.
"I..I dont want you to be mad at me." Kendall said softly.
"I could never be mad at you." Logan promised.
Kendall hide his face in Logans shoulder.
"Where who ever they were better at 'it' then me?" The question came out muffled but Logan could still could hear it.
Logan eyes widened. Why would Kendall ask something like that?
"No. With you its perfect. With her it was just wild fucking. With you its sweet and loving and amazing." Logan said truthfully. He didnt even want to think about that night, when he lost his Virginity. There had been no Love at all.
"Who was it?" Kendall asked.
"Me next door neighber. Her name was Allison." Logan said with a shrug as thought it didnt matter at all.
"Did you love her?" It was so quiet that Logan could barely hear him.
He looked down at his blonde Angel in shook.
"Kendall, look at me." Logan whispered.
Kendalls eyes widened in surprise. Logan barely ever called him Kendall.
He looked up at his older lover slowly, sniffing softly not realizing tears had fallen until he saw them on Logans skin.
"I love you, Kendall, and only you an-and I've never loved anyone else besides...you." Logan said quietly, blushing softly.
"Really?" Kendall said in surprise, happiness taking up every cell of his being.
Logan chuckled at the pure adorableness of Kendall.
"Really Kendall." He said.
Kendall squeled, jumping onto Logan and kissing all over his face.
"Your so adorable. It should literally be illegal." Logan told him, laughing softly.
Kendall sighed, laying back onto Logans naked chest.
"Remember are first time together?" Logan asked suddenly.
"Yeah. That was not only the best night of my life but the night I got pregnant to, the docter said." Kendall whispered, kissing Logans chest.
Flashback: ( for no apparent reason)
Kendall lay on logans bed, taking in the white and green rose petals that covered the black sheets and blankets that he lay on and also all over the floor.
They were aluminated by the black and light green candles that were spread around the room.
There song, the one James and Carlos always teased that Logan had wrote for him 'Nothing Even Matter' played in the back ground.
Kendall love it...it was just so...so...them.
Kendall looked up at Logan, who was sitting next to him, cross legged, next to him, staring at him.
"You didnt have to do all of this." Kendall whispered blushing.
"I know I didnt HAVE to, but I wanted to. I want your first time to be special." Logan whispered back, stroking Logans cheek softly.
"It will be special because its with you." Kendall whispered honestly, making Logans heart throb.
Logan smiled leaning over and placing a gentle kiss one Kendalls lips.
"I Love You, Logan." Kendall whimpered softly.
"I Love You,too,Kendall." Logan whispered while straddling Kendalls hips.
Logan ran his hands under Kendalls black button up, watching Kendall shiver as he felt the silk soft skin of Kendalls stomach and abbs.
His hands stopped at Kendalls nipples, teasing the sensitive pink buds.
Kendall moanend, arching his back of the bed a little.
Logan smirked grabbing Kendalls shirt and ripping it off of him, popping the bottons so they scattered all over the floor, throwing the material to the floor.
Kendall squeked in surprise.
"L-Logan my shirt-" Kendall began whimpering.
"I'll bye you a knew one." Logan promised, smirking.
He leanend forward sucking on his left nipple, playing with the right one with his fingers, loving the whimpers coming from the green-eyed boys mouth.
Logan nipped at the nipple in his mouth, sucking harshly.
"Logan." Kendall moanend, loving the pleasure that was traveling threw his body.
He kissed down his boyfriends body slowly, nipping at the lose flesh, and sucking at pieces of skin that cought his attention, licking every line of Kendalls abbs.
Kendall whimpered, bucking his hips, causing the older boy to smile up at the blonde.
Logan sat up, starting to unbotton his dark gray, loving how Kendall watched him with wide innocent eyes filled with love and desire and a shadow of insecurity.
"Whats wrong, baby?" Logan whispered seeing the sadness on Kendalls face.
"Its just...your so beautiful and I'm...so not." Kendall said in a sad voice.
"Hey, look at me." Logan said cupping Kendalls face.
Both boys could have both sworn the world stoppped moving when Green eyes meet brown.
"Kendall you are the most amazing, wonderful, perfect, beautiful person ever. Your my green eyed Angel." Logan said kissing Kendalls lips softly.
Kendall whimpered wrapping his arms around, causing there bare chests to rube together and both of them to moan loudly.
Logan pulled away, leaving Kendall breathless.
"I Love you so much Kendall." Logan whispered, Kendall beamed he would never get tired of Logan saying that, no matter how many times he said it.
"I Love you to, Logie." Kendall said smiling.
Logan chuckled.
"Didnt we just go over this?" He joked.
Kendall giggled "You started it, Logie."
Logan smiled at his younge boyfriend before starting to unbuckle Kendalls belt slowly, making sure to teasingly rub his hand against his eraction.
Logan pulled Kendalls pants all the way off, throwing them over his shoulder before palming Kendalls eraction slowly making his squirm and moan loudly, eyes half closing.
Logan smirked when kendall started bucking his hips into Logans hand trying to get more friction, after another minute of this Logan could almost feel that Kendall was so close to his orgasm but holding back wanting to Logan to keep on touching him.
"Cum for me,Angel." Logan growled getting rougher with his hand.
Kendall finally did, bucking his hips and letting out a loud cry of,
"Looggggannnnn."
Logan smiled watching Kendall come down from what he was sure of as his first ever orgasm, watching how Kendalls mouth was still wide open, eyes still closed and chest falling up and down from his panting.
Kendalls eyes fluttered open slowly, then smiled shyly up at Logan.
Logan chuckled, stroking Kendalls cheek, that boy was just SO adorable sometimes.
Kendalls hands reached up and unbuckled Logans belt, undoing his pants and pulling the black pants off of him and onto the floor, joining Kendalls jeans on the floor.
Both boys were left in nothing but there boxers, both of them perfectly still and staring at each other, foreheads touching.
"Are you sure you wanna do this, Kendall?" Logan said, Logan saying his name somehow just made it all more real for him.
"Yes." was all he could say, his voice quivering turning it into a whimper.
"You look so scared of me." Logan said a painend look in his eyes as he ran his fingers threw Kendalls hands.
"I-I'm not scared of you. I'm scared of...but I want to." Kendall whispered softly.
Logan nodded, leaning over Kendall and finding the bottle of lube on his bed side table, placing it on the bad next to him, before grabbing the waistband of Kendalls boxers and pulling them down, Kendall moanend, feeling the soft material against his member.
Logan looked at Kendalls member, 8 inches and so thick, Logans eyes just wanted to roll back in his head.
Logan opened the bottle, covering three fingers with Lube.
"Spread your legs." Logan told him.
Kendall did, exposing his pink virgin hole, Logan moanend at the sight, barely being able to wait til he could be inside of Kendall, but knowing since this was the blondes first time he would have to go slow.
He tried to be as gentle as possible as he got the first finger inside of Kendall, staring to stretch him, but Kendall still hissed in pain fisting the flowers and blankets underneath him.
"Shhh it ok." Logan coed, getting in his secind finger and begining a scissoring motion.
Kendalls jaw tightened but he didnt make a sound, his breaths more more like pants.
When three fingers were inside of him, Kendall ccouldnt help himself and let out a loud cry of pain, Logan kissed him softly trying to comfort him.
He started moving his fingers in and out, moving them in all linds of directioons and Angles until he heard Kendalls gasp and then whimper in pleasure loudly.
'Found it' he thought, smirking to himself.
He finally removed his fingers and almost ripped his boxers off of himself.
When he looked at Kendall he was staring at Logans cock, 9 inches and even thicker than Kendall.
His eyes were wide,He couldnt help but be turnend on, but scared as hell at the same time, so scared because he knew this was gonna HURT.
Logan saw his fear and rubbed his hips softly.
"Its ok. Dont be afraid, I'm right here Kendall and I always will be." he whispered before rubbing a thick coat of lube on his member, before thrusting into Kendall deciding it was better if he did it fast after a minute of thinking. He lay so there chests and foreheads were touching, hands in either side of Kendall.
He took Kendalls virginity away in one second and he felt bad.
Kendall screamed out in pain, he dug his nails into Logans back, he felt like he was being ripped in half. The pain was almost unbariable, and he couldnt help the tears that fell.
"Logan, it hurts." he sobbed, hiding his head in the crock of Logans neck.
Logan held onto him gently, bot even protesting when nails sunk deeper into his back, he felt like such a horrible person, doing this to the poor innocent blonde he was inside off.
Logan kissed Kendalls neck and shoulders softly.
"I'm so sorry Kendall." he whispered.
"Its o-o-o-okay Logan, ju-just give me a minute." He whimpered softly.
After a good five minutes later, Kendall let out a soft moan, the pain suddenly turning into the deepest pleasure he could ever imagine.
He threw his head back against the pillows, letting out another looud moan.
"Move,Logie." He said.
Logan smiled at his boyfriend whos eyes were blown open and he let out his own moan.
He pulled out til only the tip of his cock was inside of Kendall before slamming into Kendall, letting out a moan so loud he could have sworn his neighbors could hear it, and his neighbers were on a trip to France at the moment.
He found a hard but slow pase that drove them both crazy.
"Oh god Kendall your so fucking tight!" Logan screamed at one point, thrusting into the younger faster, wondering how he did it.
Kendalls answer was a moan almost so loud it could be more than a scream and a harder nail digging.
Then Logan found his prostate, hitting it so perfectly and hitting it so hard.
"Logie!" He screamed, wrapping a leg half way around the older, bringing him deeper inside of him.
"Kendall." he grunted in response, bringing there lips into a harsh hard kiss,
"OH GOD LOGAN! PLEASE FASTER, LOGAN!" Kendall screamed when they broke apart, wrapping his other leg around Logans waist, bringing the olders cock so deep,
hitting his prostate over and over and over again.
"Oh my god right there! yes logan oh logan yes." he cried inbetween loud whimpers and the moans coming from th olders mouth.
"Kendall." Logan moanend when the green eyed boy, bucked his hips.
He wrapped his legs so tight around Logan he could almost fell his organs bouncing around from the inpact.
"Oh fuck, Kendall I'm so close."Logan said with a loud moan, the blonde met his eyes
"Me to." He whimpered.
Kendall started meeting his thrusts with bucks of his hips, Logan pressed there lips together in a passionate, soft kiss, reminding them both of them of the first kiss they had ever shared. And somehow that set both of them off, cumming at the same time.
"LOGAN!" Kendall screamed, covering there abbs in cum.
"Kendall!" Logan screamed at the same moment painting Kendalls insides white.
Logan collapsed ontop of Kendall both panting and Kendall whimpering as they came down from there high.
"That...was...awesome." Kendall said threw heavy pants.
Logan chuckled at how cute Kendall sounded, pulling out of him slowly and laying on his back for a second before pulling the blonde to his chest, both laying in a puddle of cum and rose petals.
Kendall thought it was perfect.
"So how was losing your virginity?" Logan asked after a minute.
"So perfect." Kendall sighed sounding like a dreamy school girl.
"I'm so glad I was your first." Logan said, kissing the top of the some how still innocent blondes head.
Kendall looked up at him threw his bangs and thick eyelashes.
"I Love you Logan Henderson." Kendall whispered kissing right over Logans still pounding heart.
"And I Love you Kendall Schmidt."
END OF FLASHBACK!
"Your the most amazing things thats ever happened to me." Logan said looking down at Kendall.
"I'm so glad...I just Love you so much Logan." Kendall said, body shaking getting into one of his crazy Hormone moments.
Logan coed sweet nothings into his ear until the shaking stopped and the pregnant blonde was fast asleep on his chest.
Logan stayed up for hours that night, thinking about how much he loved Kendall.
Soo yeah. that was possibly the worst smut scene in all of smutness, but I loved how sweet Logan was to Kendall. oh and also you know in there new musoc video when there supposed to have there heads down I swear Kendall is staring at Logans ass. go watch Worldwide and tell me if you agree. Anyways sorry for the wait , next xhapter might take longer cuz I'm having a bit of riders block. I HATE when that happens.
Love, Sarah xoxo