Welcome to my writer's note.
Enjoy.
I think.
I DID NOT WRITE THIS TO GET YOUR "SYMPATHY" I WROTE THIS TO EXPLAIN THE STORY AND WHERE I CAME UP FOR THE IDEAS ETC. ETC. PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ANY HATE REVIEWS ABOUT THIS WRITER'S NOTE.
So writing this story was quite difficult. I've struggled with self-harm for about a year and a half now along with (all self-diagnosed) depression, social anxiety, and anorexia. None of it is "fun" or "easy". It sucks. Thats why I was able to write this story and make it feel "real". I wanted to put my thoughts and emotions into it. When I came up with the plot I was actually kinda of scared of writing about the topic of self-harm in general, knowing that it is a very sensitive topic to many. So in Anthony's orginal dreams from the first 2 or 3 chapters (I'm too lazy to go back and check) I basically gave the massive hint that *DREAM* Stella was suicidal. (I hope someone picked up on that .-.) I also intended that *REAL LIFE* Stella was not suicidal. I was actually going to make them re-meet at a bridge where she was about to kill herself, but I tried a million times and couldn't approach it right so I stuck with the therapist idea.
Don't even ask me about that dream buisness. I have no fucking idea where I came up with that. I just needed some way to start the story off instead of using "Once upon a time...".
I specifically did not write any actual scenes of self-harm, because of the triggering factor (for myself and others).
I really hope you enjoyed the story! Constructive criticism is LOVED! Seriously it will help me with my other stories.
Sorry about my swearing. Just part of who I am.
3 Gwen
(Oh yea. My real name is Kristin but one of my nicknames is Gwen (lol, its cause of my middle name) so I use that to sign off with.)
I DID NOT WRITE THIS TO GET YOUR "SYMPATHY" I WROTE THIS TO EXPLAIN THE STORY AND WHERE I CAME UP FOR THE IDEAS ETC. ETC. PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ANY HATE REVIEWS ABOUT THIS WRITER'S NOTE.