Wow the reviews are in the hundreds now, I'm so happy that you guys take the time to comment and are enjoying this so much. Hopefully this is what you wanted to see but I'm not too sure on it but I let you have one thing about what happened in Kate and Josh's marriage as well! Anyway please continue to review.

"What do you want to talk about Kate?" he asked as she sighed and put the book down, looking at him quickly.

"I want to talk about the fact that you've been in love with me for five years and you never thought to tell me" she mumbled, tears in her eyes.

"Kate I was going to, I tried so many times and I was going to but then you said you were engaged and I couldn't, I couldn't when I saw that look on your face" he whispered, moving away from her slowly to look out of the window, enjoying the relaxing view of the Paris streets. "I couldn't ruin your happiness".

"My happiness" she declared. "I was in love with you Richard Castle for three years and I waited for you to make a move, to give some indication that you felt the same and you never did" she explained, staring at his back as he stood there in complete shock. "I loved you and I settled for second best because I never thought you'd want me the way I wanted you".

"Kate I've always wanted you, I've never stopped wanting you, the whole way through your wedding I wanted to stand up and tell you I loved you, tell you that I wanted you to be my bride and be my one and done" he announced, not wanting to turn around because seeing her would make it harder, make it more real. "You were so beautiful and happy that day, you looked so stunning in your mother's dress that I couldn't help but love you more than ever and want you to be happy and I was certain that would be with Josh so I backed away, I left because I couldn't bare to watch you live your life with someone who wasn't me" he explained before finally turning to look at her. "I love you Kate, that's never stopped".

"Why are you always so late?" she asked as she stared at him, watching him stand there looking awkward at her question. "Why do you always say things too late?" she declared. "You could have stopped me from two years of hell Rick but you didn't".

"I didn't know Kate, if I was able to look into the future and see what would have happened to you I would have done and I would have stopped you walking up that aisle but honestly would you have listened to me? Because I believe the Kate Beckett I know wouldn't have let me ruin her big day because of something like that" he declared causing her to smile as she shook her head slowly, knowing inside that he was right.

"Your right, I wouldn't have listened to you" she whispered, seating herself on the end of his bed and sighing, her hands running quickly through her hair as she tried to think about what she wanted to say. "I was the one who made the mistake, I settled for second best because I was scared that I'd never get the life I dreamt of and in the end I never did" she declared, shutting her eyes as she tried to blank out everything, the feel of someone sitting beside her causing her to sigh quickly, his arm wrapping around her, comforting her in a way she so desperately needed. "I was being a stubborn cow wasn't I?"

"Of course" he whispered causing her to punch him gently. "That's who you are Kate and I wouldn't change it for the world, you're just so perfect" he declared, feeling her move closer to him, her eyes shutting slowly as she sighed.

"You've showed me more love in the past few minutes than Josh had in two years" she whispered, not looking up because she knew she'd stop everything she was saying if she saw him looking at her. Wondering. "I was looking for something in my marriage that was never there and it took my two years to learn that, because after a while I realised I was sat there staring at the phone or into your books waiting for you to walk back into my life, I was in love with you the whole time I was married to someone else" she declared, a single tear trickling down her cheek. Looking up, she sighed as he touched her chin with one thing, a smile appearing on her face as he pressed a kiss against her forehead.

XOXOXOXO

Lying on the bed, he sighed as he turned to see her lying beside him staring up at the ceiling, a smile on her face as she continued to clutch onto his hand. Moving closer, she sighed, his arm wrapping around her waist as she buried her head against his shirt, her eyes shutting.

"We were trying for a baby" she whispered, this grabbing his attention quickly. "We spent months trying and I couldn't get pregnant, we were getting worried and were about to go to the doctors when it finally happened, I was pregnant" she admitted, tears appearing in her eyes as she began to remember everything. "About a month and a half into it, I was on a job and the door opened with me at a top of the stairs, I got pushed down the flight of the stairs and rushed to hospital" she whispered.

"Did you lose it?" he asked causing her to nod, the tears getting worse. "What happened then?" he whispered.

"Josh was cross about how I'd lost the baby doing a job that was dangerous, he said I had to leave my job if I wanted to start a family" she declared as he looked at her, holding her closer to him. "He kept saying that if I didn't leave my job he would leave me and you have no idea how close I was to leaving the precinct" she whispered, her whole body shaking in his arms.

"Kate" he mumbled.

"The day I lost the baby Lanie came to the hospital and told me she'd just found out she was pregnant, I couldn't talk to her, I screamed and sent her away, I haven't talked to her since" she announced as he looked at her, watching as she slowly moved to look at him. "I was a horrid person Rick, no wonder they all hate me" she sobbed.

"Kate, none of this was your fault" he declared as she watched him. "You were not yourself Kate, you'd just lost a baby, been told by your husband to quit your job and things were going wrong for you, they won't hate you when they find out why" he whispered.

"I can't tell them Rick, Lanie will hate me when she finds out that she told me that after everything that happened" she mumbled as he watched her. "After trying for a baby for five months Rick I actually was desperate for it to happen".

"Kate" he whispered.

"I wanted that baby so much Rick because it was going to save everything, it was going to make my life better and I couldn't even keep it safe" she sobbed, tears streaming down her face as he continued to hold her, his eyes shutting as he thought about everything.