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I awoke to the sun glaring through my windows and groaned as I pulled my sheets over my head. It's been two days since I last saw or heard from anyone from school. After my little incident with Richard, my mother let me stay home from school and get my mind together. Since my break, I haven't even gotten out my bed; I just moped and moped some more. The argument was still fresh in my mind and every time I closed my eyes I could see Richards face after my confession.
I decided it was finally time to get up and face the world; being grateful it was Saturday and that I didn't have to face school just yet.
I swung my legs over my bed and reached for my phone that had been untouched for two days. I wasn't shocked when I came to find that my phone had what seemed like a million alerts on it; most of them from Gar, Victor, Karen, Xavier, Richard, and especially Rachel.
Most voicemails and texts consisted of the: "Where are you?" "What happened?" "Are you okay" and a couple of "How dare you's" from Kitten.
I simply erased every text, voicemail, and missed call. I just wasn't up to talk to anyone just yet; the first thing I wanted to do was eat.
I made my way out my room and down to the kitchen, only to find Komi sitting down on our big wooden table eating her cereal.
"Well well, look who's finally out of her room." I heard Komi say as I poured my cereal.
I simply ignored her and decided to eat my cereal in my room; my goal today was to get out of bed, not to interact.
Once I reached my room, I walked in and put my cereal on my computer and just sat on my chair. I looked at the pictures on my white wooden desk and could not help but to smile. There was one picture of the whole group only just last year. I took the picture in my hands and gently caressed it. It was hard to believe this was just taken last year, everybody looked so different…so…genuinely happy. I put the picture back down and just sat in the chair, not moving nor thinking; just sitting.
I sat and sat for what felt like hours but just couldn't find it in myself to get up. I was frozen, in complete shock from the revelation I had come up with.
The only reason things weren't like before weren't just because of Richard, they were because of me. I let Richard stomp all over me, I let Richard openly toy with my emotions, and most importantly I let Kitten take Richard from me without a fight.
I blamed Richard for everything horrible that has happened to me but the only person that was to blame was myself. I got so caught up in getting rid of him, I became a horrible and negative person; someone so completely different from me. If trying to be with Richard cost me my friends and my happiness, well I didn't want anything to do with him.
The simple thought of Richard led me to think about Xavier. I buried my head in my arms, terrified of what he must have thought about my outburst towards Richard. I really do care about him and feel horrible about him having to find out about my incident. I knew I owed him an apology, he had been nothing but sweet to me and I had been nothing but a bitch to him.
It was Saturday and I knew I had to make my choice fast: stay in love with Richard and shun out everyone else or finally give him up and move on as a stronger person.
I think the choice was inevitable and with that in mind I had to make up my mind of how to showcase my new mindset. I looked around my room for a sign to tell me what to do or where to go until suddenly a bright orange paper caught my eye. I extracted it from under my laptop and an idea popped up into my mind.
The bright orange paper was a flyer about tonight's party celebrating the start of the football season. I knew it would be the perfect place to showcase myself as a new person; everyone always attends the first party of the year.
It's funny how someone can be so miserable one second and yet so jubilant the next. I got up from my desk, threw the flyer in the trash, and made my way to my closet.
Sure, it was only the morning but a girl has to take her time to look perfect; this was a night where I had to look my best. Not only was I facing the whole school after my outburst but I also have to face Richard. I had the task to convince everyone I wasn't hung up on that asshole, I wouldn't de give him that satisfaction. I also had to look my best to show Xavier that I'm not some innocent little girl that everyone thought I was. It's one thing to take my niceness for granted but to assume I was a goody two shoes was another.
I skimmed through my closet and stopped when I found the perfect tight little purple dress Karen had convinced me to buy over the summer. A slight frown fell upon my face when I thought about Karen and Rachel; I could have really used them right now.
I removed the dress from the hanger and placed it delicately onto my bed. I looked at my phone and bit my lip as I walked over to grab it.
I flipped my phone and started to call Rachel, I knew my new transformation had to start now.
Her phone only rang once until her worried voice flooded my ears,
"Kori! I'm so sorry! I was a comple-"
"Rachel, shut up. I forgive you. Now you need to get over here and bring Karen. I have a plan that I have in mind for tonight."
