A/N : Hey guys, the author of this fic has decided that this chapter will be the last one, and has left a message for you guys: "I'm sorry if the story feels short but i don't want to drag it out, it feels over. I want people to understand the meaning of it, the moral of the story which is the last paragraph, adding on to that would just ruin the whole thing lol." She'd also like to thank you guys for reading, and to pass it on.
--Sara's POV---
As soon as I had gotten comfortable with the warm quiet home I made for my head in Tegan's shoulders she took her arms from around my waist and stepped back. Oh no! Where is she going? I bet she's freaked out. Please don't leave me. She grabs my clothes off the floor and carries them into the living room and sits them on the couch. She slowly walked back over to me not bothering to fix her clothes that I'm sure I've ruined anyway.
"T...Tegan, what... I don't know what's next. I love you yes, but what do we do now?" I ask somehow stopping myself from rambling. I've never been this emotional in my life. Every time my eyes meet hers I feel a tear fall. I try to fix myself up somehow, not easy to do while sitting on a kitchen counter with no clothing below the waist and a thin slightly over-sized button up hanging off your shoulders. As soon as I move my hand up to fix my hair I feel Tegan's hand on mine. She moves my hand down and looks deep into my eyes and fixes my hair, gently placing the lock from my face to behind my ear.
"Now..." I immediately sit straight up, realizing just how long I've been waiting for her to speak, to say something, anything. "Now, we go to bed" She steps back again and reaches out for my hand. I grab hers and hold on tight. I'm uncomfortable with my newly intensified fear of being apart from her. In this moment specifically I feel like I need to be touching her at all times. She leads me to the bedroom, more specifically, to the bed. She lets go of my hand and pleads "Don't leave me alone tonight"
"Never again" I say and pull her face to mine, and look into her eyes, glowing in the darkness. I pull her into a deep kiss, she lets out a moan and instantly I'm aroused again. I'm finally going to able to make love with her the way I've always wanted to, the thought alone was enough to make me come in the past. So I closed my eyes for a few seconds and held her and tried to calm myself down. Then I slowly took off her jacket and ripped button-up. She was now naked and standing in front of me, her nipples were hard and my plans to do this slowly were completely forgotten as I grabbed her by the waist and started to kiss her passionately and deeply and sucking on her tongue. She let out a loud moan and took my shirt off, the only article of clothing I had left on at this point, and threw it across the room. I pushed her down on the bed into a sitting position and climbed on top of her, straddling her tight. Her skin was burning into mine and I felt drops of sweat trickle down her back when I grabbed at her waist. I sat on her lap kissing her and teasing her with my tongue and suddenly she took her right arm and brought it to me and slipped two fingers inside me "O mmm..." I moaned as I started moving up and down into them. So much pleasure I could barely stand it, I let a tear roll down my face. "Am I hurting you?" she asked concerned "You couldn't" I said as I started to move faster, too fast, I didn't want the moment to be over quite yet. No, I'm not going to waste this night. So I got up and gestured for her to move back onto the bed and lie down and she does quickly. I got on top of her, straddling her once again. I kissed her on the lips softly. I kissed her on her neck and bit down on her collar bone to this she let out a gasp in shock and then a moan. I moved up and started nibbling on her earlobe as I used my elbows to balance myself I parted her legs to make room for both of mine in the middle. I moved back to her lips and kissed her passionately as i gently moved my hips into hers. She let out another gasp and moved her hands down to my lower back and pulled me into her hard and let out a loud moan. We fell into a rhythm with our hips moving them against each other with perfect timing. I break the bond between our hips and move my body lower. I kiss her breasts and nibble on each nipple softly eliciting lots of soft moans and light "ohs" from Tegan. I move lower kissing her tight stomach and circling her navel with my tongue, attempting to tease her yet I'm the one who can't wait any longer. I finally go right to the spot. I start licking at a speed not too fast but not too slow, turning our previous rhythm into a solo.
I'm pleased at the very approving noises coming from Tegan's mouth, but I want more. So I slide two fingers in fuck, she's so tight I think to myself as I slide one back out "No no no, it's okay, it's okay" she says and lifts her head up looking down at me. I can sense the disappointment in her voice. Well what she wants, she gets. I slide the other finger back in "Oh! Sara mmm yes! Just like that! Oh my god" Tegan whispers loudly and breathlessly as her head collapses back onto the bed. She raises her knees to an arch and with her right hand pulls my head into her hard and with her left massages her own breasts. I feel her tightening around my fingers. I think I may explode. No not yet Sara! Come on, focus...damn she's so tight, no focus...not yet. I move my tongue and my fingers faster and I hear her breathing begin to quicken and I know she's coming. I quickly decide I want to be looking at her when she reaches her moment so I replace my tongue with my fingers and move up and kiss her. I deepen the kiss and massage her clit hard and fast. In three swift motions she grabs the back of my head with her left hand, my lower back with her right and pulls me into her hard "I'm gonna come...oh....o baby...oh god!" She exclaims and all the control I had managed was completely lost oh no "oh shit....oh....ooo no!" I say obviously very disappointed at my inability to control my orgasm however feeling very satisfied.
"Oh, baby wow I kind of wanted to-"
"Yeah... I'm so pathetic" I say and roll off her body and look away, I'm just embarrassed now.
"After what I just experienced you are far from pathetic! You're amazing Sara, and I just wanted to return the favor" She assures me, then lets out an unexpected yawn. "Oh my god, sorry"
"Well looks like you may have had enough anyway" I say with a smile. God, I'm so happy. That's a random thought, but I am.
"Yeah, like I said, you were amazing" She turns around to face the wall and grabs my arm and wraps it across her stomach. I feel myself getting sleepy. My mind wonders to thoughts of what will happen next. I can't come up with any ideas right now. I bury my face in between Tegan's shoulder blades and hold her tight. I realize in this moment that she's worth fighting for. And all along that was really the question. Our career, our family, our friends, our fans-basically our entire world could fall apart in an instant but am I willing to risk everything for her? Am I willing to defend our love? Yes, til the day I die.