I Could Hold You Forever Chapter 7, a x-overs fanfic

AN Sorry it took so long too put this chapter up. I've been sick and not writing :P anyway, enjoy!

I didn't sleep at all that night. All I could think of was him. I thought of all the times we had, the time I first laid eyes on him. Everything. I couldn't leave that life.

I got up at 6:30 and drove over to his house. I got up to the elevator and unlocked the door to his apartment. I quietly walked in and started to look for him. He wasn't in the living room like before. I walked down the little hallway and found him in the music room. He was sitting on a small chair, with his guitar, playing the most beautiful melody.

"It's really good." I breathed

"It's for you." He purred

I smiled and sat on the piano chair.

He started, the melody, it was flawless. I could tell this song really meant a lot to him.

"So here's another day, I'll spend away from you,

Another night I'm on another broken avenue,

My bag is ripped and worn, then again so am I, take what you want to take

I miss the stupid things, we go to sleep and then, you wake me up and kick me out of bed at 3am

Pick up the phone and hear you saying dirty things to me, do what you want to do

Take me with you I start to miss you

Take me home I don't want to be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you, till I can't stand on my own anymore

I cross my heart and hope to die

I cross my heart and hope to

Hotels are all the same,

You're still away from me,

Another day another dollar that I'll never see

Can I get a piece of something good, I'd just like a little

I wonder what you're doing, I wonder if you doubt it

I wonder how we used to go so long without it

Now I know where I go, I'm coming back to you

I'll be where I otta be, where I otta be

Take me with you I start to miss you

Take me home I don't want to be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you, till I can't stand on my own anymore

I cross my heart and hope to die

Yea, take me with you I start to miss you

Take me with you I start to miss you

Take me home I don't want to be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you, till I can't stand on my own anymore

I cross my heart and hope to die

And I do want to show you I will run to you, till I can't stand on my own anymore

I cross my heart and hope to die"

"That was beautiful." I breathed

I stood up and hugged him.

"Please stay with me. I need you." He mumbled into my ear

I knew I really wanted to stay and take care of him. He needed me and I needed him.

"I…" I started

"Please" He begged in pain

"Yea, I will"

He held me closer and smiled.

"Come on, you need to rest." I mumbled

I guided him into the living room and laid him down on the couch. I walked over to the shelf beside the TV with the movies on it.

"What do you want to watch?" I asked

"Whatever you want, it doesn't matter to me."

I picked a random movie and put it in the DVD player. I looked back over at Josh. He was already half asleep, exhausted. I walked and grabbed the blanket at the end of the couch. It had always been there but I never really paid attention to it before. It had many colours; Pink, blue, yellow, green and was knitted. I went over to the other side of the couch and laid it on him. I laid down beside him and he turned and put his arm around me. I could feel him breathing on my neck. I turned around and looked at him. He looked awake now, and smiled.

"I missed you," I muttered

He brought me closer and I laid there with my head against his chest. My eyes got heavy and I slowly felt myself falling asleep in his arms.

I woke up and Josh was sleeping. I looked up at him and just smiled. I knew he had trouble sleeping so I just laid there for a bit and waited. His arms were still wrapped around me and he wasn't letting go.

All of a sudden he took a deep breath and pulled me closer. I looked up at him and smiled

"You slept." I cooed

He moaned and I got up. I walked into the kitchen and got my phone out of my purse. It was almost three in the afternoon. I walked back into the living room.

"Well, if I'm staying we should go get my stuff then, right?" I smiled

I could tell he had been waiting for me to tell him that all day.

"Yes" He gleamed

He got off the couch and went down the hall, probably to get his phone. He came back a little bit later looking just like usual. Just like he did when I met him; all dressed up and smiling. He went into the closet and grabbed his grey converse with the blue trim around the sides. He was ready and stood up. I looked up at him and smiled. Things were better now, back to normal.

We got out of the apartment and into the parking lot

"Were taking my car." I stated

"You got a car?" He wondered

"Yep! I love it!"

We kept walking until we got to the car. It was a bright blue Cadillac. I got in and I could tell but the way Josh got in the car, he was impressed.

"This is rad!" He exclaimed

I started the car and Josh watched the G.P.S. screen light up automatically. He went to touch a button and I stopped him.

"You break it, you're in trouble," I warned

He smiled and sat back in the seat.

"How far do you guys live from here?" He wondered

"Not far, five minutes tops," I babbled

We didn't say much until we got to the main intersection just around the corned from Josh's.

"What happened when I was in the hospital?" He asked "I mean, my mom said you were there."

"Yea, at first, I was assigned your chart but I gave it to Lexi to take care of you." I mentioned

"Who was the girl that was there when I woke up then? I remember taking to someone."

"That was Lexi." I exclaimed

"Really? Wow. She looked different from when I last saw her." He rambled

I smiled and kept on driving, we were almost there. We pulled in and I walked over and helped Josh out of the car. He wasn't in much pain anymore; he just wasn't able to move around a lot. I held his hand all the way to Lexis' door. I used the key I still had and opened it.

"Hello!" I yelled as we walked in

"Hi!" She yelled from the other room

I took my shoes off and walked Josh into the living room where Lexi was. She was watching TV, still in her PJ's.

She looked up and noticed I was with Josh.

"Hi Josh! How are you feeling?"

"Fine" He exclaimed as he squeezed my hand tighter.

"I'm going to go and get my things then." I exclaimed

I went up the stairs leaving Josh down with Lexi. I had already told her earlier I was coming over to get my things but I don't think she expected Josh to be here. I ran into my room and started to gather my things. It didn't take me long to find a bag in the room and get all my things inside. I walked back out with all my things and set them by the door.

"So what have you been doing?" I laughed

I went and sat beside Josh.

"Nothing. Just watching TV and stuff, the usual." Lexi giggled, "So, you guys are back together?"

"Yep." I stated

"Yay! Awe you guys are so perfect! It's so cute! I love it!" She squeaked

Her smile faded into a frown as she realized I was leaving to the car, leaving josh behind. I took as many bags as I could into my hands and brought them to the trunk. I came back into the apartment once again, and claimed the rest of the bags. I walked back into the living room and Lexi stood up. I Went over and hugged her.

"Thanks for everything, Josh too, for helping him." I whispered

"It was no problem, he's really good to you, and it's worth it to see a smile on your face."

I pulled away and she went and hugged Josh.

"Thank you, keeping her safe, everything" I could hear Josh say

Lexi mumbled something back but I couldn't make out what it was. They pulled away from each other and Josh sat down and got his shoes on. We got all our things and I helped Josh out to the car. I don't think he was paying much attention to the roads or he would know we weren't taking the way home. I was going to take him to the studio so he can write. I pulled into the parking lot and put the car into park.

"What are we doing here?" Josh asked

"Matt told me weren't doing anything, or recording, so you're here to do just that!" I smiled

'I can always do this later"

"No" I interrupted "You're doing it now."
"But it's my first night with you back; I don't want you to leave"

"Who said anything about me leaving, I have to stay to make sure you're doing the song!"

"But I need the guys here with me." He stated

"No you don't, you can do an acoustic or something"

I dragged him inside and sat him down

"I've got all night" I smiled

He moaned and then smiled

"What if I just did cross my heart?" He stated "Would that count?"

I laughed

"Yea, that counts"

He stood up, grabbed a guitar and walked into the enclosed room. I was admiring the many buttons then realized I didn't know which ones I was supposed to be pushing. I followed Josh into the room and asked him

"What buttons do I push?"

"Oh shit, I forgot about that, don't touch anything!" He set the guitar down and walked back out. He slid up the dials that must have changed volume and all. He clicked a whole bunch of buttons, till there were glowing green.

"Only push this one, when I say"

The minute josh turned around to go back into the enclosed room I pushed a button. It was just too tempting. He turned around because he heard me push it.

"Don't. Touch." He urged

He gave me a very stern look and went into the room once again. He sat down and put the headphones on. He got the guitar all hooked up and signaled for me to push the button. I pushed it and half the lights on the panel lit up. My eyes popped open and I freaked out. I thought I had broken it. I looked up and Josh was tuning the guitar he was about to use. I banged on the window and he looked up.

"I don't know what I'm doing" I said

He probably couldn't even hear what I was saying but he could tell by the expression on my face that I needed help. He looked annoyed and got up. He came back and looked at the whole panel

"It looks fine, that's what's supposed to happen when you click it." He informed "anything else?"

"Uh, no, I think I got it" I exclaimed

He went in the room once more and signaled me to click the button. I did this time, knowing what was going to happen to all the other lights. He started singing and I watched as the little bars as they went up and down as his voice went higher or lower. I looked over at all the buttons and the dials on the big recording table. How could someone know what all these did? Who in there right mind would take the time to know what the buttons do? I didn't even notice when Josh was done the song. He came out and sat in a chair that was in front of the whole panel. I sat down on the comfy couch against the wall behind him. He started to replay the song and the guitar part so he could fit them together.

"Want to see how I do it?" He asked

"Um… sure" I mumbled

I got up and pulled another chair beside his. He showed me how they fit the guitar and singing part of the song together, then they add certain things and lower or raise the voice to make it sound better. He finally finished the whole song and I was exhausted. It must have been at least seven.

"There, it's done!" Josh exclaimed

"Great, let's go home" I sputtered

"Don't you want to hear it?"

"Oh yea, sure"

He played me the song and it sounded really good.

"I was thinking, we could get the band in here and record the guitar, bass and drums for it and make it have more of a beat, you know?"

"Yep."

It had been a long day and I was practically half asleep. My eyes were getting heavy already and it wasn't even that late. He smiled

"You're tired, aren't you?"

I mumbled and he wrapped my coat around me.

"I'll drive you home" He voiced

"I swear, if you even dent my car…" I started

"I won't! I won't! I swear!"

I mumbled and got in the passenger side door. I had almost fallen asleep in the car but Josh kept me up. We got home and he got out and guided me up the elevator, into the apartment and into bed. I fell right asleep.

I woke up and Josh was on the couch beside the bed with the laptop. He must have brought it in from the living room and was sitting there on twitter.

"Morning" He cheered

I sat up and rubbed my eyes. It was 6am. I had always hated going to bed too early then getting up early as well. Josh on the other hand never slept, at least, I hardly ever saw him sleep. I picked myself up, keeping the blanket wrapped around me and went over and sat beside him.

"Do you have to work today?" He asked

I nodded and moaned.

"Not till noon though," I stated

He nodded and kept checking tweets and replying to fans. I sat there for a bit. He could sit on that computer all day just watching his stupid videos with the people that do stupid things. He thinks they're hilarious. I got up and made breakfast. It seemed like I had been here the whole time, like I never left. After breakfast I went and showered and got everything ready so I wouldn't have to rush to work. It was still only ten. I had to leave around eleven thirty so I still had lots of time. I walked out into the living room at maybe sit and watch some TV. I walked over to the couch and I saw a glimpse of Josh in the kitchen. I didn't really know what he was doing. I walked in and he was bent over trying to drink some coke zero.

"What the hell are you doing?" I wondered

He stood up and hiccuped. It was a really high-pitched hiccup though. I hadn't heard one like it before. Then he would jump.

"Fuck!" He yelled, "They don't go away!"

I laughed and took the coke from his hands and went to the sink

"First, you're supposed to be drinking water…" I started

I spilt the rest of the coke down the drain and grabbed a new glass and started to full it with water.

"Hey! I could have finished that." He moaned then hiccuped once again.

I walked over and handed him the glass. He bent over and tried to drink it again but it just ended up on his face, and the floor. He stood up with water all in his eyes. I laughed

"No, your still not doing it right."

I took the glass and showed him how to drink the water upside down. He attempted again and this time did better, but there was still a puddle of it in the floor. He stood up and smiled. He thought they were gone, but the second he went to say they were he hiccuped again.

"Uugghhhh!" He moaned

He grabbed the glass out of my hand did the same thing again, drinking it upside down. Then he hiccuped. He was still drinking the water though so it went everywhere. He stood up really frustrated, put the glass into the sink and went out to the couch into the living room. I cleaned up the mess and walked out after him. I sat down and he hiccuped again.

"Why do you hiccup?" He asked curious

I laughed, "Um, they happen when you eat or drink to fast. Your stomach, becomes larger and bothers your diaphragm. It makes your diaphragm contract, and then you breathe in and hiccup."

It looked like he didn't understand a thing I said.

"You ate too fast so now you're hiccuping." I laughed, "Get it?"

"Holy shit!" He sounded amazed, "Don't let anyone ever tell you you're stupid," He laughed

I giggled and we just sat there and watched TV for a bit. It was really quiet and then there would be this random 'chirp' from Josh. I didn't want to laugh at him because I could tell he hated it, but it was really hard. Then it was silent.

"I don't want to jinx it but… I think they're gone," He whispered

"Why are you whispering?" I laughed

"I don't know, I swear if I hiccup again," He exclaimed

He sat there for a bit staring at something behind he. He looked like he was in a daze, waiting for the hiccup to happen. There was like a whole minute of dead silence.

"Okay, I think they're gone" I laughed

He stood up

"Good, I fucking hate hiccups"

Want to hear the song that Josh wrote for Ella? Go you YouTube and put in 'Cross My Heart acoustic Marianas Trench'