Part 7

I lay, my head on the pillow at her side – she was lay on her back looking up at the ceiling. Her eyes had been fix on the one spot now for a while – I'd been watching her in that time, taking her in. My arm was out across her waist lazily I know that the two of us should be resting, sleeping – having come from shift and Sofia even pulling a double but it didn't look like she was about to rest. "Baby…what is it?" I manage eventually.

She didn't speak, she just broke the stare she was in and looked towards the doorway of my bedroom. I moved closer to her and pressed my lips onto her arm – "Hun, talk to me?"

"She walks around, like she…and…you…" I can almost feel the burning anger seeping through her hot skin and into mine. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything – she has to work with this woman – and now she wants to all but put her fist in the officers face. She's so angry that she can't even manage to fight through the words.

"Babe…shush…stop…"

She just shakes her head, "I can't …"

I just ran my arm down her waist to her leg – the brought it back up funning my fingers up and under her shift resting it on her stomach. "Baby…please hold me?" I ask her. I just want her to hold me in her arms, just so I can pretend everything between us is fine and not so strained. She waits a moment before she moves an arm around me and I slide over so I'm resting my head on her shoulder blade. "Listen to me…this was all in my past. I'm over what she did to me. I have you now… all we need to do is ignore her. We can't let her break us apart Sof"

She just nodded her head, though she wasn't saying much of anything. I know that something is bouncing around in that head of hers, and I know exactly what it is. "Don't do anything stupid…" I accuse. She doesn't respond. " Sofia…" I lean up on my shoulder and lean over her looking into her eyes. " Sofia…tell me, you won't do anything stupid."

"What…you mean, hit her…like she hit you?" She growled back lowly.

"Yeah that's exactly what I mean" I throw at her, "you do that you ruin everything you have – you're job, your respect… you can't let her take it from you"

"You tell me that…and expect me not to do anything?" She demands.

"You can't do anything…"

"Watch me…"

"I'm not kidding" I sit up, "Just listen to me for once. I can't let you put your career in jeopardy for me" She didn't respond, so I turned to look at her, "I mean it…I told you so you'd understand – I could never love her, you're the only person I love."

"You think it's that simple?" She asks.

"I've made it that simple – my past stays in my past. It's how I want it"

"Your past? Your past is here in Vegas god damn it – your past is walking through the halls of the station like she runs the show – your past is trying to take your future" She returns to looking back up at the ceiling. I sigh –

"Please…for me?"

"For you what? Ignore your ex who's trying to ruin your work, your life, us?"

"Yeah… if you let her get to you she's won" Then I lose it, "I can't deal with this damn it" I sat forward in the bed.

For a few moments she didn't react, the I hared her take three large deep breaths before she lent forward and put her arms around my waist. "Okay…I get it… I get that the last thing you need is me acting like this. I'm sorry…you want me to leave it…I'll leave it" she reassured my. I relaxed a little and moved so my head was lent on her shoulder – "Come on, just… I'm sorry"

I nod my head, "sorry" I say to her. She lowers us back down to the bed and she's holding my closer now that she did before – "I'm just so scared I'm going to lose you" I whispered.

"Lose me…to that bitch?" She's lets out a laugh, as she turns and puts her leg over mine. Leaning on me she presses her lips softly against mine before murmuring – "Babe – I don't think so. You're stuck with me"

I have to say, not a bad place to be stuck. The blond moved her hands down my frame – she must notice how tense I am because she speaks into my ear – "I just want to hold you" she explained. Her hands stopping once they found the flat stomach and waist under my shirt. I nod my head – I'm not sure if she understands why, but I just couldn't take this any further at the moment- "…it's fine" she tells me.

This does calm me a little; I move my own hands up her shirt to rest on her – then something come's over me "shit" I curse as I move into her.

"What is it babe?"

The idea of us just stopping at her holding me soon fades; it's too much to have her so close but not have her. I shift; putting my weight on her shoulder I turn and force her to the bed. Moving over her I growl lowly, "Baby - kiss me"

"Hun? I…" She was tapping her fingers on my back and I took a deep breath to calm myself, I straddled her and took her arms from my back. She's driving me crazy. "Shit…" I say again.

"Sar…" She herself is getting breathless as it become harder for her to resist.

"I need you"

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"Okay, Sara… there's a DB in Henderson – just clarify it's an OD…" Grissom explained. "Officers are on scene …"

"Solo?" I ask

He shakes his head, "Nope, Catherine is in the locker room – tell her she's with you"

"No problem" I take the paper from his hand, "I'll catch you guys later"

I leave, heading down the corridor – I have to say I hope tonight goes smooth so that I'm able to leave on time to go to breakfast with the one and only Sofia.

"Hey Cath, with me tonight on a DB"

"Okay…I'm coming" She shuffles through her locker.

"I'll meet you in the Denali then?" I ask her

"take it you're driving?"

"As always" I smile.

She rolls her eyes also smiling.

I'm tapping my hands on the steering wheel- along to some CD that Sofia had out in my player that I had to admit I was getting quite into, though I'd never tell her that. It's then I saw Catherine eventually swagger from the Lab and towards the Denali – at last.

Pulling open the door she offered her apologies, "Sorry…sorry…run in with Ecklie"

"Better you than me" I tell her, "Don't worry" Turning the key in the ignition I start the truck – "Hell he's dead, not going anywhere any time soon"

I get a laugh from the red head – this friends ship thing with her is really starting to work.

Stepping from the Denali I managed to gather my kit in record time. I slammed shut the door and met Catherine – "You okay tonight?" I ask.
"Yeah…verbal with the daughter as I left for work"

"Oh…get you at your most venerable?" I ask knowing the technique, never used it on my excuse of a mother myself as she didn't care what I did or where I was but I have often used it on Sofia.

"Yeah…" Catherine sighs.

"She'll get over it" I tell her.

Catherine seems a little shocked, hell I am – did I just attempt to comfort her? I never do that, with anyone, I'm just not good at it. "You had the good coffee or something tonight Sidle?" she asks.

"Or something" I mumble as we both head to the scene.