I only told Sara the short version, leaving out all the sex details and intimate moments.
"Wow, two years is a long time," Sara murmured, wiping her eyes.
"Yeah," I replied shrugging, "I guess it is."
"So you did love her."
"Yes. I still do. But it's a different kind of love. Our whole relationship was based on sex, fulfilling each other's needs and companionship. I guess it'll be safe to say, she's my best friend."
"And now she's with Calleigh, the girl she's always been in love with?" Sara asked.
"Kinda. I think she needs for things to be resolved between us first, before she can make that move," I sighed.
"You're right, and I think you need that resolution as well, before you can move on." I looked at Sara and tried to read through the wall she has set up around herself.
We were sitting there in silence, just looking at each other, both wanting to say something but neither with the courage to say it. I took a deep breath and just jumped in.
"Sara, do you still love me?" I asked quietly.
"Why?" Sara asked, looking down and started fidgeting.
"I need to know. Because tonight I'm saying goodbye to the most important girl in my life for the last three years and I need to be sure it's the right thing," I replied.
"If you love her, you should fight for her," Sara said quietly.
"I do love her, but I love you more, and I'd rather fight for you. I need to know that you still have feelings for me so I know if there's a chance for us, because I don't wanna waste the next four years waiting and hoping," I stood up and walked over to Sara and kneeled in front of her, taking her hands in mine.
"I uh, I really missed you while you were away Rach, and I do still love you, I never stopped, I just wasn't ready," Sara said, tears in her eyes.
"Ok, that's all I need to hear," I smiled, bringing her hands up to my lips and placing a kiss on them, "I'm going to go now, got things to resolve." I stood up and headed to the door.
"Rachel, when you say resolve, you mean, one last night together don't you?" Sara questioned, still sitting in the armchair.
"I'm sorry Sara, but yes," I looked down.
"Ok, call me tomorrow?" Sara sounded hopeful. I nodded, smiling at her then left.
I arrived at the hotel a little early and bumped into Eric on his way out.
"Hey girl, was hoping we'd get a chance to catch up before we leave tomorrow," Eric Delko, former colleague of mine said.
"Hey Eric, maybe we could get lunch tomorrow before you head off, I'll take you both to the airport," I suggested.
"Sounds good. Hey, I'm sorry about you and Nat, I thought you guys were a perfect couple, everyone was shocked when we found out and to hear you had left," Eric said quietly, putting his hand on my shoulder.
"It's fine Eric, Nat and I are sorting a few things out," I smiled.
"So, you're working it out and getting back together? I knew H sent her on this assignment for a reason!"
"No Eric, we're not getting back together. We're just going to part as friends," I let him down gently.
"Damn, but you'll come and visit won't you?" I just laughed at the man.
"Of course, and there's email and cell phones."