Content Warning - For Mature Adults
Alex faced herself in the mirror as she waited for the shower to come to temperature. She had become an even earlier riser; no one else was up yet so she had the bathroom to herself. She scanned her face, noting the dark circles under her eyes and the worn look of her skin. I need to start sleeping more, she thought absently to herself. Lately she had been getting fewer and fewer hours of sleep. While she could control the direction of her thoughts during the day while she was around other people, the night was an entirely different matter. Visions of Piper floated up from her subconscious, clouding her head and preventing her from relaxing and falling asleep. Apparently the box she had shoved the memories in turned out to be a jack-in-the-box. Once her mind started churning it would crop up with a different memory, seemingly out of fucking nowhere. Some of the memories made her furious, others made her want to weep. She imagined Piper in her SHU cell. Nicky had told her before that it was just a small room with cement floors and cement walls. Alex imagined Piper laying there, lost and alone for almost three whole months. It broke her fucking heart in these moments. She could ignore any mention of her ex-girlfriend all she wanted in front of her friends: shove it into the box and kick it to the back of her mind. But it always found its way back. Somehow. She really was inevitable to her. The vision suddenly morphed into a familiar scene; Piper and her in the kitchen, her ex-girlfriend in her face screaming at her "I love you and I fucking hate you."
Pained that this scenario had chosen to resurface again, she turned and entered the shower, letting the lukewarm spray beat against her skin. Grabbing the soap she made a thick lather in her hands as she started to wash herself. It was always the worst in the mornings and evenings before the others were awake. She was at her most vulnerable point; she couldn't push the thoughts of Piper away. She felt as her heart rang out a pang of grief that these used to be her favorite times with the blonde.
Alex nuzzled her face in deeper into the back of Piper's neck. The sun had just broken over the horizon, beginning to stream in through her full wall of penthouse windows. For the moment Piper was out cold, she was surprised at how heavy a sleeper Piper was. They had only spent a couple nights together semi-cuddling since they had met two weeks ago in the bar. Alex smiled to herself, there was just something about this kid that kept bringing her back. If she had stuck to her reputation, by now she would have fucked the brains out of the blonde a few times and then moved on to the next potential mule.
She breathed in the scent of Piper's hair, shaking her head slightly so as not to disturb the slumbering woman in her arms. She couldn't make sense of it herself. She was so drawn to this kid. The two times she had come over previously they just ended up talking. Alex couldn't even remember what it was about. It was just everything. The kid was so damn smart she just sat there and listened to her talk, taking in her facial expressions and the different tones of her voice when she got excited, encouraging her to continue at the right moments.
Last night Alex had wanted to try something different, see how Piper acted in a different environment, outside of her posh penthouse suite. She had picked Piper up and brought her to an exclusive dance club for the night out, immediately getting them inside and out of the cold. After a few drinks, beer for her and tequila shots for her date, they had wove their way to the dance floor. Immediately they began pulsing to the music with the rest of the crowd. Alex could feel Piper dancing a short distance in front of her, losing herself to the music. Damn, she's just so fucking...enticing, she remembered thinking. She wanted to pull the blonde closer to her and caress her body to the thrum of the bass. But no, she needed Piper to engage with her. She had made her move when she approached Piper in the bar two weeks ago; Alex could flirt as much as she wanted but it was ultimately Piper's move now.
The next song took Alex by surprise. It wasn't the typical style they played at this upscale type of club, but it was still one of her favorites. Not to mention it was top of the charts at the moment. She shut her eyes and lost her body to the rhythm of the song, whispering the lyrics to the parts she loved most. She felt hands grip her waist and a body suddenly pressing up against her. She brought her arms around to the front and wrapped them around her dance partner. Alex could smell Piper's perfume flooding her nose as she leaned into Piper's neck.
Completely overtaken with passion for the woman grinding up against her, she murmured seductively into her ear, "This desert rose; each of her veils, a secret promise; this desert flower; no sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this.." She placed feather light kisses along the base of her neck, "And as she turns; this way she moves in the logic of all my dreams..." Piper had turned around and was running her hands through Alex's long hair. Alex pulled her closer and trailed her fingertips up Piper's chest, resting her hand just below the swell of her breast. She locked eyes with the beautiful blonde, narrowing her gaze and smirking as she felt her grinding against her thigh. Piper pulled her face toward hers and she felt their lips crash against each other. Thata' girl. Alex deepened the kiss, finally receiving the green light she was waiting for.
She traced Piper's lips with the tip of her tongue, politely asking for entrance. She was rewarded as Piper let her in, their tongues exploring and caressing each other's mouths, teeth and lips. Alex was incredibly turned on, she just wanted to get Piper back to her place and make her cry out her name in ecstasy as she came. Over and over again. Against her hands. Into her mouth. Her skin was practically itching she wanted Piper so badly. Alex fought the cravings of her flesh and remained in place, letting this intoxicating woman grind against her body. It seemed as if they stayed like that the rest of the night: mouths fused together, bodies pressed against each other, hearts pounding with unmet desire.
Alex shook her head, snapping back to the present from the vision that had overtaken her. Her chest was burning; her lungs were constricted by the memory she had relived. She bent over in the shower attempting to breathe deeply, letting her hair fall around her face. Fuck, that kid had her by the balls since the day she met her. And damn it if she wasn't all worked up now. A little crazed, she looked around the bathroom to check that no one was there. She still had the bathroom to herself. She stepped back under the spray and surrendered herself to the memory that was slowly tearing her heart to pieces.
Reluctantly she pulled herself from the blonde's sleeping body. The kid had passed out on the bed almost immediately after they had gotten back. Alex didn't mind really; it gave her a chance to observe the blonde as she slept. Alex caressed the outline of Piper's profile with her eyes yet again. She wanted to take a shower and prepare breakfast before sleeping beauty woke up. She didn't know why, it just felt like something she should do. Alex started the shower and went to check the fridge to see what she could throw together for breakfast. It was basically stocked so she didn't worry about it too much. She made her way back to the shower, pulling off her shirt and shorts and dropping them by the edge of the bed.
The scathing water felt amazing. She closed her eyes and smiled into the spray. That upgraded water heater was SO worth it. Alex heard muted sounds coming from the bedroom. Piper must be awake, she thought, so much for breakfast in bed. She grabbed the shampoo and squeezed some into her hands, forming a thick lather before massaging it into her scalp.
The sound of the shower door opening startled her, but she didn't let it show. Her eyes still shut, Alex felt hands on her chest, pressing her back up against the cold wall. Yes. God, yes. She dropped her hands from her head and pulled Piper closer to her, winding a hand around her neck to guide Piper's mouth to her's. Their lips brushed ever so gently, Alex could feel Piper's hands stroking her sides, her back, her thighs. She brushed the pads of her hands up Piper's chest, travelling up the swell of her breast, teasing her nipple as she slowly traced her thumb across it. Alex could feel Piper's nipple hardened against her thumb. She could feel the water coursing over Piper's body, warming her skin. Alex couldn't restrain herself anymore; she bit down on Piper's lower lip as she turned around in the shower, pushing Piper up against the shower wall.
Travelling down her neck, Alex placed wet kisses on every inch of glistening flesh. She positioned her thigh in between Piper's legs, hands travelling back to the blonde's fully erect nipples. Piper let out a soft moan as Alex's hands kneaded her breasts, her mouth gently biting Piper's clavicle.
"Alex..." Piper whimpered as she thrust her hips against Alex's thigh. She felt the warmth of Piper's core against her body. Her eyelids instantly became heavy with lust. Dipping her head she gingerly took one of those perfect perky nipples into her mouth, caressing it with her tongue, earning a drawn out moan from Piper. She smiled as she rolled her tongue against the hardened bud, pinching the other between her thumb and forefinger.
"You taste.. fuck.." Alex breathed out, softly biting Piper's nipple with her teeth before providing the other with the same attention, causing Piper to inhale sharply. Alex's thigh was on fire where Piper was sliding against her; her nerve endings excited beyond reason.
She trailed kisses back up to Piper's neck, sucking at the skin just below her jaw. Her hands travelled down Piper's body, grasping her knee and pulling it around her waist. Alex massaged her way up Piper's leg, tenderly connecting with her folds. She felt the muscles in Piper's neck tense beneath her lips as she threw her head back, lost in the sensation of Alex's hand.
Alex lightly ran her middle finger between Piper's legs. "Oh Pipes.. you're so wet for me.." she murmured into Piper's neck, feeling her own center pulse with longing. She grazed her finger against Piper's clit, loving the spasm that rocked through Piper's straining body. With agonizing sluggishness she ran her finger along Piper's core, forcing the blonde to buck against her hand, craving the friction. Dipping lower, Alex barely inserted her middle finger inside Piper, teasing her entrance with the light touch.
"Please, Alex.. please touch me.." Piper exhaled. Alex was more than happy to comply. She pressed her middle finger into the panting blonde, withdrawing it only to repeat the motion. Her grin only broadened as Alex's fingers met with Piper's thrusting hips. For a moment her hand left Piper's back to direct her face toward Alex's, bringing her into a passionate kiss. She wanted the sensation of Piper moaning against her lips. Fuck, she wanted that so badly. Curling her finger inside the blonde's flesh, she gradually added her index finger and increased the tempo of her thrusting, sparking a deep moan into Alex's hungry mouth.
Carried away on her endorphins, Alex buried her fingers again and again into the thrashing Piper. She wanted more. She needed more of this woman. Her head was clouded with passion, the only coherent thought: she just needed more. Alex broke off the kiss, planting one on Piper's forehead. One on each breast. Her belly button. She knelt down slowly, lifting Piper's knee over her shoulder, trailing kisses up her inner thigh. She extracted her fingers from Piper, sucking her juices from her fingers as Piper looked down, earning a groan from the frantic woman.
Breathing deeply she inhaled the smell of Piper and let it fill her lungs. I swear she's my fucking pyrocant, thought Alex, pressing her tongue gingerly into Piper, tasting her sweet wetness. She ran her tongue along Piper's slit, paying special attention to the bundle of nerves at the end. She pressed her tongue into Piper again, igniting the nerves inside of her. She just wanted to stay here like this. This tender warmth against her lips, the all-consuming perfume of Piper's arousal filling her senses, the soft moaning stroking her eardrums.
"I..Alex..I need you.." Piper stuttered as she bucked her hips into the woman's mouth, running her hand through Alex's hair.
She smiled as she teased Piper's clit with her tongue, "Better hold on Pipes.." she said into her warm flesh. She inserted two fingers into Piper, rewarding her with Piper arching her back and spreading her legs further in an attempt to deepen her touch. Alex began withdrawing and inserting her fingers slowly, building up the tension within this fucking amazing woman, her brain finished for her. Little by little she increased the speed of her thrusting hand, flicking her tongue across Piper's clit in time with the momentum.
The tightening of the walls around Alex's fingers gave her warning to Piper's oncoming orgasm. Oh, but I'm not letting her off that easily. Her hand shot up to roll Piper's breast against her palm and she expertly added a third finger into the trembling blonde. Alex's mouth latched onto Piper's clit and sucked roughly at the engorged flesh.
"Oh god. Oh.. Alex... I'm coming. Alex I'm coming. Uuughhh.." Piper's body thrashed wildly against her as her orgasm tore through her like a wildfire, every muscle straining. Alex kept going, pumping her fingers inside of her, curling to caress her g-spot while her mouth pulled at her core. She let Piper fully ride out her orgasm, supporting her when she finally slumped into Alex's waiting arms.
"Piper.. Piip.." Alex groaned as she climaxed against her moving fingers. She opened her eyes slowly as her heartbeat decelerated, endorphins coursing through her bloodstream. The water was cold by now but she didn't care. She turned around to rinse the rest of her hair when she froze in place. Nicky was standing at one of the sinks, leaning over to spit out toothpaste from brushing her teeth. Fuck. Mother fucking piece of shit. How had she not heard her enter? You were lost in your own fucking head, Vause, she said to herself. Go ahead, tell her again how you don't want to talk about Piper. That she is "nothing" to you. Alex clenched her jaw at her own stupidity: she was livid. Why the fuck had she let herself do that?! I can't even trust my own fucking brain anymore. She just wanted an off switch for her mind. Just fucking anything. If another thought of that one inmate came up she just wanted to shut off. Fuck kicking the box back into the closet. That obviously wasn't working worth a shit anymore. Just tear the whole fucking house down. She quickly dried off and changed in the stall, grabbing her bag and leaving the moment she was dressed. She didn't look at Nicky once.
Nicky undid her towel and stepped into a shower stall. Well, that was unexpected. After more than two and a half months of her avoiding anything involving Chapman like the plague, I come in here to find her getting off crying her name. Nice Vause, very nice. She pursed her lips together. She wasn't sure if she should be pissed or not. It was blatantly obvious that Alex had shut her out now. Sure, maybe she would sit with her and make small talk for a while, but the real bullshit she was dealing with was right there. She fucking saw it. Heard it.
Now she was pissed. What the fuck did she do wrong? She took Red's advice. Gave Alex time to figure her shit out. Stayed by her side when she just wanted to sit in silence. But Vause still didn't trust her? What kind of bullshit was that? She scrubbed soap into her tangled mane of hair. Fuck it, she thought. When Vause decides she wants to trust me, she can come find me. I've got better things to do, her eyes tracing the form of Morello as she walked to a shower stall.
Author's Note: The song was by Sting - Desert Rose; I do not own any part of it. I also referenced a JR Ward term (which I also do not own), if any of you are familiar with her work. Hate it? Love it? Leave a review! Let me know how I'm doing.